Anger and fear fight inside me. “Who’s the guy?”
“Better you don’t know yet. You’ll meet him soon enough.” He grins, cocky as always. “Relax.”
He playfully dangles the envelope in front of me, only to click his tongue and yank it back, like the dick that he is. “Oh, and Lexi?”
I grit my teeth. “What?”
“Try not to look like someone ran over your dog. He’s gotta want to fuck you. Get dolled up for your date, Cinderella. Clock’s ticking.”
I can’t help but snarl as I fling the door open. “Guess I missed the part in Cinderella where she swipes the prince’s Benz.”
Deano cracks up like we’re suddenly best buddies. But before I can bail, his hand clamps my wrist in an iron vise.
“You should be thanking me.” He winks. “I’m basically your knight in shining armor here.”
Yeah, right.
I’m way out of my depth here. But it’s not like I have a ton of options.
Guess I’d better go get prettied up for my hot date tonight.
Just my luck that there’s no fairy godmother in this twisted tale waiting to pamper and prep me.
Nope, it’s all on me, as always.
THREE
Lexi
The air in this upscale hotel bar is so thick with money and ego, I half expect my next exhale to come out as Chanel No. 5.
This, right here, is the scent of “making it.”
A world away from my reality of unpaid bills, leaky roofs, a toilet that belts out sea shanties, and upstairs neighbors who think my ceiling is a trampoline.
I can’t even recall the last time I was in a joint like this just for kicks. It’s always work-related, schmoozing clients.
But tonight’s different. Tonight, I get the grand honor of feeling wildly out of my league among the Gucci crowd, while becoming an unwitting accessory to grand theft auto.
Girl can’t catch a fucking break.
I fidget with my straw, stirring desperately for courage that won’t come. My legs uncross-recross-uncross as I scope the room. At this rate the bartender probably thinks I have a raging UTI.
My gaze lands on a guy in a velvet vest. Clearly on a date, yet he has the audacity to throw a wink my way, the filthy bastard. Is it him?
Oh god, I can’t do this. I’ve been here half an hour, eyeing every dude that walks in. Deano said he’ll text when the “target” arrives, and that I should expect him here by nine. I’ve never dreaded a text more. I’m seconds from revisiting that sad noodle salad I choked down earlier.
I adjust the thin strap on my shoulder, cursing the AC blasting my nips. My ancient black satin dress from Target screams cheap against these designer labels. I’m a planner by nature but Deano only gave me thirty minutes to get ready. So here I am, my only strategy being plunging necklines and nipples on full alert.
Because men are programmed to ogle boobs, thanks to some kind of breast voodoo from feeding that forever hooks them through the eyeballs. Vallure PR exploits that weakness constantly—cleavage here, artful sideboob there. Hence my painted-on Little Black Nothing tonight.
Grace nearly choked on her cheesy bites when I strutted out, feeding her some emergency work meeting bullshit for a new client.
I take a deep breath, steadying myself. Ever since I got roped into this madness, normal breathing’s been a luxury.
I catch a glimpse of myself in the bar mirror. I’ve got the whole femme fatale look down—smoky eyes, bold red lips, my dark hair loose and lightly curled, dress clinging like my dignity. But it’s only an illusion masking the panicked little girl inside.
I’m not a bad person, I swear. I don’t lie, cheat, or steal. That’s not me.
I’m trying to convince myself that maybe the target’s a grade-A jerk who had it coming. That’ll make it easier, right?
To anyone here, I’m just another gal nursing a drink, either because my date’s a no-show or I’m unfashionably punctual.
But they don’t know about the pair of eyes tracking me from across the lounge. Deano, the Don Corleone wannabe. I feel his gaze like it’s licking my spine, sending horrific shivers up and down.
Tick tock.
I can’t hear the diamond-encrusted clock on the wall, but I swear it’s ticking in sync with my pounding heartbeat. How many times have I snapped my head around to check it, then the door, then back at my drink? A zillion. I must look deranged.
