Angelo
Song : Dermot Kennedy - Moments passed
I looked at Cleo and placed my palm underneath her chin and kissed her gently . She kissed me back and wrapped her arms around my waist. It felt so good to hold her and not be at war with her . I leaned down and whispered;
"I am so sorry Bella."
She hugged me and let me go. She looked at me lips swollen and skin flushed. I could tell because her skin tone had changed slightly and I could smell her perfume . She hadn't changed from using ; J'adore by Dior , she also used the blooming range during warmer days . Her stuff was still in our bathroom in both our penthouse and house.
" It's okay. I get that you are frustrated and hurt. I did say thank you for being with me during recovery. You just wanted things to go back to the way they were and they can't . If I loved you then ; I hope to still love you when a part of me comes back . "
I nodded and kissed her forehead.
"Okay."" Okay you'll give it time or okay I'm still moody?"I moved away from Cleo and chuckled .
"The first option."
I walked around my desk to retrieve her bag and phone, and placed them at the corner of the desk and moved back to my chair. Cleo walked and retrieved her stuff .
"Thank you."
"Friends ?"
She nodded and smiled.
"Friends."
I was curious about her relationship with Marc , so I asked her a question;
"How long have you known Marc for?"" Fair question. Since diaper days."" That long?"She strapped her bag on her shoulder and nodded doing something on her phone." He was my brother's best friend. He weirdly enough dated someone with the same name as you. "I took a deep breath and massaged my temples. Do I tell her or don't I. The last time she found out was through my mother and she was normal about it."Cleo I am Bi. I swing both ways. "Cleo looked up at me with calm and understanding."Okay . So did you at some point date Marc?""I ..."Before I could finish Blake walked in and Cleo saw it as a chance to leave." Thanks for returning my bag. See you on Friday .Bye Blake see you at Karaoke Night this Wednesday."Cleo walked out and I felt sad again . I looked up and Blake looked at me about to laugh." You know you deserved whatever she threw at you right?"" What for taking her bag ?""Yes you crazy man. She will get her memory back . She remembered Aaron.""Yeah. Invite me to Karaoke night.""Please ...Like you can sing .""Blake I am a Massa . I can sing .""Before you go to sleep make Cleo a playlist maybe that might help. You really hurt her feelings her memory will return. She had one of those headaches..."" Tell you what; I will surprise her with dinner and that Chocolate cake she loves so much.""Now we are talking. "Blake looked at his phone and smiled at me." what?"" She just sent me a text to keep her box of things for her till Friday. "" Tell her you will bring it tomorrow morning at eight ."Blake nodded"You owe me one boss. It's confirmed. "I turned around with my chair and smiled"Fun fact... ""what?""I can cook I just need Tulips delivered to her apartment . I am getting my baby back."" That's it boss. Me and my alter ego thought we lost you.""Get out go back to work."***************By the time it was dark outside I was done with everything that needed to be done. I wanted to go see the twins and spend some much needed time with them. When I picked up the phone to call Cleo's mother she told me that; my father had come by in the morning to come, and pick them up. My mother was out of the province. She went to Cape Town last week on business ; the resort had extra cabins built for the influx of tourists it has during peak season. I knew my father was at the Villa because Gia was there ,she was the twins' nanny. I was still not on speaking terms with him and I knew I couldn't avoid him forever. I drove out the parking bay and pulled into the road and drove to the Villa . As soon as I entered I went to the kitchen to get a can of grape juice. I have been sober for the past four months and I wasn't taking any sleeping pills or drinking alcohol." I poured myself a glass and took out my underutilized phone and checked my messages . I had a messages from Cleo ; Paul and my father. I knew Paul was going to throw a bro fit about what I did and I wasn't in the mood. My dad's message was to inform me that he had the twins and that he was at home. I took a sip of my juice and opened Cleo's messages . They read;" I'm sorry.""Please pick up so that I can explain myself.""I am done call me when you are ready to talk and stop acting like a two year old who had their favorite toy taken away for bad behavior . "I chuckled at the last message because she was telling the truth. I called her and her phone rang.
