I shake my head, and turn to my right, making my way through the treeline, trying to push that very strange encounter to the back of my mind. The forest is pleasantly thick, but not so thick that I can’t see far enough ahead of me. I walk for about ten minutes before I can see a house to my left a few hundred feet ahead. I assume that’s the boy’s house, which hopefully means the field shouldn’t be too much farther ahead. I have no idea if that’s actually true, since I’ve only been here one time and in one place. But I was trying to be hopeful.
I walk quickly, feeling slightly pressed for time. Last time it was days before I could come back, what if it’s longer this time? What if it’s a week, or a month, or a year? I don’t really know this boy too much, but for some reason the thought of not seeing him for a year makes my heart knot up. I laughed at myself a little. I had dreaded coming back here so much, but really only because I knew how much it would hurt to get ripped away from it again.
The tight feeling in my chest makes my bare feet move faster. I barely feel the sticks, pine needles, and rocks stabbing into my flesh. I barely register the gorgeous, huge trees covered in wet moss and flowers blooming in the moonlight around me. As beautiful as it was, it wasn’t what was on my mind right now.
All I can think about is how much my chest hurts.
I run by the house, which I can see now is man made. It’s one story, with a roof that’s sagging inwards. It's surrounded by thick overgrown bushes with flowers blooming from it, and the sides are home to a dark green moss. It’s definitely not like any house I’ve ever seen before. More like a shed, really. I can hear voices leaking from the cracks in the iffy wall, and can smell meat cooking and bread baking. My curiosity peaks, but I press on. I’ll try the field first, and if he’s not there, then the house. I didn’t want to risk bumping into anyone else if I could help it.
A few more hundred feet, and I come to the field.
It’s just like I remember. Long, luscious grass, vividly colored glowing flowers scattered in clumps.
“Delilah?” I hear his voice, and my eyes search frantically for his face.
When I find it, my heart melts. He looks so glad to see me, but I can still see the layer of worry in his eyes at my presence. Why was I so invested in this guy? I had probably asked myself that question ten times now, but it didn’t stop the skip in my heart at the sight of him.
He was to the edge of the field, but now he jogs towards me. He stops abruptly in front of me, bringing along the smell of fresh bread and blood with him.
“How did you get here?” He asks, cupping my cheeks. His hands are rough from years of manual labor, but I still lean into them. They’re warm and comforting in this strange place. It’s weird, I can feel his hands, but only just so. Kind of like he was made of bubbles.
“Well, a girl woke me up and I was laying in the middle of a different field. She kind of gave me directions to you but she was acting really sketchy-”
“I don’t know how you’re here right now.” He interrupts. I furrow my brow at him, shifting my weight to my other foot and grabbing his hands that still cupped my face with my own.
“Do you not want to see me?” I ask, the inner corners of my eyes tingling. Was I about to be rejected in my own dream?
“No, no. Of course I want to see you. But Delilah …” He pauses, looking around me towards the house. The forest seems quieter than before, more still. Even the wind is waiting to see what he’s going to say next. “ I can’t explain this to you here. It’s not safe… too many people may be listening.” I furrow my brow at his words, looking around us. There was literally no one.
What did he know that I didn't?
“Please, I need to understand. Why do these dreams seem so real? Who are you? Where did you come from?” I drop our hands down, taking a step away from him. “Why am I so… connected to you.” I whisper the last part, clenching and unclenching my hands desperately.
“Look, I can’t explain everything to you right now. I don’t exactly know who saw you or where you came from, but if she wasn’t one of my people, she’s with them, and they will stop at nothing to get to you once they know you’re here…” he turns away, running his hands over his face and hair. “I wish she hadn’t seen you… they know what you look like now. Now everyone will be trying to get their hands on you. I hope she was one of us.”
“They? Hello? What the hell is happening? I came here to see you and now you're acting like I’m in danger.” He stops for a second to look at me, and I see the look in his eye soften a little.
“My love, what you are doing right now is not a normal thing to be doing, you know that, right?” I shake my head.
