Cleo
I don't know how to feel . Physically I am tired and all I want to know is if Ava is okay so to that ; I can hold her and kiss her ,and shower her with the love and affection she deserves. She needs to know that she is loved and she like the twins is loved unconditionally. I have been drifting in and out of consciousness and it's draining my energy. It feels as if my own body is fighting with me . The moment I feel like I can will my eyes to open ; I end up drifting back into a state of limbo and it sucks .
I stopped fighting with my body after I don't know how many attempts to wake up and gave in . I hate not being in control of what I can controll . In a short amount of time Angelo and I have been through hell and back. It feels as if we are constantly fighting a losing battle. Just when I think we are okay another spanner is thrown into the works and we are in crisis management mode. It feels as if f
AngeloI looked at Cleo and all I could do was cry. I'm a grown man who'd rather be angry than admit to feeling any sort of emotion that makes me look week . Part of me was scared that Cleo wasn't in any mood to negotiate. She doesn't deal with threats and this is the first time that she has given me an ultimatum that could hurt me ... Infact I am hurting as we speak. We just had a beautiful baby girl and out family was growing. Apart from the fact that the twins birthday was two weeks away and they were turning three ;I was just thankful that they were safe and ok so was their mother and sister.By the time we were able to go home Ava was still in NICU and Cleo was recovering well . Daniel had perfect timing because I didn't respond to Cleo's suggestion that we spend some time apart. She also didn't protest when I fell asleep right next to her on our bed . Daniel was keeping a close eye on Ava and he wanted Cleo to
CleoThe only person to ever see right through me and knew what was wrong with me without me saying a word , was Marc. I love Angelo ; but somewhere somehow, everytime I feel like we are making progress he pulls a stunt that makes me crawl back into my shell. He has been on his best behavior question was ; for how long?He surprised me two days after we went to go fetch Ava from the hospital by organising the twins birthday party which was today . They were turning three . The twins were taken care of at home and the only interactions for their safety was with people we knew ,and trusted. I still don't trust Rosa and I have a good reason... Make that reasons .The party was fairytale themed and everyone who was invited came dressed up as their favorite character. Angelo was missing for the better part of the day and I took care of Ava and I got to spend some more time with her and the twins . If Daniel wasn't with them ,
AngeloI'm stone cold sober . I've been stone cold for the past year or so . I just messed up one time and it feels as if I am losing the only good thing I have going on. I've been the Angelo I love ; my family loves , my wife to be loves, my kids love and the Angelo I love . I had organised a party for the twins on Sunday and told Cleo we would celebrate it as a family on Monday eve which was the main day.While Cleo was sleeping I received a call from Mia Perelli. Brent wasn't in town and she had gotten herself in trouble with the wrong gang . I had left Cleo alone with the kids and it didn't feel right . Mia is like my little sister / friend . I have never had romantic feelings towards her and vice versa. I also never told her about Cleo ; Ava and the twins because I knew she'd find a way to get to Cleo. I knew her . As soon as I took her upstairs to my penthouse she was so shaken that she raided my liquor cabinet and swept through it like a tornado. S
Songs: Lady Antebellum- OceanJames Bay - ForeverCleoI have had nightmares before and in recent days they have become more severe and intense. Last night I was angry . I have been angry before, but not as livid as I was with Blue for not showing up when it mattered the most. I don't trust Mia not at all and today was the first time in a while that I talked to my brother about my relationship with Angelo , and the gun incident .I get why he has to have a gun; what I don't get is what Mia is to him and what she wants ... basically what her end game is . Daniel told me that he'd talk to Angelo, and when I returned from my run this morning my house was hauntingly quite . I knew Daniel had take the kids to ClaudioI opened the door and headed straight for my water bottle which was in the fridge. It was cold outside but I was thirsty and hot. I had to g
.AngeloNumb ... numb is all I feel right now because; no matter how many times I try to protect the ones I love something sinister happens to them . It was supposed to be the happiest day, for both the twins and my wife to be... Basically for the whole family because it was the kid's birthday. Instead I am dealing with our cleaning team ; the blue brigade ,red brigade and a family that is shook.There was a shooting at my father's Villa . Nicolai and Daniel got caught in the crossfire, both were seriously injured and they were air lifted to hospital . We couldn't find the twins Ava and my father . After Nicolai called, Cleo came with me to the Villa for safety because I didn't want to let her out of my sight. She was with me when we were bri
