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STOLEN DANCE
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2020-07-31 18:39:12MATEO
I’m high out of my mind. It’s a good kind – borderline euphoric where everything seems funny and unimportant now. A distant concern. I take another hit, leaning against the wall and staring up at the ceiling from my place on the floor. I barely react when my door swings open, hardly registering the boy tiptoeing down my stairs at midnight.
“You could knock, you know,” is all I say as Kieran stares at me. Or maybe I just think it. I don’t know, nor do I care.
Kieran looks at me with those furrowed eyebrows of his as he walks over. It seems like he’s moving throu
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