" Massa ?"She sounded sleepy and tired."Hey sweetheart . I am so sorry."" What did you finally discover how to use your cell phone ,and bother me at ten in the evening?"She sounded irritated ." I am trying to apologize for what happened last week. "" wow .""Cleo..."" I am still freaked out that I was in a relationship with you; had kids with you , and oh almost and I mean almost said ;I do. I only asked you to be patient with me and you lost it.""I didn't know how else to feel ,or react I snapped yes ...""It's not for the first time. You have anger issues Angelo. "" You have a tendency to be passive aggressive and moody."" The moody part comes with the territory. You scared me . I just had another one of those dreams. ""A memory?""Yes Blue a memory. "My heart skipped a beat."You just called me Blue..."" You had a gun pointed at me ."" I don't know why you are remembering all the bad stuff."" I don't know what triggered it either. You walked out on me at the hospital when you found out I was pregnant with the twins. You even kissed Jane. My best friend!""I am so sorry Bella I really am. Let me make it up to you. ""Angelo I am still shook."Shame what she must be going through. I have been such a mean person. I love her so much." Please forgive me."I sniffled and wiped a tear off my face"Angelo... "She took a deep breath and I heard sniffles on the other side too she was crying too." You know what ... I am trying ."Cleo sniffled again and she started talking through her sobs"So am I but it's hard when I can only remember the bad. "I hung up and threw the phone across the counter and I didn't hear it land on the floor. I placed my hands in my palms and for the first time since the night I thought my mother had died and I caused the accident. I cried. I felt a strong pair of arms cradle my head and I just cried . No matter how much shit we've gone through he has always come through for me and instead of thanking him I am always at war with him." oh figlio ,quando mi fai male, fa male anche a me." ( oh son , when you hurt it hurts me too .)All Rights Reserved © #KCMmuoe
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Angelo Braxton Hicks… I didn’t know anything about it , until Cleo happened. To be honest when Nina was pregnant with Gio ; I was absent … until the birth and the lie I refused to believe when I was told Giovanni wasn’t mine. I have a fear that has haunted me for years. I wasn’t on edge or “weak” . I used to be strong. Something happened to me and I guess it affected my mother more than it affected me. She has no reason to hate Cleopatra or my kids. I am thankful that Cleo is okay ,and another thing I am thankful for is that I get to spend time with her. I have been working from the resort. If ot means staying with Cleo and the twins in a remote area in the country , that is not even locatable on the gps… then yes I am staying. It was already Wednesday and by this time in the week Cleo is done with everything regarding Client lists and shipments. Even scheduled posts. Last night Daniel and Izzy came through for dinner and the twins loved them . I wanted to tuck in Pio but he
Cleo I don't know what happened one minute I was talking to Blue, and the next it felt like I was in labour. The last time I felt like this was a couple of months before I gave birth . This pain however felt severe . It was sharp and it also had me worried. Daniel was a doctor by profession . When I looked at Angelo he too also looked afraid as I felt. He didn't cry in front of people but he was close to tears . The resort had a hospital inside. It was a thirty minute drive from where we were. I knew the twins were well taken care of. I was worried about our baby. Angelo was in confession mode the whole ride . He told me that he was eves dropping and he was just making sure his ex wouldn't seduce me . On the other hand I was all emotional and I was crying . As soon as we went into the maternity ward a full check up was done. When Dan stepped out to go get my results Angelo came in looking all sorts of worried. He sat beside me and gave me a hug. I hugged him back and took a deep breat
Angelo As a kid I used to love dinner parties; because I used to take alcohol, not steal because I drank with Luigi. We were and still are partners in crime. Even though we fought and still fight , we are two peas in a pod. On Thursday night dinner was awesome. The even had non- alcoholic wine. My shock wasn't as severe as before when I saw Daniel, and spoke to him. He looked like the male version of Cleo who I was still missing so badly . There was another dinner on Friday night and I didn't feel like going . Luigi talked me into going and he even gave me his suit. He was Daniel's half brother . I had to wrap my head around the bomb he dropped and I had only agreed to go to the dinner party , on condition I wasn't going to be left alone, because there was alcohol and my demons were itching to come out and play. The thing addiction is that you can't really get it out of your system . Addiction replaces addiction. When I had a talk with Daniel he asked me ; if Cleo was my drug? After
