"I FUCKED UP... I MESSED UP. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID"Then I went straight to my room after sending that text. I didn't even take off her clothes.. I just laid in bed with them and touched my lips.. then I couldn't help but replay the kiss in my head. How amazing and soft her lips felt on mine. How I didn't want it to stop. I didn't know how I felt now because at that moment I knew I didn't want it to stop. It took me to a place I never thought existed. But now, now I was back to my senses and thinking not only about me but also about everyone involved. Paris.. Nash.. God Nash. How were things going to be between Tee and I? I mean we didn't talk all the way till she dropped me off and I told her to drive safe. She zoned out the entire drive. She was probably thinking the same, probably wondering about my sister since they were in a relationship. I was also worried about Nash. I loved him and this was just confusing. Luna finally arrived after what felt like a year of waiting and s
The following day started off well with me waking up cuddled up with my best friend. I looked at my phone and my heart sank when I didn't see any text or a missed call from Tee. I was praying she'd at least text when she got home, but that obviously didn't happen. It kinda freaked me out coz it didn't look good. I debated whether or not to actually call her and ask her but fear of her rejecting my call kinda stopped me.I sighed and went to the bathroom to take a bath. I had school to look forward to and I was tired as fuck. The talk with Luna had us sleeping after midnight, that's after she sucked everything that happened yesterday out of me...including every word uttered by Tee's mom to me. I know, my best friend is a noisy bitch.. but I love her and would not trade her for anything.After my quick shower I went to put on my jeans and a golf t-shirt. I honestly didn't care how I looked right now. I just wanted to be in and out of school. And I needed to paint this week. I haven't
On Friday things started okay. I bathed and went to make breakfast so I can head over to the studio. I pushed myself yesterday and convinced me that I had to actually paint something. No matter what it is, as long as it's something. The front door opened and I sighed, "Freya I alw...." I stopped mid sentence when I realized it wasn't my roommate but my sister. "Paris.. what are you doing here?" "You're avoiding me and my calls." I shrugged and took a bite on the bread I was holding, "okay..?""Mimi we gotta fix things..." My body froze at her calling me that. Only Tawny and my late father use that name.. and sometimes Luna. Paris hated it because it probably remind her of our parents. "Fix with what? How much do you have to throw at me this time? I could use with some cash..." She looked at me for a while without saying anything. For a second I swear she was going to take out her phone and transfer me money. But she cleared her throat and asked, "do you umh.. need money? How mu
TAWNYIn the afternoon I got back to my place tired from training. I went straight up stairs thinking I needed a shower and my bed. I quickly went to shower first....My week truly got very busy and I appreciated that because I think I'd have went insane had I had nothing to do. Since I came back from my mom I've just been caught up with meetings and training and visiting the stores to see how everything was. That allowed me to stay busy and not think about a lot of things. Lately I've been ignoring people, literally everyone because my feelings and thoughts were all over the place I felt like I couldn't get ahold of myself. I got out of the shower and applied lotion on my body and suddenly the smell of my lotion reminded me of someone. How she used to say she smells like me all the time after bathing and using my staff. I found myself smiling involuntarily. How she always sniffs around my neck whenever I give her a hug. That became a habit and I kinda missed it..but I couldn't..
Thursday came within a blink of an eye and I went to train as usual. Paris texted me saying she was having a hard time with what was happening between her and her sister. I told her not to give up but to just give her time. Amora has always been alone and now that Paris realized it, she was hurting. She needed time to forgive and get back to being her old self. Later on after training I was tired as fuck like always and drove inside my yard. I furrowed my brows when I saw my lights on. Did I leave them on in the morning? I mean I wouldn't put it past me to have because I seriously was thinking about a lot of shit in my head.I opened my garage and drove in. I went straight to the kitchen door and unlocked it. Then I heard the TV..Fuck! Olivia not tonight.I walked in regardless and came in view with her drinking my beer, eating my food and laughing at something on tv again... I threw my sports bag on the couch and she turned to me giving me a look I couldn't read. She got up and put
I sat down and the waitress came again and took our drink orders.. I ordered for Paris too. "So... how have we been..?" Nash asked again and I was about to talk when another set of heels walked in. Those were strong and I definitely knew who they belonged to. Paris didn't even wait for me to get up and pull her chair out. She quickly pulled my face and placed a wet kiss on my face then looked at me, "sorry I'm late.."Then she turned to Nash and Mimi and so did I. Goodness the look I saw on Mimi was different from the one she walked in with. She looked so uneasy. "Hey guys.. so great you could make it.." Paris said looking at her sister and the young girl sighed and mumbled, "didn't have a choice.." "Thank you Paris.. means a lot that you invited us here.." Nash said totally oblivious to what her girlfriend hammered. I had no idea what to think of that or her sudden change of behavior. Does this mean she didn't want to be here? "So.. how have you guys been and what were you doing
