Physically I was so much better by Friday, the only thing that was left was my voice. I still whispered like someone who was creepy. I didn't like it but it seemed to amuse Olivia and my best friend."so... Ready to go out there and show me Thailand?" Olivia whispered creepely behind me making me to jump, "Liv what the fuck! What is wrong with you?" I couldn't even yell as loud as I hoped to because of my stupid voice.She laughed and continued to mimick me, "you sound so cute I swear." I pretended to be mad, "fine then.. Go.. Go alone.""are toy turning into a big baby?"I made a face again and looked away from her.I felt her hands snuck around my waist and I breathed in. She hugged me from behind and rested her chin on my shoulder, "are you being the cutest biggest baby Amy?"My body responded to her and her saying my name like that took my mind to a different place. A place I was scared of thinking off. I mean I could sense how things were but I still didn't want to acknowledge
Waking up cuddled up to Olivia felt good. How close she was holding me was so cute. It was like she didn't want me to go.I smiled and checked for my phone coz I didn't want it to wake her up when the alarm went off.Luckily it was only a few minutes before it went off, I turned it off and smiled a bit.I hated how I had to get up and go bath and leave her here while I go to work. But I didn't go to work the whole week last week, so I needed to be there and thank God they moved the submittion of the group work I did with my team.I slowly slipped away from her and went to the bathroom. I was shocked to see my jeans and shirt all ironed. God Olivia was honestly making this hard for me. I had no idea what to feel besides like her even more, which was something I didn't want at all.After my shower I dressed up and found her still soundlessly sleeping on my bed. She looked so cute.I took out my phone and snapped a picture of her then got out before I was tempted to do something that she
A new relationship is unknown territory, and most of us have natural fears of the unknown. Letting ourselves fall in love means taking a real risk. We are placing a great amount of trust in another person, allowing them to affect us, which makes us feel exposed and vulnerable.Our defences are challenged. Any habits we’ve long had that allow us to feel self-focused or self-contained start to fall by the wayside. We tend to believe that the more we care, the more we can get hurt.I was so nervous when I got home it was like Olivia would see right through me how I was feeling.Everything was clean like we didn't make it a mess last night. I went to check on her in my bedroom and she wasn't there... Then I checked all the other rooms.My heart started beating faster on my chest when I didn't find her. Where could she be? I was stupidly thinking she left already. I mean she sent me a text earlier.. What if I read that fast and didn't notice she said today and not Friday.God.I went back
We spent Monday and Tuesday cuddling. When I got home she'd just welcome me and not even say anything. She'd make me food and ask me about work. Just normal things.We never even once mentioned the kiss. The kiss that made me like her even more and made me feel way closer to her than I was. It made me want her even more than I already did.I wanted us to talk about it but I was a coward. That wouldn't allow me to bring it because no matter what, my brain kept telling me there could be a chance that she didn't like that kiss... But then on the other hand, she asked if we could kiss again... And we did a lot. But the keeping quiet about it scared me a lot.I'd look at her and wish I knew what she was thinking, because then I wouldn't be so much into my thoughts that I lost track of everything that was around me and all that....I quickly let go of the lid of the pan and winced in pain.Olivia screamed my name, "Amora!!!" and then she was next to me within seconds."ouch... Ouch!! Ouch!
