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I went silent after those words left my mouth. My eyes stared absentmindedly at the road and a tear fell down my cheeks. My throat suddenly became dry and I resisted the urge to bite on my already blistered lips.It felt like I was taking a million steps back, but giving in was so much easier than hanging on. I was so sick and tired of having to do it all. Trying to be better every single time. I felt sorry for Derek, but right now it felt like this was the only solution to all my problems."Are you still there or did you chicken out?" Martin's husky tone dragged me black to reality, I blinked and picked up the phone that had slipped from my hands at some point."I'm right here," I confirmed in a steady tone."We've got some new ones and they are really good— Well, as long as you can afford them.""Do you have anything that can make me forget everything?" Gosh. My hands trembled and I felt like I was betraying myself."As I said, only if you can afford it," Martin replied with a chuck
FIRE CRACKER PILLS AND POTIONS (30)
“Give it back,” My voice was lower than I had expected.“No,” Tyler whispered as he glanced at the pack “Why are you taking this crap?” His voice had so much emotion in it and the more I listened to him the more I wanted to rip his head from his body.“Give me my pills and leave” My voice grew an octave higher but came out steady as I stood up at the same time. My fist tightened as I glared at him.“Did you ever even think of your mom and your sister?”His voice came out croaked “What do you know about me?” My voice came out pained and exasperated as I waved my hands in frustration. “You don’t know me! So just hand me my freaking pills and walk away!” I yelled at him.“Why? So you can pop them into your mouth and end your life?” He demanded as he stared at me with tear-filled eyes.I ran my hands through my hair and glared at him ”Yes!” I admitted. “Happy?” I questioned, “So hand them over, now Tyler!”“Look —” Before he could continue, I lunged at him and tried to grab the pills, my h
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The silence in the room was choking as I glared at Tyler. My fists tightened and My forehead creased. “Danielle—”“If I take those pills, it’s not because I want to, or I feel like playing around with people’s lives. It’s because I have no better choice, okay?” I finished and headed out of the tore briskly. It must have taken Tyler a few seconds to regain himself because he was yelling my name and jogging after me a few seconds later.I ran my hands through my blonde hair as kept my pace, my mind seemed clearer than it was before and my head felt light, to be honest, this had been a very long and strenuous day and I could not wait to crash into a bed somewhere... oh, about that, I had nowhere to sleep. I also had no money as well.I mentally facepalmed. I had spent all of my money on those pills and now I had none left. What was I thinking? How was I going to survive now? Those pills were all I had. I froze in my tracks at the chaos that was going on in what I assumed was the wait
FIRE CRACKER SHE LIED? (32)
The sound of my feet hiring the ground filled the empty hallway. I needed to get to Rye fast, I needed to help her recover and then expose Alice as the monster she truly was. Even in all this, I felt some relief. Like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Because it was not my fault, it wasn’t that I was too hard to love, Alice just never knew how to love anyone and that was not my fault. My feet stomped on the beige tiles as I ran to the elevator. The relief I was feeling did nothing to drown the heavy weight of worry that lingered on my chest: Rye was in danger, she was dying. I needed to find a blood donor soon. I would need to contact Jared, he’s the only one who would help me at this point.I dug my hand into my pocket to pull out myPhone but it wasn’t there, panic hit me in waves, where had I left it? It was with me when I walked back into the hospital. I ran my hands through my hair and tugged on the tips, my scalp hurt and I tugged on my hair harder in frustration, why
FIRE CRACKER I DON’T CARE (33)