CleoThis has been the longest two weeks I've ever had. The kids seem to like it here because they fall asleep easily and they stick to their play schedule. Pio and Pia love my brother. When I went over to go fetch them , they didn't want to come back with me to the house . I have already met Romano who told me that I should work for him on a part time basis . I would be doing the same work I did at Massa but with more pay. I could still work for Massa and him at the same time. To be honest this is the first time in a while that; I could hear myself think clearly and feel at peace. I even asked myself if I really wanted to be with Angelo after what we've been through ...On Thursday night there was a dinner party and I didn't feel like going. Izzy convinced me to go to tonight's dinner and I was honestly feeling fat. We went shopping and I found a shift dress that was printed with flowers. The dress was black and the flowers were purple . It looked like the Iris's on the dress were pai
Two weeks laterIt's already October and by now I thought I; Cleo was going to have my last name, and I would make up for messing up with our first pregnancy. She already caught me out when we found out she was three months pregnant , when I indirectly insinuated that she was cheating on me . Even when I knew she would never do what Nina did. I woke up this morning feeling sad. I was now staying with my father and working from home. After Cleo called me I when I was at Carl's , she made sure I was okay and that I wasn't going to do anything stupid. If I was the old me I would have already been with another girl... I can't and I won't disrespect my relationship with Cleo. I love her and I don't want anybody else. Everything I do reminds me of her. She has been calling everyday to make sure I am okay, and keep me in the loop about what's going on with the kids...I even got to talk to Pio and Pia. As far as baby talk goes I am almost getting it. It took a a couple of days to wrap my hea
Cleo was there at the beach house ; but it was an underground tunnel system . As soon as we made it under ground, we came out the other side and there was a speed boat waiting for us . I could still hear gun shots going off in the distance and the only thing that mattered to me was the safety of my unborn baby. I didn’t want to stress or panic . I did as I was told by Daniel and he never left my side not even once . When we finally docked we went into a car and we were driven to a beach house property . The property looked familiar and my perception didn’t fail me. This was a Luca residential area . As soon as I was settled in what looked like a private beach house with ocean views that were breathtakingly beautiful because of the risen full moon I was given some Chai tea by one of the maids and my brother told me that he would be in the beach house next door to mine . I had a fully stocked kitchen with the option of going to the main house for breakfast ; lunch , and dinner and what
Angelo Missing the missing I seriously don't understand anything when things go wrong. For the past couple of months I have been through a lot. My fiancé is missing and I don't know where the hell she is . I want her back home with the kids.I sent a crew over to where we tracked her down and I am still waiting for a response. Fabio told me that he was baffled as to why they left Cleo with accessories on. I was driving inside the estate towards the house. I wanted to see my babies and assure them everything will be okay . When I arrived at the house ; the lights were on and the door looked like it was broken. My initial reaction was to call Carl because I cannot be attacked twice in one day. If you attack anyone I love you attack me and I always fight back and make sure the same thing doesn't happen again. I knew in my heart that Cleo was missing, but before I decide to fight; I needed to make sure that my kids were safe. Gia wasn't picking up her phone when I called on the way back
CleoDANIEL My head feels heavy; my tongue has lost the ability to move , and my voice the ability to speak. I am alive .... Thank God I am alive . I don't feel like I am tied up; but I am in a room that has ;no clock , no light , the air conditioning was on but I felt cold . I slowly opened my eyes and took in my surroundings . I was pretty sure I was kidnapped because Angelo's security isn't this brutal unless it's by instruction from Angelo himself. The shutters on the windows blocked any source of light so it felt like I was in a room that felt like a prison; but didn't seem like one . I really needed to go to the toilet because I needed to pee .With the twins my bump was already showing by the three months and I had nausea throughout my first and second trimester. I already miss my babies and Angelo. I have to find a way out of here .I wasn't tied up ,but the room had a four post bed ... and thank goodness I spotted the bathroom. on my way there I spotted my ring and pendant. I