Thursday at work I couldn't be bothered. The probably failed advert yesterday didn't even bother me also. I was just feeling truly happy and over the mood about something different."someone's happy today." Thalia said after stopping her chair next to mine.I shook my head a little bit with a small smile on my face, "what do you mean?""I mean you have been smiling like an idiot since you walked in here, and yesterday you were worried as if we were going to be hit by world War 2... So what's up?"I couldn't hold it in anymore, besides, I needed to tell someone."Olivia and I kissed."She started squealing and I moved over to her and put my hand on her mouth to cover it, "what the hell dude!!"She started laughing and looking around, "shit sorry.. I'm just excited she is so hot."I ached my brow, "you have a girlfriend dude...""doesn't mean I don't see hot people..." she said that in a duh tone making me laugh."you're unbelievable."She slowly nodded her head with her eyes closed, "
Getting home I had a plan, I was going to make sure that Olivia has the best last night with me only to give her something she will not forget. I didn't want her forgetting about me. Would love if we would see where this would go.When I got home I was shocked to be welcomed by a path of rose petals, leading a trail to my bedroom.I came in view with a blanket fort. I stood my the door and looked at it.0"hey... Oh God you're home.." Olivia said standing behind me and I turned around to look at her lost for words.I wanted to do something like this for her so that she could at least receive some caring from my side too. But she took that away from me."oh God you don't like it.."Shocked at her I furrowed my brow, "Olivia what?""you hate this.. Am I being too much? Moving a bit faster...?""Olivia...!!" "God I'm sorry.."I went to stand in front of her even though she wasn't listening to me, "Liv!!!""I was just trying to...""...do something that I'll possibly remember you by whe
I jumped off Olivia and she sighed, "did you invite someone over? Like a stripper or something?" I rolled my eyes and took my shirt, "don't be an idiot I could be your stripper.." then I left her there with her mouth hanging. I quickly put my shirt over my head and opened the door. I was so shocked to see Aiden standing there. I furrowed my brows at her, "umh.. Aiden?" "hey.. Umh.. Ahh shit..." "what? What are you doing here?" I asked now after putting my shirt on properly. "I'm so sorry to budge in like this I just wanted to know something.. And now I think I just.. Fuck." "Aiden???" I said getting a little frustrated, she was now starting to be annoying me by now talking. "you're with someone..." "yes! What did you want?" "I wanted to know if I could like go out with Zaynab. I didn't want to be an ass coz you guys were in a relationship." I furrowed my brows at her, "what? Zaynab and I were never in a relationship.. And you can date her dude. Why didn't you ask me this whi
I couldn't believe why Luna was acting the way she was. I mean she literally left me and locked herself in my room.I was left there cooking and preparing dinner for us. I was happy to be off work for a while. I took leave days since Luna was here and I was ready to see more Thailand with her.Having her here was going to be amazing but only I'd she wasn't going to be a mess and talk bad about what Olivia and I were doing.My phone vibrated and I smile at the different ringing tone. I took it and put it on my face then answers, "hello..." 'really? Your nose? You're showing me that beautiful small nose now?' I rolled my eyes even though she couldn't see me and moved my phone so that the rest of my face showed. She smiled, 'see.. There's my beautiful princess.' "Olivia you suck..."She rolled her eyes this time around, 'kind love it when you call me babe and not Olivia.'"isn't that your name?" I asked and she sighed before shaking her head no, 'you're not llowed to use that at all.
After the talk I had with Luna I knew I needed to do a deeper introspection on myself so that I could move forward fully like I had been advised.You know life was really hard to get. It's not like I had never been through something like this before. I have lost a loved one before. My parents, but then I guess it was different somehow because I knew with them I couldn't replace them even with any person that wanted to take the parent role in my life, somehow they could never be what my parents were, they could never give birth to me... But when it came to a partner. It was so scary. Letting go of Olivia meant opening up to someone else and being that vulnerable again. It meant forgetting what she and I shared and living with this other human being. The thought of that scared me and it also made me feel uneasy. Liv meant the world to me, and moving on fully felt like saying goodbye forever.But Luna was telling the truth. I needed to admit that she was no more so I could live my life.
After the letter my life seemed to have hit a whole full stop. Everything stopped and I started to question it all.What on earth was going on. And what was the conversation between Tawny and Olivia the day before her death.I couldn't believe that two years down the line I was still asking myself the same question. I literally asked her this before she passed away and she just couldn't tell me.. Then now this surfaces two years later.. Well, maybe if I had read the letter earlier it was going to appear then, but still I wasn't ready to read the letter back then."so what are you thinking?""I don't know... Lots of people now want to be associated with me because business is booming. Could we meet the three artists and see if they are really worth it so I can decide if I really want another gallery or just a whole new idea coz it just hit me..""as much as I love the business you and how much you're so concentrating on that.. I actually wasn't talking about that. I meant the thoughts
Today we would be dating for 3 full years.. It was one and a half year since she passed away.. But it was our anniversary. I stupidly got the reminder from my calender and now I was in my apartment looking for something I didn't know. I felt like I was going to lose my mind had I not found it... whatever it was."hey... Amora." Tawny said behind me and I quickly turned to her, "what are you doing here?" I snapped and she looked at me confused, "you texted me. It didn't make sense so I came here to make sure that you were okay."I turned around, "I'm looking for something okay.. Just... Just please.." I left my sentence short and went to my kitchen and opened and closed every drawer."Mimi..." Tawny said and I turned around to her and yelled, "don't... You don't fucking get to call me that. Not after everything you have put me through. You don't get to call me by a pat name."She looked ate so confused... And then I saw her face soften. She shook her head a bit and walked towards me.W
