The atmosphere feels thick with an unsettling presence, like a tightening noose constricting her skin.
Her body is there, my sister's body. I stand in silence, waiting for her to blink, hoping she'll step down from the railing and dismiss this as a mere joke or prank.
But she doesn't.
Our eyes lock in a continuous state of panic.
My hand moves from my chest to my mouth, then extends toward her. She swings back and forth, each swing diminishing, mirroring the growing intensity of my breaths.
I shut my eyes and collapse onto the ground, releasing a scream that drains all the air from my lungs.
"Azura!"
...
Four hours earlier...
"Can you and Alora give Ahren a ride home, Azura?" Ahren's mom disconnects her phone from the car's audio system, creating a loud pop sound. She smiles as she observes them standing together.
My sister and Ahren make a striking couple. He looks like a high school football star, while she is tall and blonde, as if she's been taken from the pages of Vogue and placed in our peaceful Palawan town.
Zaven tugs at my cardigan. "My nail came off."
"Ugh," I exclaim, reaching into my bag and handing him a roll of bandages. I accidentally tore off my little toe's nail while practicing at home last night, which is either a hazard of the trade or a sign that I need to reevaluate my ballet technique.
"Don't tease me! If I can't share these things with my dance partner, then who can I share them with?" His nail looks awful. As he removes his sock completely, we both wince. "Alora!"
"Quit complaining," Azura says with a chuckle. She kneels down and begins to apply a bandage to his toe. "You'd think that after all these years, you two would have grown accustomed to-"
"Azura, you can't just get used to stubbed toes."
She hands Zaven his sock and tells Ahren's mom, "Miss Mac, we'll drop him off after dinner."
"Sounds good! Enjoy yourselves, kids!"
Once Ahren's mom leaves the studio, he wraps his arms around Azura's waist. His cheeks turn deep red, and his bright blue eyes remain fixed on my sister. However, she seems lost in thought or captivated by something outside in the forest.
Zaven stands up as Azura awkwardly pushes Ahren away and says, "I'll leave you to deal with...whatever that is."
"Thanks," I reply, giving him a quick hug and reminding him, "Text me when you get home, Goose."
"Will do, Mav."
The car ride home feels oddly tense now that Ahren is seated in the back. I sit upfront with Azura, who hasn't uttered a word since we left my rehearsal. Her fingers are pale as they grip the wheel. I glance down to ensure her seatbelt is still fastened.
"Hmm?" She looks at me and asks, "Alora, did you say something?"
I fumble over my words. I hadn't actually spoken aloud. "Are you okay? You seem a bit distracted."
"I'm fine," she insists, although her forced smile suggests otherwise.
Ahren and I exchange glances. He gives me a frustrated shrug and sinks back into his seat. This dinner is turning out to be quite interesting.
But this isn't new. It's been this way for a while now, this sudden change. One moment she's her cheerful self, and the next... it's like talking to her underwater.
My sister has changed. It's evident. It has been progressively worsening since we returned from summer break and started our senior year.
I know that Azura has always been drawn to unconventional interests. She and her theater friends dabble in their version of white magic, something I used to consider a rebellious hobby or a bit of Mother Earth mysticism from hippies. But it was never an issue before. Azura is a good person, as are her friends. I know this.
I don't understand why she changed. This uncertainty gave me the courage to sneak into her room and sift through her belongings. I don't know why she transformed from my fearless, outgoing sister into someone shyer and quieter than even me. I don't know why she no longer wants to be with Ahren, her childhood sweetheart.
I can't grasp how we've gone from being inseparable best friends to sisters who hardly exchange a word. I can't pinpoint when Azura stopped talking to me, but it's undeniable that she has distanced herself.
In a typical family, siblings can keep secrets from each other without causing concern, but our family doesn't follow that pattern. Our parents consist of a hardworking father dedicated to his business and a mother who wholeheartedly adores him. Azura and I are the product of their commitment to each other, and while they do care about us, their devotion to each other has always come first.
