Chapter 5: passout

Becky

I woke up the next morning and rubbed my eyes sleepily, I was shocked when I saw myself sleeping on the floor, it turned out I fell from the couch, last night I cried myself to sleep, I ended up sleeping in the living room all thanks to the hoodie I borrowed from one of the maids if not I would have catch a cold, and right now my whole body is aching me so bad. My eyes widened when I saw it was already 7:00 in the morning it's my first day as a housewife and I don't want my husband to go to work on an empty stomach, regardless of what happened yesterday, I’m still not going to fail in my wife duties I’m going to do my best to show him that I can be the wife he would be proud of.

I stood up immediately and made my way to the kitchen, I know we have a lot of maids but I still want to do this myself, I got to the kitchen and halted immediately I saw the scene before my eyes, the lady from last night was cooking food while Lucas was hiding her from the back as they both laugh together, 

I fought back my tears, I tried running out but no! This is my house I can't keep allowing outsiders to trample on me, I walked into the kitchen in anger and pulled that lady away from Lucas, 

“What do you think you're doing!?” Lucas yelled and dragged the lady back to his side

“Even after what you did to me yesterday, I still woke up to come make breakfast for you, and this is what you show me?” 

“And what were you expecting Becky? That we cuddle? Trust me you asked for this, I told you I don't want this marriage but you still forced your way and made me get married to you even when I don't want to, so whatever you see take it, this is who I am, you better get ready this is just the beginning” He scowled and took the ladies hand as they left the kitchen.

I couldn't control my tears anymore as I let them flow, why is he making everything so hard for me, I ended up finishing the meal they were making earlier and saved it at the dining, I sat at the dining and waited patiently for Lucas to come down, hours past and they were still not out

“Excuse me?” I said to one of the maids who was passing by, 

“Yes mam” She answered with a bowl

“Ehm, have you seen your boss this morning?”

“Yes ma, he left hours ago”

“He left?” 

“Yes he did ma” 

“Alright,” I said dejectedly and stood up, it turned out they left while I was making the breakfast, and I have been sitting here waiting in vain, I packed up the food and took them back to the kitchen. I walked back to the bedroom and saw that everywhere was messed up so I began cleaning by changing the sheets and taking out Lucas clothes that were littered on the floor. By the time I was done cleaning, I was already tired. I never did any cleaning back in my father's house, but here I’m willing to do anything for Lucas, I just hope that one day he will understand and accept my love, 

At this point my whole body was aching, especially because I slept on the cold floor last night. I decided to have a little bit of rest by lying on the bed. I laid down and was lost in thought, I need to find ways to get Lucas to love me, I was still in thought when sleep took over.

The clicking sound of the door woke me from sleep, I opened my eyes and saw Lucas standing by the door and this time no lady was with him, I was so happy 

“You’re back…” I said excited and stood to help him with his briefcase but he suddenly stopped me with a raise of his hand, 

“Have you taken your bath for today?” he asked with a disgusting look on his face

“No, but that was because….”

“Really Becky? How can you be so lazy and dirty at the same time, it's 4 pm and you're yet to have your morning bath and you had the guts to lay on my bed with that stinking body of yours! How can a woman be so dirty? You're a disgrace to women! I curse the day I married you”

I close my eyes taking in all the insults Lucas was throwing at me, 

“You didn't even want me to tell you the reason why I was sleeping” 

“Get out, you're not sleeping here tonight” 

“Lucas you can't do this to me, you can't keep chasing me away from our room”

“Trust me it's either you leave or watch me call one of my numerous girlfriends and you're going to watch us make out in your presence….”

“Fine! I’ll leave, can I at least take my bath first and change my clothes”

“No get out, you can do that in one of the guest rooms” 

“Lucas my clothes are only here”

“I don't care, Becky! I don't care how you're going to do it but that stinking and dirty body of yours will not smell my bathroom, take it elsewhere”

“Lucas……”

“Out…..!” He yelled, 

I nodded and slowly left the room in tears, I’ve never been disgraced like this in my entire life, why is he treating me this way, why is he making me feel so low of myself, even if I haven't bath since morning it's not like I’m smelling and it was not my fault, I slept on the bare floor and I was tired after arranging the room, I decided to take a nap but I ended up sleeping off, how is that my fault.

I got to one of the numerous rooms and entered the bathroom, I stripped off my clothes and broke down in tears, all my life I’ve never felt so insulted and downgraded like today, he insulted me to the point I became so ashamed of myself and cannot even stand it anymore, 

Why is he so hard to please, why does he keep finding fault in everything I do, this is just the first day of our marriage and I have already shed so many tears, 

I cried so hard that I wished the water can wash away my pain, my heart was broken, I was mentally and physically exhausted, I crumbled down to the floor of the bathroom hugging my knees to myself, and allowing the water splash all over me, I can feel my body burning hot even under the water, 

Hours passed and my temperature was becoming so hot, I tried standing up by holding the walls of the bathroom, my eyes suddenly became drowsy, I tried fighting back by keeping my eyes open, heart wrecking headache slammed in, my legs wobbled as dizziness swept over me, and slowly I fell as everything blacked out.