I was sitting in the room with Rick and Lia, talking about everything I have done for the last four years in New York. My experience, which were good, the fun I had with Ryan all the time, the number of friends I made and how funny things we have achieved with each other, everything telling them, while they laughed with holding tightly on their stomach. It was already evening frok afternoon and there was still tons of things that were still needed to be told.
I was feeling as if after years I am able to talk so much. That I felt I really needed a stabler to stitch my lips together. It was annoying I am sure for the front person but for me this was so wholesome. I was really happy. And I was enjoying my time with them dearly.
Gosh! I did they I didn't needed them when I arrived here, but after all it was all just a lie. I don't think I can live without them, I can survive but not live. They are my world. My only family.
"What abo
ROSEANNAI walked out side of the room, after running away like that last night and looked at the empty hallway. I am not hiding or trying to hide myself from his sight. I have full rights on my lips and my body, and I can do whatever I want with it. And about being rude? He have always been more then I have, right?So no apology for my behaviour.I wondered and started to walk in the hallway, when I saw him in front of me, out from his study. He stared at me, blankly. When I too did the same, "I hoped for sleeping in same bed last night?" He never talks like that, though he did. Making me little surprise."Well, that didn't happen? I guess?" I asked and informed, not sure on what I was talking about. When he just exhaled, getting not so happy, to say. "Why didn't you ran away, last night?" He asked me out of blue! Okay! I should be well prepared with an answer for this, since I knew this will come out, but I am not sure how to
ROSEANNAI did came out of the door, closing it behind me, trying to hold back on my tears which I don't even know why are clouding up? It's okay! It's okay! Roseanna. Do you remember your words in the car? No matter what happened after that? We fought again and got distance, so it's just right and makes more sense that he is trying to get himself a girl! Don't be hurt or bothered by it. It's you who gave him the permission. It's you, who needs to talk with head and mind, calming them down. That you don't feel anything about it. I thought to myself and reelaced on the wall beside his door. She was the not the woman I saw when I came back from New York. It was someone else. Someone New.I was just convincing myself as a tear rolled down my eyes, making me feel really pathetic. Shut it up Roseanna! Shut it the fuck up!I told. Myself. And looked up, but heard the door opening beside me.Oh fuck!I need to be away r
ROSEANNNAI can hear the gasp around me as soon as he kept his lips on me. While the batteries in my head died, and stopped working too. What is happening? What the fuck is he doing? His eyes was closed but mine was open, and the next minute a huge punch landed on the face of person in front of me? What the heck?He fell down, leaving me and my hand, while I watched Kashton getting the grip of Noah's collar. He bought there faces together, aggressively. While for me i was just at shock still. "How can you? How can you!?" I heard him screaming as he punched Noah again, but now all the brothers came and caught him. Before Kashton could punch hin again. He looked at my face and then back at him. "Your wife! Is just a showpiece for you. Let me cherish her?" Noah gritted, licking the blood dripping from his lips."She is my wife! Why will she ever go to you? And why will I give her to you!? You made a huge mistake
ROSEANNA"She is going with me," I heard the familiar voice ringing behind the person. As I handed dmy head sidewards a little to look at Noah standing with a smile, and his causal clothes rather then his suits. His smile was slightly twitched sideways like always, I wonder if I have ever seen him not smiling like that? He is always looking like he is smirking!I wondered, as he started to take steps closer, "Will you?" He asked me, and looked at the driver, I turned to see the face of driver finding him confused and scared, as he backed off."Come on!" He said and extended his hand towards me, for me to take it. But Nah! I am good. I crossed him, ignoring his hands when he chuckled behind me, "Did you saw the gift I gave you last night?"His first question came, when I went over towards his car." Nope! I'm sure dust bin indeed had." I lied, trying to act cool and sarcastic and that his words and his act
CHAPTER 45. FIRST LOOKLooking at the person in front if me made me go slow, Kashton standing in his suit beside grandma, sharing our first look before marriage already. Me in my wedding gown. Him staring at me, with his jaw dropped till ground, his revealing that how much he was loving staring at me like this. Not blinking at all. He was just staring. As if he is planning to dig hole in me through his gaze.I turned to see grandma, who too stood up, Noah with his mouth wide open, "You are looking amazing! Damn!" Noah screamed, and laughed grandma walking over towards me, and taking a round around me, looking at the overall dress. "Looks perfect!" She commented after a while as she gestured to one of attendant to give out this one too, suggesting some more fitting towards the bust, "Grandma! It's already tight!" I asked her when she made a no from her head, "Not enough. You should show what you have good."That was very bad!I thought to