AMORASince I "loosened up" at dinner like Tawny asked me to, everything was okay between the four of us.We kept talking and I actually noticed that Paris took notice and interest in everything that Nash said. Things between Tawny and I weren't as rosey, but we managed to hold a conversation without eye-fucking each other or eye-killing each other.So time went on and Nash was drinking a bit. I cleared my throat, "I think we should leave... Nash is getting wasted..." He shook his head and smiled, "even though I'm still having fun, the queen has spoken.. and I know never to argue with her, so guys.. I'll get us uber..""What?" Tawny cut in, "Don't.. I'll drop you guys off.. Let's just go. The car is big enough for all of us.." My sister got up, "you heard her.. Let's head out.." I noticed that they were all heading for the door and no one paid, I furrowed my brows, "wait.. we didn't pay.."Tawny laughed and walked next to me since my sister was busy with Nash, "um.. actually Paris
So my best friend left. The following day I was laying in bed looking at Tawny's contact details on my phone. I missed her, so much but I couldn't bring myself to texting or calling. She was quiet too. I was startled by a knock at the door. I groaned going to it and Nash didn't look happy when I opened. "Are you avoiding me?" I yawned, "what? No... why?" "Because you don't answer my calls or texts.." "Babe I was sleeping.." "Really Amora? Or you're just avoiding telling me about the rent crisis you have..?"My heart sank, I'm going to kill Frey for not keeping her mouth shut. I didn't want my boyfriend worrying about my rent, he had a lot of shit to worry about and my rent was not it.. "I'm going to kill Freya..." I said suddenly feeling wide awake. "It's no..." he sighed switching off the tv that Freya left on, "You're not killing anyone okay, is it bad?" I shrugged and didn't say anything. He turned to me, "babe move in with me..." I furrowed my brows at him as if he was
My relationship with my sister was the best and Luna tried to spend as much time with me because I was leaving her. She made me feel like I was dying and never coming back, but I understood and wasn't complaining. My last days at work were amazing until on Friday they told me they have a party for me. God I hated it but it was tradition coz I was going to Thailand. I didn't know how I'd ask Paris to go but was so fucken happy when she told me she has a very important interview that she couldn't move. She felt bad that she could not come but I assured her that it was okay. Little did she know I was relieved. I didn't know how she and Tawny would act when they were to see each other. So she promised to come sleep over at my place when she was done with the interview. I dressed pretty nice in a navy blue notch lapel 2 piece tailored suit for women, a white shirt underneath the blazer and black heels. I wanted to leave with a bang. I got to the office and as I guessed all eyes were o
"Okay I just got an sms.. the ride is.. oh my God Tawny hello.." Freya said the moment she saw who was at the door.I was forced to open the door wide and move to the side so that she can walk in. She hugged my friends and said, "Frey frey and Tony... right?" My friends smiled like idiots that they were, "yesss.. God it's been forever and you still remember us.." Antony smiled, "would love to catch up but we have to go.. Amora it was great surprising you. You're a darling. Love you so much." I kissed his cheek and Freya was smiling from ear to ear, "you guys be good. Bye now." After closing the door my place became so quiet the only thing I could hear was the rapid beating of my heart. I could feel it in my ears, they were hot. I hated feeling like this. I wished Luna was up so I wouldn't have to deal with this on my own. I turned towards her and found her looking around the house. Right there anger slowly built in and seeing her here NOW was just pissing me off."You've done a g
AMORAMy party was greater than I thought. I was enjoying the company and the food actually. They forced me to drink telling me I won't drive, I refused and said I want to remember today but mostly I wanna study sober coz I had an exam on Monday. As for them.. well they got drunk. Around 9pm Paris got up, "okay.. I think I must say something to make this party official.." Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned to her. She smiled, "so this kid over here.." she said that motioning for me to go to her. I did and she put her arm around my shoulder, "she's my world. Took me hell to notice that I haven't been really great to her..." "Skip that part.. you're amazing now.." Luna cut her off and we all laughed. "Okay..definitely listening to this one coz she's my sister's wife.." We laughed again and Paris cleared her throat, "what I mean is, I'm totally proud of you baby. You've not only done you proud but also our parents. I know they want what's best for us hence they keep th
