"Let's just let it go,"He told himself. There was no point in hanging on to this and trying to fight for them when Liam already moved on, he should do that too, move on, but of course, he wasn't going to be with anyone else for a long long time, he has been burnt too much to want to love again, the first time had been horrible, and Kelvin happened and when Liam had come, once again he fell in love, he thought he would finally have it all with Liam yet again that wasn't going to be it, he wasn't just lucky, maybe love wasn't meant for him, maybe it was his fate to be lonely, he should just accept it."Should I just leave New York?"He asked himself. The thought didn't sound bad at all, he could move to Los Angeles, or Arizona, start afresh, and just be contented with himself."I can't do that,"He replied to himself. He couldn't leave New York even if he wants to, his life was here, his family was here, as much as he doesn't like that his parents were always on his case, he didn't fan
After Jordan left, Liam felt like the devil, he shouldn't have said what he said, he shouldn't have the look on Jordan's face, the betrayer he saw there, he couldn't think about it without feeling guilty, but then if it will keep Jordan away from him then it is all good, he could live with the guilt or maybe not, because what Jordan had said to him, he didn't know his ex had broken up with him right after they slept together, he didn't like the thought of Jordan with another man either."Just stop, at least he won't come back here and that's for the best,"He whispered to himself and he got up from the bed to go brush his teeth, he stared at his reflection in the mirror, he didn't look so bad, neither did he look like he was sick but he knew there was a time bomb over his head and it might explode anytime soon, he felt it while he made love to Jordan, the adrenaline rush had made his heartbeat uneven and he had struggled to keep his breath."You are dying,"He said to his reflection b
"Later,"He said as he wore his shirt and a pair of trousers, he picked up his way h and his eyes landed on the box containing the ring he had both for Jordan that he never gave to him, he picked it up and opened it, the gold band"Mark, this is not a date,"Liam warned but the man wasn't having it, he just rolled his eyes and went about taking his orders."What are you having Liam?""Whatever you are having,""I want to have you,"He said with a wink."That's not going to happen now just order and let's eat and leave I don't like people and there are lots of people here,""Liam? Who is he to you?"Jordan asked in a low voice."He is my boyfriend, Mark day Hi to Jordan, we used to date, Jordan meets Mark, my boyfriend,"Liam said already knowing that he will be born in hell for all the shits he was putting Jordan through."Hi, Jordan, didn't know you dated Liam, but thank you for letting him go because he is mine now,"Mark said. He was acting like they both knew each other."You guys
Jordan was back to square zero, he shouldn't have gone out today, he should have stayed home but he had been so exhausted from work that he didn't have the strength to cook and had decided to go eat out only for him to see Liam for the first time in nearly three weeks and it couldn't have been anyone else but Mark, why did it had to be someone he knew and he worked with, if it was some unknown face then it won't hurt so bad, he thought he was over Liam but maybe he has been living a lie since.For three weeks, he had done everything else except care about Liam or think about him, each time the thoughts of him came he did his best to throw them out the next moment, not just that, he changed his phone number so that Liam's mom won't call him, because her calling him would only keep him in the past, and he wanted to move on completely, it had taken all his courage to do that and just a few seconds or minutes in Liam's presence has just ruined it, if only he hadn't gone out, or worst of a
"Yo! Bach! What's up?"Lucas's voice got him off and he wiped his head to see the head boss in his office and he freaking yoed him, Jordan looked at him with questioning eyes because his co-workers were giving him weird looks, yes they knew he was close to the Evans but maybe they didn't know he was this close to the CEO, well because he and Lucas hadn't communicated much during work hours their floors were different, he wondered what Lucas was doing back here, maybe he came to tell them to redo some more patterns, if that's it then he might throw hands."You are supposed to be my boss right now, what are you doing here? Don't tell me you are here to give us more work because I will throw hands,"Jordan said to Lucas and he could hear the others grasp, only if they knew how much of a baby Lucas was at home and how he was totally different from how they saw him, maybe they won't be so scared, he knew and he was proud of it."I am not here to give you work, rather I am here to relieve y
"Jordan, say something, please,"Liam pleaded, Jordan just stood there staring at him without saying a word, Liam had waited for him outside, he realized just how much he couldn't stay away from Jordan, after he got home the night before, he had not been able to fall asleep, his head was filled with thoughts of Jordan and everything that he was and meant to home Liam couldn't stay away so he had made up his mind to come to see Jordan and talked to him when he had gotten to his apartment, he hadn't met Jordan at home and had waited outside for him, hoping that he would return and thankfully he did."Liam, I am going to say this and I am going to say it loud and clear, I don't want to have anything to do with you, I don't know why you think it is right to do this but it is not, just fucking get off my face while I am still talking nicely,"Jordan said in a harsh tone."Jordan, listen to me will you?"Liam said in a pleading voice."I am not going to listen to you Liam, I have nothing to
"Mom, you already backed out before I got even to ask you to talk to him for me, you are so bad,"He complained."Liam, you are an advocate of doing things yourself, it shouldn't change now so man up and go get what you want,"His mom advised."Mom, it is easier said than done, and there is no maning up here, it would make things worst,""Then you don't get what I mean, what I meant was that you shouldn't give up, even if he tells you to stay away, so long as he doesn't get a refraining order against you, just don't give up on him, and don't forget to keep telling him his much you love and care about him,"His mom advised. If only she knew that he had done that and Jordan had not even reacted."Mom, I did that but he didn't even care,""You don't expect him to, he is not a fool, so you should keep telling him until he decides to forgive you,""I hate this,"He lamented."You caused it,""I know,""Go fix it then, don't give up, I know he loves you so much he won't take long to let go
Jordan sat at the park looking at children playing around with their parents, he smiled when he saw a gay couple with their children too, but then the smile faded to be replaced with a frown when he thought of the kids he wanted to have with Liam that didn't happen, well technically, if he allows it, it might still happen but the thing is he didn't want to, Liam can't just break up with him, cut him off, claiming he was with someone else when Jordan tried to make things work with them and turn around to come and tell him that he wants them to be together again, nothing works that way and Jordan wasn't about to allow it,Liam suddenly wanting them to be back together had to be the biggest plot twist ever and it was just too sudden like the shift happened and he didn't even know what caused it, like why didn't he suddenly change his mind when he was finally accepting that he couldn't be with him anymore? When he was finally starting to heal, now he was back begging, why do they always d