I shut my eyes and tears rolled down my cheeks, my insides twisted and my entire body shook as I slide to the ground. It had been approximately three hours since the paramedics had left. Since the detective and his friend walked through the doors.Now I was all alone. I was alone in my home and it had never felt this big, the thick scent of iron invaded my nose too many times to count, I curled into myself and rocked back and forth.I needed something to distract myself with. Something I could do — Something to take this pain away. But I knew grief better than any other man and it did not work that way. Grief and I were like friends because I was constantly losing things. Somedays people, Other days the will to live.That day, as I sat alone, resting on the wall, I realized that I had loved him. I loved Jared. I waiting for him for three long years. I waited for him to come back — With this sick mentality that once he was here everything would be alright. But of course, That wasn’t
“Wha—What do you mean?” I mumbled as I glanced between Tyler and Leonardo,The brown-haired boy scoffed and tossed the knife away. “She lost her memory, Happy now?” He shot at me and gestured with his hand. I stood up and sucked in a sharp breath, this could not be happening. Not now, not to me. For some reason, it felt like once a door opened up, something of someone shut it close every single time and it had become frustrating to play hide and seek with someone or something I have no clue about.“But how?” The words rolled out of my mouth. I found it hard to breathe or speak properly. Jared had just been murdered, and something worse was going to happen with Alice, Rye was out there planning who knows what and my only chance — the only lead I had to figure out the entire through had lost her memory.How convenient for everyone but me.“I don’t believe it,” I spoke sharply.“I don’t believe you either, but look, you are happening, carry out all this crap, live and in stereo.” Leonar
“Really?” I asked in one breath. Mrs. Amber nodded and sighed.“I’m so sorry I help on it for so long.” She apologized softly,“This—This is the best thing that could have ever happened to me.” I said as I traced my hands over the hardcover of the note “I mean it, thank you.”“I never thought you would be able to forgive me, Yet—““Thank you,” I said and a tear rolled down my cheeks. “Thank you so much, this— This means the world to me.”“Oh Danielle, I hope you find happiness and peace, soon. Very soon.” Mrs. Amber said in a sweet tone.“I hope so too.” I added, “Where are you going to stay? Do you have a place?” I asked as I glanced around to see if she came alone.“Well yes, Emily and I are staying at a hotel close by,” She admitted with a tight smile.“Oh no, I can’t allow that, you and Emily can come and stay at my place—”“Your Place?” I had half expected a response like that but I was not expecting the speaker to be well, the speaker.“You.” That was all I said when we locked e
“So, what are you going to do now?” Emily spoke when I had put my hand down. I rolled my eyes and ran my hands through my hair. I wanted to say something along the lines of I don’t know but then I realized that I do not owe her any explanations.I grabbed the bottle of Vodka that Tyler had left behind and chugged it down my throat. “Danielle!” Mrs. Amber Reprimanded as she grabbed it from my lips as tossed it aside. The sound of the bottle breaking pierced my ears but I stood straight. “I needed that whole,” I informed her with a straight face.“Oh grandma, I don’t think staying here is a good idea, she looks really troubled and all. Like she’s mentally unstable—”“You better shut up brat!” I roared. “I have had it with you! Ever since you got in my car all you have done is try to provoke me! Well here’s the gist, if you want to stay in my house and eat my food then you need to respect me or the door is right there, but Nana? She stays right here, I want to see who will stop me.” I b
I’m about to do something stupid. Something I would probably regret tomorrow but right now I was just absolutely exhausted and frustrated. I felt completely alone and I was dangerously close to believing that I was a burden or a problem. At this point, I was thinking straight, and as much as the logical part of my brain told me to go back to bed, the irrational one – which all always ends up following desperately tug at me to keep going. My feet dragged across the tiled floor, I had been walking for a few seconds but it felt like I had been on some never-ending journey where I was forced to walk on foot, I could hear silent whimpers leave my mouth and my eyelids could barely stay up. I wiped my tears with my hands and sucked in a deep breath with the consolation that I would soon be at my destination and It would be dawn soon. I hated nighttime. I hated when the moon came out and you could see the stars because over the years I had trained myself to hide from the horrific secrets an
“I said, I’m sorry for your father’s death, I wish things could have gone differently.” She said with a small smile.I parted my lips to speak but all I could do was take in heavy breaths, I stared at her for a few seconds, my mind was running miles and struggling to come up with which of the theories it had suggested.Could it be that she had never lost her memory all along and she just slipped? Or was something else going on that I was not aware of? Whichever it was, it was becoming scary.“What do you know about my father?” My voice was fast spaced and sharp, she seems taken aback and confused by my sudden outburst.“I...” She began before she trailed off.“What do you know about my father? What do you know about him Charlotte? I won’t even be mad I promise!” I begged in a high-pitched tone, and her eyes widened.“Please, I—” Before she could say anything else she fell to the ground. I gasped and knelt by her side. “Charlotte!” I exclaimed at the sight, “Charlotte, please wake up,
