Zachary was sound asleep next to me as I stared silently up at the ceiling. He gave me a warm hug around the waist while his head sat on my neck. I glanced at him for a second, then sighed warily.I asked him to fvck me, not because I wanted to, but because I needed him to do that in order to prove to myself that he and Eunice are still connected. But I admit, I was lost for a moment when we were busy doing that. It was as if my libido fully controlled my body, and I didn't feel any disgust.I just let out a sigh and slowly left his hold. I pulled the comforter over our naked bodies and sat down, wrapping the blanket around me. I absent-mindedly combed my hair with my fingers and then looked back at him.On a sinking ship with all of us on board, Zachary chose to abandon Eunice. Why? I am unaware of that. What is the strongest potential reason for him to break his previous commitment to her? He used to be there for her through good times and bad. Revenge? To what end? As far as I can
A mixture of machine noise and whispers woke me up from my deep sleep. My eyesight was blurry as I gently opened my eyes. I wasn't sure if I was awake or in delirium. There were a few vague people I couldn't figure out, including one wearing a white lab coat and a man in front of him who had his back to me. They were speaking, but I was having trouble understanding them.What's going on?I tried to open my mouth to speak, but I couldn't. It felt like something was blocking my throat, but I couldn't tell what it was. It's like every part of my body is being stabbed; I'm kind of numb with intense pain. I looked around again, and it was still the same. Everything my eyes can focus on is blurry and wavering."I'm sorry, we really tried to save them both." I heard someone mumble as my eyelids closed again, slowly.I heard some cursing, but I didn't follow it any further. I feel like I'm lost in the dark. There wasn't any light to go to or anything to hold on to. I am like a wave that is ca
I know I am enough for my child; however, sometimes I also thought that if I were to disappear, who would stay longer at Angelei's grave like I did? And right now, God has given me the answer to that. I smiled bitterly as I watched Zachary kneeling and silently crying in front of Angelei's grave. I don't know how many hours we have been here; after I was admitted to the hospital for four days, I asked him to drive here first. I know it's too late, but I still want to make up for it and clear his name.Throughout the two years that passed, Angelei became my sympathizer for all the pain and anger I was carrying. I made her feel like we were the only ones on our side, and I loaded her with the hatred I had for Zachary. That's why, now that I know the truth behind my miserable life, I know I have to fix everything. I'm not the only one hurting. With every tear falling down Zachary's cheek, I know that, like me, he can't help but blame himself, even though I keep telling him that he is inn
I'd be lying if I denied that I wasn't exhausted from the fight I was in. For two years, anger kept me alive, but that didn't mean I wasn't slowly being drained. The people I trusted betrayed me, and even if my anger towards them reached the sky, the pain they left in my heart is still there. I was always aware that the road I was going to take would not be easy. I didn't just want justice for my unborn child; I also wanted to destroy their lives in every way to satisfy myself. Now that I'm slowly getting it, I feel like I'm lost in nowhere."You don't intend to turn the hospital into a hotel, do you?" Aireen tried to joke.I just rolled my eyes at her. "Go away; your fvckbuddy is waiting for you downstairs."I thought she would tease me again, but she just stared at me. There was sadness in her eyes, and I didn't know what it was for. Later, she let out a forced smile before patting me on the shoulder."Just call me again when you need something," she said before finally leaving.I
I used to believe there was nothing more agonizing than what I went through, but now I'm being forced to feel it twice as much. It's been two days since I found out about the deaths of my pet kitten and my unborn child, but I still don't know how to accept it. I felt like I was losing my mind.Angel suffered a deadly wound that resulted in significant bleeding before she passed away. Unfortunately, I dropped her after getting hit on the head, and a shard of glass punctured her chest. While I lost my baby because my body was weak and I was under a lot of stress, I also had to be injected with some drugs.I couldn't help but hold my deflated stomach as I stared out the window. I don't know which is more painful: losing a child that you know you are carrying or losing a child without even knowing that there is a life that is still forming inside your body. I sighed and tried to swallow the pain that was blocking my throat. I want to cry, but my eyes feel so tired. It seems that even thos
The following weeks passed quickly. We stayed at Nanay Victoria's home for two days before returning to Manila. Zachary and I wasted no time; he underwent counseling after our assessment, while I, on the other hand, had a therapy session. It was a little difficult for me because I had to go over everything again so that the doctor who was looking at me could understand my condition. Nevertheless, I was comforted to know that I had someone by my side the entire time.I was diagnosed with PTSD. I'm not surprised because that's what my old doctor in America confirmed to me. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is not curable, but people with this condition can improve their symptoms significantly.I couldn't help but be impressed with how professional Thelmo was at work. Although he and Zachary knew each other, he was not opinionated. He is a friend outside the hospital, while he is a doctor inside. He doesn't force me to talk if I don't feel comfortable. He supports everything I say or do.I
We won, and all the people who have sinned against us are already behind bars. I don't know how Zachary was able to sue Tita Ayna, but I am grateful to him anyway. I can now face our children in peace.Even if it's bad to be happy amid the sadness of others, I can't help it. In two years, I finally got justice for us. It's like I was saved from drowning—I breathed and found new hope to continue the life I once gave up."W-We did it," I stuttered and cried as I hugged Zachary.His arms quickly wrapped around my waist, and he planted a kiss on my hair. "You are now free, baby," I heard him murmur.I just cried. I can't stop the happiness that escapes from my chest, and I know that he is the same. It's over; our fight is over."Thank you. This wouldn't be possible without you," I said between sobs.I felt him shake his head, and then I was carefully pulled away from him. He held my face and kissed my forehead. He smiled at me despite the tears forming in his eyes."I can't do this withou
Study, graduate school, and work. Actually, that's the only plan I have for my life. My studies come before anything else, no matter how much time my buddies and I spend hanging out or drinking. But I had a different goal when I met Atasha Rodriguez. She is simple but beautiful. Her appeal was so strong that even if she were just sitting and busy with what she was sketching, she seemed like an angel in my eyes."You. I've been noticing for a long time the stickiness of your gaze on the fine art student who often hangs out on the bench," Thelmo commented when we once had a drink in his dorm.My jaw quickly tightened, and I looked at him intently. "How did you know her?""Whoa! Chill, no one is going to steal your babe," he said while still raising both hands in the air. "It's obvious what course she's taking; besides that, I can already smell your moves by simple passing through their room even though it's faster on the other pathway."The rest of our companions laughed and showered me