After reading our father's text, I softly mentioned, "Mom is preparing arroz con habichuelas."
"Thank goodness," Azura responded as she drove down our long gravel driveway.
"Thanks, Mom," she added. "Primera-Mama," I teased her with a chuckle. "Segundo-Dios."
"Be careful now," I playfully warned her with a wrist slap. "You might get into trouble speaking like that."
Ahren, joining in from the backseat, said, "Ladies, let's keep an open mind."
"Ahren, I apologize. We were just discussing what holds the most importance in our family."
"Oh, so work," he joked, but I noticed Azura's jaw tensing.
Our upbringing was unlike anyone else's. By the time Azura and I entered elementary school, our father's sailing business had already begun its growth. We never lacked for anything, for which I've always been grateful. However, our parents were resolute in their priorities, emphasizing that the business always came first.
We were raised in a home where our parents spent more time abroad than sharing a room with us. Half of our family resided in Puerto Rico, and the other half in South Carolina. Azura and I were always together, and remarkably, we didn't stray down the wrong path. Our parents didn't dictate our every move, allowing us a degree of freedom.
I chose the path of dance, while my sister embraced the piano. Her sanctuary lay within the high school theater group, a choice that suited her outgoing nature. Azura and I may seem like mirror images, but we possess our differences.
As soon as Azura turned off the Jeep, Ahren hopped out, exclaiming, "I'm famished!" He sprinted up the front stairs, while my sister and I remained in silence.
Once again, she gazed into the woods. What could possibly have captured her attention?
Azura had always been sociable and driven, boasting numerous school friends. I, on the other hand, was the quiet one in the family, while she relished the limelight, especially on stage in ballet shoes. I found contentment in having just a select few friends, including my sister, Ahren, and my dance partner.
"Azura."
"Hmm?" Her gaze remained fixed on the path leading from our property into the woods. "Aloralie, I'm sorry. Let's head inside."
"Is everything all right?" It began with small things, like her absent-mindedness during our conversations. Subsequently, she started offering excuses to avoid hanging out, no longer bothering to provide explanations. "You're causing me to worry, Azura. Did...did something happen to you?"
"I..." She pursed her lips and shook her head. "Aloralie, it's nothing. I've just been contemplating life after school. You have a promising future in a dance company, while my best shot lies with a local theater group."
"I thought that after all these years, you'd know better than to keep things from me."
"I'm not—"
"Azura, I always sense when you're not being truthful! So, please, stop it and tell me what's really going on!"
We share more similarities than differences. Azura was born just ten months before me, so we've always been in the same grade. We have an uncanny ability to discern things about each other, much like twins.
She now looks back at the forest, clearly unsettled or fearful of something within. I strain to see what has captured her attention, but it eludes me. All I can make out are the faint silhouettes of pine trees and shrubs as darkness settles in.
"I just...sometimes I wonder if life has more to offer..." Leaning against the steering wheel, she gazes up at our house. Her bedroom window overlooks the driveway, and she must have forgotten to close it again, considering the likelihood of rain soaking her curtains. "There's something more..."
I reach out for her hand and assure her, "There's undoubtedly more to life, Azura. We'll break free from here. We can plan a trip or head off to college after graduation. If I end up joining a dance company, you're always welcome to come along. I'll never leave you behind."
She looks at me with sadness in her eyes, even though she's smiling. Her sad smile makes me emotional, almost bringing tears, but she stops them. She gently wipes away my tears with her hands.
"Aloralie, I get what you mean, but there's a big world out there for you. When I think about the future, I can't see anything."
Once again, she's not being entirely truthful. She has a scary secret but won't share it with me. For months now, I've felt like something bad is coming. But tonight, after Azura and I got out of the car, that feeling got stronger.
"What's this? It looks like Azura's handwriting, doesn't it?" Ahren hands me tea. I'm sitting at the kitchen counter, reading the strange journal I found under her bed.
