I woke up earlier than usual the next morning. I immediately got up to wash up and brush my teeth before I went downstairs. Nagugutom na 'ko kaya dumiretso ako sa kitchen ng bahay nila Jam.
"Gising ka na pala, Zeph." Sambit ni Jam nang makita niya ako. Siya pala ang naghahanda ng agahan namin. Nasa garden siguro si Nana. "Yeah." I said, yawning. "Obviously." "It's too early for you to be grumpy." She told me before handing me a glass of hot chocolate. There were mallows, just exactly how I want my morning drink to be. "Thanks, Jam." I sat down on the chair. Nakatulala lang ako sa kisame habang uniinom ng hot chocolate. Ganito talaga ako kapag bagong gising, tutulala muna bago magising nang tuluyan ang diwa. "I'll help Nana to clean up the house," I told Jam who was busy scrambling some eggs for breakfast. She raised her brow at me. "Sure ka?" Tinaasan ko rin siya ng kilay. "Why? You don't think I can do it?" She shrugged. "Mayaman kayo, eh. Malay ko bang may alam kang gawaing bahay?" I rolled my eyes. "I was offended." Tinawanan lang niya ako. "Pero kung gusto mo naman, sige lang. Tutulong din naman ako. Si Ate Zaf naman, susunduin pa daw ang mga friends niya." My forehead knotted. "Nandito ang friends ni Ate Zaf?" Tiningnan ako ni Jam. "Hindi mo ba alam? Nagbakasyon din dito sa Cebu ang mga kaibigan niya." Umiling ako. "Nope. Wala naman siyang sinabi sa akin." "Talaga? Nagpaalam pa nga siya kay Mama kagabi kung pwede ba raw bumisita dito ang mga friends niya." "So? Did Nana agreed?" I asked. "Syempre, papayag talaga si Mama. Alangan namang hindi? Friends 'yon ni Ate Zaf." "Well... true naman." Iyon lamang ang sinabi ko at tumayo na. I decided to just the glass I used. "Gusto mo pa ba ng cereals?" Jam then asked and so, I nodded. Jam knew that I usually eat cereals mixed with yogurt and fruits so I wasn't that surprised when she handed me the bowl full of it. Kuminang agad ang mga mata ko nang makita ito. "Malamig na 'yan. Nilagay ko sa fridge kanina. Alam ko kasing ganyan ang kinakain mo palagi." Jam told me. "Kumain ka na dyan, Your Highness." Nagtawanan kami. "Thank you, Jammy." I gave her a soft smile. She's the sweetest friend ever. She always looks after me. "Kalma, Zeph. Ako lang 'to." Sambit niya na may tonong pagkamayabang kaya naman ay natawa ulit kaming dalawa. She's so funny talaga. "By the way, umalis na ba si Ate Zaf?" Tanong ko sabay tingin sa relo ko. It's still 8 am pa naman. "Ay, tulog ka pa, nakaalis na siya. Maaga kasi iyong nagising at nagpaalam na mag-jogging daw muna siya sa labas bago gumayak upang sunduin ang mga kaibigan niya. Mamayang tanghali pa rin naman siguro darating ang mga 'yon." Sagot ni Jam while she was frying the eggs. I pouted. "Sana sumama na lang ako sa kanya." "Saan?" "Jogging." "Ahh, same. Ilang weeks na rin kaya akong hindi nakakapag-exercise." "Ngayon lang ako hindi nakapag-workout. The gym is so layo kasi dito!" I ranted. "Sus! Don't worry, hindi naman tayo tataba. Healthy foods din naman ang niluluto ni Mama usually." "Sabagay... I will just help you out." Jam was busy with the fried rice and scrambled eggs. Meanwhile, I volunteered to thaw the sausages. Habang naghahanda kami ng aming breakfast, nagkukuwentuhan lang kami ni Jam about sa studies namin. She talks a lot about her school and her friends. She's smiling while telling me some funny stories about her life as a student here in Cebu. Natatawa rin ako sa mga kwento niya kasi nai-imagine ko talaga na ginagawa niya ang isang kalokohan. She's so kulit and funny! "Kapag ako nakatapos na sa college at nakapag-work, pupunta talaga ako kaagad sa South Korea." Sabi pa niya. Her eyes sparkled as she utter those words. Parang determined talaga siya na