I was excited and couldn't wait for the opening that was in two a week, but I still had one task to do. Make all Liv's friends agree to coming.. And I needed Tawny there to help convince them since she was already coming. So normally during the day when Liv was out making things happen and organizing things. I was painting and also getting my shit ready for the gallery because I wanted to open it in a year.On the other hand, my one year anniversary was coming with Liv and I had no idea what to do for her. I noticed though on the invite that our anniversary is the same day she is going to be opening her surgical center. So I knew she will be busy and I needed to plan something for after that. Paris and I were okay I guess, we hardly talked for the past two days... Okay, I was still mad and she was shy about what she did and apparently felt very bad. "so when will you talk to Paris... Like really talk..?" my girlfriend asked getting dressed and I sighed and covered my naked body wit
I watched her as she sat in front of the mirror and looked at herself. I didn't know if she was having a moment or what. She smiled a bit and looked at her hands, they were shaking a bit. Then she turned and looked at the mirror again, then I watched as tears started waltzing down her face.. I got out bed coz I knew then that I might be needed. I went to sit next to her. I took her hands in mine and let her rest her head on my shoulder. She trembled a bit and I put my other hand over her shoulder and kept her close to me. I didn't want to talk until she was ready to. I figured she needed this. God knows how long she wanted this, she has literally talked about it since she was in high school. Now it was happening. I knew I'd be like this too. The past two to almost three months were also this much. She was working so hard without taking a break making sure that everything was perfect for today. It made me smile that she was going to have to breathe a little bit. I held on as she w
I went back to art as soon as we were done and I was not working towards meeting my goal or even doing the opening before hand.Met up with up coming artists and checked their work so I could sign a few.I also met up with one lesbian who was very talented but didn't have a platform to show her work, only online.I made a pitch to her and promised her that she will get the recognition she deserved because she was truly talented.The building was coming together. And next week they were going to put decorations in. I was very sure I'd have to open before the year. Being here and actually doing this myself was helping.The first three months Liv was working non stop, which was what had me buried to work too and also was good because I got things done.In 5 months I was done with everything, they were now planning on moving the painting in."oh my God princess you did not fucking do all this in 5 months." my girlfriend's voice surprised me from behind me.I quickly turned around and ran
I felt like I was dreaming standing in front of the mirror at my apartment. Olivia was on my side doing what I was doing to her over 7 months when she had her opening. It was like the places have been reversed. I felt how she was feeling, a mode of happiness that was hit by disbelief a little bit. It was still hard to believe that this was truly happening. I was opening my own baby that would take care of me forever. Her hand held on tight on mine and I looked at her. I knew she felt this before, so she could relate fully. I shook my head, "I don't wanna cry again. I've done that a lot these past days."She smiled, "you've done it so much that I think I enjoy listening to you cry now. So cry away." I rolled my eyes at her, "you're an idiot. And no I'm never crying at all.." She pulled me into a hug, "you are magnificent princess. I can't believe that you are pulling this off. But then again, I can believe it. I know how much you work hard and you know to be honest you deserve thi
"AMORA BLACK CHEATED ON OLIVIA WITH BEST FRIENDTAWNY BLACK IN AN ENTANGLED RELATIONSHIPBEST FRIENDS SHARE GIRLPARIS'S SISTER CHEATS WITH BEST FRIENDSGETTING THE BEST OF BOTH FRIENDSART GALLERY OWNER IN ENTANGLED RELATIONSHIPDOCTOR VS RUGBY PLAYER IN TRIANGLE RELATIONSHIP"those were some of the headings that were on newspapers and on news from night to the following day.Twitter had a hashtag about me.. #whore #betrayer #sleepwithbestfriends #entangled #bestfriendsI felt sick to my stomach as I watched everything.. I was shocked when the TV in front of me went off and my phone was snatched from my hands. "what?" "you're going to make yourself go crazy with all this. Stop." Olivia said and I shook my head, "how could she do this to me Liv. How the hell could she do this to me! Does she hate my family that much that she's trying to ruin us in front of everyone." My phone started ringing and I jumped at it but Liv shifted her hand away from me, "I need to switch this off."I q
A week later you'd think the media would have hopped on another thing to talk about but they were still after the saga that happened at my opening. What made this so frustrating was that even though I was the talk of every channel my paintings were not going anywhere. No one was interested in them.But I guess my love life was the talk of town because Tawny had a rugby match coming with Italy. So they'd chip in the drama any chance they got. It made me sick.I was so glad when they stopped bothering Liv. They didn't go to the hospital anymore, I guess they really realized that people's lives are important than their gossip.I was woken up by a call in the morning. I was always quick to check my calls incase Paris called because even today she had not texted or responded to the 100 messages I left her.I answered when I noticed it was Jack, one of the artists I signed."Jack... Hey."'hey Amora.. How are you?'I had no idea how to answer that question honestly.'stupid question. Of cou