CleoIt's been a taugh couple of weeks, both emotionally and physically. On the bright side I got to spend some much needed time with the Twins ; Ava and Blue alone under heavy security presence , even Ellie had to get cleared before she could come and visit me. I see why Daniel loves her and why he's having a difficult time coming clean with his true feelings ... and deep down he knows that he would be fighting a losing battle because, Max and Ellie are bound together by something strong. Even though he is denying his true feelings he will just have to accept that Ellie and Max belong together.Dan and Nocolai had both recoverd from their injuries and Daniel was back to his old self . He was hanging out with Blue today ,while I had to go for a dress fitting with Ellie. I was going to fit on a dress alright , but it wasn't my wedding dress ... I was the maid of honor for Ellie' s wedding. I knew that my family was s
AngeloIf there is something I've learned about Cleo is that; when she threatens something, she has already thought it through... for the fact that she said what she said when I was about to punch Marc , and when she threatened to call off everything unless I gave her space . I cannot lose her or our babies. Its already taken so much patience on my part not to let her go. She's worth every fight. Including the one with my mother. Who has been surprisingly quiet.I had informed the driver of the Jeep to drive us to the Massa estate which was thirty minutes away from the Luca estate .I was giving Cleo the silent treatment, and I had so much to say to her... I just hope I didn't hurt her in anyway when I threw her in the car . She was looking outside the window with her legs crossed looking away from me, with her chin on her palm, breathing steadily , lost in thought.The car
CleoWaking up wrapped up in skin with the person you love is the best feeling ever after yesterday I think I like sleeping with Angelo more than I'd like to admit. Its more than just physical which is why I think my relationship with him has lasted this long.On Saturday Daniel drove the kids back to The Massa estate and for the first time in a while the twins stuck to their sleeping schedule and Ava wasn't as restless as she was when we were at the Luca estate. To come think of it she was much more at ease this side . My natural body alarm too was working well; it was five in the morning and it wasn't just any Sunday it was mother's day.I was wide awake on Angelo' s chest and I could hear the sound of his steady ,and strong heartbeat . Our legs were intertwined and both his hands were on my bare
AngeloThe most dangerous attacks are the ones you never see coming, and the ones never expected . They are brutal; unfair, selfish , and heart shattering depending on the nature of the attack. Sometimes they cause unnecessary hurt and at times any attack can leave a trail of destruction .My day started off wonderfully. I woke up next to Cleo ; and left to go meet my brother at Carlo's restaurant . It's always been a safe space to just be yourself and let go with the guys . Carl has always been a great cook and he had closed the restaurant for lunch . After lunch Luigi and I had decided to go to Massa to go sort out some paperwork. Blake had booked us a table at the new cafeteria for
Chapter 60CleoThere comes a point in life when everything just clicks and makes sense.Life has a way of reaching and optimal level ; no matter how many obstacles, challenges, uphill battles you have to fight , mistakes made , lessons learned , pages turned ,and new chapters began. There is always a chance to start again, unlearn what has been programmed and download new coding . An analogy could be a heart rate monitor when they are trying to resuscitate you or when your are are in between life, purgatory, death, or rebirth. If there is a flat line you know very well that you are not living. Life has always been a balancing act .In order to balance work and home life I schedule my messages , and if there is a conversation to be had that I can have with voice notes I do that in order to get more time with the kid's . I had been working from home the past couple of weeks and Angelo had be
AngeloI know how to keep serious stuff from my family. More than that I know how to use without anyone noticing or so I thought. On the Thursday before the dinner party I decided to get high and my drug of choice was my first drug . I needed something to get the edge off with everything that was happening and it wasn't after until Carl found me passed out on the floor with a bleeding nose. I needed to stay awake and I was operating on reserves. The moment I held Cleo close to me was the moment I stopped using.Cleo has always been sharp and she asked me last night if I was doing okay and I lied to her . This morning while I was knocked out cold thanks to her; she found the tunnel underneath the house where I kept my stash. I had instructed Nicolai to move everything to the club where I wouldn't be able to access it . When I was woken up by a crying Ava I called Nicolai to find out if he did what I asked him to do and if
