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ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 39. Don't Stop
[LIZZY]I’m not exactly sure how long I slept, but when I woke up again, I felt incredibly well-rested. There were no scary dreams to startle me awake, and there were no sudden surprises as soon as I opened my eyes. I just lay there, placing my hands on my stomach, and gazed up at the ceiling, loving this new feeling of flapping wings in my stomach.As I sat up and rubbed my eyes, clutching the sheets close to my chest, I knew what had happened last night. Once again, I gave in to temptation and didn’t regret a single moment of it. I’m fully aware that both of us are deeply flawed, and our past is incredibly messed up at best. However, last night served as a stark realization for me, at least for myself.Ever since I first laid eyes on him at the Perazzo mansion, I’ve loved that man. I can still vividly recall the way he used to glance at me, as if I disgusted him beyond imagination. He did everything possible to push me away and keep one hell of a distance between us. Yet, I was stub
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 40. Volcanic Rage
After Xavier’s car left her at the closest dock, she boarded a water bus and took a seat next to an elderly woman who appeared preoccupied with searching through her bag.“What a lovely sunny day, don’t you think?” she said to the older woman, turning to face her. “Can I assist you with something?”The elderly woman raised her eyes and smiled. “I can’t find my wallet. It must be somewhere in there. Unfortunately, I forgot my glasses at home.”“Let me help,” she offered, reaching into the bag. After a bit of searching, she retrieved a black leather wallet.The woman expressed gratitude by giving her a chocolate bar.“Oh, you really don’t have to,” she replied.“Please, I insist. It’s rare to find kind-hearted people these days.”The elderly woman got off the water bus at the next stop, while she remained seated. After two more stops passed, she finally got up, disembarked, and walked along the path for three minutes straight. Numerous tourists and locals passed by, conversing in differ
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 41. Better Not Play Hard To Get
“It was a fucking trap!” Vector snarled, his hands slamming down on the table as he shot an intense glare at Marcus, who sat opposite him. Two large men stood behind Marcus, both suited up and sporting icy expressions. “And we fell right into it.”“Yeah, we sure as shit did,” Marcus replied calmly, but the deep creases on his forehead gave away his tension. Everyone in the room was on edge. None of the guys they sent in for the assault came back, and neither did the gang they were targeting. It was clear that while they were focused on wiping out the local gangs, they totally underestimated the fact that a third player had joined the fucking game, and that seriously pissed off Marcus.“I don’t need a damn confirmation, Marcus. I need to know what the fuck is going on?” Vector backed away and stood tall, pacing behind his desk. “This attack was your goddamn responsibility, and I was told that everything was fucking sorted.”“It was,” Marcus sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Unt
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 42. Featherlight
[LIZZY]A part of me still finds it hard to believe that I am doing this. Not only am I allowing him to do as he pleases with me, but I am also lowering all my guard so he could catch a glimpse of my desire for him—the one that I never really gave up.I know, considering everything I have been through and everything I have known about his part in snipping my life in two directions, I should be the last person on earth to let him touch me the way he does, to find joy in the way his dark eyes soak me in like I’m the best fucking thing in the world. But I can’t help it. I just can’t. There are countless reasons why I should keep myself away from his toxic presence and the dangerous consequences he could bring to the peaceful life I always envisioned for myself, but somehow they all fall short.Nothing can convince me that I don’t want this—with him—right now. Because I do. I really, really do. I want him so badly that I might kill myself if he doesn’t push himself inside me in the next f
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 43. So Close, Baby
[VECTOR]After the disaster of a day I had, I was exhausted and pissed off. So, when I walked through the door and saw Lizzy all cozy on the couch, I couldn’t help but want to grab her and whisk her off to my bedroom.But fuck, that also meant I wasn’t up for any more goddamn rejection. I craved her like a fucking addict. She was the only one who could bring me a moment of sanity in the midst of all this mess. Her touch and the sound of her gorgeous voice had this uncanny ability to make me forget all the bullshit.But that was a good half an hour ago.Now, I can’t be gladder to have her on my bed. Naked and willing.I watch her bare body crawl backwards, and I swear there is nothing more sexier than that. The dim room throws a shimmer on her blue eyes while I tune out the background hum of the conditioner. The sheets beneath her knees make a soft rustling sound as she shuffles back, her warm thighs straddling me as she positions herself on my lap.I don’t think I have the patience to
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 44. Biased Judgement
[LAURA]“Are you always such a chatterbox, agent Jorden?” Agent Dickens quipped, breaking the silence as we sat in the boat he insisted on hiring to take me home. I had made it clear that I didn’t need a chauffeur, but some men are stubborn as hell. Dickens was certainly one of them.I arched an eyebrow, giving him a brief, skeptical look. “Well, some of us prefer to let our actions do the talking. You know, the strong and silent type.”He chuckled, his eyes scanning our surroundings as the boat smoothly sailed through the water. “Fair enough. But I have a feeling there’s more to your quiet demeanor than meets the eye.”I let out a humorless chuckle. “Everyone has layers. No one is as simple as they may seem at first glance. I’ve learned that people are often hiding something, whether it’s their past, their true intentions, or their own demons.”His gaze returned to me, as he settled in the seat more comfortably. “What about Xavier Perazzo?” he inquired with a slight narrow of his eye
