The bedsheet was almost tangled because of my firm grip. I was grunting and panting as I didn't know where to tilt my head every time Zachary's tongue explored my labia. His piercing didn't even escape my senses; it seemed like he deliberately made me feel it.Well, I asked for it; now I need to bear the consequences."Hmmngh!"I whimpered and arched my back when his skilled tongue stroked my cl-toris. He was also biting and sucking it from time to time, making me shiver in ecstasy. My hands unintentionally flew to his hair when he started tongue-fvcking me. At this time, I'm not sure if I should tighten or loosen my thighs, but before I could make a decision, he lifted them over his shoulders, parting them widely."Zach!" I breathlessly said his name when I felt one of his fingers enter me.My lips parted. I don't know where to focus my attention—his tongue twisting and sucking my clitoris or his finger triggering the sensitive part inside me. Either way, it takes away my ability to
Zachary seemed like a mystery to me throughout the following weeks. He's more attentive and careful around me. He looked like he was under a curse, and I was the one who cast it. He did all I asked and looked for without complaining. Well, he used to do that, but this time he doesn't seem to care, even if I torture him. One time, I found him secretly ransacking our room; he seemed to be looking for something that I couldn't guess. In short, he's acting quite oddly."We're going to the farm today. Do you like to come?" Zachary asked while carrying a tray of food in his hand.I looked up at him because I was sitting on the floor while playing with Angel. It was only six in the morning, but he had already taken a shower. Up to this day, I still can't get used to it when I see him in a jacket that isn't branded or looks new. He placed the tray on the bedside table before sitting on the edge of the bed. He tried to call Angel, but I quickly picked up the kitten and glared at him."Don't to
I've visited a lot of farms and plantations, but I'm still in awe of where Zachary took me. Unconsciously, my lips curled into a smile, and I gradually closed my eyes when the cool breeze hit my face. I felt like I was being pulled into an abyss—no problems, feeling safe and secure. There are trees and plants around, as well as various animals that roam freely throughout the area."Stay here with Aunt Victoria. I'm just going to help Mang Pidong pick coconuts," Zachary said.I didn't do anything but nod. He first arranged the mat he had brought and laid it on the wide bamboo seat. He patted it, then put the basket he had prepared earlier at home to one side."I prepared some sandwiches and snacks in case you get hungry," he said."Okay," I replied sparingly, and I looked around."Do you want to tour around?" he asked.I frowned. "I thought you would help Mang Pidong?""Well, that will only take about two hours." He shrugged. "I will accompany you around here after that if you want."F
Suddenly, all of my exhilaration subsided—possibly because I thought back on my past. I was quiet for the following few hours. I wasn't even moving from my position; I was just looking at my surroundings and Zia from time to time, who is now assisting Nanay Victoria in setting out the tableware for eating.I sighed and observed the serene sky. I smiled bitterly. I couldn't help but ask the Lord why he had given me so many horrible experiences. To make me stronger? To prepare me better?But do I really need that?Maybe I wasn't a perfect child. Even so, I know that I have been an honest and good partner. I couldn't help but feel unfair. Why do I have to suffer all the pain? Why do I have to be the only one to be broken?Revenge. Only the ignorant don't realize that's wrong, but can they hold it against me?Two years ago, I was at my lowest point. I lost a child. I was cheated by people I trusted. The person I was hoping would support me abandoned me. I was forever deprived of the oppor
I didn't return merely to get hurt once more. I strengthened myself with grief and hatred so that nothing could derail my plans at this time. I've learned my lesson, and I won't allow myself to lose the battle I picked.Moving toward the private room I intended to walk into, I wore a face devoid of expression. Only the sound of my heels could be heard as I passed everything else in silence. It made sense given that it's a formal, respectable place.A few seconds later, I finally stopped in front of a wide door. I lazily glanced at my wristwatch and just shrugged my shoulders when I saw that I wasn't late for the meeting. I took a deep breath before slowly opening the door. I secretly smirked when I got everyone's attention. The eyes of Daddy, Tita, and Eunice were staring sharply in my direction. Meanwhile, Zachary's look showed shock when he saw me.What a happy family!I ignored them and walked straight to an empty row of seats. They were all together on one side, while I was alone
Aireen and I were both speechless when we got to her apartment. My mind was still confused, which is why I didn't drop off at Nanay Victoria's house first. Besides that, I also plan to take the car and some of my things that she brought home after I called her before. I reviewed Zachary's laptop again to uncover further documents that would shed light on the situation, but I've gone through all of them one by one, and even with his lesson plans that were saved, I still didn't find anything in the end.I massaged my senses and completely gave up. I tiredly leaned my back on the sofa and involuntarily looked up at the ceiling, hoping that an idea would enter my mind. I was in that position for almost a few minutes until I turned to Aireen when she came out of the kitchen. She was carrying a glass of lemonade juice and then placed it on the center table in front of me."What's your next plan?" she asked while sitting next to me.I let out a deep breath before sitting properly. "Still the
