"Hoy! Okay ka lang ba?" Panggugulat ni Jangkit at kalaunan ay ngumisi sabay tingin sa akin na may malisya. "Bakit ka namumula, ha? Ikaw kung saan saan na siguro napadpad imahinasyon mo, ano?"
"Hindi ah! Ikaw talaga kung ano ano ang pinagsasabi mo!" Tanggi ko at lumayo ng bahagya sa kaniya. Binilisan ko ng kaunti ang paglalakad pero hinahabol niya ako. "Sus, ini-imagine mo sigurong lumalambitin ka sa braso ni Rafus, ano? Ikaw gaga ka, mahalay ka na ha!""Iyang bibig mo Jangkit, pasmado!" Dinuro ko siya at bahagyang napairap."Iyang utak mo kinumbulsyon!" Ganti niya pabalik at pagdesisyunan kong huwag nalang patulan baka kung saan pa kami umabot.Nakasalubong na namin sina Dom at nadaanan na namin si Dani sa stall nila. We spent our time having fun. We have taken uncountable solo and group photos on photo booths. We ate different foods, stalls could offer. I really am full after all of those foods and drinks we consumed. May nadaanan kaming souvenir"Ate, gano'n ka na ba kabigo para magpatugtog ng pambigong kanta buong araw?" Pambulabog ni Shey at pumasok ng kwarto ko para patayin ang speaker."Alangan namang magpatugtog ako ng budots ngayong wasak ako?" Napabusangot ako at napahiga ulit sa kama."Tinanong ka po sa akin nina Ate Crezst noong isang araw, Ate." Panimula ni Shey matapos ang mahabang katahimikan. Naramdaman ko ang paglubog ng kama sa gilid ko. "Wala naman akong masabi kasi hindi ko alam kung nasaan ka pero mukhang nag-alala sila sa'yo."Dalawang araw na ang nakalipas mula noong Valentine's Day, naalala ko na bago ako lumabas ng school ay pinatay ko ang cellphone at hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko parin nabubuksan.Recalling what happened deepens the wound and doubled the pain. I never knew he's still grasping my past relationships and used it as basis of my feelings for him.I took advantage of my parent's absence that night and I cried my heart out. I just couldn't accept i
The bell rang for lunch time. My friends are discussing if where we are going to eat and even though the majority votes isn't favor to my side to eat lunch at the cafeteria, I still agree and just heave a sigh.Habang naglalakad kami sa corridor ay doon ko lamang binuksan ang cellphone ko. My eyes widened and almost dropped my phone in shock when I was welcomed by seventy missed calls and a hundred fifty texts from different persons.Gusto ko sanang basahin ang lahat pero sa tingin ko ay pare-pareho lang naman ang laman ng mensahe mula sa mga kaibigan ko. Tinadtad nila ako Jangkit, Crezst, Dani at Helen tungkol kay Rafus kaya medyo nawalan ako ng gana na basahin ang mensahe mula sa kanila.Nagpadesisyunan ko nalang na basahin ang text mula kina Jishu at Lavigne.Jishu:Are you going to watch the band later? We're going to perform. And I'll treat you after that.Lavigne:I didn't see you with your friends. Where are you r
"Good morning everyone! I have the list of pairs for Senior Ball with me. It'll be posted for a while," anunsiyo ng isang teacher namin.Mga ilang minuto kaming naghintay bago idinikit ang listahan sa mga poll. Nasipagsiksikan ang mga estudyante para makatingin maging sina Jangkit. Nanatili akong nakaupo sa hagdan dahil sa sakit ng puson ko.Sina Lowell at Dom ay nasa kabila kasama ang iilang lalaki. May mga hawak silang cellphone at minsan ay nagsisigawan sila. Probably playing e-games. Hindi pa sila bumabalik ni Crezst at wala akong masuyo na pumunta sa clinic. I've got no choice but to contact one person I have in mind... Jishu.I'm hesitant but my lower abdomen is fucking in pain that makes me do it. This is what I hate during my period! Sumasakit ang puson at nangangalay ang balikawang ko.Ako:Jishu? Are you at school?Jishu:Yes. I'm here at my department, why? Miss me?Ako:Could I ask
The event's day came. The teachers and faculty of Senior High is busier than ever. Halos wala na kaming pasok kanina at konti lang ang lutong pagkain sa cafeteria dahil busy ang ibang cooks sa pagluluto ng pagkain sa school kitchen para mamaya.Alas tres palang ay pinauwi na ang lahat ng high school students. Para narin makahanda kaming mga seniors sa event.I wore an navy blue off shoulder cocktail dress with a slit on the left. I finish off with glittery silver strap stilettos. I fixed my hair in a bun and intentionally left some strands of my hair in both sides. I applied make up that highlighted more of my physical features, especially my eyes. I brought the black purse and sprayed minimal amout of perfume Auntie Yuri gave me. The Senior Ball will start at seven and I'm ten minutes advance. While walking at the red carpeted floor at the center, I can't help to not admire the simply of the venue.The venue is a little dim but enough to highlight the beauty of the decorations. The