"What?!" I exclaimed with wide eyes. Tyler shrugged as we arrived at the canteen and sat down opposite each other. He had bags under his eyes and looked exhausted. I felt a pang of guilt because, in reality, He was like this because of me."It's a pretty funny story," He said as the food arrived, I rolled my eyes at his indifference."But, but, she had a pregnancy test and that whole drama...? What—" I sighed "Women." I mumbled underneath my breath.Tyler chuckled and glanced at me. My cheeks flushed and I averted my gaze back to the food in front of me. It was a basic meal actually, A burger and some coffee. Quite an addictive combination I had to admit."Do you eat with your eyes or...?" my head snapped up at Tyler who had his burger a few inches from his mouth. I chuckled before I grabbed my burger and took a bite without giving him a response. Tyler simply shrugged. I wondered if it was a habit of his or if he just found me genuinely boring. Instead of asking him though, I shrugge
FIRE CRACKER SHE WILL LISTEN (34)
“Dad!” I cried as my eyes shot open, I could hear my heart beat loudly in the walls of my chest, fresh puffs of hot air left my lips as I felt my eyes sting, I felt like someone was banging heavily on my head and like every other time that I had woken up like this, I tried to curl into myself. But for some reason, I just, couldn’t. I shut my eyes and tried to breathe and remind myself that everything would be okay, that it was just a nightmare and I would wake up soon, that all of this would be a lie but what I had just seen, it wasn’t like my other dreams or night terrors. This felt so real. It felt like it was happening in front of my eyes and not many times I had watched my father die, this hurt differently. there was something different about this… about this new silhouette that made every inch of my skin burn with fear and horror, I tried to push away the thoughts and pressure that were building around me. I wanted to breathe, I needed to breathe. To do something. I needed to fi
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“How dare you yell at me?!” Alice boomed at me with fiery eyes. “How dare you try to take my sister away here, huh?!” I matched her tone as I broke the proximity between us. I touched the bridge of my nose as I took in my environment. Rye was on a stretcher in the process of being removed, an oxygen mask laid on her nose as she glared at me. She looked furious as it seemed like she was trying to say something. Probably to defend her manipulative mother“Do you think that you can stop me?” Alice challenged in a heavy tone. I rolled my eyes and addressed the doctors and medical professionals around me,“How is it possible that you agreed to this? What was it? Barley twenty-four hours ago, she was...” I trailed off and locked eyes with Alice “Admitted for ‘supposedly’ try her own life and now you are letting her make life decisions for my sister? This woman is deranged! She isn’t mentally stable.” I spat.“What? What are you saying?!” Alice fumed. I smirked and broke the proximity betw
FIRE CRACKER YOU HAVE SOME AUDACITY (36)
“What are you doing here, Jared?” I questioned when I finally found the strength to stand up. Tyler wrapped his hands protectively around me and I resisted the urge to roll my eyes. I was the person on earth who needed protection. I was used to surviving on my own ever since I was born. It’s first nature.“So it’s him…? He’s the one you left me for?” Jared questioned as he stood in his black tuxedo. His lips pursed in a line as his gaze burnt into my skin the desire for an explanation filled his eyes.“You seem to forget one thing,” I said as I took a step forward. “We were never together” I reminded him softly and matched his stare. “That’s why you found the next… gullible guy to hook up with? Just to get off the streets?” Jared spat.I sighed. Took in his words and marched over to him, when I was close enough I ensured my hand collided with his cheek hard enough to snap his head in the wrong direction. Jared’s eyes widened and I heard Tyler stiffen a chuckle
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5 years later. “What happened here?” I sucked in a sharp breath as I glanced around what was supposed to be the children’s room but seemed like a battleground. World war three happened here. “It was him!” Bella cried in her high-pitched voice, I cringed at her tone and glanced in the direction of her voice. My heart skipped a bit when I could not find her, but if the mop of blonde curls that peaked out from beneath the bed was anything too go by; I was definitely on the right track. I took tentative steps toward her and crouched down to her height, “Baby, what’s going on?” my voice trembled slightly with worry but that was not the only thing threatening an anxiety attack from me at this moment. It was already 10:00 am and I wasn’t even dressed — forget about dressing up, Tyler wasn’t even around to handle the kids and he promised me. Today was my big day and he promised he would fill in, but as always, he just runs off with his burger. Bella reluctantly reached out to me and
FIRE CRACKER Is it too late to say goodbye?