“Are you serious about this right now?” I asked as I glanced between them flabbergasted. They had assumed that. They assumed that I would hurt Charlotte.I loved Charlotte, she was the closest thing that I had to a mother, They knew this. They knew how much I loved and cared about her, I had never treated her like a maid, never.“Do you see what I mean Tyler?” I asked as I locked eyes with him, “Do you finally see what I mean when I say you say one thing and do the other?” I challenged with a raised eyebrow.“We’re not saying you hurt anyone, we are —” “That’s not what you insinuated a minute ago but it’s fine, It’s okay, you can think whatever you want, I don’t care anymore.” I spat. I watched as Tyler shut his eyes and sucked in deep breaths while Leonardo and Emilia helped Charlotte up. “What am I doing here?” She whispered, I wondered if she was going insane or she putting on an act, but no one in the room would believe me so that theory would be a waste“You’ve changed,” Tyler
“I’ll think about Emilia, it’s getting late,” I informed her, and she nodded with a small smile and exited the room.I let out a sigh of relief once she was gone. I was not sure I would ever get used to seeing her around but that was an opinion I would rather keep to myself, I frowned and walked toward the door to close it, once I was done, I turned and pulled out the note from my Jeans.I had hidden it just between my jean and body, I was not willing to risk anything even though I was sure no one in the house was going to try and steal it. I also had to be self-conscious about the fact that someone came all the way here to murder Jared in my room and that was messed up. I opened the first page of the book but closed it a moment later, it was three am now and the only thing I wanted to do was get some rest as much as I was anxious to know the contents of the book. I was mentally and physically exhausted from the emotional circus I had to face the entire day.I kept the book in the dr
5 years later. “What happened here?” I sucked in a sharp breath as I glanced around what was supposed to be the children’s room but seemed like a battleground. World war three happened here. “It was him!” Bella cried in her high-pitched voice, I cringed at her tone and glanced in the direction of her voice. My heart skipped a bit when I could not find her, but if the mop of blonde curls that peaked out from beneath the bed was anything too go by; I was definitely on the right track. I took tentative steps toward her and crouched down to her height, “Baby, what’s going on?” my voice trembled slightly with worry but that was not the only thing threatening an anxiety attack from me at this moment. It was already 10:00 am and I wasn’t even dressed — forget about dressing up, Tyler wasn’t even around to handle the kids and he promised me. Today was my big day and he promised he would fill in, but as always, he just runs off with his burger. Bella reluctantly reached out to me and
You know how you can spend your entire life walking on the wrong path. You can feel like you have it all figured out even though you are just starting and struggling to be a good version of yourself. There are some memories, that don’t die when dawn comes barging in. Some dark times that even the sun can’t chase away. My point is: They are too many things out of our control and the last thing you want to do is get stuck with the guilt of not fixing or doing things that were never in your control, to begin with. As I ran my hands through my soaked scarlet hair, a lone tear crawled down my cheek and I swallowed sharply. I bit hard on my bottom lip as I thunderstruck and pierced my skin. It was almost scary how three years had felt like decades, how much I had linked to come here, all the promises, the guilt, everything that had built up to this exact moment. I wiped my tears which were mixed with rain. I found to hear the hesitant footsteps from Rye, but I did not turn. My fists cle
“There’s still time for us to run.” I glanced at Emilia as if she had grown two heads, but she had a serious expression on her face and I knew that she was freaking out deep down.So was I.“Run to where exactly?” I decided to humor her risky thoughts with a raised eyebrow, her stance deflated and she let go of my hand. We were outside the church now. It was crazy how much time had passed and how things were happening so fast.Until two weeks ago I was at Alice’s grave. Now I was walking down the aisle. I frowned and breathed. “When did Rye say she was going to get here?” I asked Emilia, the blonde seemed to be too engrossed in starting anything but the church that waiting for her. Her blonde hair had been styled in a perfect bun and Isabel had performed magic with her makeup. Her dimples were visible and she wasn’t even smiling. Emilia took a hold of my hand again, a small smile broke out on her plump lips.I held my breath as she stared me dead in the eyes before she broke out into