(⚠️WARNING: THIS CHAPTER MAY TRIGGER YOUR ANXIETY/DEPRESSION/PANIC DISORDER⚠️)"Thank God you're stupider than me. I thought I was the most dimwitted person on earth." I laughed mockingly and wiped my tears. "Do you really think you can shove that lie at me? You did me wrong and you still had the fvcking audacity to turn the tables to put the blame on me? Cut that shit and, for once, act like a man!" I screamed and pushed him hard on his chest.He stepped back; it was as if he had no strength to fight my force. He looked lost. He just bowed and seemed to have lost the will to speak any more."You are so shameless to accuse me of cheating! You're so shameless to make up a story even though we all know the truth! Damn it, what kind of person are you? Are you even human?" I bit my lower lip to suppress my sobs. "Are you really like this? Are you all really like this? You're going to force me to swallow all your shitness. Fvck you, you killed my child! Our child! At least have a little sh
I felt someone brushing my hair as I awoke. Gently and sweetly, as though lulling me back to sleep. It was cold all around me, and there's also a strange, familiar smell that stings my nose."Baby, I'm always here for you. We will get through this," I heard someone mutter, and then felt something touch my forehead.I slowly opened my eyes, and Zachary's face greeted me. There is a trace of worry and trouble on his face. His hair was a mess, and the bottom of his eyes were almost black, as if he hadn't slept in days.My expression was blank. I ignored his presence and looked around. The room was painted all white, and I was lying in a hospital bed with dextrose attached to me. The bandage on my wrist did not escape my sight either. In those moments, my memories slowly returned before I even lost consciousness. I closed my eyes again and let out a tired breath."How are you? Do you need anything? Do you want to drink?" he asked one after another."How many days have I been here?" I aske
Study, graduate school, and work. Actually, that's the only plan I have for my life. My studies come before anything else, no matter how much time my buddies and I spend hanging out or drinking. But I had a different goal when I met Atasha Rodriguez. She is simple but beautiful. Her appeal was so strong that even if she were just sitting and busy with what she was sketching, she seemed like an angel in my eyes."You. I've been noticing for a long time the stickiness of your gaze on the fine art student who often hangs out on the bench," Thelmo commented when we once had a drink in his dorm.My jaw quickly tightened, and I looked at him intently. "How did you know her?""Whoa! Chill, no one is going to steal your babe," he said while still raising both hands in the air. "It's obvious what course she's taking; besides that, I can already smell your moves by simple passing through their room even though it's faster on the other pathway."The rest of our companions laughed and showered me
We won, and all the people who have sinned against us are already behind bars. I don't know how Zachary was able to sue Tita Ayna, but I am grateful to him anyway. I can now face our children in peace.Even if it's bad to be happy amid the sadness of others, I can't help it. In two years, I finally got justice for us. It's like I was saved from drowning—I breathed and found new hope to continue the life I once gave up."W-We did it," I stuttered and cried as I hugged Zachary.His arms quickly wrapped around my waist, and he planted a kiss on my hair. "You are now free, baby," I heard him murmur.I just cried. I can't stop the happiness that escapes from my chest, and I know that he is the same. It's over; our fight is over."Thank you. This wouldn't be possible without you," I said between sobs.I felt him shake his head, and then I was carefully pulled away from him. He held my face and kissed my forehead. He smiled at me despite the tears forming in his eyes."I can't do this withou
The following weeks passed quickly. We stayed at Nanay Victoria's home for two days before returning to Manila. Zachary and I wasted no time; he underwent counseling after our assessment, while I, on the other hand, had a therapy session. It was a little difficult for me because I had to go over everything again so that the doctor who was looking at me could understand my condition. Nevertheless, I was comforted to know that I had someone by my side the entire time.I was diagnosed with PTSD. I'm not surprised because that's what my old doctor in America confirmed to me. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is not curable, but people with this condition can improve their symptoms significantly.I couldn't help but be impressed with how professional Thelmo was at work. Although he and Zachary knew each other, he was not opinionated. He is a friend outside the hospital, while he is a doctor inside. He doesn't force me to talk if I don't feel comfortable. He supports everything I say or do.I