"Yes, it's her notes from English class... I skipped some parts." The sense of something bad happening isn't just a feeling; I'm convinced something dreadful is coming.
"My mother's voice interrupts my thoughts. I blink, and she repeats, "Go get your sister," this time with a sigh.
I have to leave the kitchen and the smell of empanadillas my mother made.
I quickly go up the stairs, holding the journal. I want to talk to Azura about the strange entries. From talking about moon phases to mentioning crystals, deities, and protective herbs like mugwort, it seems like my sister might be starting a new spiritual journey. I want to understand if this is why she's been keeping to herself.
Just as I'm about to step onto the top landing, I trip and stumble forward. I manage to catch myself with my hands, but not before my head hits the doorframe of Azura's bedroom.
"Ouch," I say, holding my head and feeling tears coming. That was a clumsy mistake.
"Alora! Are you okay?" My dad calls from the living room, sounding like he hasn't moved.
"Yeah, just a little fall," I reply. My mom's head appears around the corner, and I start to get up. "It's really nothing! I'm not even bleeding."
"We'll get you some ice," she laughs and adds, "From downstairs, you sounded like an elephant tiptoeing on gravel."
Both of us are still thinking about that comment. Just as I turn the doorknob to enter Azura's room, my mom looks concerned. She's not one to ignore someone who's hurt, even if she spoke in a hushed voice. She should have been the first to check on me.
I turn the doorknob and look inside.
"Azura? Azura, are you—"
I'm waiting outside the police station for my parents to come out. I have a small packet of tissues in my pocket, the kind you carry when you're not feeling well. There's also a big tissue box in Dad's car on Azura's seat. Our family SUV is the only vehicle in the small parking lot. You'd expect a busy police station, but in our peaceful hometown of Palawan, crime is rare. Then my sister passed away. The police are looking into her death, even though it seems like she took her own life. They're following the rules, so they called my parents to get more details before releasing her body. When the glass door opens, my mother rushes out of the station. I go to get the tissue box. She takes my hands and dabs her eyes. My father is talking to the detective in charge of Azura's case. "Mom," I start to say, but she hugs me and stops me from talking. Her tears wet my t-shirt. I try not to cry. She lets go, cups my cheek, and whispers, "It's over." She smiles, but I'm not sure why. We all
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"Alora." "Azura," I mumble as I turn over and open my eyes. It's chilly. The tip of my nose feels numb, and my breath moistens my lips. As I wake up and realize I'm not in bed, I scramble to my feet. I'm in a forested area, and I reach out to touch wet leaves and branches, which feel frigid beneath my fingers. Somewhere deep in the woods, a voice calls my name. "Azura?" Silence. The pine trees remain silent. I push up onto my hands and knees and glance back. I'm not far from our house, just a mile into the dense forest behind our home. Moonlight bathes everything around me, casting a brightness akin to daylight. It's almost blinding, so I shield my eyes and scan the area, trying to figure out the way home. A loud snap sounds from behind me. Birds scatter as the bushes rustle. I squeeze my eyes shut and press my palms into the ground. I have an urge to remain as still as possible, as though I could hide my head under my arms and pretend I'm somewhere else entirely, somewhere not
The black wolf, its eyes locked onto me, lays its head in my lap, and I'm paralyzed by fear. Suddenly, the wolf stiffens, its gaze drawn to the forest. I follow its gaze and find myself in an open space, unfamiliar to me. In the distance, I spot the mountains that are also visible from my home. "What are you looking at?" I mutter, briefly considering the presence of the other wolf. But it's not the wolf; it's a woman. With olive skin and loose, dark hair flowing in the wind, her golden-green eyes hold an intense, almost otherworldly quality. She focuses that intense gaze on the wolf. "Is she close?" She murmurs softly. The agitated wolf howls, startling me, and the woman takes a step back. Yet, the wolf doesn't seem to bother her much. She surveys the open space. "It will be her time. The same as her sister's." As I attempt to distance myself from the wolf, it whines and follows me closely. Its large form brushes against me, nearly toppling me over. I hug myself and close my eyes,
