Angelo
I have always had the fear of messing up when everything is going well? I'm always calm and sure , but I have a blind spot when it comes to Mia . Mia as the one who told me about my ex wife's infidelity, and even though I lost good friends she stuck around. She came to see me in rehab and she stood by me when I thought I wasn't worthy.
In the looks department Mia is a ten. She's gone out with celebrities, men who have deeper pockets than me and some guys who just want her for control. She's single at the moment ,and she needs to find her own independence. We've never slept together but when I took her to a business dinner with Alexis and Aaron , because I knew I had messed up with Cleo; Mia was available and I couldn't rock up alone. As shocked as Aaron was to see me with Mia; I told him not to get involved. I was still angry about. Cleo seeing other men behind my back . A selfish part of me wanted to make her fell
CleoThere is nothing scarier than preparing for a disciplinary meeting for something you didn't do, that you were accused of. I was framed and I knew I was innocent but since my husband didn't believe me, and decided to have a night out with an old friend that turned out to be the same friend that was the cause of his previous marriage being torn apart, made Sunday newspaper headlines for all the wrong reasons , raised his hand at me , and scared the living daylights out of me ... I needed all the support I could get.Angelo slept in our bed yesterday and I went to the guestroom. Nancy had called me because Ava was being restless again. After calming her down I told Nancy that it was okay too to call Angelo if I'm not around and she understood . When. She asked me if I was okay I shook my head and told her that I will be fine in good time . Angelo and I were going through flames. I left for work earlier on Monday m
AngeloLast night I struggled to sleep because Cleo wasn't next to me . I miss everything about her and if having her in the other wing of the house but and her not leaving me is my punishment, then I will take what I can get . I am set in my ways and in most cases it has worked to my advantage and in this case I fucked up so badly and I am man enough to admit that.I woke up at seven ; got cleaned up, went to go check on Ava and had breakfast with her and Nancy , I was ready to leave the house at eight thirty but as soon as I was about to head out my father called me to tell me that he was on his way and that; I should move all my meetings for this morning forward or reschedule them . I totally forgot that Cleo's meeting with regards to the leak and security breach was today.My dad came through and I could tell he was angry by the way he was walking. I didn't want to give him another hea
CleoThere are times when I feel like fate has played a cruel trick on me ; that what's happened the past three years has been a dream, and that one day I will wake up and be the same Cleo I was before I met Angelo... That is just a dream .What is not a dream however is the continuous attacks I've been getting from my mother in law who seems to be using my husband's old girlfriends against me , without moving. I walked straight into a trap when I went back to work on Monday. Whoever ransacked my office and vandalized it wanted to get their message across. It had to be someone who had been around me for a while to figure me out. I was in a hospital room and I knew it wasn't a hospital either own by the Luca's or the Massa's . I took a deep breath and took in my surroundings . My body was in a bit of pain and it wasn't inflicted by my husband in a fit of rage and jealousy.Everything came back to me while I
AngeloI've always been relaxed when it came to my love life . It was always about sex at some point and wherever possible I'd have it on the daily. I was addicted. A year after rehab I met Cleo and our relationship made sense we had the twins and they were my first biological children. Giovanni wasn't mine ; he was someone's child . This has just been the toughest year on me and it's gotten a whole lot complicated with what had happened.Mia blew up the whole office floor of the communications department. She was the one who was responsible for the leak and security breach. Cleo was innocent from the get go and I don't know what came over me . I was just so angered by seeing pictures of Cleo with other men and all those wounds that Nina had inflicted on me opened up and bled profusely. Cleo was caught in a crossfire she didn't start. 