That minute hand just keeps moving, relentless. Deano’s mark is late. Apparently, I have sixty minutes once he shows up. Deano seems to have a lot of misplaced faith in my powers of seduction. This entire plan is ludicrous.
I shift uncomfortably on my stool. The bartender catches my eye, lifting a brow. “Another round?”
“I’m good, thanks!” I chirp, taking another tiny sip.
He eyes me a bit too long, especially around the chest area. “Just holler if you change your mind . . .”
Oh, I will, right after I win the lottery. Or get out of prison.
Is anyone else here feeling this crushing weight? I’m surrounded by rich people, all fancy and carefree, clinking glasses to the sound of jazz. And here I am, drowning in anxiety, screaming like a banshee yet somehow producing no sound.
Tick tock. The guy’s a no-show. Thanks for nothing, clock.
That pesky strap slips off my shoulder and I fix it quickly. But not before some lecherous old man ogles me with a sleazy grin.
Jesus, is this our guy? Still no text from Deano.
A wardrobe malfunction witnessed by Grandpa Perv is the last thing I need. I sneak another peek back, praying I imagined it.
But nope—there he still is, eye-fucking me hard. A relic easily pushing seventy. Seriously? Men need to stop guzzling the lies about improving with age.
With equal parts horror and depraved fascination, I’m unable to look away as he locks eyes and fellates that olive in the most vulgar display imaginable.
Well, that’s an image seared into my brain forever.
I avert my gaze, trying to compose myself. I’m not sure if I want Olivesucker to be the guy.
Tick. Fucking. Tock.
To my right, a couple is deep in a heated debate about whether to buy or lease a beach house in the Hamptons. Must be nice to have those kinds of problems. I stifle an eye roll and sip my drink. I’m not ashamed to admit I’m an inverted snob.
From behind me, a girl half whispers, half squeals, “Oh my god, guess who just showed up? I knew he’d come.”
My heart skips, but I don’t dare turn around. Still no word from Deano.
“Are you serious?” her friend breathes. “Okay, here’s the plan—we’ll create a ‘spontaneous’ run-in where I fake trip and land face-first on his crotch as an icebreaker.”
Giggles dissolve behind me as I casually scope out the bar, my radar on full alert.
Fucking hell, it’s Connor Quinn across the bar. The youngest of those notorious Quinn brothers. Supposedly one of the richest men in the country, with so many hotels the Trade Commission is investigating monopoly practices.
Damn, what a face. I’m temporarily distracted from my horrific plan.
That jawline, rough with just the right amount of stubble; chiseled cheekbones and piercing blue eyes that could make even the toughest women swoon—check, check, check.
You just know he devours girls like me for breakfast, then wipes his mouth and goes back for seconds and thirds with a cocky smirk.
He prowls through like he owns the place. Which he does. Wearing faded jeans and a tight tee clinging to his muscular physique, he stands out from the tailored suits. Guess when you own the place you can break the rules.
I know his type—the kind of dangerous temptation all moms warn their daughters about, while secretly fantasizing themselves. Except my mom, who’d probably be waving her hands in the air and shouting “Hey, mister!” until she got his attention like a crazy lady.
But now’s not really the time for eye-banging.
“Hey there, sweetheart.”
I swivel and recoil. Fucking hell, it’s that decrepit olive-sucking letch from before, now hovering uncomfortably close, bleary eyes fixed squarely chest-level.
“Can I help you?” I ask coldly, angling away and attempting telepathic extermination.
“You look familiar. Have we met?” His hand lands on my arm.
I jerk back. “You probably knew my great-great-grandma before she died. People say we looked alike.”
That one lands a solid punch to his ego.
But he shakes it off quick, undeterred. He’s like Herbert the fucking Pervert from Family Guy, if Herbert was reconsidering his life choices.
“A beautiful woman like yourself shouldn’t be sitting here alone. How about some company?”