She has his gaze. Orion's gaze. That same, sickening yellow pierces me as I meet her eyes. But she simply watches me. This woman who stands above me seems so familiar...yet I don't know her at all.All I know is her name. Kaltain.She and I look nothing alike, so I know that she isn't a reincarnation of Iphigenia's soul. She is one of Cecily's daughters. She is also one of Orion's.She extends her hand and they're webbed with black veins, like her skin is rotting or crumbling away like ashes of a burnt log. Flames dance off her fingertips like her nails are candlewicks. I flinch away and she tilts her head."You're newer than I thought," Her voice is deep and wispy. Those sharp eyes scrape over me in mild interest. And finally, a twisted, crooked grin takes over her face, "You and I will have much to talk about, Alora. Much to work on in the coming years.""Alora," I whisper, "You know who I am-""Of course. I have known about you long before you knew of me. We share more than just bl
"Congrats," I wave as the couple walks out of the clinic."Thanks, Alora," The pregnant female smiles back at me before taking her mate's hand."Hey Alora!" Addison comes running up beside me. Kiana and Eamonn are next to her.Eamonn sprints into me and wraps his arms around my legs, "Alora! Hey, nene."Addison looks at me with hopeful eyes, "Can you play with us?""What are you playing?""I was going to show Addison how to throw a rugby ball!" Eamonn bounces up and down, "Please come! I want to show you too!""He's really good," Kiana squeezes him tightly in her arms, "Taught by the best, obviously.""Yeah, Mac," Eamonn teases her."You little shite! Who do you think taught Mac, huh?" She grows quiet and glances up at me. I don't smile back at her and she cringes."I have a couple more things I need to do. But when I'm done, I'll come out for a little," I smile at the two pups. They cheer and run off together, but Kiana lingers, "Kiana...'m not angry with you so please stop looking”
Maybe I'm a lot more like Zemira than I have ever been willing to admit. It's a thought that crosses my mind as I watch Hendrick sleeping quietly in front of me. He's here...but I feel nothing. I'm callous, just like she was. The difference is that she craved Orion's love... only crave Hendrick in the most basic and primal ways. The Heat has completely lifted any fog or doubts I had over my feelings for him. I care for him deeply but not in the ways I had before.My trust and faith in what we had has been completely shattered.Which is why this can't go on.I crawl over him, rousing him from his sleep, and brush my fingers through his hair. He grins lazily and encircles my waist with his hands. Our kiss is slow and easy. But it doesn't feel right...out of place like a piano key that was tuned incorrectly."I need to go," I whisper against his lips and tug lightly on the ends of his spiky hair.He blinks, "Where?""I need to check on Kiana-she texted me just now and asked for me to go
I jolt upright at the sound of a loud bang. Immediately, I scramble for my athame and sprint towards the bedroom door. A large, black silhouette in the hallway has me snarling lowly."Alora, it's me!" Hendrick whispers before I can lob it at him."Wha-Hendrick, what the hell are you doing?" I lower the knife and tiptoe past Jayden's room. I can hear neither her nor Olivia breathing softly. They must be sleeping at Olivia's tonight. "I could have hurt you.”"Sorry-I just needed to go for a run," He slips out of his boots and sets them out on the porch. He gives my thigh a pat as he walks by me, "Sometimes, I feel like this apartment is going to suffocate me."I understand how he feels....ever since my Heat had come into full swing, being near him was almost unbearable. We could barely be in the same room alone for more than a few minutes without one of us having to stop the other from doing something stupid."We're nearly done," I lean against the sliding door and watch the Moon hang a