puntahan ang country na 'yon one of these days. "Wow, dream country mo?" I asked of her. She nodded enthusiastically. "Yes! Super dream ko talagang makapunta sa South Korea!" "Hmm, I see. At bakit naman South Korea ang una mong pupuntahan soon?" Tanong ko ulit. "Kasi gusto kong maranasan ang maglakad-lakad sa daan tuwing winter season! Gusto ko kasi talagang makakita at makahawak ng snow sa personal." Kumikinang pa lalo ang mga mata niya habang nagsasalita siya. It might be just a simple reason to other people, but for those who were not born in a country with four seasons, malaking bagay na ang makakita at makahawak ng snow kahit once in a lifetime man lang. It is indeed a dream. Napangiti ako dahil may naalala ako. "Talaga? Fall season no'ng huling punta namin doon, eh. Sobrang ganda talaga doon. "Maganda nga rin daw doon tuwing fall at spring season pero mas gusto ko talaga kapag winter season. Christmas din kasi 'yon. Kaya super saya talaga, for sure." Sabi pa niya. Tumango ako. "I feel the same. I want to go ice skiing during winter season. Na-miss ko tuloy 'yong una naming punta sa South Korea. Sakto at winter season noon. We enjoyed ice skiing! It was my first time pero nakakatuwa kapag nasanay ka na." Pagkukuwento ko pa sa kanya. "Wow. Mas na-excite tuloy ako dahil sa mga kwento mo, Zeph!" I smiled at her. "Nakakatuwang pumunta sa ibang countries, Jam. You will meet different people with various personalities, cultures and traditions. Maninibago ka sa environment pero you will eventually learn how to adapt to the changes of the temperature and seasons as well as sa culture nila." "Buti ka pa marami nang napuntahang foreign countries! Ako... hanggang China lang talaga." She pouted. "Oh, so you went with Nana to China?" I asked her, amused. I didn't know about it! "Oo. Sa China... town." Humagalpak si Jam ng tawa samantalang napairap na lang ako. Kahit kailan talaga itong si Jam, eh! "That was such a corny joke." I told her. Jam laughed at me. "Seryoso kasi ng mukha mo! Wala nga kaming enough na pera ni Mama para mag-travel dito lang sa Pilipinas. Paano pa sa ibang country?" "True naman." "Kaya sisipagan ko talaga para makapag-travel na kami ni Mama sa maraming bansa!" I can't blame her though. South Korea is such a beautiful country. You won't regret it kapag nagpunta ka doon with your family and friends. It's a great place where you can create more fond memories with them. We had scrambled eggs, sausages and pancakes for breakfast. I am already full dahil nga kumain na ako ng cereals at uminom ng hot chocolate pero gusto ko ring kumain ng pancake kaya walang makakapigil sa 'kin. Food is life. Kahit na feeling ko nananaba na ako dito sa probinsiya. I volunteered to wash the dishes pagkatapos naming kumain. They don't trust me enough when it comes to washing dishes because I am clumsy and I've broken many kitchen items before already. But I insisted, so they have no choice. Marunong na kaya ako ngayon! "Huwag mo lang talaga basagin ang mga plato namin, Zephyrine. Ipapakain kita sa leon kapag nakabasag ka!" Pananakot ni Jam sa akin pero tinawanan ko lang siya. I've improved my dishwashing skills na kaya. Jam and Nana were already cleaning up the house when I finished washing all the dishes. Umalis na rin si Ate Zaf para sunduin ang mga kaibigan niya. Hindi ko alam kung sino sa mga kaibigan niya ang pupunta dito pero kailangan kong mag-ready para maayos akong tingnan mamaya kapag nakaharap ko sila. "Okay ka lang ba diyan, anak?" Tanong ni Nana sa akin habang nagpupunas ako ng mga bintana sa living room nila. Tapos na ako magwalis sa loob ng bahay kaya ay magpupunas naman ako ng mga bintana. Ngumiti ako kay Nana. "Yes naman po!" I even showed her a thumbs-up. Tumango si Nana. "Mabuti naman kung gano'n. Basta mag-ingat ka lang, ah. Hindi ka pa naman sanay sa mgq gawaing-bahay." Bilin pa niya bago ako iniwan sa sala. Nakatungtong kasi ako sa hagdan para maabot ko ang bintana. Mahirap talaga kapag kinulang tayo sa height, eh. Nahihirapan ako, actually, pero nakakahiya kung nakaupo lang ako habang sina Nana busy sa paglilinis. I was even humming while wiping the windows. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam kapag pinagpapawisan ka habang naglilinis. It was another form of exercising. Kaya para na ring I was hitting two birds with one stone, right? "Hi! Nandito na ako!" Narinig ko ang boses ni Ate Zaf mula sa labasan. I was about to go down nang marinig kong bumukas na rin ang front door kasi nag-panic ako, feeling ko ang dugyot ko tingnan. Pero namali ako ng tapak sa hagdan! At sa sahig talaga ang bagsak ko! Napapikit na lang ako dahil kinakabahan talaga ako. Baka mabagok ang ulo ko at mawalan ng malay. Ito na talaga ang sinasabi ni Jam, eh. Hindi bagay sa akin ang mga ganitong gawain lalo na at careless pa naman ako. Pinagsabihan na akong mag-ingat pero nagtatangahan pa rin! "Omg, Erin!" I heard my sister's voice but I don't have the guts to open my eyes. I am just so... scared. Tinawag ko na yata ang lahat ng santo upang ipagdasal ako para hindi ako mabalian ng buto o mabagok ang ulo. Baka sa emergency room ang punta ko. It's been minutes since I've been shutting my eyes off. Pero hindi ako nakaramdam ng sakit sa katawan ko. Parang hindi rin ako bumagsak sa sahig. But I can feel an arm wrapping around me... "Open your eyes now, lady." An oddly familiar voice made my eyes open wide. A pair of brown and sparkling orbs welcomed mine. "Y-you?! What are you doing here? How did you even get here? Magnanakaw ka, 'no?" I yelled at the man na buhat ako. "Put me down, you asshole!" "Erin, bakit mo sinisigawan ang bisita natin?" Tanong ni Ate Zaf. Inis kong inayos ang buhok at damit ko nang maibaba na ako ng lalaking sumalo sa akin. "Hindi mo ba siya kilala, Ate? And what do you mean bisita natin? He's not my friend so I won't invite him to our house!" "This isn't your house... right?" Nagsalita pa ang g*go at ngumisi. He's annoying! "Shut up!" I told him aggressively. They were all looking at me. Napatingin na rin sa akin ang mga kaibigan ni Ate na parang hinuhusgahan ang buong pagkatao ko. "Where's your anger coming from, Erin?" My sister raised her brow at me. "He's our visitor. Sinalo ka pa nga niya no'ng muntik ka nang mahulog. You should've thank him!" "You seriously don't know him, Ate?!" "Of course, I do! He's my friend's cousin, Erin." Mariing sabi ni Ate sa akin. Napaawang naman ang bibig ko. I can't believe this is happening!Everything hasn't sunk in my mind yet! How come the asshole who spilt the mango shake on my dress is the cousin of my sister's friend? Bakit ba ako pinaglalaruan ng tadhana? "Erin, do you know my cousin? May something ba between the two of you? Or may nagawa siyang mali sa 'yo?" Mahinahong tanong ng kaibigan ni Ate Zaf na si Jarie. I tried my best to flash her a smile. "No! I don't know him po, Ate Jarie. And there's nothing between us! We're strangers po..." I lied. "You don't know him but you're acting like that? Sinalo ka na nga niya mula sa pagkahulog mo sa hagdan tapos ganyan ang approach mo sa kanya? Kung hinayaan ka lang niyang mahulog edi sana nasa hospital ka na ngayon. Umayos ka kaya, Zephyrine." Halatang naiinis na sa akin si Ate Zaf. I bit my lower lip. "I-I'm sorry." Then I immediately left the room. Anong kahihiyan na naman 'yon?! Parang pinapalabas pa ng lalaking 'yon na ako ang may kasalanan dito! I thought I will never see him again but what did just happen? Ba