I muster all the revulsion I can into a glance. It’s almost impressive, his confidence. But come on, money or not, the age gap here isn’t just a gap, it’s the Grand Canyon. “Thanks, but my boyfriend’s about to show up. He’s probably just wrapping up strangling someone in his MMA class.”
Grandpa Olive Sucker plops down anyway, unfazed. “Let’s have one drink while you wait.”
He snaps his fingers at the bartender. “Another cocktail for the lady here.”
I clench my jaw. “I said no thanks.”
Unbelievable.He doesn’t catch the hint, eyeing me up and down, practically drooling. “So what does a pretty little thing like you do? You a model? Actress?”My hands tighten around my drink, imagining pouring it over his polished head. “Actually, I run bingo nights. You should drop by, it’s a blast at the senior center on Tuesdays.”That’s the kicker that finally wipes the smug leer off his face. “You little—”But I’m not listening. My eyes bulge at the flashing message from Deano:He’s here. White shirt. Jeans.Below it, a picture of Connor Quinn. I nearly choke. This has to be a cruel prank.“Beat it,” I growl at Gramps. I feel sick.CONNOR QUINN??? My fat fingers can’t type fast enough. THIS A JOKE??No way is this real. I’d rather watch The Texas Chainsaw Massacre on repeat—and that says a lot considering I’ve refused Grace for over a year.Please don’t let this end Chainsaw style.I sneak a look across the bar. There’s Deano, looking sharp and oblivious, as if he’s just a regula
He’s so close.Too close.I could count each individual bristly hair along his jawline if I wanted. See every chestnut-brown strand on his head. The small scar cutting through his left eyebrow that somehow makes him look even more rugged. The laugh lines around his eyes, evidence he sometimes smiles.He smells good. Hot and unapologetically masculine.“Is it the lights?” he asks, voice low and gravelly.“What?” I breathe.“Your eyes.” He stares at me like he’s witnessing the second coming of Christ, right here in this bathroom.I feel my cheeks roast. I’m used to the attention my mismatched peepers bring. One green, the other a brownish color—I used to think I looked like a Cabbage Patch doll that had its eyes swapped in the factory.But the way he’s looking at me now . . . it sends my pulse into overdrive.I blink hard. The guy must be wasted.“I thought it was the lights, but they really are different shades,” he murmurs, his hand gently lifting my chin so I can’t look away. “It’s c
“Are you currently receiving paychecks signed by me?”She crosses her arms. “Seriously? No, I don’t work for you. Who are you anyway?”I chuckle as my hands skim her breasts, feeling her nipples tighten beneath the silky fabric. “Don’t play coy, angel. You know damn well who I am.”Then again, maybe she doesn’t. She’s not a regular here—that much is clear just from looking at her.“Should I?” she fires back, a tense smirk playing on her lips. “You some kinda hero who cures diseases or saves the rainforest in your spare time?”If fucking only.Her sassy words hit a nerve.I grip her throat, mouth finding her ear as her breath hitches. “I’m no hero, sorry to disappoint you. But you don’t want a hero right now, do you?”In a move that’s surprisingly smooth considering the sheer amount of booze flooding my system, I lift her up and carry her into the nearest stall, the door slamming shut behind us.My hotel bathrooms are a sinner’s paradise—muted mood lighting, mirrors to appreciate every
Despite his assholery, no one could look at that ruggedly handsome face and hard body and deny he’s hot as hell. He’s the type of guy you know is bad news, but you’d sleep with anyway because the sex would be mind-blowing. Then, you’d slink away before sunrise to avoid being kicked out like yesterday’s trash.But as his hands slid into my panties, something clicked in my brain. I realized what I was becoming. Or what I would become if I let him continue. It was like getting zapped by an electric fence.And yeah, all right, shoving him like that was a dick move too on my part. But even with all that booze flooding his system, his cocky confidence radiated off him.My feminist side cheered as I left him hanging mid seduction.But honestly? Some disturbingly estrogen-charged cavewoman part of me wondered what might’ve gone down if I hadn’t fled . . .The way he had me pinned against that wall with his hard body . . . yeah, I wanted it bad. So bad that I’m disgusted with myself for it.Bu