ROSEANNA I didnt revolt for asked back, any questions the situation dint looked that right for me to act out, so I just nodded and left them alone. He have complications in his life related to family too. Is there people out there who have everything just perfect? Taht everything is just so perfect in the family? I don't believe! Because there is not one person I have seen in my life who isn't struggling to get through things. Not one! Family is a weird concept, sometimes I think what uf there have been no string something called like family? Will we all just won't care and move our own world? We'll that would have been really pathetic. And I can't even think of something like that. I went inside my room, the gift boxes still on the bed, I ignored them, and went under my covers, because the cold wearther around me, was kinda making me lazy. I go
ROSEANNAI pushed him, because I can't take this anymore, maybe he is a sweet guy, and did things for me that no one has ever did,Ike taking me out to dinner or play, I still somewhat feel off inside, this is not how it suppose to feel like, I am thinking about everything related to him, or maybe my body is here, and my brain lost and unknown. Its kind of empty.NO I don't mean, that I have something or feeling it for Kashton, he was no good to me either, but somewhat a sad truth is that I never felt empty like this with him. Either I was confused, furious or happy, I never ever was, empty.And honestly, I haven't felt a single thing in all the while I am with this man, how can I just kiss him and mark his victory? What if this is all his trap just to piss Kashton off? I am well aware on how nice and good of a family Kashton have. So it's stupid to hope for anything right. "What the fuck?" He again, yelled at
ROSEANNA"What do you mean?" I again asked but before he could respond, the door opened and Kashton walked inside with teary eyes, as he saw me up to down, the nurse behind him telling him not to break rules but dare he cares? About anything. "What happened?" He asked her and then looked at the other way to Noah."What the fuck did you do with her?!" He loudly yelled at him and went towards him grabbing his collar and picking him up in the air, as he threw him over the tables in the corner side. Noah falling abruptly but stood, getting angrier, He too grabbed his collar and pushed him back but he stood on his ground, "What the hell are you both doing stop!" I tried to interrupt. And got of the bed, trying to reach towards him, and just in the little time span, Noah was doing and Kashton was hitting on his face again and again. Beating him till he spat bliud out of his mouth.All the other family walking inside when the heard the v
CHAPTER 100 - EPILOGUE 2 HOURS EARLIER ~ROSEANNADo you believe in fate? i don't. Though once I had strong believe in one and I always though that everything that happened to me so far is because of the fucking fate, but no. There is no thing as fate. Fate is fake. Destiny is fake. Nothing just happens because the earth revolves and causes it to happen. Things happen for two reasons. And neither of them is fate. The first reason is because of your deeds. You pay for what you have sow. It's what it is called Karma. And second reason is the good awaiting you. Future. Sometimes no matter what you do. And what you give up. Your deeds and what you deserve never disappears and when needed Karma will aways show up to fuck up your life. The things that happened to me. i won't define them or name them as my fate. Fate is so small to describe what I went through. Neither I will accept them just because th
CHAPTER 99.ROSEANNA I read the notes as I couldn't helo but sit down on the ground and cry my heart out. Thinking about all the things I possibly can gather in my head. I lost it all. Now it's all gone. I have disrupted everything while being selfish, I deserved to die. I want to die. I told myself as I hastily stood up. But Eithan caught me, "Where do you think you are going? You can't go anywhere do you hear me? You can't..." He said it to me. "I know, I am going now where. I am coming to you."I told him as I took his hand and kept it on my neck." Please kill me. Please choke me and kill me right here. Eithan. Please,"I begged him. Shnr he frowned at me thinking what the hell was I doing? I begged him to reply and cried to him. To kill me falling down on the ground back on again whole crying. But he didn't move. " Why acting now? Isn't this what you wanted? You wanted to kill him! That's why you acted all clue less you made him dead. Roseanna, r
ROSEANNA He dragged me out as he shoved me over. "Don't you we ethe media pouring up there? Don't you know what reputation you own now? Don't you know how to act in front of media? Crying and begging for someone's life. The controversies and problem it will pour down together. You have no idea. What and how things will turn out! "He kept yelling me over the media people and personality which I didn't give a shit about. I jerked his hands away from me, and looked at him. " What did you say? Media? Personality? Controversies? Are you stupid? " I asked him," "There is someone who is dying in there. Some one I really care about and I want to be by the side of and here you are telling me to take care of media? I asked him. He laughing."Let him die. He deserves nothing more then death. Do you hear me? You have forgiven you and yet let me tell you that he doesn't deserve that forgiveness." He warned me. As I laughed. "Fine, I hear you. I hear all the shit you