“What do you mean, what I’m doing? I’m not doing anything? You came to me first, I’m sorry If I misunderstood.” I turn away, the burn of rejection in my throat.
“I did not mean it like that.” I still at his soft touch on my arm. “You… you are doing something that no one has been able to do for a very long time. It is more worrisome that you don’t even know you are doing it… you could get stuck in a dream if you’re not careful. I mean I'm not even asleep..."
“Stuck in a dream?” I turn back to him, my breath catching at the sight of him. He was only inches from me, already staring down into my eyes intensely.
“I need to stop, before I tell you too much and get us both into trouble. But I will say this, you need to stop visiting me like this.” My heart sinks. I was visiting him? How? “It’s too dangerous. I should have left you alone while I still had the chance. This place I’m in… it has more secrets than I care to admit. And if anyone knew you were here, they would want to keep you for themselves and bend your mind to their will.”
“This place you’re… in?” Was this… a real place? I was still holding onto the hope that I was just having really, really, vivid dreams. But those words… Was I visiting a real place? Was I talking to a real person right now? And he said I was… visiting… him. What did that mean?
Suddenly, the guy's head snaps to the left, towards the trees. I follow his gaze, crinkling my brow at the change in the air. I could feel my hair standing up, and ears were prickling with the taunt of noise.
Voices.
I could see light coming through the forest, too.
“They’re coming for you, Delilah.” I look up at him, furrowing my brow.
He grabs my hand, and starts dragging me across the field. “Who’s they? Why are they coming for me? Why does it even matter? I’m dreaming right now, aren’t I?” I would really like an answer on that last question, mystery man.
“You… kind of are dreaming. It's not the same as last time. We were both asleep then.” We duck under branches and step over rocks as we break through the treeline on the other side of the field, him pulling me by the wrist the entire time. Why did it sound like he kept saying he wasn't asleep? Then how was I seeing him right now? And how was he seeing me?
I look over my shoulder as I realize the voices are getting closer.
“Little flower?” I stop suddenly at the sound of a voice, maybe thirty feet away, calling into the night. I felt almost hyper focused on it. Something in me longed to hear it again, longed to hear it read me to sleep and whisper sweet nothings into my ear.
I look up at the guy, my eyes wide. What was this feeling flowing through me? Why did I feel like I needed to see who that voice belonged to?
“It’s time to wake up.” I gasp as I realize he’s grabbing me by the back of my neck and pulling me closer to his face. There was a strange look in his eyes, and he definitely looked annoyed. I was so focused on the looks on his face, I almost didn’t realize what he was doing. Why he grabbed me.
Oh my god.
Was he about to kiss me?
This time when my eyes snap open, I’m not feeling so sad and lonely. I’m confused as ever and a little irritated. Scratch that, a lot irritated. He knew going in for a kiss would scare the shit out of me, and used it to wake me up. I sit up, trying to process what I just “dreamt” about. Who were those people trying to find me? Why was that guy so scared of them? Scared might not have been the right word… but he was definitely wary of them to say the least.And who was that that called for me? I could remember the exact pitch of his voice calling out into the night. “Little flower…” I feel almost… regretful… that I didn’t see the face it belonged to.I shake my head, focusing on what really mattered. Were my dreams more than dreams? Was this a real place and a real person I was visiting and talking to? It was seeming more and more like that was the case. I felt insane even thinking that, but what was I supposed to think at this point?I sat there in my bed for a few minutes collecti
It was almost two in the afternoon before I finally gave up. I closed my laptop that I’d had to plug in while I used it from draining the battery, and tossed it on the foot of my bed. I had let my dog out hours ago. She had no interest in research, only in frockling in the back yard. I left my room, shutting my wooden door a bit forcefully behind me. The house was cool and quiet, all I could hear was my mom’s cat padding around somewhere. I stood there in the hallway for a moment, staring at a picture of my dad that hung on the wall, along with various other pictures. We had gone on a fishing trip; I was only four and the small perch my mother had photographed me holding had felt like a shark in size to little me. My dad died when I was eight, from a heart attack. I loved him, and I miss him every day I walk down this hallway and see these pictures of him, smiling and frozen in time. That gives me an idea. My legs and mind kick into gear with the fresh thought seared into my min
