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Falling Just as Hard Chapter 56
Days like this are always windy and dark, foretelling the heavy rain that is bound to follow. Just like my tears that will soon pour with little resistance on my part.It took a lot of courage on my part to seek the closure I so needed, and also to ask for his forgiveness. For not recognizing him as my father and not saving him from the monster that took him away from me.Mr. Zaverelli might be cold and long gone but the pain he caused remains with me still. It has become a part of me that I do not know how to move on from, one that I still see whenever I close my eyes.My fingers trace the name on his tombstone. Leo Daniels. I never even got the chance to call him father. I let myself cry for the memories we never made, the relationship we never had the chance to let bloom between us.Above all I mourn the good life that I could have had with a father that adored everything about me. My thoughts play back to the times he dropped me off at school and secretly helped me with homework
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For the time the noise in the classroom doesn’t faze him, only because he’s thinking of something else, of someone else. Bryan watched the phone on his desk sit there in silence, mocking him for its lack of ringing.He had contemplated so many times about along Alexis and knowing if she was back at the office. He also wanted to know if his dickhead of a boyfriend made a fuss after he left. A strong tap on the shoulder has him looking up. “Hello Ms. Tessie,” he mutters with a smile even though she’s the last person he wants to see.Red lips spread into a wide smile blink back at him. “How are you doing today honey? Didn’t know you were back from recess.”He wished he could hide under his desk just to get away from her.Don’t get him wrong, Tessie was a beauty. The blonde curls and light blue eyes did a very good job. Only problem was, she wanted him but he wanted another. “I’ve been here for a while, have a couple things to take care of before I get back to the staff room.” “Everyo
Last Updated : 2023-01-16Falling Just as Hard Chapter 58
The entire room was littered with clothes as she struggled to pack for their flight that was in an hour. Tracey wasn’t one to neglect her duties or wait till the dying minute to get ready for a journey that was about to change her life. In her defense she wasn’t herself. Her emotions were all over the place, even her fingers struggled to grasp the picture frame of her with her parents.Everything felt wrong to her, but she couldn’t talk her dad out of moving to his hometown to celebrate Christmas and possibly living there permanently.The thought alone scared her. She didn’t want to start over, she was content with reminiscing over the past, it brought her comfort and peace. But also denial. It was a little over twenty minutes when she was finally done. Pulling her little suitcase down the stairs she took a final glance at the framed family pictures lined up on the wall.Her father looked happy, his eyes never leaving her mother. There she was in the middle staring brightly at the
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I met Drew’s brother the next day when they came over for lunch. There was something weird about him, especially with the way he kept staring at me from across the table.He was nothing like Drew. Sure, they look alike but it ends there. Don’s eyes are nothing like his brother’s beautiful ones. It’s the same hazel, except Don’s are the kind that peers into your soul and unravels your deepest secret. His gaze pierced through me, making me stand up from the table.“Is the food not to your taste Carrie?” Mother asked in annoyance. I immediately picked up my cutlery and started to eat.“Why are you encouraging her to eat?” Cassie said beside me. “If anything she needs to starve if you ask me. I’m not sure she’ll be able to go through the door at this rate.” She said it all with a smile.I lowered my head so my hair could fall to the sides. It served as a wall so I wouldn’t see the look of disapproval on Drew’s face. For the first time I didn't have an appetite and the chicken breast the C
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I met Drew’s brother the next day when they came over for lunch. There was something weird about him, especially with the way he kept staring at me from across the table.He was nothing like Drew. Sure, they look alike but it ends there. Don’s eyes are nothing like his brother’s beautiful ones. It’s the same hazel, except Don’s are the kind that peers into your soul and unravels your deepest secret. His gaze pierced through me, making me stand up from the table.“Is the food not to your taste Carrie?” Mother asked in annoyance. I immediately picked up my cutlery and started to eat.“Why are you encouraging her to eat?” Cassie said beside me. “If anything she needs to starve if you ask me. I’m not sure she’ll be able to go through the door at this rate.” She said it all with a smile.I lowered my head so my hair could fall to the sides. It served as a wall so I wouldn’t see the look of disapproval on Drew’s face. For the first time I didn't have an appetite and the chicken breast the C
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My day starts in a gloomy atmosphere which is a very accurate representation of how I feel. I’d woken up in Sherlene's arms but they had not provided the comfort we had both hoped that it would.“I know you’re awake,” Comes her voice in my ear but I don’t move. I don’t even open her eyes to confirm her statement.“Sulking is not going to help any of us Olivia, so please just talk to me. I can’t help if I don’t know exactly how you’re feeling.”I exhale deeply. “No one can help me Sherlene. It might seem harsh but not even you can help me.”“That’s where you’re wrong,” she says. I feel her side of the bed dip before her warmth spreads closer to me. “No one else cares for you as much as I do. You probably don’t believe it but I’ll go to the ends of the world for you.”“Then prove it,” I say, my eyes flying open. “Prove it to me and leave!” I yell.She doesn’t deserve it but I’m too far gone into my rage to do anything about it or access the situation logically.She opens her mouth and t