CHAPTER 97.ROSEANNA I couldn't believe on what I just saw in front of right now. While I felt shattered in zillion peaces. How can this happen to me? Why did my life turn out to be this way? In front of my eyes. Right before me, I saw Kashton. Being driven by a truck all over him. There, he there from me ten meters away from me but I can't move from the shock and mental frozen state I am in right now. I couldn't move at all. My body was plastered, as if I was paralysed. I kept thinking again and again. The same scene I saw earlier. What was that? Why did that happen? What does that mean? I kept asking myself. Because I didn't wanted to heae what my head wanted to say. I don't want to be aware of any thing that could have happened. No! No Rose! He must be okay. You are not that weak, you can do this. Please, I begged my legs to fit love but they were just so stiff from the shock that I couldn't move no matter what I tried I kept pressuring myself t
ROSEANNAI felt very bad when I watched him walking away from here. Right now I felt guilty for so many things for talking like that to grandpa or the way Eithan said that I made a huge mistake. The way things led place when I was angry I was feeling guilty for everything. And felt like I betrayed grandpa even though he was the only nicest person in my life. I was sitting on the couch, and thinking about the day when I saw Eithan walking out from the door of his lounge room and passing by, ignoring me. "Are you really going yo act like that with me?" I asked him, being kind of sad, when he just stopped. "Why your all time favorite Kashton. Isn't here? To keep you entertained?" He asked me hysterically. When I was kind of dumbfounded. And step back. "Hey, why? He is already dying. Must you really?" I frowned. And exhaled as if I was frustrated out from them."Yes, he is dying. But we don't like him. And especially I.I hate him so much. That
CHAPTER 95ROSEANNAThe things he was talking about was hurting me too much while I couldn't hold back on all my tears this was hurting me so bad. I don't know why? I keep telling myself that no I don't like him. I keep telling myself that I have no feelings for him. When I keep reminding me all he have done to me. When I keep making me realise that this might all be a lie and he is dying so he have planned to kill me before he actually dies. Everything is possibility. I keep telling my heart all the thing but the fact that soon enough he will be dead if I don't find the right match for him? I am dreaded. I am scared and I want this all just to break. Like he said. As if this all was just dream. As if any between us two was dreaming this day. And that we all are just in one deep sleep. Why can't? It be like that? Why everything have to be true? I am sure I won't go back loving him ever again, but I can't hate him anymore again either. He is dying. What bi
CHAPTER 94. ROSEANNA i heard grandpa struggled to say it out loud, when i got little scared due to the rage he was getting in. i calming him down. While i tried to sooth my hands on his forearm." Grandpa, please don't get angry you just woke up. You need to rest down. Please," i begged him. Trying to calm him down. He still so enraged that he was trying to stand up and try to fight me and yet i couldn't do it to talk with him like this when he is so angry. "Roseanna fuck him off away!" And looking at grandpa enraging like this Eithan got very angry as he yelled at me and helped lying grandpa down. And soothe his anger, trying to calm his BP down. i kept swaying my hand back and forth, asking him to rest down. But he would through my hands away from him. While Eithan asked me to leave as well. i felt sad when everyone were trying to throw me off from the room. But giving the condition of grandpa i don't really took it on heart and started to leave,
CHAPTER 93.ROSEANNADid I hear it right wasn't it just a mistake? What I heard. Was it? Did he really say, Heart cancer? "I have heart Cancer Rose. I am dying. I am dying every single day. One more bit. " He continued while I was just to astounded to turn or speak to him about what I hear. Heart cancer? "Are you listening to me?" He asked me, my head up to look at straight. And not turn, while I heard him. "A month ago I found out I have heart cancer. I couldn't do anything. And that I was dying in less then two months. I didn't know how to react. But I guess deserved it." He started to talk bulshit between all. "Didn't you see my email? I send you, my reports. I'm not lying. And just 35 days." He again began talking about the same thing. While for me, I was too shunned to react or act anything. I just sticked to my place and didn't reacted anything. But was just silently listening to thingMy head up high when I looked at Eithan,
CHAPTER 92. OVER THE TOP. ROSEANNA I warned them, and started to walk out and went towards my room back again while I sat down. And remembered the paper I have read in the car for years ago. And yet I haven't even found the person. Or who wrote it. No one took any kind of weird actions my way. I don't understand why someone wrote me something like that? And if someone actually wanted me dead, why didn't the person took action. I kept questioning the person's intention that time, while I walked everyone over the top in the room. Thinking deeply.But as I called out for Eithan, he walked inside, "Hey, you asked for me-?" He came after an hour of when I actually called him. As he walked in, "I saw your guy out there, what is he doing there?" He asked me, the question I wanted to ask him. "You said he was kidnapped. What is he doing out? Well roaming around? His family will caught him and won't even give a shit about him. Before they decided on killing him."