Monday I was at work not feeling okay at all but I had to be here, I mean I had to pay the darn bills at the end of the month. Or else I'll be homeless.When I got off the uber I was met by journalists at the entrance. "Amora.. Amora.. that's Paris's little sister.. Amora we have a question for you..." this other lady said trying to wedge her way in between these people so she could talk to me. I opened the door and she held my shoulder to stop me, "what happened between Paris and Tawny...?" "Let go of me I have to be at work.." "I understand.. I am just doing my job.. so what happened.. the wedding? We didn't see you.. where were you.." "I don't mind you doing your job ma'am... but don't do it during hers too.. like she said. She's here to work.. please let go of her.." Hearing Tyra say that was like hearing music to my ears. The lady frowned and turned back. Tyra put her hand on my shoulder and ushered me inside. "God.. thanks.. I don't know what I'd have done without you.. m
I had no idea what to say...and her being naked was the biggest reason. I expected her to be laying on the floor after having an attack or not to be at home.. but here she was all naked.She furrowed her brows and said again, "umh.. Mimi?""Shit... I'm sorry okay..""Why are you here?""I was a bit worried about you.. We I mean.. We were worried coz we couldn't reach you on your phone."She just shrugged, not even being bothered that she wasn't dressed and said, "I'm fine...I know I am not okay, and I know you are not okay either....but I've come a long way and I have worked really hard for me to just take my life just like that ....trust me I am not even thinking about it....so you can relax... no rope or poison for me.." I ached my brow at her, God she said a handful , "actually I didn't think about poison or you hanging yourself with a rope.. just your small attacks.. you keep having them.. and last night you scared me a little""Scared you yet you didn't wanna stay the night Mimi
I laid there on my side facing away from her. My mind was all over the place. How could I allow my body to put me at such a vulnerable position. I knew how I felt about her and I felt stupid coz I knew how she felt about me too, it was different.Her phone started ringing and she didn't even move a bit, but by the way she was breathing I knew she was wide awake and could hear it. God! That's how our calls were being ignored earler.I sighed regretting this moment already because it wasn't going to change anything. I slowly got up into a sitting position facing away from her. "..leaving already?" she said and I suddenly felt like crying. Whether I stayed or not it wouldn't matter coz she didn't want to be with me. I got up, "can I use your bathroom?" "Are you okay?" I nodded my head, "bathroom..." "You're facing it... Mimi are you sure you're okay?" If I wasn't almost in tears I was going to laugh my ass out. For someone who didn't want to be with me, she sure acted like she car
The following day was said to be new from my talk with Luh, she said I shouldn't think about anything and go to work. She'll go to school and come back again. I didn't mind that.. her being here was helping keep me busy and I also missed her.I cleaned up pretty good and put on my pants and a shirt with boots. It was a little cold. July sucked. I requested and was at work on time. "Morning boss lady.." I said the second I saw Tyra and she ached her brow at me. God she hated it when I called her that. I smiled a bit and rested my hand on her shoulder, "what can I do to put a smile on your face.." "Tell me you're ready for a meeting with Tawny in 10 minutes." Fuck!!! That I wasn't. She must have seen the horror look on my face. She laughed a bit and asked, "did you open the envelope I gave you?" Fuck... I did not do that..I swallowed, "umh.. I'm so sorry no I didn't.." She just looked at me and then I started panicking, "God Tyra please tell me it didn't hold work for today or w
AMORA'S POV I sat anxiously waiting for my sister to start talking. I had no idea what to expect but by how good she seemed it didn't look bad. "So I want to apologize..." My heart sank as guilt started building in. "Look I know I haven't been the best sister to you. I realized I measured my being there for you with money. The more money I gave you, the more I felt I was there for you..." If she wasn't nice to me then I'd feel better and my stomach would not be in knots. I wouldn't be thinking about everything I was doing with Tawny behind her back. She felt shitty for not being a sister and I felt somehow responsible for the break up of her and Tawny. ".. It made things easy.." she continued, "not seeing you all the time and just replacing that with money seemed better. You know you're like dad... how you talk and how wise you are, you are exactly him. At first I was running from having to deal with that...our Parents' death. I was running from having to be here for you emotion
TAWNYMy life felt like a rollercoaster. Everything was happening so fast and I felt like I was losing myself in between. Have you ever wanted something so bad but then the universe was telling you not to pursue it? I was in that boat at the moment and it sucked to be in it. When I took that Monday off I never thought Amora would show up in my bedroom when I was taking a bath... but seeing her there looking all cute and freaked out at the thought that something had happened to me kinda put me at ease.I knew I shouldn't have had sex with her as it was going to complicate things that were already complicated but I stupidly couldn't stop myself. After she left I felt like shit and regretted putting her in that position again. The plan was to create distance between us and not to give her hope.Everyday for me was hell. My mind was thinking about the past six months and how fast they flew by. I felt guilty for what I did to Mimi and Paris. That was not me and I needed to push them awa
AMORANerves were killing me I could actually hear my heart beat from my chest. What the fuck was I doing? Why did I agree to this? God couldn't I tell Tyra that I already had plans when the internship ends. But then again I'd be having nothing and totally wind up homeless... "Please breathe.. I don't want you dying in my office." Tyra said walking in and I sighed, "like can't they do this Skype thing when I'm in bed wearing my PJs and definitely NOT today." She laughed, "nerves are good.. keep them up." "Mrs Banks I cannot breathe.. what part of that is good..?" She brushed on my shoulders, "Don't worry.. you'll do great.. they'll call you any second from now."Second.. God she said any second. I felt like I wanted to go to the bathroom..maybe take a little shit and I'll be fine after that. My stomach was in knots. My Skype tone kicked me back to the moment I was dreading. I looked at Tyra, "I won't do this with you in here." She took her headsets and put them on, "I'm working
The following day I had school and work later. The morning lecture was important. I saw Freya and she came running to me. "Hey you stranger.." She looked different, good different. I pulled her into a hug, "how are you.. oh my God you look good. Did you get a boyfriend?" She laughed, "You're awful.. I'm good.. since you started working we hardly see you."I nodded, "sorry babe, I wanna graduate at the end. How's second year treating you though?" "It's amazing but too much work, I can't wait till I'm like you brushing shoulders with the big dogs." We talked a bit until I saw the time, "I have to run. My signature is important there.."She hugged me again and she smelled so good, I shook my head, "you definitely got a boyfriend.."We both laughed then I got a taxi to pass by work. When I got there Rachel was smiling like an idiot at the front table. I raised my brow, "I didn't know my signature could make you this happy." She laughed, "Mrs Banks kinda said something so I'm just