Almost two weeks had passed since the Senior Ball happened, Rafus and I never crossed paths. This thought may be absurd but I kinda feel relieve and happy.After I walked out from him that night, I still forced myself to return to the event. Pinakisamahan ko siya pati ang mga kasamahan ko sa mesa kahit na hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko. I couldn't bear the atmosphere between me and Rafus, fortunately I manage to stay a little longer. The atmosphere is damn suffocating and awkward, luckily they didn't notice it, especially Crezst.I'm sure she'll report it our remaining friends whose table is far from us. If that happens, our GC will be bombarded with chats coming from my overreacting friends.It's also unexpected for me to receive the Head Turner of the Night award, I was really shocked when they called my name. Crezst's again received the Best Dress of the Night.The King and Queen of the Ball is Rafus and Aurora. Sayang-saya si Aurora nang gabi
"I'll be lying to myself if I'll say no."I continued walking subsequently till I reached the library's exit. Doon na ako tuluyang nakahinga ng maluwag. Nanghihina ang tuhod ko at parang hinigop ang natitirang lakas ng buong katawan ko.This is the first time we talked to each other after Senior Ball. It felt so awkwardly odd and uncomfortable. I couldn't blame the atmosphere since the gap between us isn't that easy to fix for now.I came back from cogitating as I felt the vibration in my pocket. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko at laglag ang panga habang nakapako ang tingin sa text mula kay Jishu.Jishu:Huh? What foods? Wala akong dalang pagkain kanina nang makita kita sa library.Ako:Hindi ba sa'yo galing ang isang plastik ng pagkain na nakapatong sa upuan ko? May note pang nakalagay.Jishu:Slaine, I don't know what you're talking about. What plastic? What note? I left because I don't to disturb you anym
"Mareng Slaine, ang ganda mo dito oh!" Ani Jangkit saka pinakita ang pinost ko sa social media."Maganda lang siguro ang lighting."Bumusangot siya sa sagot ko at mahina hinila ang buhok ko. Napadaing ako at nang makabawi ay dahan dahan kong hinagod ang ulo. "So, required manakit kapag masama ang loob?" May bahid ng sarkasmo ang boses ko."Bias ng photographer ng mga babae, mabulunan sana siya ng marshmallows." Rinig kong bulong niya. Umismid siya at ibinalik ang atensiyon sa hinahawakang cellphone.Napailing ako at ibinalik ang tingin kila Crezst sa harapan. Nanatili kami doon sa gym hanggang sa natapos sila Crezst at nagyaya si Dani na umuwi na.Kinabukasan ay maaga akong nagising para maghanda ng agahan. Today's our Graduation Day. Sila Nanay at Tatay ay naghahanda narin dahil pareho silang dadalo sa pagtatapos ni Shey ngayong umaga.I also want to attend her moving up but I have to prepare myself for later. They got
"Nakapagdesisyon ka na ba kung saan ka mag-aaral ng college?"Napabuntong-hininga ako sa tanong ni Helen. Nakaupo kami ngayon sa bleachers ng open gym at kaming lima lang ang narito. Nanonood kami ng praktis ng basketball nina Dom, Lowell at iba pang manlalaro para sa Sports Fest ngayong Miyerkules."Hindi ko pa nga alam," pagtatapat ko at sabay inilapag ang plastic envelope na ang nilalaman ay mga importanteng papel ko at card. "I'm trying to reconsider PSU and SAC, but I do think WeSaS is the preferable choice.""Doon ka nalang sa Aklan State University, Slaine. Para magkasama tayo! Pwede ka namang maka-avail ng scholarship mula kay Mayor.""Ikaw Dani, saan ka mag-aaral?" Lumingon si Crezst sa kaniya."Luluwas na kasi kami ng Manila ngayong darating na May at hindi ko pa alam kung saan ako mag-aaral. Siguro sa UP Diliman, basta kung anong university lang ang malapit sa lugar namin doon."I heaved a sigh after realizing things.
