Chapter 7: The cold

Becky

He left the mansion after turning me into a total mess, I couldn't stand up I have never been this insulted in my entire life, the maids and guards all stood watching me in pity, I felt so ashamed of myself, I hid my face in shame as I staggered up from the ground, I was burning up so bad, I wobbled on my step and one of the maids rushed to help me but I stopped her

“Don't…don’t come close please” I pleaded in a hoarse voice, I was looking like a total mess while I managed to find my way upstairs, at this point my tears were flowing on their own, I entered the bathroom, and broke down in tears, 

I was crying so loud and hard, hoping my pains could go away, I never knew loving someone was going to hurt this much, I felt like my heart were about to shatter, my emotions were overflowing, I cried till I couldn't cry anymore, I was hiccupping as my tears mixed with my running nose, I’m just twenty do I deserve this pain, 

I didn't know for how long I stayed and cried in the bathroom, right now my body was burning so ticking hot, even though I was in the jacuzzi I could feel the water was burning hot, and that's when I remembered I had not taken my drugs because I was so excited to celebrate Lucas birthday, 

I tried standing up to climb out of the jacuzzi but I was already getting so weak, I knew I had to try and stand up or I might pass out in the jacuzzi, I managed to stand up from the jacuzzi by holding the edge, I was able to climb out, I wrapped a towel around my body with my hands shaking terribly, heavy cold slammed in as soon as I came out if the jacuzzi, I could feel my vision becoming blurry but I still manage to get out of the bathroom by holding onto the walls and door.

I got to the room and staggered to the closet I was able to pick a gown which I wear, but at this point, I could barely see, it was like my vision was being altered, I was shivering in cold, painful headache was almost making me go crazy and to top it all my visions were so blurry that I could barely see, I tried walking back to the bed, but I missed a step and fell

“Ouch….I winced in pain but I could barely hear myself, my voice was so weak, my whole body was weak, I couldn't stand up anymore, I started crawling my way, searching for the bed, after almost losing my sight and using my hand to search, I can finally feel the bed frame, I couldn't climb the bed, I managed to pull down the sheet as I laid on the bare floor and covered myself with it, I was shivering in cold, and the cold floor was not helping but I had no other choice, 

A lot of thoughts were going through my mind, am I going to die, what if no one comes in to save me, I don't want to die, I can't give up on Lucas, I still need him, I need him to love me, I need him to see that I can be worthy of his love, I need him to see that my age shouldn't be a barrier to our love, I want to be strong for Lucas, I want to endure this pain for him, 

“You can do this Becky, you're a fighter, don't give up, be strong, especially for Lucas he would definitely love us one day, didn't give up on him, hold onto fate” I kept on chanting these words to myself to get the strength I needed,

But the more I chanted it the more weaker I become it was like my own fate was against me too, but I’m not giving up, I removed the sheet as I managed to draw to the dressing table, my phone was lying on it, with shaky hands, I manage to grab my phone and went bent to cover myself with the sheet, I was shivering so hard, I could barely understand what was happening to me, 

My teeth were clashing and clasping against each other, I unlocked my phone using my fingerprint, and Lucas number was the first number on my list, I dialed his line several times but he wasn't picking up, 

I couldn't hold on anymore, I was at the edge of slipping in, I began to type a message for him

“Ple…ase com..e ba..ck home, I’m dying” I managed to press on sent button

I backed out.