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 45. Playing With Fire
[LIZZY]Sometimes I wish I could have done things differently. That if I had another take on life, I would have made fewer screw-ups and more rational choices.These days, I can’t even recall the last time I got something right.Seriously, it’s all a blur.I wish I hadn’t been so stupidly naive back then, which eventually led me to put my trust in all kinds of wrong people. I mean, what the hell? Take Vector, for example.That man is all sin and nothing holy. Everyone knows that.But getting involved with him was only the tip of the iceberg. I willingly shot myself in the foot when I not only tried to run away from him but also kept a secret—a secret that would ultimately push him to reach for the gun in his nightstand drawer and finish me off.But I’m not thinking about that when he is occupied looking at me with those intense, dark eyes of his, like he knows something I don’t. It’s both thrilling and terrifying, because if there’s even a teeny chance he can read my thoughts, I’m in
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 46. Likely Just A Surprise
[XAVIER]I should’ve been smarter than to get sexually involved with Hazel’s teacher. The last thing I ever want is to disappoint my daughter.So why couldn’t I control my impulses?I can come up with countless reasons for losing control, one of them being the desire for intimacy. After all, every man has his needs, right? The last woman I slept with was Aurora, and it was during our secret affair that she conceived Hazel. The exact point when I stabbed my brother in the back and made an enemy out of him for the rest of my life.I know Mir has moved on. With Zarina in his life, he couldn’t care less about what I do or don’t do anymore. Of course, he would be furious if Hazel got into serious trouble because of me, but to be honest, I would be the first to blame myself for allowing it to happen in the first place. He would have to get in line if he had any desire to make me suffer.All I’m saying is that my sex life is nobody’s damn business but mine.But still.Still, I feel guilty fo
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ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL Epilogue
[VECTOR] I never thought this day would ever come. Not before I met Lizzy Jones. It’s all been a whirlwind, my life, that is. From the day I was born to the day I lost everything, I lived a greater part of my life in absolute fear. Fear of not being trusted, fear of not being enough, fear of not being there for my sister when she went through the same painful incidents before she even understood the word pain. Lizzy says that what happened in the past was hardly my fault. That the fact I couldn’t protect my family was not my burden to bear. After all, wasn’t I a child myself? How would I have known what Sofia had planned for that night? What possibly could I have done to stop her and her freak boyfriend? The answer: Nothing. I couldn’t have done anything. Literally. But then why do I feel responsible? Is it just survivor’s guilt? Or is this a way for my brain to tell me that I was equally accountable for not being prepared for what I knew might happen if Sofia wasn’t stopped?
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 93. Promise For Sure
[LIZZY]“This is awkward,” Laura mumbles under her breath, but maybe not so quietly to herself because I end up hearing every single word of it.“You don’t say,” I shrug, and I watch as the corner of her mouth twitches.She looks away and sighs, as if what we’re doing seems to be physically affecting her. I can’t really blame her, can I? When Xavier and Hazel showed up this morning, wanting Joey and me to come with them so they could see off this woman who pretended to have our best interests for five long years, I didn’t have many noble thoughts about it. Definitely not kind enough to think she deserved a heartfelt goodbye.But that would be the mean and hurtful side of me talking. Because if it weren’t for her, Joey would still be wandering around, scratching his head and trying to figure out how Vector suddenly turned out to be his father—the man he couldn’t share me with at all, the man he wanted to punish for making me cry alone.“I didn’t mean any of the things I said to you, if
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 92. Being Addictive
[LIZZY]“This is nice,” I say as Tony and I sit outside one of the street cafes near the stream after a very silent and awkward dinner.I have no idea what I was thinking when I agreed to come with him. Maybe I assumed he would want to talk about things that he should have a long time ago—all those days he remained absent in our lives—that he would like to give an explanation for it. That he would finally reveal the big reason for him to walk away from our lives the way he did. That I would truly know, for the first time, what drove him away and turned him so cold and crude towards me when I came to see him all the way from Venice to the US.Too bad, I have got nothing so far.During the entire dinner, all we talked about was food, Joey, and his weird obsession with fire. And now that the dinner is finished, and he has run out of all the random conversation starters, we find ourselves back to quietly sweeping our gazes around.I take another long and loud sip of my coffee, wondering w
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 91. Job Done