I used to believe there was nothing more agonizing than what I went through, but now I'm being forced to feel it twice as much. It's been two days since I found out about the deaths of my pet kitten and my unborn child, but I still don't know how to accept it. I felt like I was losing my mind.Angel suffered a deadly wound that resulted in significant bleeding before she passed away. Unfortunately, I dropped her after getting hit on the head, and a shard of glass punctured her chest. While I lost my baby because my body was weak and I was under a lot of stress, I also had to be injected with some drugs.I couldn't help but hold my deflated stomach as I stared out the window. I don't know which is more painful: losing a child that you know you are carrying or losing a child without even knowing that there is a life that is still forming inside your body. I sighed and tried to swallow the pain that was blocking my throat. I want to cry, but my eyes feel so tired. It seems that even thos
I'd be lying if I denied that I wasn't exhausted from the fight I was in. For two years, anger kept me alive, but that didn't mean I wasn't slowly being drained. The people I trusted betrayed me, and even if my anger towards them reached the sky, the pain they left in my heart is still there. I was always aware that the road I was going to take would not be easy. I didn't just want justice for my unborn child; I also wanted to destroy their lives in every way to satisfy myself. Now that I'm slowly getting it, I feel like I'm lost in nowhere."You don't intend to turn the hospital into a hotel, do you?" Aireen tried to joke.I just rolled my eyes at her. "Go away; your fvckbuddy is waiting for you downstairs."I thought she would tease me again, but she just stared at me. There was sadness in her eyes, and I didn't know what it was for. Later, she let out a forced smile before patting me on the shoulder."Just call me again when you need something," she said before finally leaving.I
I know I am enough for my child; however, sometimes I also thought that if I were to disappear, who would stay longer at Angelei's grave like I did? And right now, God has given me the answer to that. I smiled bitterly as I watched Zachary kneeling and silently crying in front of Angelei's grave. I don't know how many hours we have been here; after I was admitted to the hospital for four days, I asked him to drive here first. I know it's too late, but I still want to make up for it and clear his name.Throughout the two years that passed, Angelei became my sympathizer for all the pain and anger I was carrying. I made her feel like we were the only ones on our side, and I loaded her with the hatred I had for Zachary. That's why, now that I know the truth behind my miserable life, I know I have to fix everything. I'm not the only one hurting. With every tear falling down Zachary's cheek, I know that, like me, he can't help but blame himself, even though I keep telling him that he is inn
A mixture of machine noise and whispers woke me up from my deep sleep. My eyesight was blurry as I gently opened my eyes. I wasn't sure if I was awake or in delirium. There were a few vague people I couldn't figure out, including one wearing a white lab coat and a man in front of him who had his back to me. They were speaking, but I was having trouble understanding them.What's going on?I tried to open my mouth to speak, but I couldn't. It felt like something was blocking my throat, but I couldn't tell what it was. It's like every part of my body is being stabbed; I'm kind of numb with intense pain. I looked around again, and it was still the same. Everything my eyes can focus on is blurry and wavering."I'm sorry, we really tried to save them both." I heard someone mumble as my eyelids closed again, slowly.I heard some cursing, but I didn't follow it any further. I feel like I'm lost in the dark. There wasn't any light to go to or anything to hold on to. I am like a wave that is ca
Zachary was sound asleep next to me as I stared silently up at the ceiling. He gave me a warm hug around the waist while his head sat on my neck. I glanced at him for a second, then sighed warily.I asked him to fvck me, not because I wanted to, but because I needed him to do that in order to prove to myself that he and Eunice are still connected. But I admit, I was lost for a moment when we were busy doing that. It was as if my libido fully controlled my body, and I didn't feel any disgust.I just let out a sigh and slowly left his hold. I pulled the comforter over our naked bodies and sat down, wrapping the blanket around me. I absent-mindedly combed my hair with my fingers and then looked back at him.On a sinking ship with all of us on board, Zachary chose to abandon Eunice. Why? I am unaware of that. What is the strongest potential reason for him to break his previous commitment to her? He used to be there for her through good times and bad. Revenge? To what end? As far as I can
It was already past four in the afternoon when I woke up. I didn't even realize that I fell asleep crying. A small table on the side of the bed caught my eye as I gazed around the room. In addition to a bouquet of flowers, there was a plate of stir-fried noodles on it. I approached the table with nothing on my mind when I noticed a note on the edge of the plate. I took it and read it right away.To the most gorgeous woman I've ever met,I'm sorry. Whatever I did wrong, which I don't know, I want to apologize for it. I hope this small gesture will help you feel better.I stared at his letter for a few seconds. I tried to remember the reason for my anger earlier, but I don't seem to know where to look for it now. I was confused by what I did. No matter what I do, I can't understand why I feel bad for a simple noodle."His madness is infecting me," I blurted out, massaging my senses.I put the note back on the table and then focused my eyes on the food. I automatically felt hungry, so I