FATE (99)

I shut my eyes and tears rolled down my cheeks, my insides twisted and my entire body shook as I slide to the ground. It had been approximately three hours since the paramedics had left. Since the detective and his friend walked through the doors.

Now I was all alone. I was alone in my home and it had never felt this big, the thick scent of iron invaded my nose too many times to count, I curled into myself and rocked back and forth.

I needed something to distract myself with. Something I could do — Something to take this pain away. But I knew grief better than any other man and it did not work that way. Grief and I were like friends because I was constantly losing things. Somedays people, Other days the will to live.

That day, as I sat alone, resting on the wall, I realized that I had loved him. I loved Jared. I waiting for him for three long years. I waited for him to come back — With this sick mentality that once he was here everything would be alright.

But of course, That wasn’t