Me, Tawny and the upcoming rugby match she was going to play were still the talk of the town until the match itself happened.Olivia still supported Tee even when she didn't know that. So when the match started we watched. Tawny looked a bit distracted.They started and I watched her.. Literally her alone. She was the only one I was looking at. She kept losing the ball or being tackled down or stopped. She looked like she wasn't even in the game, she looked tired.The last one that made me not to want to watch it anymore was when she was tackled so hard that she painfully hit the ground with her left shoulder. I could tell from her face that she felt thatI shook my head, "okay... Now I fully understand why I didn't know Tee in the first place. Because I didn't enjoy seeing that happen to human beings. I will not watch this any longer babe.. I'm sorry I can't, it's a lot."My girlfriend kissed my cheek, took her beer and kept her eyes on the screen after that.I got up when I noticed
The audience went quiet and I could even hear the beat of my heart. I looked back at Phamela and smiled a little bit.I extended my hand to Olivia and held her, "I love Tawny... A part of me will always love Tawny, but I'm not in love with her."Liv squeezed my hand a little bit. I turned to look at her, "but her... My my... she holds my heart at a safer place.. And I hers.""okay I just think our artist turned into a writer right in front of our eyes. That was beautifully said Amora. So what are your plans from now onwards guys..""umh Phamela Amora lost everything because of a misunderstanding that the people turned to something bigger than it was. She lost the artists she sighed and no one seems to be interested in a work done by a whore...as they call her." Liv said and shook her head," you know, People turn to forget that we all have our dirty laundry. For some of us we are lucky it's not out there for the world to have opinions on. I'm not perfect, she's not perfect.. But we ma
After the talk I had with Luna I knew I needed to do a deeper introspection on myself so that I could move forward fully like I had been advised.You know life was really hard to get. It's not like I had never been through something like this before. I have lost a loved one before. My parents, but then I guess it was different somehow because I knew with them I couldn't replace them even with any person that wanted to take the parent role in my life, somehow they could never be what my parents were, they could never give birth to me... But when it came to a partner. It was so scary. Letting go of Olivia meant opening up to someone else and being that vulnerable again. It meant forgetting what she and I shared and living with this other human being. The thought of that scared me and it also made me feel uneasy. Liv meant the world to me, and moving on fully felt like saying goodbye forever.But Luna was telling the truth. I needed to admit that she was no more so I could live my life.
After the letter my life seemed to have hit a whole full stop. Everything stopped and I started to question it all.What on earth was going on. And what was the conversation between Tawny and Olivia the day before her death.I couldn't believe that two years down the line I was still asking myself the same question. I literally asked her this before she passed away and she just couldn't tell me.. Then now this surfaces two years later.. Well, maybe if I had read the letter earlier it was going to appear then, but still I wasn't ready to read the letter back then."so what are you thinking?""I don't know... Lots of people now want to be associated with me because business is booming. Could we meet the three artists and see if they are really worth it so I can decide if I really want another gallery or just a whole new idea coz it just hit me..""as much as I love the business you and how much you're so concentrating on that.. I actually wasn't talking about that. I meant the thoughts
Today we would be dating for 3 full years.. It was one and a half year since she passed away.. But it was our anniversary. I stupidly got the reminder from my calender and now I was in my apartment looking for something I didn't know. I felt like I was going to lose my mind had I not found it... whatever it was."hey... Amora." Tawny said behind me and I quickly turned to her, "what are you doing here?" I snapped and she looked at me confused, "you texted me. It didn't make sense so I came here to make sure that you were okay."I turned around, "I'm looking for something okay.. Just... Just please.." I left my sentence short and went to my kitchen and opened and closed every drawer."Mimi..." Tawny said and I turned around to her and yelled, "don't... You don't fucking get to call me that. Not after everything you have put me through. You don't get to call me by a pat name."She looked ate so confused... And then I saw her face soften. She shook her head a bit and walked towards me.W
