Chapter 215: MANDY

I felt just a little spark of interest. This was the most taboo thing I've ever done after all, so how could I not? But the day was tainted and not as fun as I'd always dreamed it would be.

Still, I spread my legs a little wider and plastered a fake smile on my face as he played his fingers along my thigh.

"Well?" I hated the leering smile on his face. Only because I didn't feel like I was in control. It felt more, like I was being led by someone else's machinations and I hated it.

As much as I'd been looking forward to this moment. To stealing my mother's happiness, it was lacking something because I was feeling too unsettled.

So that is why when he indicated with just the movement of his eyes that I should give him head, I slid down off his desk grudgingly. For the first time since I learned to use sex as a weapon, I hated it.

Not the act itself, but the fact that in this one instance, I wasn't entirely in control. Though I'll have him in the palm of my hand after we cross