She stares at the picture, as though what I’m saying is irrelevant. She backs up and flops down into one of the brown armchairs taking up a corner of the room. Her eyes stare off a little, and she sighs. It’s a good minute before she says anything, and when she does, it’s like she’s talking to herself rather than to me. “Your father and I used to live in a really crappy town down south before we moved here and started over. We were young and broke and couldn’t afford anything better. So we ended up living in kind of a dump around people who gave us nothing but bad memories… especially your father. We moved there to get away from people, to be by ourselves. You know already my parents weren’t very nice, and your father’s died when he was young. I was tired of living under the same roof as them and your dad… well he didn’t care where we went. He always said he just wanted to be by my side. So we settled for less, just to get away. It just caused trouble for us, though. At first, every
I nod, keep a hold on my one picture of the field, and stand up. Neither me or my mother say anything as I slowly walk to my room. I wanted her to stop me, to tell me she was sorry for saying that and that she would support me in finding out what the hell was happening with me. I wanted to know that even if this didn't work out, I would still have her.But she didn’t. I walked into my room, shutting the door behind me and leaning against it. I close my eyes, slide down the length of it, and bury my face in my hands. I jump a little when I feel my dog’s nose brushing my forearm. I glance up, my throat on fire and my eyes already brimming over with tears.I grab her face in my hands, staring into her aging yellow eyes. She had gray hair all over her face, her lips and ears drooped more every day, and lately she had developed a limp. The vet had just said it was her joints, and apart from a special diet and exercise routine, there was nothing we could do to help her. She was just gett
“How much for a night?”“A hundred even.”“Okay, I’ll take it.” I drove all day, filling up my tank once and now I was staying the night in a hotel. This would probably be the only time I would be able to do this, because I needed to save my money. But I was tired and still upset over having to abandon my mother, and I wanted to make a plan. The dusty looking old man at the desk gave me a room key and then shuffled off to do whatever it was dusty old men who ran weird run down hotels did.I went back out to my little white car and grabbed my bag out of the passenger seat. I shove my laptop that had been resting in my passenger seat in before locking and slamming the car door shut behind me. I sighed at the empty feeling in my belly. I should’ve grabbed some food before I stopped for the night, because my stomach was growling. I was really trying to save money though, and I had already spent a good chunk of change on this room and gas today. I had no idea how long I would have to look
Just like all the other times I’ve woken up in one of my dreams before, I suddenly find myself lying on the ground of a strange enviroment, inhaling oxygen into my lungs frantically and searching around desperately for clues as to where I was. I was even more desperate this time because of what I needed to accomplish in my short time here.I stand up, brushing… wood chips off my butt. Why was my ass covered in wood chips? I really looked around, taking in where I was. A barn. I think. I haven't actually been insisde one, but it certainly looked like what I thought one would look like. A big, empty barn. There were no animals or equipment just a few big empty stalls with long forgotten hay. All the windows and doors were closed, at least I assumed because it was extremely dark in here. Only a few beams of moonlight streamed through the gaps in the wooden walls. I looked towards the center of the room where I could see the outline of a… giant cage? Probably twelve feet high and tw
Fuck. I try not to cuss too often, only when I feel strongly about something. But that was the first word that popped into my head when I jumped awake in the dark, cold hotel room after my very bad dream. Except it wasn’t just a bad dream. I had always had a worry in the back of my mind I was going crazy, and none of this was really real. My mom’s reaction made me think I wasn’t, but come on? Visiting a handsome hunk in some fairy tale dream land? That’s not real.But now, I was sure what I was seeing was really happening. The fear in my chest was real, I was so sure of it.Not to mention, about three seconds after I opened my eyes, my arm where the woman had grabbed me was on fire. Not literally, but it felt like it. “What’s happening...” I mumble in panic as I throw the blankets off me in a hurried frenzy and struggle to click on the bedside lamp. My hands were shaking and my heart was racing so hard I could taste it in my throat. Tears threaten to spill over my eyes when I
