Using me

We went back in light of Aaron’s phone. We both were not saying anything but walking side by side.

“ Good night then” I said as we reached my camp , crossing my arms on my chest.

“ Yeah good night and sleep . Don’t come outside if not necessary in night." I nodded my  head and after few moments of awkwardness we again greet each other good night wishes ,  I went inside my barrack. I entered and found Lidia sleeping peacefully. I wanted to scream harder out  of joy my heart started pounding remembering the moments we just shared . he kissed me ! he kissed me! Only these words were roaming around my head. I  laid in my place biting my lips and eventually drifted to sleep thinking about him.

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I woke up hearing the sounds of students doing exercise which Caleb was accomplishing . Someone was talking yesterday that he also worked as a trainer in gym that’s why he had a brawny muscular body. I woke up and saw the time I slept late at night that’s why I woke up late. I went outside and saw Lidia was approaching me. I wanted to tell her everything as she was my best friend and had a right to know what was going on in her best friend’s life. “ Hey you all good?” she asked me standing beside me.

“ Yes  I am why you are asking?” I turned my face to her. “ No its nothing you woke up late today so I just asked” . Is shook my head , and was about to go but Lidia stopped me by saying

"Caleb was asking for yoy he was looking a little bit worried.” She looked at me. “ I don’t know why he was looking for me. There would be some work may be he was looking for it” I shrugged my shoulders not know exactly what work Caleb had from me?.

“ May be” Lidia spoke to me. Then added “ Go freshen up we are going for hiking today” she excitedly jumped from her feet.  I laughed at her and went to accomplish my daily morning chores.

When I came back I joined the exercise . Caleb stopped for a minute when he spotted me then again started. His face was looking more stern as compared to the other days. I didn’t know what was triggering him but had a gut feeling that it involved me. After doing exercise, we all were going to get ready for today’s hiking on the western side of the island. I was finding Lidia when Caleb approached me.

“ Hey” he tried to smile. I smiled back and greeted him. I waited for him to speak . He was looking at me like arranging the words in his mind.

“ You know in bus I told a story about a queen who was betrayed?” I nodded my head in affirmation I and Lidia wanted to hear full story from him in detail. I really feel bad for the queen who was betrayed . How could a person  broke someone’s heart only for their sake.

“ And I also told something else, related to this.” I looked at him in confusion as I couldn’t remember anything.

“ I told you not to fall in love with someone here or otherwise you will get betrayed like the queen” he said with a serious tone, which erupted goosebumps all over by bare arms.

“ Yeah but that was just a myth” I tried to smile but he didn’t .

“ Still I am warning you to be careful you are here for just three weeks then you will  go back” he didn’t wait for my answer and went away leaving me in pool of questions .

What he is talking about? Is he talking about Aaron and me? May be he told him about us after all they are friends.  But why he is telling me to be careful?

I shook my head to erase negative thoughts from my mind and went for Lidia . We all starting preparing for hiking I and Lidia wore same black shirts with white puffy insulated jackets with attached hood and wool hats from which our hairs were cascading down to our chests. We both had long hairs as we love our hairs.  We wore our hiking boots went outside where everyone was already gathered and waiting for Professor Jonathan and Aaron. I didn’t see him from morning.

Is he ignoring me? Is he regretting our actions from last night? Negative thoughts started erupting in my brain.  Aaron came with Professor Jonathan and went in front of the students to guide them . He was wearing grey button up shirt with black jacket. He didn’t wear much warm clothes which I don’t know why?  We started to step forward with hiking sticks in our hands. We entered the forest, after some time steep land started immerging which compelled us to use our hiking sticks.  I was hiking for the first time in my life so I was excited and thrilled but one piece of my heart was sad for Aaron who didn’t talk to me yet. Lidia and I started  taking pictures while everybody moved forward. We didn’t realize that we  were only left there and everybody moved ahead. I was taking picture of Lidia with my camera but stopped when I saw someone behind her. He was a big man with bulky arms and contrary to that  he wasn’t wearing any shirt , our face became flushed seeing some random man in the middle of the forest in shirt only and that is also in the cold. From his face it doesn’t  seem like that he was feeling cold . We were gawking at him and he was seeing at us with a smirk.

“Alaina”

“Lidia”

We saw Aaron and Caleb coming screaming our name. They both stood in front of us so that we couldn’t see the man, their backs were facing us, while they started talking to him. “What are you doing here Thomas?” They said to him whose name was Thomas which was quite old but he was looking in his twenties like Aaron. “I just want to say hello to these pretty girls” we heard him saying as we can’t see him. 

“Just go from here ?” Aaron said with gritted teeth. I could sense his body tense. “ There is nothing here of your concern . Just go from here.” With that Caleb held Lidia’s hand and Aaron grabbed mine and dragged us with them not before giving him a deadly glare. I turned back to find him smirking at me. Weird

"Can we dare to ask what you guyz were doing back there?” Caleb asked in an angry tone.

“We just want to take some pictures.” We mumbled. We were walking with Caleb and Aaron  in front of us and we were walking with lower heads behind them. “ You will be fined  for not obeying the rules.”Aaron said with a stern look eying me. We both looked at each other as we were getting ready and missed the guidelines from Professor Jonathan about rules and regulations.