While we were both acting oblivious, everyone was looking at me and Ethan. I aggressively bit my nails, a habit of mine whenever I'm nervous and embarrassed. "Pag-usapan nga natin 'to." It was Kuya Jude. They're now examining our facial expressions and, our actions—as if we were some criminals under scrutiny. Grabe ba! Nag-isip pa ako ng sasabihin sa kanila kanina, in case tatanungin nila kung bakit kami magkasama at kung bakit kami nakita ni Ate Wry sa kitchen na magkahalikan kahit hindi naman! Sure ako na nagtanong sila kung bakit hindi kami sumunod agad kay Ate Wry. Well, we have our reasons. And for the record, hindi kami nag-kiss ng gagong katabi ko. "Wry saw the two of you kissing inside the kitchen. God... Hindi n'yo na ginalang ang kusina nila Jam at Nana?" My sister looked at me. She is overreacting as usual. "Kalmahan mo muna, Zaf." Ate Zelle tried to stop my sister from lashing out. My sister is getting hysterical. Para naman kasing tanga itong si Ate Wry. Hindi niya
I asked permission from my sister that I'll go out to buy some snacks. I've been eating the same foods since the day I arrived here in Cebu. And I also wanted to breathe some fresh air outside. Nabo-bored na ako sa loob ng bahay nina Jam. I don't know if when are we going out to stroll around the city."You're not going out, Zephyrine." My sister said firmly while typing something on her laptop.Tumaas ang kilay ko. "But why? Hindi naman ako magtatagal sa labas, Ate. Tungkol na naman ba 'to sa age ko? My god, I'm already eighteen! Hindi na ako bata.""Mapapagalitan tayong dalawa nina Dad and Mom kapag nalaman nila ang ginawa mong paglabas ng bahay mag-isa. Gusto mo ba 'yon?" She asked back.I rolled my eyes. "Edi magalit na sila kung magalit. I don't care.""Zephyrine! Anong malay natin kung pinapasundan ba tayo ng mga tao nina Daddy at
Ethan walked me home. Kahit na sinabi kong hindi na kailangan, since I'm already inside the village. I know I'm safe in here. But he insisted. His reason was that his cousin, Ate Jarie, had a house here just a few blocks away at doon siya tumutuloy. I have no strength to argue with him so I just let him. Hindi kami nag-uusap habang naglalakad pauwi. Hindi kami close pero hindi ko siya sinusungitan. He saved me twice and that's enough to treat him casually. When I got home, Nana was watering the plants in their front yard and she saw Ethan with me kaya inaya niya ito para sumabay na rin sa aming magmeryenda. Ayaw pa sana nito pero pinilit talaga ni Nana. Magkatabi pa kami habang kumakain ng leche flan at fruit salad. Pero hindi kami nag-uusap kasi nga ang awkward! Tinanong nila kung bakit ang tagal ko raw sa labas kaya kwinento ko sa kanila ang lahat ng nangyari. "Ay naku! Ba
Ate Jarie rented five hotel rooms for us to stay in! Kuya Jude also ordered a lot of foods and drinks para mamaya. Ate Jarie told us to not worry about the bills anymore dahil sagot na niya lahat. "Mag-ambagan dapat tayo, guys." Ate Zaf suggested. "Come on, Zafie. It's alright. Ako naman talaga nag-aya sa inyo na mag-beach. You just have to relax and enjoy the moment." Ate Jarie said with a smile while hugging my sister. Out of all my sister's friends, I like Ate Jarie the most. She's very nice and sweet. Not to mention na galante rin siya sa pera. I like her presence, too. "It's settled already, okay! Don't worry sa babayaran dahil sagot ko na lahat. Magbihis muna kaso saka tayo mag-swimming. Enjoy yourselves, guys." Ate Jarie said. We went to our respective rooms to change our clothes. Mabilis lang akong nagbihis dahil simpleng swimwear l
