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CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

Author: Joy Joshua
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OLIVIA

I can’t get all the moans I hear last night out of my head.

No matter how hard I try to push them away they’re persistent, creeping into my ears that I tried to cover with a pillow.

No even cotton puds in my ear could do the trick. I was left all night listening to those tormenting sounds until they became my nightmare.

I cried at some point, hoping that my sob would drown out their voices. I think at some point he heard me because the squeaking of the bed stopped and their was silence.

I held my breath, waiting for him to realize what he has done and come back to me after sending those girls away.

That didn’t happen. Of course he wasn’t coming back to me, just like my parents left me and never came back.

Maybe there was something about me that repelled people and kept them away from me.

They kept at it all night long which explains the bags under my eye when morning finally comes.

I have to get out of here before this room suffocates what remains of me. I put on my work out at
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