[VECTOR]“What the fuck are you doing here?” Marcus looks stunned to see me, his brows furrowed deeply, flaring his nostrils as if he’s this close to grabbing a gun and aiming for my good knee.Well, maybe I do deserve that. Lizzy did warn me this was a bad idea.Not that I regret it one bit.Marcus and I have worked together for a very long time. We were even together that night, the night that boat exploded, and left us with the kind of scars that would take long to heal—his longer than mine. While I busted a knee and got several burns on the back, Marcus lost his right arm and got half of his face fucked up, including one eye.Let’s just say, I feel slightly responsible for what happened—felt obligated to pay him a visit despite everyone telling me to stay in the room and rest for long hours.It’s not like I’m trying to be difficult, or I don’t respect the care I’m getting even though I have done very little to deserve it. But after Lizzy asked me, with those doe eyes of hers, if w
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 90. Smart Boy
[LIZZY]I wring my hands for the hundredth time, trying to shake off the nervous jitters.After a week of contemplation, Vector and I finally agreed on how to reveal the truth to Joey about his real parentage.Honestly, I can’t believe I allowed my life to become so complicated. What was I even thinking? What was I so damn afraid of? Looking back at everything that happened in the past few months, it’s obvious I have been worrying for literally nothing. Vector never did any of the things I imagined he would once he got a hold of me. He didn’t hurt me, make me suffer, or punish me in any way. In fact, if there’s anything he did, it was to love me more intensely and passionately. Never did he ever try to hurt me, at least not purposefully. He did express his anger in the beginning, but now that I think of it, more than anger, it was hurt that he tried to mask as temper.I was terrified to even think about what he would do if he learned I kept such a huge secret from him. That I had been
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 89. Forget & Forgive
[One Week Later][LAURA/ERICA]“What are you doing here?” I ask, bored, although for this tough exterior that I’m putting on so fucking gracefully, I should get a damn Oscar for it.Then again, even if I did get nominated for an award, and had to choose between kicking some butts and wearing a sparkly, twinkly or some sort of shimmery thing ever over myself, I would rather just stick with what I do best, and we all know what that is.Except for my last encounter with the Perazzo brothers didn’t go as well as I planned.But, most of the time, they rarely do. That’s why this job is so darn tough and risky because, most of the time, the bad guys are one step ahead. They usually are. You can’t expect them to be playing poker when we storm their hideout. Nope, they’re always ready for the worst. And when the cops do catch them off guard, we don’t get a warm welcome with tea and cookies. No, they rain a hail of bullets on us.Perhaps that’s the reason there’s a saying about the best-laid pl
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 88. Only Mine
[VECTOR]I was ten when my sister Emma was born. She was this small, delicate thing that I was too scared to even touch. Her big doe eyes were like pools of laughter and innocence that spilled from her mouth every time she giggled and thrashed her little arms around, wanting attention, wanting someone to hold her, carry her around, keep her squeezed against their touch.She used to love it when our mother used to talk to her, holding a long and silly conversation while little Emma babbled away, God knows what. But that hardly mattered when I was too busy wiping sweat off my palms, wondering if I would finally get to hold her.Mom wanted me to not shy away, always telling me that I was supposed to protect her. Dad, however, seemed a little unsure. He sincerely believed that I needed to grow up a little more if I wanted that kind of responsibility. And I always believed he was right. That I needed to grow not only physically but mentally. That I needed to make myself capable, just like
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 87. Ridiculously Crazy
[LIZZY]When I wake up next time, my body aches like hell. It’s as if a terrible weight has been thrown over me, pinning me down, and I can’t summon the strength to get up.I snap my eyes open and practically groan when sunlight cuts through my eyelids like a laser, and irritates me and my skin like hell.Damn Vector. All this time, he has been cocooned in dark with doors fucking shut and curtains tightly drawn, and now that I’m the one who desperately needs darkness and a lot more sleep, he has flung the windows wide open. Ugh. I’m going to kill him, I swear.A voice in my head warns me against going back to sleep, but my body seems to have different plans entirely. In seconds, I grab the duvet and pull them back up over my head, rolling on the bed like a cinnamon roll to escape the heated rays. However, I barely settle into a comfortable spot when something suddenly clicks.My eyes snap back open.Joey.“Shit shit shit!” The happenings of the previous night smack me in the face and
ENTRAPPED BY THE DEVIL 86. No Matter What
[LIZZY]“You’re leaving?” I blurt out, eyes wide as saucers, my heart sinking deep into my stomach.The dark night stretches overhead, filled with scattered stars that twinkle like precious diamonds. The wind blows stronger, making my hair flutter all over my face.Zarina walks toward me, gracefully brushing the dark brown strands out of her face, her peaceful eyes briefly trailing over a sleeping Joey, who’s still tightly clutched to my chest.I had just walked out of the plane, only to find Zarina stepping out of the car. Theo, one of the caretakers of the Island, carries her bags, and Chiara is holding the baby, flashing me a cheerful smile as they pass one by one, heading up the airstairs.My heart sinks even more with her confirmation. “Why?” I ask, my eyes starting to well up.“Because it’s time,” she says and gently runs her long fingers over Joey’s back. “Mir is taking over the business, and although he told me to stay here as long as I want, I know he hates being away from hi
