Unbelievable.
He doesn’t catch the hint, eyeing me up and down, practically drooling. “So what does a pretty little thing like you do? You a model? Actress?”
My hands tighten around my drink, imagining pouring it over his polished head. “Actually, I run bingo nights. You should drop by, it’s a blast at the senior center on Tuesdays.”
That’s the kicker that finally wipes the smug leer off his face. “You little—”
But I’m not listening. My eyes bulge at the flashing message from Deano:
He’s here. White shirt. Jeans.
Below it, a picture of Connor Quinn. I nearly choke. This has to be a cruel prank.
“Beat it,” I growl at Gramps. I feel sick.
CONNOR QUINN??? My fat fingers can’t type fast enough. THIS A JOKE??
No way is this real. I’d rather watch The Texas Chainsaw Massacre on repeat—and that says a lot considering I’ve refused Grace for over a year.
Please don’t let this end Chainsaw style.
I sneak a look across the bar. There’s Deano, looking sharp and oblivious, as if he’s just a regular Joe waiting for a date. If only the reality weren’t so painfully ridiculous.
I shoot him a furious What the hell? look.
My phone lights up: Stop fucking around. It’s him.
A maniac laugh followed by a throaty gurgle burst out of me, making Gramps slide away fast.
Well done, Deano, you’ve just clinched the title for America’s Dumbest and Most Dangerously Delusional.
I whirl around, and there’s Connor Quinn, swaggering through the bar. He bumps into some dude hard enough to almost send him flying, but doesn’t even pause or look back. The guy’s complaint dies on his parted lips the second he realizes who bumped him.
Quinn’s heading straight for a stunning blond at the far end of the bar. Every woman in here is laser-focused on him. He dishes out smiles to the prettiest ones, boyfriends be damned.
He slips an arm around the blond and leans in close, saying something that makes her giggle like a schoolgirl.
When she turns around, I can see why he picked her—it’s safe to say she doesn’t look like the rear-end of a bus.
Fuck.
I finish my drink, grimacing as ice smacks against my teeth. If Deano thinks I can push through Quinn’s herd of fangirls and just bat my lashes to get his keys, he’s on another planet.
I wish Grandpa was the target now.
My odds are less than zero. Quinn is way out of my league. I’m squinting from the bleachers while Blondie scores touchdowns on the field. I’ll have better luck seducing the Moet ice bucket.
The guy grins like he doesn’t have a care in the world—probably doesn’t—as he hits on Blondie. He slugs back his drink then slams the glass down, missing the bar completely. It shatters on the floor. His new friend startles but Quinn just leans closer, like it never even happened. Charming.
So he’s an asshole. It’s not entirely unexpected considering the rumors. Apparently he’s broken up marriages left and right without so much as batting an eye, putting fools who dare cross him in the hospital, then miraculously making it all disappear. He hardly notices the bartenders sweeping in to clean up after him. Is he drunk?
Our eyes meet for a heart-stopping second before he looks away, dismissing me entirely.
No way this is happening. I don’t have the guts to approach Quinn. I’m screwed, well and truly screwed.
But this isn’t some silly game. This is nasty real-life business. Deano and his gang don’t mess around, and I’m up to my neck in debt to them.
I grab my shawl, bolting for the bathrooms, but Vogue cover lookalikes are laughing and blocking the way.
Fuck. I can’t deal with people right now.
Then I spot a unisex bathroom tucked away in a less crowded area of the bar. Good enough for me.
I scurry back in the direction I came and swing open the door, finding it empty.
Tucked in a stall, I dial Deano, my hands trembling.
“What?” he barks over the line.
“Are you out of your fucking mind?” I whisper-yell into the phone, glaring at myself in the mirrored walls. “Connor Quinn? Absolutely not!”
“Mind the mouth, honey. He likes classy chicks.”
“My mistake, I’ll start curtseying immediately. Like seriously, are you stupid? No way. He’s too powerful. You looking for the fastest route to jail? ’Cause I’m not tagging along for that ride.”
“Calm down,” he growls. “Quinn’s been off his game, drinking too much. That’s why we’re doing this now.”
“I can’t do this. I’m out.”
“Not your call anymore, sweetheart.”