I felt the need to avoid Ethan and ignore him. It's not an easy thing to do since mapilit at makulit talaga siyang tao. Pero tuwing naalala ko ang sinabi ni Jam sa akin, nag-iinit ang ulo ko sa kanya. Mas lalo akong naiinis sa presence niya at ni Ate Wry. But I have to get along with them, kahit in a very casual way na lang.Mas lalo man akong hindi naging kumportable kasama sina Ate Wry at Ethan, hindi ako pwedeng magpadala na naman ng emosyon ko. Ayokong gumawa ng gulo dahil nandito kami upang mag-enjoy. Mahirap man makisama sa kanila tuwing kumakain kami o nagtitipon-tipon, kailangan ko 'yong gawin dahil baka maghihinala ang mga kaibigan ni Ate. For now, gusto ko na lang matapos ang beach vacation na 'to. I'm not enjoying it, anyway."Erin, do you want to grab some coffee or something?" Ethan asked me out of the blue.Nasa kwarto kami nina Ate Zelle dahil nag-aya si Ate Kyla na manood ng movies. I can't sa
I was sitting alone in the beachside while watching the sun setting down. I distracted myself by throwing some pebbles back to the sea. A lot of things are bothering me. I have a lot of thoughts — both negative and positive, in my mind. "The sunset is so beautiful." Napatingala ako nang may magsalita sa likuran ko. It's Ethan. Siya na naman. Ang hilig niya talagang sirain ang moment at mood ko. "Yeah, it is." I uttered while staring at the most beautiful scenery in front of me — the sunset. "But you're more beautiful..." He whispered na nagpatindig ng mga balahibo ko at nagpalakas sa tibok ng puso ko. It was a soft whisper but I heard it clearly. Mariin akong napapikit at napakagat sa labi ko. Is he trying to flirt with me? Baka mamaya, assumera lang pala ako.
Everyone's stunned after hearing Wry's confession that she's Ethan's girlfriend. Walang nagsasalita sa aming lahat. Nabalot ng katahimikan ang table namin.I'm pretty sure we're all shocked sa narinig namin. Pero nasa ibang lebel ang nararamdaman ko ngayon."What the f*ck." Isang malutong na mura ang bumasag sa katahimikan.Napalingon kaming lahat kay Kuya Steve na nagpabalik balik ang tingin kay Wry at Ethan."For f*ck's sake, you're older than him, Wry! Pumatol ka sa mas bata sa 'yo? At sa pinsan pa ng kaibigan mo?!" Hindi makapaniwalang singhal niya."Age doesn't matter, Steve. You know that." Ate Wry nonchalantly uttered.The girls gasped. Kuya Jude looked so confused. Well who wouldn't be? Nalilito ako. Hindi kaya noon pa lang, may relasyon na silang dalawa? But they kept it from us to avoid complications? Ano ba talag
The first time he saw her, he only thought that she was not even his type. Maarte, isip-bata, at mataray—all of these traits were just so far from his liking. Yet, here he is, looking at her with nothing but admiration and love, reflecting on the journey they've taken together. Ethan stood by the window, watching Zephyrine in the garden. The sun cast a golden glow over her, highlighting her hair as she tended to the flowers. He marvelled at how far they had come, both individually and together. He thought back to when he was just a playboy, flitting from one girl to another without a care. Meeting Zephyrine had changed everything. "Ethan," Zephyrine called out, breaking his reverie. "Are you just going to stand there and watch, or are you going to help me with these flowers?" Ethan smiled, walking over to join her. "Can't a man admire his beautiful wife in peace?" Zephyrine laughed, a sound that always filled Ethan with warmth. "You can, but I'd prefer if you also helped me pla
