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2024-10-29 19:42:56There are no words to describe the feeling of betrayal. It was horrible for me, devastating and depressing that I would compare to being punched in the gut or stabbed in the heart. My anxiety kicked in big this time like it never did in the past, and it’s only by the grace of God that I haven’t physical ripped my flesh apart. Emily is a friend I’d gladly take a bullet for, sadly she’s the one pulling the trigger with her gun pointing to my heart.
Jake was talking to me, but my mind isn’t with him. My heart was palpating and my mind pondering over a lot of things. I had felt light headed in front of Jake and fainted into his arms at school and I can’t let it happen again otherwise he’d ask questions about my health and I can’t risk him finding out– he’d totally freak out. Aside my Dad, and Emily no one else knows about my mental health disorder. “Let’s go to Oaklay over the weekend” Jake saRelated chapters
FATAL DESIRE Reconciliation
God! I think Jake has gone insane. He’d still want to be with me after all the horrifying things he just found out about me?. I had ruined his gorgeous face with my fingers, and here he is nuzzling up in my arms. I pulled away from him and faced the wall. The more I looked into his eyes, the more I get a magnetic pull towards him and I didn’t want that. I wanted to stop.“ You still think it’s wrong...? Hailey, no matter how many times you try to push me away I'd still be here. Deep down you love me and you don’t wanna let go. The depth of my love for is incomprehensible, my feelings for you are unimaginable. You complete me… stop pushing me away… look at me” “No Jake. I can’t” “ Why not? You can’t look at me because you're scared - scared that you've fallen madly in love me? You are scared of acceptance? I thought you are brave?" he asked and i hate that he is right. I have fallen in lo
FATAL DESIRE Officially His
I was famished, and started on a dinner with the French fries while helping my father in the kitchen. Who is coming for dinner? He had refused to say and only snorted out that it’s a surprise. He let suspense and tension to build inside me and it was almost unbearable. I ticked off the idea that it could be a family member because we do not have any close relative in Fothoman. Aunty Jane, my Dad's younger sister lives with her husband in Olivelane and they only visited once when I was in fifth grade.It might be one of those political meetings where a candidate invites his party members to his home for dinner. A soft knock rattled on the door as I reach over for a pork. He slapped my hand away and smiled at me, and I am more confused by the expression on his face. What is there to smile about and why is Mr. Hayes acting like a teenager?“ You should get the door. I will wrap up things from here” he said as he began untying the knotted apron around his wai
FATAL DESIRE Breakfast or Breakup
“ I need to tell you something” I said to Bay, having successfully followed him into the male bathroom without being seen. Dumfounded, Bay stared up at me, water dropping from his wet hair trailed from the lines of his jaw to his chest, and down to his abs – crawling beneath the towel wrapped around his waist. “ You shouldn’t be in here” he warned. His head bent down, and he began massaging his wet hair with a white towel. When I wasn’t leaving, he turned his look on me “ didn’t you hear me? Hailey, leave now before the others comes in” “ I am not leaving until I talk to you. So, quit being a jerk and just listen” I voiced harshly. He chuckled in a way that I find offensive. I called him a jerk – so ?I swallowed hard, trying to focus with all the distractions on his bare body. Bay's body is smooth and his lips looked so fucking sinful – it can cause a lot of damages to a girls
FATAL DESIRE Psych
When I woke up, I was in a hospital. The walls around me were sky blue and sterile. I saw Jake and Emily seated beside me. I was beyond shocked to see her, but I tried to keep my cool.As soon as i said his name, Jake jumped to his feet and took my hands into his, squeezing tightly and clutching firmly against his chest. His eyes were red and his cheeks puffy like he’s been crying.“God Hailey, you scared the hell outta me. I thought I'd lose you” Happy tears floated in his eyes as he brushed a kiss against my knuckles.“ I was so worried about you, glad you are ok” Emily saidI stared up at her and she quickly lowered her head to avoid my gaze. She's got some nerve showing up at hospital after what she put me through. I didn't even want to look at her treachery face. Her presence alone infuriated me and I wanted her gone, beca
FATAL DESIRE His Psych
When I confessed my love for Jake, I was certain. Very certain it was him that I want. He was calm, probably trying to digest my words. I gestured at him to come lay beside me. He scooted in against my side, I rested my chin on his chest and looked up at him. “ Promise you not gonna be mad at me” I said as I sat up and folded my knees up to my chest.He rolled closer to me and prop his elbow up, resting his chin in his hand “ I’m listening”“ I love how much you respect me, and how much you care about me” i stroke a thumb on his jaw, gently pulling his beard.The expression on his face became intensely sexual “ you do?” He asked.“ Yes.. and I don’t want you to ever stop looking at me the way you do – like you are doing right now” we both let out a soft laugh “ After hearing what I’m about to tell you, please don’t ever stop Loving me”He stretched his arm out and stroke warm fingers along my cheek, I closed my eyes as he traced a path
FATAL DESIRE Broken But Whole Again
