40 — A little problem

From the moment I saw that message, it's like everything around me passed by in slow motion. Julian came out of the shower, brought us breakfast… And we went back to the apartment. Each to his own.

I didn't have the courage to say anything about it, and Julian didn't seem bothered by the message on the screen either… It seemed so natural, so unimportant. And maybe it is… But why do I feel so sad? It's like my chest is tight.

I've been staring at the ceiling for hours. If I close my eyes, the scenes of our passionate night will return in my mind, and they have been disturbing me as much as Cathy's message. It was so good that it's dangerous. In fact, I have found that I have a taste for danger… for the adrenaline rush that Julian arouses in me.

But the price for that feeling is strong as a punch in the stomach.

I turn around, hugging my body, so cold without Julian's warmth.

The loneliness of this apartment is simply suffocating.

Ring — I hear a ringtone and get up abruptly, my heart b