Helping Luh plan for her wedding felt like I was doing it for me. She wanted things I felt I'd have wanted and I was enjoying every moment of it.So when I finally saw the end product, I could not be happier at that moment. I felt so proud of myself and where I've become. I looked around the room, I couldn’t believe that I was the best woman or should I say maid of honor for my best friend’s wedding, especially after everything that had went down in the past two years and us splitting up a little bit. I never thought that I would experience this at all. But I felt so blessed to be here. Her husband looked so out of place in a black taxedo that had a little split on the back instead of the fireman’s suit that he was accustomed to wearing everyday at work. He looked way more cute by the way. My mind took me down the memory lane when I saw my best friend. I had met her many years ago when she joined the same primary school as I, and now I was given the honor of being her maid of hono
I was really shocked when the following day arrived and my name wasn't being smeared on the internet about the incident that happened at Kiddies with Tawny. But then again I guess what she said really got to those people and they didn't post about it. And since the talk in the car, my relationship with Tawny was still okay, she was still herself which was what I loved but she respected me and my decision not to cross any boundaries.In two days though, she was going to be out of rehab and she was going to be back in the real world. That kinda made me happy, she has made such a big progress."hey dude... Have you called my make up artist?" that was Luna freaking out again and I sighed, "just because you ask 4 times it won't change.. Yes I did.. Now stop worrying. You're getting married in 3 days."She smiled, "oh my God what if this is the biggest mistake of my life. We've only known each other for a little less than two years. I can't be very sure about him right now. I can't marry t
I got out of the dress and folded it then put it on the chair before wearing my clothes. I was starting to get mad. I felt like I was betraying Olivia. So whatever happened made me feel guilty. Like how could she not think, I just lost Olivia a few months ago. Now she wanted to step in. I wanted to support her and make sure she was okay or at least let her know that she had a friend in me. But she wasn't paying attention to that, she thought more could come out of this. "Amora look, I'm sorry." Tawny said joining me, she was now fully dressed back to her clothes...and I ignored her and finished up what I was doing."Amora please talk to me.""and say what?"She's shrugged, "I don't know... Anything.""I have nothing to say.""well I do. I'm not sorry for attempting to kiss you coz I didn't do that by mistake... But I'm just sorry I made you uncomfortable."I shook my head, she had no idea how she made me feel. Uncomfortable wasn't even close to describing it."Amora...""you made me
Moving back to my place wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. It just had so many memories I was terrified of revisiting.I hated it so much but I knew I had to do it. I couldn't live at Paris's place forever.. And I couldn't sell this place either, a lot of good things happened here. So I wasn't going to allow the same memories that made me happy to push me to get rid of my place.I'd literally feel her presence or feel like she'd walk in. Being back there made her death so real. A knock on the door would have me expecting her. The calls we used to have on her night shift. How I'd wake up with food or with her cuddling me. All that made me come to terms with the fact that she wasn't here anymore. She was gone. I sighed and shifted the matras in my bedroom. Like I said, I needed to clean this place. Luna was downstairs helping me. After full two hours I was done in my bedroom and it felt like it was all new. Maybe it was the new bedsheets, curtains and blankets I bought. I smile
"do you know where Tawny is? I mean she said she'll be at my wedding but she disappeared. No one knows where she is." Luna asked walking in with a bag full of groceries. I quickly got up and ran to her to help, "couldn't you just tell me you had plastic bags so I can get you... Is it everything?" "it's fine I asked you a question. Do you know where she is?"I didn't know why she was pressing on this."why would I know?"She shrugged, "I don't know. I just don't want her to not come to my wedding after promising she will. The Media is busy eating her up and making up stories about her going crazy since the outburst at your opening."I sighed, this was what I hated about the media. The ability to make one and also break them. It was just too much. "yeah I hate the media dude. Stop listening to it. Tawny will come to your wedding. What did you want her to do?""I don't know..." she said with another shrug, "maybe her to learn my steps so that she can dance.. By the way you and her are
When Tawny was ready, like I promised, I took her to rehab and dropped her off. "thank you for doing this." she said. I gave her a small smile and decided to joke a little, "it's not a big deal. I just wanted to make sure you really come here you know."She smiled a bit and just looked at me. She looked as if there was something she wanted to say but couldn't. She then shook her head and that's when I knew that she definitely stopped herself from saying what she wanted to say. So I asked," what? "She continued to shake her head no, "umh. Naah, Amora you've already done enough. I can't burden you with me and all my shit.""hey... Besides me joking about bringing you here so I could know you are really here.. I came because I wanted and I wanted you to know that you have support. So I am here, talk to me about anything. It's not a burden at all." She nodded her head a little bit before saying," so... Incase anything happens to me. I want you to know that... "My eyes shot wide open