Being in an actual relationship and sticking to one person is a beautiful blend of excitement and peace – so I thought. The thought of spending time with Jake, the eagerness to see him as often as possible excited me and just by looking at the selfies we took together puts a cheesy smile on my face. In all my excitement and fulfilment, I was still anxious for what the future holds. Because as much as I want our relationship to last, the fear of the power Bay has over my mind takes a toll of me. The more I tried to forget him, the more I kept on having him at the back of my mind. I haven’t seen or heard from the boy after the breakup. I’ve spent few days at home after my anxiety attack and he hasn’t showed up or tried to reach out – not even once. Well, one good thing his absence did for me is that i get to spend a lot of time with Jake while trying to replace every memories of him with the ones I’m currently building with Jake –
FATAL DESIRE Dangerous Games
Warning: This chapter contains BDSM “ Quit laying claims on my body” I said, studying the boy who’d completely destroy my and whose life I may destroy.He reached for my hand, entwining our fingers together “ you do realize that I need you, right?”“ That was not the impression you gave me. You said I needed you” I snorted.He ran a hand over his face and gently bite inside his lower lip. “ Stay with me. I want you to stay with me”“ Why? Fucking horny and want to fuck the hell out of me?” I stilled myself and Wrapped my arms around my chest. Unshaken and unmoving.“ No… no! Because I want you here with me – because I fucking need you”“ what about Claire? She saw us together” I curiously asked.“ she is nothing I can’t handle. I just want you, and I am not afraid to go after what I want anymore” he cupped the back of my neck and pulled me in for a kiss, but I refused to let him have control.I pulled back, my chest
FATAL DESIRE The Boy is mine
“Hailey! Hey! Hailey wait up, would you? I heard Emily calling out and running after me in the hall way. I had ignored her un purpose. I did not want to talk to her or anyone else following the scene I had created at school days back I avoided anywhere students are clustered. “Hailey hold up, I want to talk” she held my bag strap and I halted and turned my head to face her.“ I am running late for class. Can we do this later? I asked, shrugging her hands off.She swallowed and made to take my hand but I took a step back “please I would like to talk”“You have one minute” I said as my eyes flicked to connect with hers. They are devoid of any kind of emotions. “I want you to know that I have always been on your side” she said calmly.I didn’t wait for her to finish, i snorted and rolled my eyes. I slid out my phone from my jeans pocket and check the time “Your time is up
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FATAL DESIRE Prom Night Special
Bay and i made our way through the crowd. The coach placed a glittering crown on our head. Bay cleared his throat and looked at the audience.“ I really want to thank everyone who voted for my girl and I…” he paused as the crowd cheers and claps.“ Thank you all for a the love and support… and to my team members… Lions! You all are the best" he cleared his throat and fixed me into a heated gaze. " I have some good news to share…”The hall went quite. My heart began to palpate loudly. I have had too much surprises for one night… what the hell is he about to do this time again.?My eyes caught Emily’s and she beamed a smile. I gave her the tiniest shake of my head. Why so much surprises? If I had any idea that they'd plan all this for prom, I could have been more prepared. Bay took my hand. His eyes locked on mine. “I finally met someone who gets me. Someone I can't stop thinking about. Someone who lights up the whole room with her passion... Someone who tolerated all
FATAL DESIRE Her Fall, My Reign
“ I am going to deal with you. You feared me Tammy, you should still be scared because you are obviously not aware of what I’m capable of” Claire blew hot.“ feared? Past tense” Tammy smirked mockingly. She then starts circling around Claire like a vulture who's spotted a carcass on the ground. “ I think you should be afraid because I Know you. I know a lot about you Claire Gustavo”“ What do you know?” She scoffed“ You know, that I know – that you and Brad have been sleeping together. You begged me to keep it a secret, remember? even though you were with Bay. You cheated on him with his best friend. Very shameful” Tammy shook her head.The entire crowd erupted in a jaw dropping gasp. Eyes turned to Brad who is seated across the hall. “ what? Get my name out of your mouth bitch” Brad yelled out.Claire glances around her, eyes widening as she starts to real
FATAL DESIRE Prom With Some Drama
Soon, Tammy drove us to the venue. I couldn’t shake off the thought of seeing Bay in my head. I might drop dead in the ballroom if Bay is with Claire. Bay is obsessed with being popular, he may want to enter as the prom King with Claire as his Queen – which is totally understandable if he had told me about it instead of standing me up.“Shall we?” Emily’s voicedWe walked inside to find the atrium completely transformed. Even though I had little excitement in me it was a thrilling sight to behold. Everything about the hall screams A Night Under the Stars. I felt the baby inside of me leap in excitement as well and that made me smile. " I Know baby, it's so beautiful" I said under my breath, cradling my stomach.Tammy held my wrist and pulled me to a stop. “ Hailey, whatever you see in there, please do not breakdown. I want you to carry yourself like a queen. Don’t let anyone ruin this beautiful moment f