After the reconciliation with my sister, I called our parents to come over. I did not expect them to come right away. But they really did. Nagulat na lang ako na wala pang isang oras ay nakarating na sila sa rest house na kung saan kasalukuyang tumutuloy si Aye Zafie. Mom was hysterically sobbing as she tightly hugged Ate Zafie, apologizing for her shortcomings all over again. Dad was silently watching them but I know better. He's breaking down deep inside but he just wouldn't show it off.They were both worried for my sister. We all are. My heart tugged at the sight of them embracing one another as I stood from afar. I couldn't help but break into a small smile as I watch my little family slowly getting back together. I've longed for this ever since. Despite all the issues, the disappointments, the hatred, and the betrayals... I've always found my way to them. I've learned how to forgive my parents especially my mother who had made my teenage life worse than it could have been. T
I guess love can actually drive us insane. It's terrifiying at most times. I could attest that."She's still not answering her phone?" Ethan asked while driving the car to the cafe where my sister frequent. At least that's what her friends told me over the phone a while back.I puckered my lips as I shook my head. I also couldn't help but let out a heavy sigh. It's been hours since my sister went missing in action. And we still couldn't track her. Pero hindi naman ako susuko sa paghahanap sa kanya. Kaya lang ay pagod na talaga ako sa ngayon. I felt like my body's about to give up any moment from now, but I didn't make it obvious to Ethan. Alam kong pagod na rin siya. The least I could do is to not stress him out more. Kahit na hindi ako sure kung anong ginagawa ko ngayon. Kasi sa totoo lang, hindi naman na dapat nandito si Ethan. This has nothing to do with him. And yet he's here—to help me find my sister. I heard him heave a deep breath as well. He then carefully pulled over near a
"That wasn't your fault, okay? It was mine. I'm sorry." Ethan said repeatedly even if he didn't need to. "Let's stop putting the blame on ourselves, please. And stop apologizing. We just slept—that's all. Mom was just overreacting. Didn't know she had that attitude." Napailing na lang ako.Seriously? Siya talaga magdidikta sa aming dalawa na gawin nang official ang relasyon namin ni Ethan? That sounded so weird for me."Still... ako ang lalaki. I should've known that it would put you in the bad side."I rolled my eyes. "Duh? As if sleeping together is that big of a deal. We didn't even kiss. Inaantok na nga tayo pareho kagabi. OA talaga ng mom ko, for real. Don't worry about it that much. We won't rush things the way she wanted us to."He let out a deep sigh before nodding. He looked so stressed out about what happened. Mom's pressuring him, too. I wasn't mad at her, I was just pissed. Kaya nga kami umalis agad after breakfast. I didn't want to hear mom's opinions about Ethan and I an
"Love-" I was about to say something to Ethan but stopped when I realized what I just said. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang lumingon si Ethan sa 'kin. And his eyes widened as well. Of course, we're both shocked! He obviously heard what I just called him. Magkatabi lang naman kaming dalawa. Umawang ang labi nito at nagtatanong ang mga mata. "Did... did you just call me 'love'?" He asked, amused. I bit my lower lip. I didn't know what to say again! Pasmado talaga ang bibig ko at kung anu ano na lang ang lumalabas mula dito! Palaging nadudulas, eh. "I mean-" Umiwas ako ng tingin nang mapansing sumeryoso ang mukha nito. I'm never ready to talk about 'this' yet. Para akong kakapusan ng hininga kapag pag-uusapan namin ang relasyon namin or whatever. Kasi alam ko na kung saan 'to patungo, eh! As I said, I don't want to commit myself to Ethan for now. And I don't to disappoint or hurt him in any way. "Alam mo bang ilang beses ko nang pinangarap na tawagin mo rin ako ng ganoon, Zephyrine?"