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Today our one month anniversary of our therapy sessions, Jenny and I. It’s been weeks of staring at the pale cream wall of Dr. Kent’s office and hoping that Jenny will miraculously say a word.He says her muteness is as a result of the trauma she had suffered from witnessing her mother’s death. But I think it’s much more than that. To have this constant nagging at the back of my head that I’m the reason she has turned into this shadow of herself is unbearable.It’s the only reason I sit on this mint green couch every weekend and bear the constant reminder of my own guilt.It would’ve been okay if she spoke to everyone else but me. It would have been understandable. Shutting everyone out only signifies the depth of the damage done to her person.I squeeze my hands tighter on my lap and watch her side profile.The blank expression is on her face, with her mouth pulled down at the corners in an attempt of a frown.What I would do to see her smile again, too hear her speak again.“Mrs. C
Last Updated : 2023-01-22Falling Just as Hard Chapter 63
My day starts in a gloomy atmosphere which is a very accurate representation of how I feel. I’d woken up in Sherlene's arms but they had not provided the comfort we had both hoped that it would.“I know you’re awake,” Comes her voice in my ear but I don’t move. I don’t even open her eyes to confirm her statement.“Sulking is not going to help any of us Olivia, so please just talk to me. I can’t help if I don’t know exactly how you’re feeling.”I exhale deeply. “No one can help me Sherlene. It might seem harsh but not even you can help me.”“That’s where you’re wrong,” she says. I feel her side of the bed dip before her warmth spreads closer to me. “No one else cares for you as much as I do. You probably don’t believe it but I’ll go to the ends of the world for you.”“Then prove it,” I say, my eyes flying open. “Prove it to me and leave!” I yell.She doesn’t deserve it but I’m too far gone into my rage to do anything about it or access the situation logically.She opens her mouth and t
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It’s not the strong hospital smell that wakes me up or the warm hand on my cheek. But the twinge of pain that starts in my lower abdomen and spreads to my entire stomach. The first word I say is, “Jake,” followed by a sharp gasp. I hold the side of the bed tight and try to will the pain away. But the more I try to act like it’s not there, the more it eats me up from the inside out. Something warm touches my head at the same time I hear a faint voice ask, “Where are you hurt?” I’m in so much pain that I don’t jump with glee when Drew’s worried face comes into my line of sight. He’s alive but my brain is trying to process what’s wrong with me first. It’s a blood shattering battle. “The doctor-” I gasp, “Call the doctor. Oh my God Jake,” I clutch my stomach, bending over to try and ease the contraction that I’m feeling in there. My baby better be alright, he has to be. Drew removes the needles in his arm when he processes what is happening and leaves the room to get t
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I’ve been paranoid since the meeting with Father, if Drew notices he doesn’t comment on it or ask any questions. . I sigh for the tenth time since we drove out of the house. I know Drew is being patient but with the way he’s tapping his fingers against the wheel I know he’s dying to ask me what happened during the meeting. It’s not like I’m hiding it from him, I’m just waiting till I’m sure what exactly is going on with Sherp till I tell him. There are so many questions that I’m afraid of what the answers will be. The first will be if Sherp has been working for Father the whole time he knew me, which from what Father said I think is the case. Still, he could’ve easily exposed my identity from the very beginning but he didn’t. I need to know what his game is in order to access this situation properly. I mean he gave me the very explosives I used to blow up the boat, why would he do that if he was working for Father? Most importantly, why is he helping Father look fo
Falling Just as Hard Chapter 78
Skipping dinner seemed like the best thing to do when we got home. After our make out in the office, I’ve not been able to look Drew in the eye.The smile on his face hasn’t left ever since and I’m worried he thinks we’re much more than a fake couple now.I can’t deny that what happened is the only sunshine I’ve had in my life since learning that I’ll be having Jake.It’s part of the reason I’m scared to think so much about it. I’m not ready to put a name or tag on how we both feel.My only mistake was skipping out on dinner and turning in early so I wouldn’t have to talk to him. Now I’m lying down wide awake because the hunger gnawing at me won’t let me sleep.I watch the rise and fall of Drew’s chest as he sleeps before slipping out of the bed. I’m careful not to wake him on my way out, carefully navigating through the dark room.When I make it to the stairs I almost leap in joy. Food at last. I take the stairs two at a time and run to the kitchen when I’m down.I cry out in relief
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I don’t come downstairs until the doorbell rings. I’ve done a pretty good job of avoiding Jenny and now I was going to risk running into her. The entire house is quiet when I come down, she must be taking a nap. For some reason I tiptoe to the door and stifle a startle when I open the door to a rather grumpy looking Dr. Shelby. All since I’ve known him, he was always smiling, patient. There was this airiness that surrounded him, it always made you feel at ease with him. But all that is left now are deep frown lines on his face and I hate to be the reason for it. “How did you think drinking while being pregnant was a good idea?” he asks the moment he steps past the threshold. “Why keep a child you’re not going to take proper care of?” My breath seizes in my lung. With a slight tilt to my head I study his expression. His eyes are accusing as he glares at me. This right here is not Dr. Shelby. Someone has taken him and put in place this angry version that I’m not used to.