CleoI don't like saying goodbye when I know I still have time to spend with family and friends, especially when I'm enjoying myself. On Saturday afternoon I had to say goodbye to Daniel ; Luigi , the fun loving and potty mouthed Salvatore , Mr Luca and my mother , and Hannah . When I reconnect with Blue and we talked over Breakfast , he wanted us to go home and that was his final decision. I knew whatever argument I would put up or point I'd try to make clear the result would be the same . He wanted time with me alone with the kid's without any interference from other people.By Saturday evening we had arrived back at the house at the Massa estate. I started missing the house by the forest and I wanted to go there instead of the Estate. Angelo had other plans. It wasn't as cold as the coast in Gauteng . Infact it was a bit warmer . I didn't think I'd miss the city as much as I did. The air was thick and the
AngeloI don't know how to manage my and and it's becoming apparent that I need help . Given what I had gone through and what was happening my anger was warranted. First my wife goes missing a day after our wedding , I track down the first person who I think I know is responsible, only to find out that she had planned to take my wife and kids away from me but she failed, resulting in me and my men going on a wild goose chase looking for my wife. My kids too were starting to miss her , to the point where I had to work from home . Only to find out that Cleo was safe and sound at the Luca beach resort and Daniel kept her away from me .I found out after dinner on Friday with the Kids and the family. The twins were calmer and my baby girl wasn't crying at a drop of a hat . Pio mentioned that her mother was around and Pia affirmed it and told me they made, get well soon cards and they went s
CleoI love the changing of seasons ; more than that I love the fact that it's September and it's almost spring. I mean almost because spring officially starts on the twenty second of September not the first . Angelo always argued with me and he was insistent on the fact that the first was Spring day. I really miss Angelo I really do . Apart from the fact that I can't contact him yet I have to play the waiting game.When Daniel asked me if I wanted a divorce . I said ; no. I fell in love with Angelo the very first time I saw him at the food market. I knew then that if our paths were to cross again , I would let nature take its course. Three years later and three beautiful kids later nature did what it was meant to do or should I say fate and
AngeloOn the day I was supposed to have a boys night out I had an uninvited guest who even pissed me off to the point where I almost drank . I used to be so trusting until what happened with Mia happened. She blames Rosa for what she did to Cleo and for causing the explosion. I have never seen her as my girlfriend ... I have only ever seen her as a sister and a dear friend. For her to do something so sinister ,and to the mother of my Children was just unforgivable .The weekend came and went with my state of melancholy and it got worse when I arrived at work. The communications department was still under reconstruction and I had instructed the builders to rebuild Cleo's office and to make it look different than it did before with all the safety features like; bullet proof glass , her own kitchen , bathroom and lunch room including an elevator that went straight to my office . As soon as I arrived ; there was a gentleman waitin
CleoThe past two weeks have been a blessing. After thinking that I had been abducted by Rosa, it turned out that my brother was behind the whole incident.Daniel has been unavailable and Salvatore has been keeping an eye on me . The beach house property was big enough and apart from the amazing ocean view I had from my room , my kids were with me but it came at a cost. I couldn't call Angelo to tell him anything and all I hoped was that he uses his brain and figures out that something just doesn't add up. Rosa was easy to track down; she always left bread crumbs . Her attack style has a trait... She wants to scare me to the point where I am afraid of being with my husband to point where I break up with him for the safety of my children. She even used Mia to make me doubt choosing Blue . She didn't know we were married until Angelo opened his big mouth and she amped up the threats . I am at peace for a change.
AngeloThe past couple of weeks have been hard on me and it's not because the weather has changed from cooler temperatures to warmer weather. It's the first week of spring but knowing Cleo like I do she'd say ; " Spring only starts on the twenty second of September ."Part of me always knew that she was correct because it was; wet cold , cloudy and grey on the first of September. The weather matched my mood and the way I was feeling. The twins and my baby girl are the only reason I get up in the morning. I had used all of the resources I had to track down Rosa and she said she wasn't responsible for Cleo being abducted. I have never lost my cool at an old person however; I had lost my cool at Rosa , breaking windows and furniture till she gave me an answer.Truth be told I was hurting and she didn't understand the extent of how hacked and broken I felt. Daniel was around and Luigi was stay