The following day I had school and work later. The morning lecture was important. I saw Freya and she came running to me. "Hey you stranger.." She looked different, good different. I pulled her into a hug, "how are you.. oh my God you look good. Did you get a boyfriend?" She laughed, "You're awful.. I'm good.. since you started working we hardly see you."I nodded, "sorry babe, I wanna graduate at the end. How's second year treating you though?" "It's amazing but too much work, I can't wait till I'm like you brushing shoulders with the big dogs." We talked a bit until I saw the time, "I have to run. My signature is important there.."She hugged me again and she smelled so good, I shook my head, "you definitely got a boyfriend.."We both laughed then I got a taxi to pass by work. When I got there Rachel was smiling like an idiot at the front table. I raised my brow, "I didn't know my signature could make you this happy." She laughed, "Mrs Banks kinda said something so I'm just
AMORANerves were killing me I could actually hear my heart beat from my chest. What the fuck was I doing? Why did I agree to this? God couldn't I tell Tyra that I already had plans when the internship ends. But then again I'd be having nothing and totally wind up homeless... "Please breathe.. I don't want you dying in my office." Tyra said walking in and I sighed, "like can't they do this Skype thing when I'm in bed wearing my PJs and definitely NOT today." She laughed, "nerves are good.. keep them up." "Mrs Banks I cannot breathe.. what part of that is good..?" She brushed on my shoulders, "Don't worry.. you'll do great.. they'll call you any second from now."Second.. God she said any second. I felt like I wanted to go to the bathroom..maybe take a little shit and I'll be fine after that. My stomach was in knots. My Skype tone kicked me back to the moment I was dreading. I looked at Tyra, "I won't do this with you in here." She took her headsets and put them on, "I'm working
TAWNYMy life felt like a rollercoaster. Everything was happening so fast and I felt like I was losing myself in between. Have you ever wanted something so bad but then the universe was telling you not to pursue it? I was in that boat at the moment and it sucked to be in it. When I took that Monday off I never thought Amora would show up in my bedroom when I was taking a bath... but seeing her there looking all cute and freaked out at the thought that something had happened to me kinda put me at ease.I knew I shouldn't have had sex with her as it was going to complicate things that were already complicated but I stupidly couldn't stop myself. After she left I felt like shit and regretted putting her in that position again. The plan was to create distance between us and not to give her hope.Everyday for me was hell. My mind was thinking about the past six months and how fast they flew by. I felt guilty for what I did to Mimi and Paris. That was not me and I needed to push them awa
AMORA'S POV I sat anxiously waiting for my sister to start talking. I had no idea what to expect but by how good she seemed it didn't look bad. "So I want to apologize..." My heart sank as guilt started building in. "Look I know I haven't been the best sister to you. I realized I measured my being there for you with money. The more money I gave you, the more I felt I was there for you..." If she wasn't nice to me then I'd feel better and my stomach would not be in knots. I wouldn't be thinking about everything I was doing with Tawny behind her back. She felt shitty for not being a sister and I felt somehow responsible for the break up of her and Tawny. ".. It made things easy.." she continued, "not seeing you all the time and just replacing that with money seemed better. You know you're like dad... how you talk and how wise you are, you are exactly him. At first I was running from having to deal with that...our Parents' death. I was running from having to be here for you emotion
The following day was said to be new from my talk with Luh, she said I shouldn't think about anything and go to work. She'll go to school and come back again. I didn't mind that.. her being here was helping keep me busy and I also missed her.I cleaned up pretty good and put on my pants and a shirt with boots. It was a little cold. July sucked. I requested and was at work on time. "Morning boss lady.." I said the second I saw Tyra and she ached her brow at me. God she hated it when I called her that. I smiled a bit and rested my hand on her shoulder, "what can I do to put a smile on your face.." "Tell me you're ready for a meeting with Tawny in 10 minutes." Fuck!!! That I wasn't. She must have seen the horror look on my face. She laughed a bit and asked, "did you open the envelope I gave you?" Fuck... I did not do that..I swallowed, "umh.. I'm so sorry no I didn't.." She just looked at me and then I started panicking, "God Tyra please tell me it didn't hold work for today or w
I laid there on my side facing away from her. My mind was all over the place. How could I allow my body to put me at such a vulnerable position. I knew how I felt about her and I felt stupid coz I knew how she felt about me too, it was different.Her phone started ringing and she didn't even move a bit, but by the way she was breathing I knew she was wide awake and could hear it. God! That's how our calls were being ignored earler.I sighed regretting this moment already because it wasn't going to change anything. I slowly got up into a sitting position facing away from her. "..leaving already?" she said and I suddenly felt like crying. Whether I stayed or not it wouldn't matter coz she didn't want to be with me. I got up, "can I use your bathroom?" "Are you okay?" I nodded my head, "bathroom..." "You're facing it... Mimi are you sure you're okay?" If I wasn't almost in tears I was going to laugh my ass out. For someone who didn't want to be with me, she sure acted like she car