I’m borderline hyperventilating now. “Can’t I swipe someone else’s keys? Did you see the old bald guy sucking olives? I bet he has a lovely car.”
“Has to be Quinn’s ride.”
I close my eyes tight.
“Pull this off, or the boss will make you regret it. Got people outside your place ready to visit Grace.”
The stall tilts around me. I plant my forehead against the cool mirrored wall, embracing numbness.
Deep breaths, Lexi. You’ll find a way through this.
“You sick fuck,” I seethe through clenched teeth. “Go rot in hell, you and that stupid goat beard. Prancing around pretending you’re Scarface doesn’t make you tough.”
In my mind, I gleefully dig his grave, eyes wild as I shovel dirt onto his arrogant face. Maybe I’ll braid daisies and ribbons into his beard—really doll him up. He’d hate that.
I jab the end call button hard enough to bruise, then release a frustrated groan that echoes off the walls.
Drawing a deep breath, I fling open the bathroom door.
And stop dead.
There, by the sink, stands a formidable figure, veins bulging from clenched fists gripping onto the edges of the porcelain sink. His back muscles ripple beneath his tight T-shirt as he leans over the basin, his strong jaw and full lips set in a silent snarl visible in the mirror.
Oh shit.
Piercing blue eyes slice into me through the reflection.
I drop my phone with a sickening crack.
FOUR
Lexi
For a second, we just stare at each other in the mirror, him looming over the sink, me a deer in headlights barely breathing.
“Might wanna close that mouth before something flies in,” he rumbles.
My heart races as I scramble to grab my cracked phone, my hands all shaky. How much did he hear?
“Sorry about that little outburst,” I say, trying to sound casual as I move to the sink beside him. I turn on the faucet just for background noise. “How much of it did you have to suffer through?”
Please say none of it. PLEASE SAY NONE OF IT . . .
“I wasn’t listening to your boyfriend drama,” he mutters, all gruff and dismissive.
Wow, okay, dick. But thank god.
“Still, sorry if I disrupted your peace,” I mumble.
“For such a little mouth, you swear like a sailor,” he chides with a disapproving scowl. His lip curls in distaste. “Lower the vulgarities. This is a classy establishment, not a damn dockyard.”
I bristle at his condescending tone. “Guess you heard more than you let on,” I reply breezily. “But hey, swearing is in my job description. How did you know I’m a sailor?”
Idiot. Worst comeback in history.
But since he hasn’t dragged me outside to shoot me yet, I’m banking on the fact he didn’t hear anything too incriminating.
He spares me a brief dismissive glance, then he’s back to staring at the sink. So much for this guy’s legendary charisma.
“Sorry us sailors don’t live up to the high-class standards around here,” I remark, voice tinged with sarcasm. “It’s been one of those days.”
I risk a longer look at him. Damn. Up close, his intense, almost harsh good looks hit harder. All rugged edges that could cut you open if you got too close. The kind of unfair handsome that likely opens any door he wants, whenever he wants. Legs too. I’d bet Mom’s care home f*e he’s never heard the word no.
The masculine energy coming off him is stifling. And he reeks of top-shelf spirits.
He glowers at the sink like it insulted his mama. Any second now I expect punches to start flying at the poor thing.
I turn off the tap, pulse racing. I hadn’t expected to get this close.
Out of nowhere, he emits a deep, pained noise, his hand slipping from the countertop as he fights to maintain his stance.
“You okay?” I ask, real concern in my voice now.
“Leave it,” he growls.
“Wow, charming,” I snap back. Without his looks and wealth, I doubt he’d be half as charming. The magazines sure do a number on him.
“I’m all charm, little sailor. You caught me at a bad time.”
“Same here. I’m charm personified, just having a crap day.”
His response is a low, amused chuckle that sends an unexpected shiver down my spine.
I swallow hard, my cheeks warming.
He cranks the tap, twisting it with unnecessary force. Before I can react, he’s dousing water on his face with zero regard for the splash zone.
I yelp, jumping back as droplets assault my dress. “Hey, watch it! I didn’t come here for a wet T-shirt contest.”
“Sorry,” he grinds out. Doesn’t sound sorry at all.
