Ask for Forgiveness

SHADRACH’S POV…

“What? You mean Michael raped you before you guys started as boyfriends?” Ben shouted staring at me with a surprised face. I sighed deeply and adjusted myself on the bed we were sitting together. “Yes Ben, he actually raped me a couple of times before I started enjoying the act. It reached to a point where I gave in myself to him because I enjoyed the torture. I enjoyed it when he tied me and whipped me while having sex. I enjoyed it when he dominates me and makes me his slave. I actually enjoyed every bit of it, Ben.” I said looking at him.

He was totally confused as he stared at me. He became speechless for a while. “That was sexual abuse Shadrach. And because you were probably afraid, you couldn’t let it out. I don’t think you are in love with Michael, you are just addicted to the torture, you are just addicted to the hardship he inflicts on you during the sex and that is the reason you feel like you loved him.” He said looking at me. He moved closer and holds my ha