“ It was one of the rules to stay with the group while going somewhere” Caleb said looking at our blunt expressions.

Soon we reached our group and they both moved forward. After staying there on the cliff for drinking water and to level our breathing we moved back for our camps. It was almost evening when we were going back .  We were walking as I stopped to tie by shoe lace Lidia also stopped but moved ahead when Aaron stopped behind me .When I stood up after tying my lace everybody was already gone and I and Aaron were present. I looked at him who was staring at me with intense emotions in his eyes.

“ Did you talked with that man ? Did he tell you something?” he asked stepping closer.

“ N..no he didn’t tell anything . He just came when you guyz emerged” I don’t know why he was asking but I wanted to ask him that why it was bothering him so much and especially why that man was shirtless in this freezing breeze here.

“ Why are you asking ?” I asked him when his shoulders relaxed hearing my words.

“ Nothing he and I don’t get along . I don’t like him.” he said while grabbing me by my waist.  I got startled by his sudden affection.

“What are you doing ?” I asked him in a whisper while his hold was getting tighter yet comfortable. “Resuming what we stopped last night” with he bore his head in my neck .I could feel the tingling sensation on my skin due to his cold breath.  I moaned when he started nibbling me between my collar bone and neck.

“Aaron” After nibbling he bit there which compelled me to moan his name and I was sure it would leave a mark there. I feel so contented in his grip. I feel secure in an embrace of a man who I met two days before. I didn’t know him but still. I don’t even know what he feels about me and still I was letting him to do these things to me.

“ Aaron” I pushed him away as I don’t know it is right or wrong.

“ Whats wrong?” he said with amusement in his eyes. “ What are we doing?” I asked him as I was confused we were not in a relationship so why he was doing this.

“ What you mean?” he asked raiding his eyebrow.

“ I mean we are not in a relationship I can’t do this”  I told him . I want to do these things   but in a right manner as it was my first time attracting towards a guy.

“ I don’t do relationships” he said in cold tone. My heart clenched as he said this. So he is just using me? He just wants to gain benefits from me? Tears started appearing in my eyes but I stopped them.

“Never ever try to touch me again” saying that I almost ran away from there.

“ Alaina” he tried to stop me but I didn’t look back and went from there. My name from his mouth seems so good. I thought. Shut up you are still thinking about the man who was using you? My conscience mocked me. I reached the camps and headed towards my barrack. I collapsed on my mattress , tears started streaming from my eyes.   There were many men who came in my life but I didn’t progress my relations with them from being a friend because I thought everyone was like my father who left us alone for another woman. But after seeing Aaron I thought he would be different.  But he just only wanted to use me. Crying with tears soon I drifted to sleep.

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We were sitting on a log after a hectic evening. We worked a lot tonight as we lifted so much weights like boxes full of crockeries which the guide company sent for us but didn't get on time due to some convenience problems. I saw one of class fellows coming towards me and Lidia.

" Hey can you please get the last boxes from the boat? " he said with flushed face as he was doing lifting for few hours.

"Yeah sure" I said to him despite the fact that I was also worn out.

" I am not coming my legs are hurting" Lidia said to which I nodded.

" Ok no problem I will take someone else" I completed the sentence when I heard him behind me.

" Let me come with you" Aaron spoke as usual in his black attire. I rolled my eyes at him and not saying anything move forward. I heard footsteps behind me indicating that he was coming. Bravo after breaking my heart he is offering me to help me.

" Alaina listen to me" My name felt so good from his mouth. Shut up! My conscience scolded me.

I didn't listen to him and keep walking.

" I said stop" this time he said in authoratative voice with a hint of anger so I had to stop but I didn't turn around. He came in front me in a swift.

" You think I am using you?" He said in his cold voice.

" Like you are not" I said with a scarcasm.

" Have I ever said anything that I wanted you to be in a relationship with me" I nodded my head in no as he never said that.

"I just kissed you and you let me do it . There is no big deal in this" My jaw almost fell on the ground . He was my first kiss and I didn't want that in this way.

"So kissing random girls is a usual thing to you" I raised my eyebrow at him.

" Of course" he said and it broke my heart. So I was the one gathering hopes . I was too silly. I lowered my head in guilt that why I let him kiss me.

" Hey" he grabbed my chin " Everything happened is in that past now move forward" he said staring at me with intense emotions. I looked at him nodding my head. That was embarrassing.

"Let's go we have to grab the boxes" he said and move forward. I followed him too.

I was making my heart understand that he was never mine but it was in pain. I was lost in my thoughts when I suddenly bumped into a rock wall but later realized that it was not a wall but back of Aaron who was not less than a tall hard wall.

"What happened?" I asked him in confusion.

" The boxes are not here" he said to me . I glanced at the ground where previous boxes were present .

" Yeah they are in the boat " I stated but his eyes turn dark hearing this. "Come let's go " I said to him while going towards the shire where boat was present.

"I can't come further" he said in a raspy voice causing me to halted in my steps.

" But why?" I asked with confusion he was acting strange.

" I have some urgent work to do" he said and went back immediately. I was alone their standing in confusion , couldn't understand his sudden mood swings. He offered me for help and now he himself went back.

I shrugged my shoulders and went to grab the boxes.

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