Just when I think he’s going to perform a full-on baptism in the sink, he turns to face me. Those deep blue eyes, a bit unfocused, root me in place.
An awkward eternity passes as we stare at each other.
What’s his deal? Is he going to kick me out?
I should fill the silence with something witty, flirty even. But my tongue lies uselessly in my mouth. Besides, the volatility rolling off him in waves means one wrong word likely gets me ejected out of his hotel on my ass.
I contemplate sticking my hands under the dryer, anything to break this tension before I combust.
“Are you an angel?” he asks softly, sounding bewildered.
I blink, wondering if I misheard over the running water. “Sorry, what?”
“You’re an angel,” he insists, eyes fixed on me. He seems completely serious.
I laugh nervously. He’s clearly half-drunk and talking absolute shit. “Angels don’t have sailor mouths like mine. Are you high?”
He just keeps staring, lost in thought. “No, I’m pretty damn low,” he mutters, more to himself than to me.
He looks it, with that grim expression. Part of me instinctively wants to help somehow. But the guy’s giving off some seriously intense, unpredictable vibes that put my nerves on edge.
I gesture toward the sink, where water’s still rushing out mindlessly. “Maybe turn that off before we drown here?”
That seems to snap him back to reality. He shuts off the tap, still looking like he’s carrying the weight of the world.
Then he steps toward me. Slow and careful, like I’m a skittish deer he’s trying not to startle.
His hand glides along the counter, steadying himself as he closes the space between us.
My breath turns choppy and shallow as his expensive shoes bump my cheap Target stilettos.
He’s so close.Too close.I could count each individual bristly hair along his jawline if I wanted. See every chestnut-brown strand on his head. The small scar cutting through his left eyebrow that somehow makes him look even more rugged. The laugh lines around his eyes, evidence he sometimes smiles.He smells good. Hot and unapologetically masculine.“Is it the lights?” he asks, voice low and gravelly.“What?” I breathe.“Your eyes.” He stares at me like he’s witnessing the second coming of Christ, right here in this bathroom.I feel my cheeks roast. I’m used to the attention my mismatched peepers bring. One green, the other a brownish color—I used to think I looked like a Cabbage Patch doll that had its eyes swapped in the factory.But the way he’s looking at me now . . . it sends my pulse into overdrive.I blink hard. The guy must be wasted.“I thought it was the lights, but they really are different shades,” he murmurs, his hand gently lifting my chin so I can’t look away. “It’s c
“Are you currently receiving paychecks signed by me?”She crosses her arms. “Seriously? No, I don’t work for you. Who are you anyway?”I chuckle as my hands skim her breasts, feeling her nipples tighten beneath the silky fabric. “Don’t play coy, angel. You know damn well who I am.”Then again, maybe she doesn’t. She’s not a regular here—that much is clear just from looking at her.“Should I?” she fires back, a tense smirk playing on her lips. “You some kinda hero who cures diseases or saves the rainforest in your spare time?”If fucking only.Her sassy words hit a nerve.I grip her throat, mouth finding her ear as her breath hitches. “I’m no hero, sorry to disappoint you. But you don’t want a hero right now, do you?”In a move that’s surprisingly smooth considering the sheer amount of booze flooding my system, I lift her up and carry her into the nearest stall, the door slamming shut behind us.My hotel bathrooms are a sinner’s paradise—muted mood lighting, mirrors to appreciate every
Despite his assholery, no one could look at that ruggedly handsome face and hard body and deny he’s hot as hell. He’s the type of guy you know is bad news, but you’d sleep with anyway because the sex would be mind-blowing. Then, you’d slink away before sunrise to avoid being kicked out like yesterday’s trash.But as his hands slid into my panties, something clicked in my brain. I realized what I was becoming. Or what I would become if I let him continue. It was like getting zapped by an electric fence.And yeah, all right, shoving him like that was a dick move too on my part. But even with all that booze flooding his system, his cocky confidence radiated off him.My feminist side cheered as I left him hanging mid seduction.But honestly? Some disturbingly estrogen-charged cavewoman part of me wondered what might’ve gone down if I hadn’t fled . . .The way he had me pinned against that wall with his hard body . . . yeah, I wanted it bad. So bad that I’m disgusted with myself for it.Bu