Helping Luh plan for her wedding felt like I was doing it for me. She wanted things I felt I'd have wanted and I was enjoying every moment of it.So when I finally saw the end product, I could not be happier at that moment. I felt so proud of myself and where I've become. I looked around the room, I couldn’t believe that I was the best woman or should I say maid of honor for my best friend’s wedding, especially after everything that had went down in the past two years and us splitting up a little bit. I never thought that I would experience this at all. But I felt so blessed to be here. Her husband looked so out of place in a black taxedo that had a little split on the back instead of the fireman’s suit that he was accustomed to wearing everyday at work. He looked way more cute by the way. My mind took me down the memory lane when I saw my best friend. I had met her many years ago when she joined the same primary school as I, and now I was given the honor of being her maid of hono
I was really shocked when the following day arrived and my name wasn't being smeared on the internet about the incident that happened at Kiddies with Tawny. But then again I guess what she said really got to those people and they didn't post about it. And since the talk in the car, my relationship with Tawny was still okay, she was still herself which was what I loved but she respected me and my decision not to cross any boundaries.In two days though, she was going to be out of rehab and she was going to be back in the real world. That kinda made me happy, she has made such a big progress."hey dude... Have you called my make up artist?" that was Luna freaking out again and I sighed, "just because you ask 4 times it won't change.. Yes I did.. Now stop worrying. You're getting married in 3 days."She smiled, "oh my God what if this is the biggest mistake of my life. We've only known each other for a little less than two years. I can't be very sure about him right now. I can't marry t
I got out of the dress and folded it then put it on the chair before wearing my clothes. I was starting to get mad. I felt like I was betraying Olivia. So whatever happened made me feel guilty. Like how could she not think, I just lost Olivia a few months ago. Now she wanted to step in. I wanted to support her and make sure she was okay or at least let her know that she had a friend in me. But she wasn't paying attention to that, she thought more could come out of this. "Amora look, I'm sorry." Tawny said joining me, she was now fully dressed back to her clothes...and I ignored her and finished up what I was doing."Amora please talk to me.""and say what?"She's shrugged, "I don't know... Anything.""I have nothing to say.""well I do. I'm not sorry for attempting to kiss you coz I didn't do that by mistake... But I'm just sorry I made you uncomfortable."I shook my head, she had no idea how she made me feel. Uncomfortable wasn't even close to describing it."Amora...""you made me
Moving back to my place wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. It just had so many memories I was terrified of revisiting.I hated it so much but I knew I had to do it. I couldn't live at Paris's place forever.. And I couldn't sell this place either, a lot of good things happened here. So I wasn't going to allow the same memories that made me happy to push me to get rid of my place.I'd literally feel her presence or feel like she'd walk in. Being back there made her death so real. A knock on the door would have me expecting her. The calls we used to have on her night shift. How I'd wake up with food or with her cuddling me. All that made me come to terms with the fact that she wasn't here anymore. She was gone. I sighed and shifted the matras in my bedroom. Like I said, I needed to clean this place. Luna was downstairs helping me. After full two hours I was done in my bedroom and it felt like it was all new. Maybe it was the new bedsheets, curtains and blankets I bought. I smile
"do you know where Tawny is? I mean she said she'll be at my wedding but she disappeared. No one knows where she is." Luna asked walking in with a bag full of groceries. I quickly got up and ran to her to help, "couldn't you just tell me you had plastic bags so I can get you... Is it everything?" "it's fine I asked you a question. Do you know where she is?"I didn't know why she was pressing on this."why would I know?"She shrugged, "I don't know. I just don't want her to not come to my wedding after promising she will. The Media is busy eating her up and making up stories about her going crazy since the outburst at your opening."I sighed, this was what I hated about the media. The ability to make one and also break them. It was just too much. "yeah I hate the media dude. Stop listening to it. Tawny will come to your wedding. What did you want her to do?""I don't know..." she said with another shrug, "maybe her to learn my steps so that she can dance.. By the way you and her are
When Tawny was ready, like I promised, I took her to rehab and dropped her off. "thank you for doing this." she said. I gave her a small smile and decided to joke a little, "it's not a big deal. I just wanted to make sure you really come here you know."She smiled a bit and just looked at me. She looked as if there was something she wanted to say but couldn't. She then shook her head and that's when I knew that she definitely stopped herself from saying what she wanted to say. So I asked," what? "She continued to shake her head no, "umh. Naah, Amora you've already done enough. I can't burden you with me and all my shit.""hey... Besides me joking about bringing you here so I could know you are really here.. I came because I wanted and I wanted you to know that you have support. So I am here, talk to me about anything. It's not a burden at all." She nodded her head a little bit before saying," so... Incase anything happens to me. I want you to know that... "My eyes shot wide open