"Are you feeling better now?" Ethan asked me, but I didn't look at him. Namamanhid ang labi ko nang dahil sa kanya! "Hey. I'm sorry. I was just tempted to kiss you." I groaned. "Ugh. Can you please just shut up? Masyado ka nang nakadagdag sa problema ko sa buhay." "I'm sorry, okay? I just wanted you to feel better through my kisses." Tingnan mo nga 'to at binibiro na naman ako! "Tumahimik ka na lang, please. Tama na kaka-mention tungkol sa kiss na 'yan!" Naiirita kong sambit. At tawang tawa naman si gago. Ang sarap talaga nitong suntukin, eh. Hindi ko na ulit pa pinakinggan ang mga pinagsasabi niyang hindi magandang pakinggan para sa 'kin. Mahawaan pa ako sa kaharutan niya. "Hoy. Kung gusto mo talaga ako, samahan mo nga ako sa loob ng house nila mommy." Paghahamon ko sa kanya. I thought he was going to say no but he immediately offered his hand to me. "Take my hand and hold on to it tightly. I'll always be by your side, no matter what happens." I rolled my eyes after hearing
"Hey, you can do this." Ethan told me as he gently hold my hand. We were in front of my parents' house and I am feeling a little nervous to get inside. Actually, halo halo ang emosyon ko ngayon. A part of me hated the fact that my parents were not really caring and nice to me ever since. They were blinded by their fame. They enjoyed their spot under the limelight. They caused me both emotional and mental damages. I could feel anger boiling up in my heart again just by thinking every cruel thing my parents put me in, so I tried to execute the breathing exercises for me to calm down. I can't be like this right now. I needed to get things done. I needed to fight against my own monsters. "Masama ba ang pakiramdam mo? Let's just go back when you're ready to face them again, Erin. You need to compose yourself first, okay? Please don't push yourself too hard. May nakalaang oras para sa lahat ng bagay. There's no need to rush." Ethan tried to make me feel better with all tho
"Hey, I'll just buy something downstairs." I told Ivory who's now busy with the report that she had to do as the president of the student council. "You sure you're okay to go out alone?" She asked. "I'm a hundred percent sure." "Okay." She replied with a nod. Her eyes didn't leave the screen of her computer. "Wala kang ipapabili?" Tanong ko. "Nothing. Just be safe. Diyan ka lang sa baba, ah." I nodded and made my to the convenience store. When I was inside the elevator, I had a hard time composing myself. Ang daming tao sa loob, siksikan pa. I almost couldn't breath, not only because it was crowded inside but because I was triggered by that traumatic memory I had in Cebu when I went out alone.This is so tiresome. Lagi na lang ganito nararamdaman ko every time I try to do my usual routine alone. I am already breathing heavily and was about to get back to the unit dahil sa takot kong baka maulit na naman '
I was waiting for Axi and Ivory to come back from the lavatory. I was so hungry that I didn't mind going there with them. Besides, I have a feeling that I am already starting to hate going to lavatories, rest rooms or comfort rooms because of Ethan and Wry. So, I just minded my own business and ate lunch since I am really hungry. As in, for real nagugutom na talaga ako. Ang dami ko ngang biniling pagkain, eh! I don't eat a lot but whenever I'm stressed out, I would unintentionally eat a little bit more. I already had two cups of rice and two pieces of fried chicken. I felt so full but still had a can of a carbonated drink. I also am planning on buying hash browns. "I know you're here." A familiar voice spoke that I almost spit out my drink. What the heck?! I had a sudden mix of emotions inside and I hated it. I don't want to be in my whirlpool of thoughts and become vulnerable again. Hindi na ako magiging marupok, I promised that to myself. And I will protect