“Anyone in particular we’re looking for?” Sara asks, nervously biting her lip.“Yeah,” I snap, jaw tight with frustration.The footage stutters forward, and there I am, a mess, hardly the picture of control or dignity. I run a hand over my face in frustration.“There. Freeze it.”There she is, sitting alone at the bar. The brunette who had me all revved up only to leave me steaming like an enraged bull. She’s waiting for someone, but keeps glancing over at me as I stumble through the crowd.“Fast forward,” I command.I watch as Rose shifts on her bar stool with a hurried, almost skittish energy. None of her movements look practiced, she seems . . . nervous. Wary. Her eyes flick to me briefly before darting back to her phone in a rapid, unsettled motion. She fucking knows who I am. Then she gets up and heads off to the restroom.Fast forward ten minutes and she is running out of the bathroom.“Freeze it there.”9:32 p.m.Now she’s hustling through the lobby in her high heels, making a
But I can’t tell him this problem until I’ve solved it. As much as he is my brother and we’ve got each other’s backs, he’s a businessman.He’ll make sure I’m okay but that might mean stepping back. And that ain’t fucking happening.Might as well make the thief useful. “You want to know what’s pissing me off? I got hustled by some chick at the hotel bar.”His expression shifts to confusion. “What happened?”“I was with this knockout brunette in the restroom. Next thing, my new car’s gone. She swiped my keys while I was . . . distracted.”“The custom 911?”“That’s the one.”He pauses, looking like he’s trying to decide whether to laugh or knock some sense into me. “Christ, Connor. This self-destruct streak you’ve been on . . . You hit your midlife crisis early or are you just getting too arrogant for your own damn good?”“Save the lecture,” I grumble. “I’m already aggravated enough.”His eyes drift to my open laptop. He lifts it onto his lap, eyebrows rising. “Figured I’d find you neck-
An hour deep, and I’m cranking out charm on autopilot—laughing at terrible jokes, stroking egos left and right. The alcohol’s doing its thing, loosening everyone up.Tonight, though, the mask feels suffocating. These events used to be easy. Now the banal small talk grates, my social skills corroding by the day.If the doctors are right, there might come a time when I can’t even play this game anymore.I grab another whiskey, having lost count somewhere between the mayor’s speech and the wasted socialite inviting me back for the best head of my life—her words, not mine. My drinking hand clearly missed the moderation memo tonight.Can’t really fault it, though, not with who’s up ahead.Senator Madison, in all his artificially tanned, bleached-teeth glory. The guy thinks he’s the best thing to happen to this state, a self-righteous blowhard with his head jammed firmly up his own asshole.Killian gives me a low-key nod, both of us thrilled about having to suck up to this guy. So I plaster
Yet another visceral flash I didn’t invite. I force the interloper from my mind, focusing on the woman in front of me.“Forced to attend as your father’s glamorous plus-one again?”She offers a wry smile, circling her olive in her glass. “Mother refused duty tonight. I drew the short straw.”“Then I guess I should be grateful for your ‘misfortune.’ You look stunning, as always.”She glances up at me with a hint of mischief. “You’re not too hard on the eyes yourself, Mr. Quinn. But I think you already know that.”“I clean up all right,” I reply, the corners of my mouth ticking up.“I know your game, Connor Quinn,” she says, a touch of challenge in her tone.My brow arches. “Oh yeah? And what’s that?”“Playing nice with the senator’s daughter?”I let out a low chuckle. “I’m not sure the senator wants me playing with his only daughter.”Madison talks a big game about family values. The Madisons aren’t just a political clan; they’re a squeaky clean, all-American brand. Willow proudly flau
Vallure PR does crisis management for celebs caught pants-down in alleys, parks, and restrooms. We’re basically a PR firm for morons who never grasped zippers.There was the boyband member caught in a compromising position with an inflatable doll—that was “artistic exploration.”The family-friendly comedian snapped with a sex worker was just “discussing scripts.”The naked politician found ass-up in a fountain was “researching architecture.”Such is life.I carefully compose my features into polite interest as Vicky and Brooke volley tasks about rehabbing Gina’s rep. I jot down notes for the rest of the meeting, hoping to redeem myself after this morning’s lateness.Kayla discreetly clears her throat beside me.Vicky’s head whips around, eyes flashing. “Don’t interrupt.”Kayla’s eyes widen. “Oh, I wasn’t! Just had a little tickle in my throat.”Vicky’s face is frozen, but a muscle in her jaw ticks. “That’s nice. Any other bodily outbursts to share before we proceed?”“No,” Kayla says