I hadn’t passed a house or a gas station in a while. I was just driving thirty miles an hour down a dirt road going nowhere. There were fields around me with cows and goats surrounded by fences, but any human life must have been tucked beyond the hills that hide the horizon from me. All I could see was trees and fields and cows. My arm starts burning all of a sudden, and I sigh and brake the car. I put it in reverse, and slowly backed up on the road. The throbbing subsides, and I groan dramatically and throw my head back. I guess it would be a little silly to assume I would be able to drive right up to this mysterious magical entrance to my dream world. I shake my head as I maneuver my car off to the side of the road. I had no idea how long I would be gone for. There was a good chance my car wouldn’t be here when I got back. While there were no people around now, these fields of cows obviously belonged to someone and eventually they’d notice an abandoned vehicle. I sit in my seat
"Come, Lady Delilah. Since Erik won't be returning until after dinner, he's instructed me to lead you to the dining hall, so you may eat with the rest of the Alva." We're walking out what seems like a back door of Erik's place, down a small hill with a path, and through a clearing towards a plain looking salt structure. It looked like it was only one room, but a big one.Dining hall sized, I guess.Chepi was carrying a covered tray while walking behind me, with what I assume to be my dinner underneath. My nerves started buzzing at the sound of loud chatter coming from the naked entry way of the building. We were getting closer, and I was feeling very nervous.This was a total lunchroom situation.We finally come to the entry way, and I stop for a moment to take it all in.There are four room length tables in the room, all with dozens of wooden stools around them. There are a few small groups of people congregated around a couple spots, and it reminded me of the same kind of groups I'd
I turn the page of the journal I was reading for my little audience. "The Mann returned, but he did not return alone. I fear this may be my last entry, as we are currently under siege. Mann attacked in the night, slitting our fighters' throats as they slept and smothering our babies before they could cry. We were only alerted when one of the Mann stepped on an animal's tail and woke the house he was invading. We all heard their screams as they were killed. Our goddess is angry, angrier than I think I've ever seen her. She has called forth the rage of the forest, and Mann hang from limbs by their necks. She says she's done with Mann, and this world, and plans to create another for us and her new slaves." I stop reading and glance up at Chepi, who looks ashen. "She's on top of the hill now, absorbing energy. Only seventy-nine of us remain, and ten of the invaders. Including the original Mann who stole the blood of our people. She has him with her on top of the hill, last I saw she was i
Hello again, Child. I didn't think I'd be seeing you so soon, and with company.I was nestled against the roots of my Aldre, the book I had picked up first in the library in my hands. Chepi had come along, with a ball of scratchy looking yarn and a small stool. She was perched on it now, her fingers moving the string around methodically, paying me and my tree no mind."She's okay." She doesn't even look up when I speak out loud to the tree.What ails you?I sigh, and hold the book in front of me, opening it and turning the pages."When Mann, as we've branded them, was first encountered by Sanju, tidings were well."You can read the old tongue. I nod, and continue. The pages are laid out like a journal, starting on the second page."Sanju left the fort at first light on the second day of the full moon with the objective of obtaining medicine for a group of sick children. While she and many others possessed healing, the sickness that taints the children is deep, acquired from an unknown
"What am I supposed to do with all of this?" I ask as Erik returns to his seat in the corner with me cradled in his arms. He turns me so I straddle him, both our chests pressed together and with my face buried in his shoulder. I was probably being a little dramatic, but it kind of felt good to let it out for once and not hold back my reaction. I wasn't exactly sure why I felt comfortable doing that around Erik, but here I was, crying like a baby in his arms. I had to keep reminding myself I'd only known him for a couple of days; this level of comfort wasn't normal. "Please don't weep." He whispers as he strokes my hair softly. "It makes me feel things I didn't know I could feel anymore." I sniff, and back up a little.Our eyes meet, and more memories pour in from him. A woman, tall and beautiful with hair the same color as Erik's, with deep purple eyes and clear perfect skin, was shoving him into what looked like a cupboard. Tears were bubbling in his eyes, and he was saying somethin