You know how you can spend your entire life walking on the wrong path. You can feel like you have it all figured out even though you are just starting and struggling to be a good version of yourself. There are some memories, that don’t die when dawn comes barging in. Some dark times that even the sun can’t chase away. My point is: They are too many things out of our control and the last thing you want to do is get stuck with the guilt of not fixing or doing things that were never in your control, to begin with. As I ran my hands through my soaked scarlet hair, a lone tear crawled down my cheek and I swallowed sharply. I bit hard on my bottom lip as I thunderstruck and pierced my skin. It was almost scary how three years had felt like decades, how much I had linked to come here, all the promises, the guilt, everything that had built up to this exact moment. I wiped my tears which were mixed with rain. I found to hear the hesitant footsteps from Rye, but I did not turn. My fists cle
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“There’s still time for us to run.” I glanced at Emilia as if she had grown two heads, but she had a serious expression on her face and I knew that she was freaking out deep down.So was I.“Run to where exactly?” I decided to humor her risky thoughts with a raised eyebrow, her stance deflated and she let go of my hand. We were outside the church now. It was crazy how much time had passed and how things were happening so fast.Until two weeks ago I was at Alice’s grave. Now I was walking down the aisle. I frowned and breathed. “When did Rye say she was going to get here?” I asked Emilia, the blonde seemed to be too engrossed in starting anything but the church that waiting for her. Her blonde hair had been styled in a perfect bun and Isabel had performed magic with her makeup. Her dimples were visible and she wasn’t even smiling. Emilia took a hold of my hand again, a small smile broke out on her plump lips.I held my breath as she stared me dead in the eyes before she broke out into
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“This was the last place I thought I would ever come,” The words rolled out of my mouth and left a bland taste in my mouth, I could feel the heat from the ground tear my skin apart, and my eyes stung with fresh tears and my fists clenched.If anyone had told me, years ago, or even a month ago that I would do this, I would have laughed in their face and given them a fitting reply, yet here I was, tears pouring down my cheeks with a void in my heart that I was not sure time could heal.“It wasn't supposed to end like this, Alice. This wasn’t the plan. This wasn't the freaking plan,” I whispered and I could barely see from my clouded vision. “You always hurt me when it was alive and I always used to think that I would be happy when you died...” I trailed off and wiped my tears.“I’m not Alice,” I admitted. “I’m not happy at all ad it feels like my heart got ripped out. You took a part of me with you and it space you left stings a lot.” I swallowed and sucked in a sharp breath. I ran my
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"Are you okay?" Tyler was standing at the doorwhen I came out, I nodded and walked past him. "Where's Gemma?" I asked with a straight face and glanced around the place. "She left," Tyler informed me absentmindedly. "She asked for a divorce." He added."Why? Did she finally realize that you are nothing like you claim you are?" I spat at him and he shrugged."She was pregnant for someone else," He continued. My eyes widened and I shrugged. "Oh wow." I chuckled. "You sue to surround yourself with the best kinds of people," I informed him and he relaxed on the wall"You don't seem okay, do you want to get some rest?" He asked and I rolled my eyes at his fake concern."I want to leave. Why did you bring me here?" I demanded in a sharp tone."You fell unconscious, I had no other choice," Tyler admitted bashfully and ran his hands through his hair. His lips were pursed into a straight line and he kept his gaze firm on me."Want some coffee?" He offered and walked towards what I assumed w
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"I never thought you would come here." I heard a voice as I sat on the closest rock.From the view I had, the lake was breathtakingly beautiful, it had been months since I came here and I was dying for a breath of fresh air."Do you remember the last time we came here?" the voice continued on a steady pitch, I rolled my eyes at the tone and turned away. "Danielle, you are going to have to face me at one point or the other." Tyler finally confessed in what sounded like a defeated tone, I scoffed at his words. "There's nothing to settle." my voice came out strained. It had been one entire month since Alice was murdered and Aiden died at my hands. The memory still sends chills down my spine and for many days I refused to leave my home because I was terrified of the outcome, I sucked in sharp air and glanced at him."You ended this, remember?" I added in a soft tone, my eyes stung with tears but I blinked them away. Tyler sighed. He broke the small distance between us and sat beside me
FIRE CRACKER Life isn’t fair (191)
I lunged at him. With all the force and anger I could muster at that moment. This was the moment I had waited for so many years. Three long years — I lived with that guilt and pain for three long years. I was broken, I had to deal with the pain and nightmares and the intense feeling that I could not protect the man who did nothing but love me. The only thing I had consoled myself with back then was that I would avenge his death.And only when I had avenged his death, would I visit his grave. Today, I would fulfill that promise.Aiden lost balance in shock, the gun went off immediately. My eyes widened when we hit the ground. I was basically on top of him, dangerously close with the gun between us and my breath hitched.My heart raced and it took me a few seconds to register the fact that the bullet had not hit me, rather it was stuck in Aiden who was bleeding from his nose.I must have taken too long to connect all these dots because the next thing I knew was hands around my neck, c
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"Aiden," I growled and he smiled. He had a fun held up straight to my face and I was almost thrown off by the audacity of the man. Here, in broad daylight, he was pointing a gun at me, a smug grin plastered on his face as if he had just been given hot coffee on a stressful morning."Danielle" His voice was calm and held no remorse at all, his eyes narrowed at me and rested on Alice's body which was behind me. I watched as Aiden's grey eyes darkened for a bit before they returned to their previous form."For the first time in my entire life...I'm sad I was right about something." The words were not directed at me, rather it was where his gaze rested. Completely fixed on Alice. "If you cared about her, you would have stopped this a long time ago." I shot a glare at him, and he scoffed and stared at me with a piercing gaze. "It's because of her, I did this!" He snapped and shot one of the medics, I stumbled on the side of the van, my eyes went wide and I clenched my fist."That's a li