“Anyone in particular we’re looking for?” Sara asks, nervously biting her lip.“Yeah,” I snap, jaw tight with frustration.The footage stutters forward, and there I am, a mess, hardly the picture of control or dignity. I run a hand over my face in frustration.“There. Freeze it.”There she is, sitting alone at the bar. The brunette who had me all revved up only to leave me steaming like an enraged bull. She’s waiting for someone, but keeps glancing over at me as I stumble through the crowd.“Fast forward,” I command.I watch as Rose shifts on her bar stool with a hurried, almost skittish energy. None of her movements look practiced, she seems . . . nervous. Wary. Her eyes flick to me briefly before darting back to her phone in a rapid, unsettled motion. She fucking knows who I am. Then she gets up and heads off to the restroom.Fast forward ten minutes and she is running out of the bathroom.“Freeze it there.”9:32 p.m.Now she’s hustling through the lobby in her high heels, making a
But I can’t tell him this problem until I’ve solved it. As much as he is my brother and we’ve got each other’s backs, he’s a businessman.He’ll make sure I’m okay but that might mean stepping back. And that ain’t fucking happening.Might as well make the thief useful. “You want to know what’s pissing me off? I got hustled by some chick at the hotel bar.”His expression shifts to confusion. “What happened?”“I was with this knockout brunette in the restroom. Next thing, my new car’s gone. She swiped my keys while I was . . . distracted.”“The custom 911?”“That’s the one.”He pauses, looking like he’s trying to decide whether to laugh or knock some sense into me. “Christ, Connor. This self-destruct streak you’ve been on . . . You hit your midlife crisis early or are you just getting too arrogant for your own damn good?”“Save the lecture,” I grumble. “I’m already aggravated enough.”His eyes drift to my open laptop. He lifts it onto his lap, eyebrows rising. “Figured I’d find you neck-
An hour deep, and I’m cranking out charm on autopilot—laughing at terrible jokes, stroking egos left and right. The alcohol’s doing its thing, loosening everyone up.Tonight, though, the mask feels suffocating. These events used to be easy. Now the banal small talk grates, my social skills corroding by the day.If the doctors are right, there might come a time when I can’t even play this game anymore.I grab another whiskey, having lost count somewhere between the mayor’s speech and the wasted socialite inviting me back for the best head of my life—her words, not mine. My drinking hand clearly missed the moderation memo tonight.Can’t really fault it, though, not with who’s up ahead.Senator Madison, in all his artificially tanned, bleached-teeth glory. The guy thinks he’s the best thing to happen to this state, a self-righteous blowhard with his head jammed firmly up his own asshole.Killian gives me a low-key nod, both of us thrilled about having to suck up to this guy. So I plaster
Yet another visceral flash I didn’t invite. I force the interloper from my mind, focusing on the woman in front of me.“Forced to attend as your father’s glamorous plus-one again?”She offers a wry smile, circling her olive in her glass. “Mother refused duty tonight. I drew the short straw.”“Then I guess I should be grateful for your ‘misfortune.’ You look stunning, as always.”She glances up at me with a hint of mischief. “You’re not too hard on the eyes yourself, Mr. Quinn. But I think you already know that.”“I clean up all right,” I reply, the corners of my mouth ticking up.“I know your game, Connor Quinn,” she says, a touch of challenge in her tone.My brow arches. “Oh yeah? And what’s that?”“Playing nice with the senator’s daughter?”I let out a low chuckle. “I’m not sure the senator wants me playing with his only daughter.”Madison talks a big game about family values. The Madisons aren’t just a political clan; they’re a squeaky clean, all-American brand. Willow proudly flau