"Baby..." I heard Rafus spoke and I felt his presence in the bathroom.I stayed silent and acted oblivious. I don't want to talk with him at the moment because I know it'll end with screaming and fighting."Let's talk, I'll explain everything to you." His voice is cooing, and I just found him behind my back. His clothes are already soaking wet but he didn't left not until I faced him."Later... let's do that later." I said almost a whisper."No," he shook his head. The wet shirt is tracing his built. "We have to settle this now. I don't think I can last another second knowing something's off between us."My lips remain in thin line. I'm staring at him because I'm waiting for the words that will come out his mouth."That night when you finally gave me and our relationship another chance, kagagaling ko lang no'n mula sa dinner kasama ang pamilya ko at pamilya ni Aurora." He sighed and held my waist. His eyes were pleading and fille
"Be with me," Rafus whisper to my ears.The sunlight's already spreading everywhere, yet we're still here lying on my bed, both naked beneath my comforter.I hummed then buried my face more on his chest. "Where to?"He tightens the hug before kissing the top of my head. "Palawan. I brought a vacation house from Sienna, and I wanted to visit it with you."Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya. I don't think I can get used to his handsomeness that will welcome me when I wake up in the morning. "Kailan ba ang plano mong bumisita roon?""Two days from now. Is that alright with you? We'll just fix what we needed to be fixed in the corporation, then I'll ask Rojas or Amadeus to look after the business for a while."I gasped audibly and blinked twice. "You're still friends with Amadeus?""Baby, what are you talking about? Of course, I'm still friends with Amadeus." Natawa si Rafus at inangat ang pang-itaas na katawan para kubabawan
I groaned when my clock alarmed loudly. I covered my face with the blanket, hoping that my sleepiness would visit me again, but failed.Marahan kong iminulat ang mata ko at ngayon ko lang natanto na walang sinag na tumatama sa mga mata ko dahil natatakpan ng kurtina ang sliding glass door na nakakonekta sa balkonahe.Natutop ko ang labi nang maalalang sa sofa ako kagabi, papaanong nandito na ako ngayon sa kwarto? I scanned myself, and I also found out that I'm wearing comfortable cotton oversize shirt, not my office clothes.I shook my head. Damn he's doing this again! Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. It's beating wildly as if something triggers my system to feel those feelings again.I climbed off my bed then help my way towards the bathroom and fixed myself ready for work. Hindi na ako nag-abalang magluto ng agahan dahil dadaan nalang ako sa café mamaya."Good morning."My heart leaped. Kalalabas ko lang ng apartment ay siya agad an
I fixed the belt on my trouser and left the two buttons of my long sleeve top open. I wore tube beneath, so I won't get to receive any lewd stares from anyone.Napakurap-kurap ako nang lumuhod si Rafus at siya mismo ang nagpasuot ng ankle strap sandals sa akin. I felt the gentleness as he held my feet and carefully assuring that the strap was perfectly locked."Rafus, don't treat me like this please..." I said almost begging.I don't want him to treat me like I'm valuable. Damn, I don't want to get hurt by the same person again! Nawasak ako dati at ayokong mawasak ulit. His gestures and the way he treat me brings the feelings I used to feel for him."Let's clearly draw the line. I don't have any hang ups with you, and yes, we had sex. I think that's normal for us, don't try putting another meaning of what happened last night when it's clearly lust and sexual desire."His expression became stoic and later, he laughed at himself. "Damn, bab