"What the hell are you talking about right now, Chepi? You're confusing me." I ask, my heart racing at what she just told me. What is a Gudinna? What did it have to do with me, and why could I read this alleged dead language? It just looked like English to me. Normal words I had been reading my entire life."Lady Delilah, you asked me why I held you in a higher regard than I did Erik. My inviting you here was so I could prove to both you and myself why that is. I have a very strong suspicion that you are-""Chepi." We both jump at the sudden sound of Erik's voice. I look where he is standing in the entry way, glaring at my servant. My heart is racing; I feel like I've been caught with my hand in the cookie jar.She bows to him, and backs out of the room quickly, all while he watches her leave."Why did she leave? What was she about to say?" I shake the book at Erik, emphasizing my point. "Why did she say no one else can read this? You can, right?" I thrust it at him. Erik sighs, and t
Twenty minutes later, I'm dressed in basically the same clothes as yesterday, just clean ones, and leading Chepi towards a supposed library."Left." She whispers behind me as we come to a fork in the hallways."Delilah!" I turn around at the sudden sound of a familiar voice. Larkin has appeared down the hall from us, where I think the other bedrooms are. I watch as he jogs towards us, quickly closing the distance. "Larkin." I say, smiling up a little at him when he stops in front of us. Yeah, he irritated me. But he was hard to stay mad at, and there was no point in being mean to him. I didn't know what was going to happen with us, but I had a feeling we'd both end up hurt as it was. I didn't feel like I needed to rub dirt in the wound by rehashing his mistakes over and over again. "I had no idea if you were still here or not." His lips lift up in a smile and he squats down so we can make eye contact. I back up a little nervously when he ends up only a few inches away from me. Too ma
"Do you have any scents you prefer?" Chepi asks as I start peeling off my clothes to get into the bath. She graciously turned her back then to clink through the bottles of soaps and other liquids."No, I trust your judgment." I step into the water, lowering myself in quickly and perching on the provided ledge underneath."Very well, My lady." I sink into the water up to my nose, watching Chepi from behind the steam. She plucked vials of oil off a cart and made her way to the still running square shaped taps behind me. She empties a pink colored one into one stream of water, then crawls to another and adds a cream-colored vial. The water immediately starts smelling of honey suckles and vanilla. I sigh, and close my eyes for a second, opening them again when I hear her rummaging about some more.She grabs a fabric bag off the cart and approaches again. She kneels down and gently starts sprinkling the dried daisy petals into the bath, keeping her eyes on the water the entire time. She ri
"I guess I need to learn more about what it means to be fated." I feel his hand on my lower back, and I know I'm growing weak. I force myself to blink and break eye contact, so I don't lose consciousness again."Don't worry, we'll work on your magic, so you won't always get so weak when we connect." He moves his hand from my lower back once I'm stable again."Speaking of magic." I step away from him a little. "Something happened last night, when I was outside.""When were you outside? The guards said you were just wondering-" he stops when I turn to glare at him. He kind of opens and closes his mouth, avoiding looking at me for a second before shooting me a sheepish grin. I roll my eyes but turn back towards the window. So, he knew I was lost last night. He was probably the reason none of the many guards I'd walked by offered to help. How petty."Anyways." I shoot him a look and stop in front of the window, bending to look down and gasping in excitement at what I see. "I knew I wasn't
"My Lady!" My lady? Who the hell is calling me my lady now? And why are they yelling?I pry open my eyes, blocking the sunlight from them as I do so. I groan, looking up to meet gazes with what appears to be another servant woman. She wears the same dress as the others, and the same apron. She's staring down at me in horror, shock clear on her face. Her hair is almost yellow in color, pulled back into a tight bun that hung low on her head. Her eyes are a pale brown color with long, lovely lashes surrounding them."Why are you on the floor? Did you and Erik have a fight?" She quickly sits down on knees, laying down flat so her hands stretch towards me. She looks up at me with her face only."What are you doing right now?" I ask, scrunching up my whole face. It was too early to beat around the bush."I shouldn't stand above you. It would look bad." I shake my head a little, rubbing at my still tired eyes. I am definitely not used to this weird master-servant relationship all the helpers