I keel over for a moment, hands on my knees and breathing deep. Nancy lays a hand on my back but she lets go when I smile at her. Throughout the day, my body periodically has cramped up like most of the females.The time for the pack's seasonal Heat has begun, and so have the fights between females too. Avianna has gone back to help Abrego with its Heat, which means that Nancy and I are left to deal with the waves of injuries and fights.After a long day, I sprawl out on the couch in the apartment and kick off my shoes. Jayden is out for the evening to meet Olivia's family- something I know she's really nervous about. I send her a quick text of encouragement.As I set my phone down, the door opens. Hendrick walks inside but doesn't make it a foot inside before he freezes. Our eyes lock onto one another. "Mi reina," His voice is deeper nowadays, and I can't believe how much he has changed in just a short amount of time. It makes me hope that he actually has changed....but I can't belie
"You can't go in there-”I push the meeting room doors with both hands. It's only Mac and Kiana inside, leaning over the center table and setting up a computer. Gracie is behind me with her eyes popping out of here skull."Lass? What is it?""Where's Kennedy?" I look around the room but he's not here. He was though-his scent is fresh here!""Right behind you."I turn around. He's not smiling but he's not unfriendly either. But Hendrick's words haunt me almost as much as the spirits that stalk my every move. Packs like Solari and Ameku take advantage of their connections to The Order to gain advantage over everyone else.Are you using me?I want to believe that he isn't. I've never felt that Kennedy has ulterior motives for helping me. But he also hid Orion's attacks on this pack from me. And he neglected to tell me the tension that existed between the Lycans and the Werewolves. He never lied...he just never told me the truth.His head tilts so innocently when I look away from him. Both
"I don't think this is a good idea, Alora."Jayden sets up a pillow for me as I set up my scrying bowl. We're in the backroom of Nancy's clinic, who was kind enough to not ask any questions. I, however, have plenty of questions to ask-all of which are in desperate need of answering."I have to find him, Jayden," I crush the last of the lupine I brought with me from Palawan. "Remind me to ask Avianna to bring some Kinkaid's Lupine next time she's-""Okay, but Alora-""You're not going to talk me out of it," I understand her concerns. Truth be told, I'm trembling in fear. Nothing good ever came out of seeking him...but I don't have much of a choice. Every other lead or clue I've had isn't panning out right now. "Stand outside the door. Make sure no one comes in...""Fine, but I don't think we should be doing this-I don't care if Kennedy knows-""What does Kennedy know about?" Hendrick walks into the backroom but stops the moment he takes in the scene in the room. Jayden holding a chest
What am I doing?I mix the two potions together in the scrying bowl. To my pleasure, they light up in a green mixture the moment they mix together. I yip in delight and clap my hands. At least I'm not messing up entirely on thisThe same cannot be said in regard to how I'm dealing with the personal feelings towards two certain men in my life. Again, I ask, what am I doing?Quickly, I pop a couple of the crystals I have been using lately into the green potion. It's supposed to help cleanse crystals and other tools quicker than just placing them in the sunlight, moonlight, and running water.Lying back on the wooden floor, I stare at the white, wooden paneling on the ceiling above. Today has been quiet and left me a lot of time to focus on practicing all that I had learnt from Avianna and Nancy.It's also given me a lot of time to reflect on my own feelings. I still can't forget the way Jayden glared at me when she saw Kennedy and I together in the hospital...and I can't get either Hend
"I can do it," I say as Hendrick tries pick me up from the car. Despite the mending ribs, I'm not tired. I feel strong and have to keep reminding myself to take it slowly."Just be careful," He steps back to give me some room, but not much. His eyes keep darting around at the Solari Wolves that have come over to see how I'm doing.He doesn't expect me to put my hand on his arm, "Hendrick, it's alright..."Just as I took him by surprise, he returns the favor by pushing me up against the car. I'm wide-eyed and stiff as a board when he cups my face. He searches my face but I'm not sure for what. Maybe he's still paranoid about any injuries I have, or maybe it's the fact I'm alive and breathing. Whatever his reasons, I can't fill my lungs up with a sufficient amount of air to keep from becoming lightheaded.His face is so close to my own. His lips brush against the corner of my mouth...and just when I think he's going to kiss me, he pulls away. My mind is buzzing while he pushes my hair f