Six months laterLexiI love visiting Connor’s Irish cottage.This place is special to me, and not just because it’s where I accidentally flashed a funeral party. Sure, that’s pretty unforgettable, but it’s not the only reason this place holds a special place in my heart.Streaking aside, this cottage is where Connor and I fell in love, even if it took a bit of separation anxiety to realize it.Now, we’re back for a mini-vacation, but this time we’ve brought the whole crew: Grace, Clodagh, Killian, Teagan, and Connor’s mom.We’ve just stuffed our faces with Guinness stew and bowls of seafood chowder, in a small quaint Irish pub, and everything feels perfect. My belly, my soul, and my heart are all content.There’s something about Irish pubs that sets them apart, making them the best in the world. The Irish sure know how to have a good time.The traditional band is absolutely killing it tonight. The fiddler is playing like his life depends on it, and the guy with the tambourine-looking
One year laterConnorI guide Lexi along the street, her hand clutching my arm as I lead her to the surprise. I’m not gonna lie, I’m a little on edge here.“Connor, the last time you blindfolded me, we ended up on a different continent. I mean, don’t get me wrong, it was amazing. But it’d be great if I could pack my bags for myself.”I smirk. “That’s not entirely accurate. The last time I blindfolded you, I had you bent over my bed, begging for mercy.”“Okay, fine,” she says, smirking under the blindfold. “The last time in public. I sure hope no one on the street heard you say that.”“Come on, just a few more steps.”I slowly slide the blindfold off, watching her face closely for her reaction.She blinks, taking in the Fifth Avenue townhouse we’re standing in front of.“Wait, are we at Killian’s place? No, hold on . . . Killian’s is farther down, isn’t it?”I feel a grin tugging at my lips. “It’s ours, Lexi. If you want it, that is.”Her eyes go wide, jaw dropping. “What? You bought t
My fingers dance over his stomach, tracing the lines of his abs and hipbones and the trail of hair that leads down to his cock.He chuckles, his muscles jumping under my touch. “Hey, that tickles.”“Sorry,” I laugh, but I’m not sorry at all.I can’t stop touching him. Or looking at him.I want to watch him sleep all night. I want to see those long, giraffe-like lashes flutter, those lips part in silent dreams, and that ridiculously sexy wolf tattoo heave with every breath.I’ll be disappointed in myself if I fall asleep.Christ, I sound like a psycho.We’ve fucked maybe one billion times tonight, and it must be 4 a.m. What a night.Connor looks just as exhausted but blissfully happy as me.He’s sprawled out next to me, one arm propped behind his head like he’s posing for a Calvin Klein ad and the other slung possessively around me.And I swear to god, I’m so happy to be in his arms, so content, that I could almost kiss his armpit with its dark fuzz.That’s how deeply I’ve fallen for t
EPILOGUELater that nightLexiThere’s something about elevators that really gets me going. Makes me feel naughty.It’s the forced proximity, the way you’re locked into this tiny metal cube with someone; your personal space nonexistent.It’s the sensation of that lurch in your stomach as you shoot up or drop down.It’s the fact that it’s a moving box that feels like you’re in a private little world while still being in a space that’s open to anyone who has the audacity to hit the button and interrupt your moment.But most of all, it’s the fact that you’re time-boxed. You’ve got forty seconds, if you’re lucky, to do all the things you’ve been dying to do.So when Connor and I finally escape the police investigation and step into the elevator that will take us to his penthouse, it’s like every over-the-top movie elevator scene brought to life, where the characters can’t keep their hands to themselves.Our hands are all over each other, our mouths are all over each other, our noises are