CleoOn Friday morning I was woken up by Ava crying . It had been a week since I came back from hospital alone, and Ava had noticed that. She was restless for the first three days of my return ; even Nancy was having a bit of trouble with her. She only calmed down when I was holding her . When she wasn't eating I got worried. My worry was amplified by the fever she had ,and not wanting to take chances thinking that it will blow over I took her to the hospital. Since Ava was a Massa I took her to Brent.Brent kept her overnight and ran tests . With everything that was going on, I wasn't feeling okay and for the first time in years I broke down and cried. Angelo left me and he didn't come back I felt alone all over again like I did when he left me at the hospital after my memory loss . When I told him that; it felt broken , he just took a deep breath and looked at me with unshed tears and walked out instead of talking to me
AngeloI can't do anything right . I really can't win. Once I mess up I can't stop messing up no matter how hard I try and clean up my mess. I wanted to see my baby girl but I forgot that in order to access the family wing I need authorisation from Brent even though I own half the hospital . It was a security protocol we put in place after the twins were born . I tried to call him and it went straight to voicemail . When I reached the wing; security started giving me a hard time.I hadn't shaved and even though I groomed my beard I knew that it made me look a bit scary because my son was traumatized when he saw me . When Cleo walked out and I locked eyes with her my whole world stopped. She is emotionally strong and she's the strongest person I know... She put up with me and I put her through hell . I want to treat her right and I don't know where to star. I don't want to lose her. I got so angry that I threw a vase
CleoAngelo is stubborn. I know this because; it's in his nature to be inflexible and set in his ways . It's been two weeks since we came back from hospital with Ava. She is eating properly now and she's smiling more. Angelo didn't answer my question. He has struggled for the longest of times to say; sorry to himself. He believes that he has to be strong all the time ,but for the first time this week I heard him cry and when I ask him what's wrong at breakfast this morning, he said nothing. Even when the twins asked him what was wrong he said sweet nothing .When we came back with Ava from the hospital, he decided to come back to the Luca estate with me and instead of sleeping in the same bed as me, he went to the guestroom. Besides feeling a bit rejected and ignored by Angelo because ; he wouldn't join us for breakfast , lunch or dinner. He was working from my study; even though the communications department was un
AngeloThe past two weeks have been hard on me; not only emotionally but business wise too. The explosion caused more harm than good. It earned Mia a one way ticket to a mental institution and a long lecture . I was afraid to tell Cleo that I can't forgive myself because my mother was behind what had happened. She has influence and the kind of influence she has over people is really potent . If Cleo knew she would be asking a lot of questions I don't have the answers to... I hate keeping stuff from her. I came back to the Luca estate with her so that I could be close to her and Ava and keep an eye on them . Financially Massa was stable but the communications department brought in a lot of money. Cleo knew how things worked and keeping her in the dark wasn't something I wanted to get used to. I couldn't take it. So when I got up this morning at nine ;I called my dad to tell him what had been going on and how much it was hurting me to treat my
AngeloThe most dangerous attacks are the ones you never see coming, and the ones never expected . They are brutal; unfair, selfish , and heart shattering depending on the nature of the attack. Sometimes they cause unnecessary hurt and at times any attack can leave a trail of destruction .My day started off wonderfully. I woke up next to Cleo ; and left to go meet my brother at Carlo's restaurant . It's always been a safe space to just be yourself and let go with the guys . Carl has always been a great cook and he had closed the restaurant for lunch . After lunch Luigi and I had decided to go to Massa to go sort out some paperwork. Blake had booked us a table at the new cafeteria for
Chapter 60CleoThere comes a point in life when everything just clicks and makes sense.Life has a way of reaching and optimal level ; no matter how many obstacles, challenges, uphill battles you have to fight , mistakes made , lessons learned , pages turned ,and new chapters began. There is always a chance to start again, unlearn what has been programmed and download new coding . An analogy could be a heart rate monitor when they are trying to resuscitate you or when your are are in between life, purgatory, death, or rebirth. If there is a flat line you know very well that you are not living. Life has always been a balancing act .In order to balance work and home life I schedule my messages , and if there is a conversation to be had that I can have with voice notes I do that in order to get more time with the kid's . I had been working from home the past couple of weeks and Angelo had be