“This was the last place I thought I would ever come,” The words rolled out of my mouth and left a bland taste in my mouth, I could feel the heat from the ground tear my skin apart, and my eyes stung with fresh tears and my fists clenched.If anyone had told me, years ago, or even a month ago that I would do this, I would have laughed in their face and given them a fitting reply, yet here I was, tears pouring down my cheeks with a void in my heart that I was not sure time could heal.“It wasn't supposed to end like this, Alice. This wasn’t the plan. This wasn't the freaking plan,” I whispered and I could barely see from my clouded vision. “You always hurt me when it was alive and I always used to think that I would be happy when you died...” I trailed off and wiped my tears.“I’m not Alice,” I admitted. “I’m not happy at all ad it feels like my heart got ripped out. You took a part of me with you and it space you left stings a lot.” I swallowed and sucked in a sharp breath. I ran my
Tyler chuckled and his hand went to his neck for a nervous moment. “I don’t think you have realized it but… Alexander is in love, and it’s not with you,” I blinked in confusion.Tyler laughed at what seemed like my facial expression. “Alexander is madly in love with Lee.” My eyes widened and I immediately clicked the dots.Lee’s strange behavior ever since Alexander came into the house, her sudden change of heart, the reason she begged me to stop the wedding, why she was so devastated during the shoot-out, why she kept her gaze on Alex, and most of us, why she was bosses with taking care of Bella. “But she’s just a child and he- he’s twenty-five or something! This isn’t right!” I informed him.“She’ll be eighteen in a few weeks, by then she will be an adult, right?” Cole asked in a calm tone.“Well yes, but…” I trailed off and walked past him, I turned and continued. “She’s still a child, he’s five years older than she, and I don’t know, I’m just not comfortable with the idea.”“It’s
"Are you okay?" Tyler was standing at the doorwhen I came out, I nodded and walked past him. "Where's Gemma?" I asked with a straight face and glanced around the place. "She left," Tyler informed me absentmindedly. "She asked for a divorce." He added."Why? Did she finally realize that you are nothing like you claim you are?" I spat at him and he shrugged."She was pregnant for someone else," He continued. My eyes widened and I shrugged. "Oh wow." I chuckled. "You sue to surround yourself with the best kinds of people," I informed him and he relaxed on the wall"You don't seem okay, do you want to get some rest?" He asked and I rolled my eyes at his fake concern."I want to leave. Why did you bring me here?" I demanded in a sharp tone."You fell unconscious, I had no other choice," Tyler admitted bashfully and ran his hands through his hair. His lips were pursed into a straight line and he kept his gaze firm on me."Want some coffee?" He offered and walked towards what I assumed w
"I never thought you would come here." I heard a voice as I sat on the closest rock.From the view I had, the lake was breathtakingly beautiful, it had been months since I came here and I was dying for a breath of fresh air."Do you remember the last time we came here?" the voice continued on a steady pitch, I rolled my eyes at the tone and turned away. "Danielle, you are going to have to face me at one point or the other." Tyler finally confessed in what sounded like a defeated tone, I scoffed at his words. "There's nothing to settle." my voice came out strained. It had been one entire month since Alice was murdered and Aiden died at my hands. The memory still sends chills down my spine and for many days I refused to leave my home because I was terrified of the outcome, I sucked in sharp air and glanced at him."You ended this, remember?" I added in a soft tone, my eyes stung with tears but I blinked them away. Tyler sighed. He broke the small distance between us and sat beside me
I lunged at him. With all the force and anger I could muster at that moment. This was the moment I had waited for so many years. Three long years — I lived with that guilt and pain for three long years. I was broken, I had to deal with the pain and nightmares and the intense feeling that I could not protect the man who did nothing but love me. The only thing I had consoled myself with back then was that I would avenge his death.And only when I had avenged his death, would I visit his grave. Today, I would fulfill that promise.Aiden lost balance in shock, the gun went off immediately. My eyes widened when we hit the ground. I was basically on top of him, dangerously close with the gun between us and my breath hitched.My heart raced and it took me a few seconds to register the fact that the bullet had not hit me, rather it was stuck in Aiden who was bleeding from his nose.I must have taken too long to connect all these dots because the next thing I knew was hands around my neck, c
"Aiden," I growled and he smiled. He had a fun held up straight to my face and I was almost thrown off by the audacity of the man. Here, in broad daylight, he was pointing a gun at me, a smug grin plastered on his face as if he had just been given hot coffee on a stressful morning."Danielle" His voice was calm and held no remorse at all, his eyes narrowed at me and rested on Alice's body which was behind me. I watched as Aiden's grey eyes darkened for a bit before they returned to their previous form."For the first time in my entire life...I'm sad I was right about something." The words were not directed at me, rather it was where his gaze rested. Completely fixed on Alice. "If you cared about her, you would have stopped this a long time ago." I shot a glare at him, and he scoffed and stared at me with a piercing gaze. "It's because of her, I did this!" He snapped and shot one of the medics, I stumbled on the side of the van, my eyes went wide and I clenched my fist."That's a li