We're both silent the whole ride. I refuse to utter a word because I'm trying hard to control myself after remembering all the memories we had here, and Rafus' perfume never change over the years.Damn, even if I don't admit it, I know to myself that I still have hangs up for him.I don't know where Rafus is taking me. Nagdrive thru lang kami ng pagkain tapos tumulak uli kami. I looked at my wristwatch, it's nearing five thirty already."Seriously speaking, where are you taking me Rafus?""You'll see, we're almost there, just hang on for few minutes."I sighed and shut my mouth. He won't tell me, period. Why did I kept on trying since earlier then? Rafus' unbending, what's new about it?After an hour of driving, finally the car stopped. I didn't wait for Rafus' cue and help myself got out of the car."What are we doing here?" I seriously asked him with my arms crossed over my chest.Kalalabas niya lang ng kotse
"Come in," he announces and after a moment, a guy enter his office."Mr. Cattaneo, I'm here to inform you that the partition and curve table is already here. We'll just going to install it here in your office."Rafus nodded, "Okay, and do finish it as fast as you can."Naalerto ako nang hawakan ni Rafus ang kamay ko at pinagsiklop iyon. Nakita ko rin ang pagsulyap ng employee sa kamay naming dalawa kaya ginapang ako ng kaba at nagpupumilit na kumalas."Do inform me if you're done," Rafus formally said to the guy and swiftly picked my handbag on the floor.Lumabas kami ng opsina at doon ako nagkaroon ng lakas loob para lagyan ng puwersa ang pagwaksi ko sa kamay kong hawak niya."It's working hours," I said, not taking my eyes off him. "I believe you do know how to separate personal relationship with work, Mr. Cattaneo."He flashes that smirk, making me feel annoyed. "Well that principle works depending where my woman
I blink couple of times before slowly opening my eyes to adjust to the light that passes through the slightly open curtain.I groaned as I felt pain in my head like it's been hammered multiple times. I travelled my eyes to the whole room and fear starting creeping in my system.This is not my room!I touched my body and that's when I finally felt at ease. Thank God I'm still fully-clothed.I spend few moments of ransacking my head to find answer why I'm here in someone's room, but I only remember that I'm with Ma'am Claireen in the club last night!Before I could finally recognize the familiar scent that fills in the whole room, the door push open and a man step in, making my jaw drop in shock and confusion."Oh, you're awake now..." He calmly said and I got distracted by the sweats dripping from his forehead.I cleared my throat, "Where am I? And why I am here with you?"Mariin siyang napatingin sa akin at doon
"What are you doing here?" My brows furrow and my blood starts to boil. He didn't answer, he just remain there, standing while looking calm and collected.I took a deep breath and almost rolled my eyes on him. Kinuha ko ang grocery bags na nakalapag at binuksan ang pinto ng apartment ko saka bastang pumasok pero bago ko pa iyon maisara, pinigilan iyon ng malakas na kamay."Ano ba'ng problema mo?" Pinigilan ko ang sarili na huwag siyang pagtaasan ng boses.Titig na titig siya mga mata ko at hindi ko magawang umiwas. I can see exhaustion, pain, and longing in his eyes. In a snap, he invited himself in. He took the grocery bags from my hold and shamelessly walked towards my kitchen."Seriously, Rafus? What are you trying to do? Why are you doing this?" I followed him to my kitchen and took the grocery bag to place it on my countertop.I was taken a back when he wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his head between my neck and shoulder
I paid the driver a yellow bill and didn't wait for my change. Lumabas ako ng sasakyan dala-dala ang dalawang duffel bag. Hindi naman siguro ako mukhang haggard mula sa flight dahil malaki ang tiwala ko sa simpleng make-up na inilagay ko sa mukha.I'm wearing a matching plaid trouser and blazer, a black tube top, then white shoes. This is often my office attire, and I never got any complain from my fellow workmates or from Mr. Sorrento.Hindi ako pinigilan ng security guard nang basta-basta akong pumasok. Sa dalawang taon ko ba namang pagtatrabaho dito sa incorporated ay hindi nila ako nakilala."Ms. Aranza!" Gulat na bungad ng receptionist. "Naparito po kayo?"Tipid akong ngumiti, "May problema lang sa resignation ko. Uhm—pwede bang maiwan ko muna dito sa ground floor ang mga duffel bag ko?""Uh sige po," nakangiti niyang tugon at sumenyas sa security guard kaya madaling naipasok sa loob ang workplace ng receptionist ang bags ko.