Six months laterLexiI love visiting Connor’s Irish cottage.This place is special to me, and not just because it’s where I accidentally flashed a funeral party. Sure, that’s pretty unforgettable, but it’s not the only reason this place holds a special place in my heart.Streaking aside, this cottage is where Connor and I fell in love, even if it took a bit of separation anxiety to realize it.Now, we’re back for a mini-vacation, but this time we’ve brought the whole crew: Grace, Clodagh, Killian, Teagan, and Connor’s mom.We’ve just stuffed our faces with Guinness stew and bowls of seafood chowder, in a small quaint Irish pub, and everything feels perfect. My belly, my soul, and my heart are all content.There’s something about Irish pubs that sets them apart, making them the best in the world. The Irish sure know how to have a good time.The traditional band is absolutely killing it tonight. The fiddler is playing like his life depends on it, and the guy with the tambourine-looking
One year laterConnorI guide Lexi along the street, her hand clutching my arm as I lead her to the surprise. I’m not gonna lie, I’m a little on edge here.“Connor, the last time you blindfolded me, we ended up on a different continent. I mean, don’t get me wrong, it was amazing. But it’d be great if I could pack my bags for myself.”I smirk. “That’s not entirely accurate. The last time I blindfolded you, I had you bent over my bed, begging for mercy.”“Okay, fine,” she says, smirking under the blindfold. “The last time in public. I sure hope no one on the street heard you say that.”“Come on, just a few more steps.”I slowly slide the blindfold off, watching her face closely for her reaction.She blinks, taking in the Fifth Avenue townhouse we’re standing in front of.“Wait, are we at Killian’s place? No, hold on . . . Killian’s is farther down, isn’t it?”I feel a grin tugging at my lips. “It’s ours, Lexi. If you want it, that is.”Her eyes go wide, jaw dropping. “What? You bought t
My fingers dance over his stomach, tracing the lines of his abs and hipbones and the trail of hair that leads down to his cock.He chuckles, his muscles jumping under my touch. “Hey, that tickles.”“Sorry,” I laugh, but I’m not sorry at all.I can’t stop touching him. Or looking at him.I want to watch him sleep all night. I want to see those long, giraffe-like lashes flutter, those lips part in silent dreams, and that ridiculously sexy wolf tattoo heave with every breath.I’ll be disappointed in myself if I fall asleep.Christ, I sound like a psycho.We’ve fucked maybe one billion times tonight, and it must be 4 a.m. What a night.Connor looks just as exhausted but blissfully happy as me.He’s sprawled out next to me, one arm propped behind his head like he’s posing for a Calvin Klein ad and the other slung possessively around me.And I swear to god, I’m so happy to be in his arms, so content, that I could almost kiss his armpit with its dark fuzz.That’s how deeply I’ve fallen for t
EPILOGUELater that nightLexiThere’s something about elevators that really gets me going. Makes me feel naughty.It’s the forced proximity, the way you’re locked into this tiny metal cube with someone; your personal space nonexistent.It’s the sensation of that lurch in your stomach as you shoot up or drop down.It’s the fact that it’s a moving box that feels like you’re in a private little world while still being in a space that’s open to anyone who has the audacity to hit the button and interrupt your moment.But most of all, it’s the fact that you’re time-boxed. You’ve got forty seconds, if you’re lucky, to do all the things you’ve been dying to do.So when Connor and I finally escape the police investigation and step into the elevator that will take us to his penthouse, it’s like every over-the-top movie elevator scene brought to life, where the characters can’t keep their hands to themselves.Our hands are all over each other, our mouths are all over each other, our noises are
“Connor,” Grace squeaks.“Connor,” I rasp, staring at him.He’s here. In his tux. Looking like James Bond and the hot felon model guy rolled into one ridiculously handsome package.“Don’t hurt them,” Connor says, his gaze fixed on Deano as if I’m not even there.I want to run into his arms, to bury my face in his chest and just breathe him in. To replace the stench of Deano’s stale cigarette breath with the intoxicating scent of Connor.His chest rises and falls with each labored breath, his jaw locked tight, eyes burning with fierce resolve. “This has nothing to do with Lexi or Grace. I’m the one who got you locked up. Your problem’s with me. Point that thing my way,” he says slowly and deliberately.He takes a step toward Deano, his hands raised in a gesture of surrender.Deano keeps his gun aimed right at me.“Shoot me. You know you want to. I’m right here, buddy, yours for the taking. Why go near Lexi when you can have me?” Connor’s voice is steady, but I can hear the undercurrent