Falling Just as Hard Chapter 76
There’s a soft touch on my shoulder and I look up to see Drew’s worried eyes. He raises his brow asking if I’m okay and I nod. Daisy shakes in my arms, the sleeve of my gown stained with her tears. The meeting should go on but I also can’t leave her in this state when I’m the primary reason she has to go through this grief. “Let me take you home,” I whisper to her. The meeting can always wait, but for now I need to calm her down and make sure she’s okay so she doesn’t hurt herself. She nods into my shoulder. I turn to Drew, “Can you take over the meeting, I’ll take her home now,” I tell him. “Why? Everyone has agreed to you being the new chairman, so you have to finish up. And with Daisy we can’t risk them changing their mind” he whispers to me. I shake my head. “Her feelings right now are more important. You can explain the situation to them and have them vote now. They’ll understand why I have to leave right away,” I say. Daisy is already trembling from c
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Never did I think I’d be back here, in this soulless city that has had nothing but pain to offer me. But here I am, sitting in Drew’s passenger seat with the window down. There’s a random song playing on the radio that fills the silence dwelling between us. I’m grateful for it because after the tense conversation we had, we both needed to process our thoughts. I have to think of myself as Cassie now, I need to slowly immerse myself into her persona. Above all, I have to become her for this irrational plan of mine to work. “Aren’t you cold, the window has been down for so long,” Drew says, his attention still on the road. “Oh, I didn’t realize,” I reply. My body chooses that exact moment to shiver. I don’t miss the smile on Drew’s lips. “What were you thinking so much about?” he asks. I twist slightly to him. “You said you want nothing to do with the company…” I start. His short laugh is nervous, “Yes?” “But I have no idea how to actually run the company
Falling Just as Hard Chapter 74
Everyday that I see the sun rise is torture to my soul. Every morning that I wake up without Don by my side, tears my heart into a million pieces. I don’t know where life ends and where death starts. They’ve both become the same to me. It has made me prisoner in this dark perilous place called my mind. I sit by the window every night and wait for a dawn that never breaks, but that even is too much to ask. This is my own hell. This is my own home. There’s nothing on the news about the explosion. If I hadn’t been there myself I wouldn’t even believe that it happened. No bodies have been found. That is both my hope and my nightmare. Two long months of emptiness and guilt, that is my punishment. What if he’s really gone? What if he didn’t survive? No one could be alive and stay hidden for that long. What if he’s out there looking for me? I deflate. The chances are unlikely, especially after the way we parted. I should have held onto him a little longer, laced his f
Falling Just as Hard Chapter 73
Something was wrong, even a blind man could see it from miles away. I listened through the entire meeting but barely heard a word. They talked mostly about shares and opening another branch in some city I didn’t catch the name. My eyes shifted to the jot pad Car had left on the table, his handwriting had to be the ugliest thing in the world as I scanned over what he had written. He was my assistant, but it felt like he was more, like I should care for him. The meeting was barely over when I stood up from the meeting and left. I went straight to the restroom, sure that a clue to whatever was wrong with him would be there. I went straight to the waste bin that was at the far end of the restroom. Lying at the bottom was a rumpled toilet paper that was stained with blood, and lots of it. There was a sudden panic as I closed the lid, there was something going on with him but what if it was something that wasn’t entirely my business. It was clear he was sick, but sick w
Falling Just as Hard Chapter 72
His lips. They tormented me more than my father. The things I had felt in those few seconds always rattled my heart and made butterflies flutter in my stomach. But then I always remembered, his panic-stricken face after and the fact that he hated me, just like they all did. “I’m sorry” I said as I detangled myself from him and stood straighter, adjusting my tie in the process. He said nothing. He didn’t even acknowledge the fall or the awkward moment his arms had been wrapped around me. Maybe he did this often, letting his male personal assistants fall into his arms. It hit me then! A scandal, Don involved with his male assistant, a gay relationship. It would ruin a respectable family like his. The doors dinged when we got to the ground floor. I walked after him making sure to put a decent space between us. I’ll rather fall on my butt than into his hands again. A black sleek limousine was already waiting when we got out of the building, the other staff glaring daggers a