“Connor,” Grace squeaks.“Connor,” I rasp, staring at him.He’s here. In his tux. Looking like James Bond and the hot felon model guy rolled into one ridiculously handsome package.“Don’t hurt them,” Connor says, his gaze fixed on Deano as if I’m not even there.I want to run into his arms, to bury my face in his chest and just breathe him in. To replace the stench of Deano’s stale cigarette breath with the intoxicating scent of Connor.His chest rises and falls with each labored breath, his jaw locked tight, eyes burning with fierce resolve. “This has nothing to do with Lexi or Grace. I’m the one who got you locked up. Your problem’s with me. Point that thing my way,” he says slowly and deliberately.He takes a step toward Deano, his hands raised in a gesture of surrender.Deano keeps his gun aimed right at me.“Shoot me. You know you want to. I’m right here, buddy, yours for the taking. Why go near Lexi when you can have me?” Connor’s voice is steady, but I can hear the undercurrent
“Ask me about him. I won’t mention him unless you do.”Fuck. She hasn’t even said his name, and the pang is sharp. It’s harder in New York than in Maryland. Because I know he’s here, I know he’s out there breathing the same New York air, gazing up at the same sky.I could make a run for it, sprint those twenty blocks like my life depended on it, just to catch a glimpse of him. I know exactly where he is right now.I could drag Grace back to her staff party and face my heartache head-on, because I’m a glutton for punishment. Maybe seeing him in the flesh would finally be the pain I need to forget him entirely. To stamp out that teeny tiny sliver of hope that’s stubbornly clinging to my soul.It’s ridiculous. The dull pain has lasted longer now than the fling itself. It’s not supposed to be that way. I’m supposed to be over him, moved on.And Tom’s great. Funny, handsome, uncomplicated. He’s the antithesis of a brooding billionaire type. Tom is the kind of guy who belongs in my world, t
Lexi turns to hug her sister. That moment—catching sight of her heart-shaped face, the one I’ve tried to shove into the deepest corners of my memory—it hits me like a punch to the gut.There she is. In the flesh. So damn close.She smiles at Grace, says something that makes her laugh, and then throws her head back in laughter—a sound I can almost hear in my head.Then she’s gone. She’s gone before I can do something reckless like vault over the balcony and shatter both legs getting to that taxi.I slump against the railing, feeling this sharp pain in my chest, like I’ve been shot. After all this time, just catching a fleeting glimpse of her undoes me completely.It felt like hours, drinking in every detail. But it must’ve only been a minute, maybe less.I don’t have many regrets in life, but the haunting memory of letting her walk away that night at Killian’s house might just be my biggest.It’s a deep cut that won’t heal, keeping me up at night as I stare at the ceiling, my vision sw
“Someone I used to know,” I say numbly.My chest tightens.Because the woman she’s unintentionally channeling tonight? There’s a very real chance she might be there in the flesh.◆◆◆One of the cons about coming out about my hearing condition is that people have taken to shouting at me, like I can’t hear at all. It’s enough to give me a headache worse than when I was straining to hear people.Even the flirtatious attempt by the marketing department’s latest addition, who loudly declared her single status and interest, felt more like a yell meant for a stadium than a failed-attempt at seduction. If there’s one way to blow your career at my company, it’s to think I’m interested in having a fling with someone on my staff.Yet, there’s one individual who seems determined to keep her distance, the young intern with the heart-shaped face from Yonkers. Our eyes have met several times, but each encounter is met with her quick retreat, a clear avoidance that speaks volumes more than the overt
I find myself glancing away, checking the sad state of my herb garden through the window. The basil’s dead. It makes me want to cry, I tried so hard with it. Some things just aren’t meant to thrive, I guess.When I glance back at the screen, Connor and the stunning professor are bantering so easily, so effortlessly, that I hit pause, unsure if I can stomach more.Despite the deep ache in my chest, I realize part of me is actually happy for him.All this time, I’ve avoided thinking about him, pushed him out of my life and my heart. Yet he’s still managed to find his way into my thoughts.Is he drinking and partying? Is he alone? Is he isolated, pushing everyone away like he did with me? When I lay awake some nights and think about how he pushed me away, how he pushed his family away, I imagine his condition making matters worse.I even wonder, pathetically, if he ever thinks of me anymore. If he’s ever regretted how we fell apart or thought about what we could have been.But seeing him