FATAL DESIRE Date To Prom
The day for senior prom was finally here and I was having double feelings about it. I didn’t want to go, not after everything that happened in this past few days. But Bay was very persistent. I didn't go to junior prom so I clearly have no idea of what being to prom feels like.losing virginity on prom night is a common plot point in some of the teen movies I’ve seen but that should be for those who are still virgins, right? To me, there was really nothing there for me. I never danced before, I never thought about dancing before, I am very conscious about dancing – so there is really nothing special about this day for me. It might be for the high school sweethearts who are waiting on this day to finally mate and lose their virginity together on prom night – like Emily and Tammy.“ I never would've made it through this year without you, Ems” I told Emily who was helping me sort cloths from my wardrobe. Weird. I forgot to shop for a new ball gown.“ silly, Y
FATAL DESIRE Bleeding Heart
I finished classes for the day and Emily catches up to me at my locker.“ What time are you leaving for Okhlay?” she asked.“ I’m waiting for Bay to finish his practice” my phone vibrated in my jeans pocket and I dropped my heavy backpack on the floor, leaning it against my leg for support. I Slid out my phone and saw that it was Jake. I’ve missed several calls from him as well “ Jake?” I was surprise he’s calling at 2pm when I already told him that we’d be in Okhlay by nightfall.I answered the call and it was Uncle George “ Hailey, come to Newton Hospital… now”“What’s wrong?” I asked but my question met a dead silent from the callers end.My blood ran cold as I tucked my phone into my pocket. There's no good reason why Uncle George would be calling me from Jake’s phone. I mean, he never called me before… i slammed my locker shut and followed Emily down the hall to the gym. From the tone of my voice, Bay sensed how worried I was and followed me outside the parking lot w
FATAL DESIRE Who Is Your Date To Prom?
I picked the call and the smile on my face disappeared immediately at what I saw. Jake looked small and exhausted, his skin pale and paper thin. I could not understand how he could’ve changed so much in such a short period of time. He smiled at me, but his smile was weak and straining “ how have you been, Psych?”I couldn’t smile, I couldn’t speak… I just stared at him through the phone screen. I held back the tears in my eyes. If I let even a single tear drop from my eyes, he’d know just how scared I was – I was dead scared. I couldn’t even recognize Jake. He was completely gone – the vibrant and all bubbly Jake I fell madly love with almost looked like he was vanishing.“ psych, did you get my gift?” he asked.“ yes… they are lovely. Thank you so much” “ I’m glad you like it. I couldn’t think of anything better, I’m sorry”&ldquo
FATAL DESIRE Cards That Lift Mood
Mrs. Gupta sat back and looked at us, her face inscrutable as she considered our proposal.“ Mrs. Gupta, the music club is fallen apart because of the way Claire has been running it as the president. You won’t tell me you don’t see what she’s doing or maybe you're just turning a blind eye. She has turned the club into a zone for bullying innocent students who just want to have the opportunity to share their talents – people like me. Those with frail heart who can't keep up with her insolent and rude behavior will only walk away. The Fothoman High Glee club can't keep losing young talented students because of one person"“ The club is fragile, and if you enter it for a competition in this state – I am sorry to say this Mrs. Gupta... But I don’t think Fothoman High Glee club will make 5th position, which will be very embarrassing” Tammy added.“ no one wants to be associated with failure… not even you. I
FATAL DESIRE Break-up
Bay looked at me closely and smirked “ the coach benched me for pushing Brad, he told me to catch up with my studies"“ This has nothing to do with me, right?” I asked, studying him closely. No matter how much he’d try to hide the difficulties he was facing at that point from me, his eyes would still give him away. He looks at me differently – he was avoiding eye contact. “Tell me the truth, how do you feel about this?” of course, I am pregnant, it's okay if he feels miserable.... Afterall, who'd want to be called a teen father?He narrowed his eyes and his eyebrows tugged inwardly “ he should not have spoken to you the way he did. He had no right to do that… I should have done something about Brad earlier” he held out his hand and I placed my hand in his palm. He squeezed my hand into his tightly. Oh? Okay - he isn't mad about the pregnancy. It was his altercation with Brad that set his mode off.I li
FATAL DESIRE All Things Coming Together For Good
Emily and I found posters for prom plastered all over the hallway while we were on our way to the gym where the basketball teams are practicing. “ What’s your plan for prom? Who is taking you?” Emily asked as she tore out one of the posters from the wall. “ Just add it to the list of things I’d be missing out in” “ Bay isn’t taking you? Girl, this is your time to shine on the dance floor. You finally have a boyfriend. That's the least he can do for you, to make up for all the times he was being a dick”“ I won’t ruin his chance of wearing that golden crown again. We all know how much he loves wearing the crown and Making a dramatic speech. I’d never take that away from him”We’ve barely walked into the gym when the ball Brad was chasing bounced and landed on my feet. He placed his leg on top of it to prevent it from rolling further and placed his hands on his hips as he bl