“Ask me about him. I won’t mention him unless you do.”Fuck. She hasn’t even said his name, and the pang is sharp. It’s harder in New York than in Maryland. Because I know he’s here, I know he’s out there breathing the same New York air, gazing up at the same sky.I could make a run for it, sprint those twenty blocks like my life depended on it, just to catch a glimpse of him. I know exactly where he is right now.I could drag Grace back to her staff party and face my heartache head-on, because I’m a glutton for punishment. Maybe seeing him in the flesh would finally be the pain I need to forget him entirely. To stamp out that teeny tiny sliver of hope that’s stubbornly clinging to my soul.It’s ridiculous. The dull pain has lasted longer now than the fling itself. It’s not supposed to be that way. I’m supposed to be over him, moved on.And Tom’s great. Funny, handsome, uncomplicated. He’s the antithesis of a brooding billionaire type. Tom is the kind of guy who belongs in my world, t
Lexi turns to hug her sister. That moment—catching sight of her heart-shaped face, the one I’ve tried to shove into the deepest corners of my memory—it hits me like a punch to the gut.There she is. In the flesh. So damn close.She smiles at Grace, says something that makes her laugh, and then throws her head back in laughter—a sound I can almost hear in my head.Then she’s gone. She’s gone before I can do something reckless like vault over the balcony and shatter both legs getting to that taxi.I slump against the railing, feeling this sharp pain in my chest, like I’ve been shot. After all this time, just catching a fleeting glimpse of her undoes me completely.It felt like hours, drinking in every detail. But it must’ve only been a minute, maybe less.I don’t have many regrets in life, but the haunting memory of letting her walk away that night at Killian’s house might just be my biggest.It’s a deep cut that won’t heal, keeping me up at night as I stare at the ceiling, my vision sw
“Someone I used to know,” I say numbly.My chest tightens.Because the woman she’s unintentionally channeling tonight? There’s a very real chance she might be there in the flesh.◆◆◆One of the cons about coming out about my hearing condition is that people have taken to shouting at me, like I can’t hear at all. It’s enough to give me a headache worse than when I was straining to hear people.Even the flirtatious attempt by the marketing department’s latest addition, who loudly declared her single status and interest, felt more like a yell meant for a stadium than a failed-attempt at seduction. If there’s one way to blow your career at my company, it’s to think I’m interested in having a fling with someone on my staff.Yet, there’s one individual who seems determined to keep her distance, the young intern with the heart-shaped face from Yonkers. Our eyes have met several times, but each encounter is met with her quick retreat, a clear avoidance that speaks volumes more than the overt
I find myself glancing away, checking the sad state of my herb garden through the window. The basil’s dead. It makes me want to cry, I tried so hard with it. Some things just aren’t meant to thrive, I guess.When I glance back at the screen, Connor and the stunning professor are bantering so easily, so effortlessly, that I hit pause, unsure if I can stomach more.Despite the deep ache in my chest, I realize part of me is actually happy for him.All this time, I’ve avoided thinking about him, pushed him out of my life and my heart. Yet he’s still managed to find his way into my thoughts.Is he drinking and partying? Is he alone? Is he isolated, pushing everyone away like he did with me? When I lay awake some nights and think about how he pushed me away, how he pushed his family away, I imagine his condition making matters worse.I even wonder, pathetically, if he ever thinks of me anymore. If he’s ever regretted how we fell apart or thought about what we could have been.But seeing him