AngeloI know how to keep serious stuff from my family. More than that I know how to use without anyone noticing or so I thought. On the Thursday before the dinner party I decided to get high and my drug of choice was my first drug . I needed something to get the edge off with everything that was happening and it wasn't after until Carl found me passed out on the floor with a bleeding nose. I needed to stay awake and I was operating on reserves. The moment I held Cleo close to me was the moment I stopped using.Cleo has always been sharp and she asked me last night if I was doing okay and I lied to her . This morning while I was knocked out cold thanks to her; she found the tunnel underneath the house where I kept my stash. I had instructed Nicolai to move everything to the club where I wouldn't be able to access it . When I was woken up by a crying Ava I called Nicolai to find out if he did what I asked him to do and if
CleoI don't like saying goodbye when I know I still have time to spend with family and friends, especially when I'm enjoying myself. On Saturday afternoon I had to say goodbye to Daniel ; Luigi , the fun loving and potty mouthed Salvatore , Mr Luca and my mother , and Hannah . When I reconnect with Blue and we talked over Breakfast , he wanted us to go home and that was his final decision. I knew whatever argument I would put up or point I'd try to make clear the result would be the same . He wanted time with me alone with the kid's without any interference from other people.By Saturday evening we had arrived back at the house at the Massa estate. I started missing the house by the forest and I wanted to go there instead of the Estate. Angelo had other plans. It wasn't as cold as the coast in Gauteng . Infact it was a bit warmer . I didn't think I'd miss the city as much as I did. The air was thick and the
AngeloI don't know how to manage my and and it's becoming apparent that I need help . Given what I had gone through and what was happening my anger was warranted. First my wife goes missing a day after our wedding , I track down the first person who I think I know is responsible, only to find out that she had planned to take my wife and kids away from me but she failed, resulting in me and my men going on a wild goose chase looking for my wife. My kids too were starting to miss her , to the point where I had to work from home . Only to find out that Cleo was safe and sound at the Luca beach resort and Daniel kept her away from me .I found out after dinner on Friday with the Kids and the family. The twins were calmer and my baby girl wasn't crying at a drop of a hat . Pio mentioned that her mother was around and Pia affirmed it and told me they made, get well soon cards and they went s
CleoI love the changing of seasons ; more than that I love the fact that it's September and it's almost spring. I mean almost because spring officially starts on the twenty second of September not the first . Angelo always argued with me and he was insistent on the fact that the first was Spring day. I really miss Angelo I really do . Apart from the fact that I can't contact him yet I have to play the waiting game.When Daniel asked me if I wanted a divorce . I said ; no. I fell in love with Angelo the very first time I saw him at the food market. I knew then that if our paths were to cross again , I would let nature take its course. Three years later and three beautiful kids later nature did what it was meant to do or should I say fate and
AngeloOn the day I was supposed to have a boys night out I had an uninvited guest who even pissed me off to the point where I almost drank . I used to be so trusting until what happened with Mia happened. She blames Rosa for what she did to Cleo and for causing the explosion. I have never seen her as my girlfriend ... I have only ever seen her as a sister and a dear friend. For her to do something so sinister ,and to the mother of my Children was just unforgivable .The weekend came and went with my state of melancholy and it got worse when I arrived at work. The communications department was still under reconstruction and I had instructed the builders to rebuild Cleo's office and to make it look different than it did before with all the safety features like; bullet proof glass , her own kitchen , bathroom and lunch room including an elevator that went straight to my office . As soon as I arrived ; there was a gentleman waitin
CleoThe past two weeks have been a blessing. After thinking that I had been abducted by Rosa, it turned out that my brother was behind the whole incident.Daniel has been unavailable and Salvatore has been keeping an eye on me . The beach house property was big enough and apart from the amazing ocean view I had from my room , my kids were with me but it came at a cost. I couldn't call Angelo to tell him anything and all I hoped was that he uses his brain and figures out that something just doesn't add up. Rosa was easy to track down; she always left bread crumbs . Her attack style has a trait... She wants to scare me to the point where I am afraid of being with my husband to point where I break up with him for the safety of my children. She even used Mia to make me doubt choosing Blue . She didn't know we were married until Angelo opened his big mouth and she amped up the threats . I am at peace for a change.
AngeloThe past couple of weeks have been hard on me and it's not because the weather has changed from cooler temperatures to warmer weather. It's the first week of spring but knowing Cleo like I do she'd say ; " Spring only starts on the twenty second of September ."Part of me always knew that she was correct because it was; wet cold , cloudy and grey on the first of September. The weather matched my mood and the way I was feeling. The twins and my baby girl are the only reason I get up in the morning. I had used all of the resources I had to track down Rosa and she said she wasn't responsible for Cleo being abducted. I have never lost my cool at an old person however; I had lost my cool at Rosa , breaking windows and furniture till she gave me an answer.Truth be told I was hurting and she didn't understand the extent of how hacked and broken I felt. Daniel was around and Luigi was stay