I stayed in the room with Elon, smiling to him like everything was normal— even though my insides were a lot of emotions just by thinking what could happen now that Elizabeth was downstairs.My hands moved randomly, changing his clothes, brushing his hair, while my mind raced with a thousand thoughts, all centered on what they were about to do.Elizabeth.The thought of her being here—my sister, now Damian's lover, after everything that had happened—made me feel scared. Although, I kind of knew why she was here. After all, Damian finally had some free time after a busy week. I felt..a bit threatened.Probably because of the crazy thing she said the last time we saw each other.My heart was heavy when I brought my eyes to Elon, who was holding the small figurine clutched with his tiny fingers. He was playing with it. When he noticed my gaze, he looked up to me.“Is dad not coming back?” he asked, his eyes pure and innocent.“He has a visitor..” My voice was soft, but the weight behind
I faintly sat on the edge of my bed, staring at the phone screen long after the call ended. My grip was tight, knuckles turned white, as his words echoed back at me.What do I want to do next? I didn’t know. Because ruining Elizabeth wasn’t the plan. I just… wanted to threaten her… make distance, wait until everything was over.So, I lied when I said I didn’t know anything about it. I lied on their faces when I denied it— and when I feign ignorance when she came because I knew damn too well why she was here.I pulled in a deep breath. My eyes wandered on the brown envelope lying open on my nightstand, its contents spilling onto the surface like a wound torn open. The photographs, glossy and damning, gleaming.I had sent them.The same day I told Alicia I would stop supporting my father, I called someone to do the favor for me. I set them up. The camera had been planted outside the restaurant where Damian and Elizabeth would meet that day, angled just right to capture their embrace—the
To think that I even woke up early thinking I’d get to do what I planned today. But upon that conversation with Alicia, I lost the will to continue.I sighed as I slouched in my swivel chair. When I went back here in my main office at the art gallery, I had been staring at the blank notepad in front of me. My mind buzzed with thoughts, but still, I wasn’t able to grasp a single one. I exhaled, then sit back straight. I tapped the end of my pen against the desk, the rhythmic sound filling the quiet room. The air smelled faintly of paint and varnish, and I have always liked how it created a comforting scent that reminded me of why I loved this place—but at that moment, I felt lost. It didn’t seem to work.A soft knock on the door pulled me out from my thoughts. "Come in," I called, thinking it was Alicia.The door swung open, and to my surprise, it was Mike who stepped inside, holding a paper bag in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. His familiar, easygoing grin made me forget
The next morning, I woke up feeling strangely lighter, probably because the burden from yesterday had settled into something I could finally handle. I wasn’t alone in this—Mike had given me a plan, Alicia prepared the stage for me and now, it was my time to act.I pulled myself together, mustered up my courage as I prepared myself to meet the person I was scheduled to privately talk to, today. There was a bit of worry, but with my trusted secretary beside me, I have faith that this will go as I planned it to be.Alicia arrived early in the house to pick me up, as usual, already dressed in a sleek black pantsuit that made her look like she was ready to take on the world. She was holding two cups of coffee, one of which she handed to me the moment I opened she saw me.“It’s going to be a big day,” she said, more confident. She was probably convinced now, unlike yesterday when the news first erupted. Alicia sipped on her own drink. “Are you ready?”I nodded, though my stomach felt tight
I knew better than to stick with any of Elizabeth's business. They bring trouble—worse, dragged me in it.I knew as much—but I couldn't get it off my head.When I went home to rest and be with Elon, I attempted to occupy my mind. I played with him, talked to Dr. Advani to track Elon's activities and progress, contacted his nutritionist. I did what I usually do when I've got nothing to do but look after Elon.But it kept bugging me. The way it crept into my chest, I felt like there was something wrong and that I had to confirm it.Was Elizabeth cheating with Damian? With Ethab, a well-known fashion model?"Mommy!"Elon's voice pulled me out of my thoughts. I quickly looked his way and met his gaze, full of confusion."I'm sorry, what is it?" I let out a small smile, trying to hide the worried look. "I didn't understand, I was thinking of something.""I said Daddy still hasn't come home. Why?" He looked down, letting go of his dinosaur. "Last night you told me that you’ll talk to him."
“Eleanor?” He called my name, asking for my attention when minute passed and I failed to give him the answer he wanted to hear. I struggled to breath. “Alright,” I was finally able to say. The word felt foreign on my tongue. My voice was steady, but inside, I was more of a fractured.Damian barely reacted. Just when I thought he was only waiting for my answer, he showed no relief, no satisfaction. He only nodded, as his gaze flickered downward briefly before returning to me.“Mommy?”Both our heads turned toward the staircase. Elon was standing there, his small frame clearly visible. He rubbed his sleepy eyes, his dinosaur clutched tightly in his right hand.“Daddy?” His voice was soft. His eyes were first confused, then turned surprise to happy in mere seconds. That completely changed the air in the living room. I instinctively took a step forward, but Damian was faster than me. He stood up, and quickly approached Elon. He crouched down, opening his arms wide. “Come here, buddy.”E
Elon seemed to be satisfied with my suggestions. Slowly, his face lightened up, and that was enough to make him continue eating and not ask a single thing again. He had always been easy to please, and I liked that that hasn’t change. “How about I just drive you two when you go to work, and fetch you on or before 4pm?” Damian suggested, which earned him a smile from Elon.“I’d love that!”I nodded. It didn’t sound harmful, and it was actually good that he was trying to make up and compromise for Elon, too.Damian nodded at Elon’s response before finally looking at me. “Okay. We will leave at seven tomorrow and eat breakfast outside.”I didn’t answer. I remained quiet, and rest was history.The next morning, Damian was up early. When Elon and I went down he was in the kitchen cooking breakfast for us. I was surprise. For the past years, my job was to make him up before he gets late for work. Did he intentionally wake up early knowing he made a promise to Elon? Because that would surpr
It was silent when Elon and I entered the gallery. The silence felt thick, which gave me the idea that we were the first to arrive. In the air lay the smells of paint and varnish, along with something much older— a smell that usually calmed me, rooting me in something palpable, something I could handle. So, I couldn’t help but looked down on Elon beside me to see his reaction. Naturally, he’d notice that. I mean, he didn’t always get to be embraced by this atmosphere and scent.“Not loving the smell?” I asked, smiling.“It’s fine, mom. But I wonder why it smell so familiar…” He responded, looking at the paintings on the wall.I let him be. I held his small hand tighter, and guide him through the entire gallery ‘til the last room, where I was planning to spend most of my time today. I set my bag down, let go of him for a bit to get a chair for him, before I walked towards my easel, fingers already itching to create. I had been days delayed from practicing.“You can go to my office on
The bar was dim. Neon lights in blues and purples were flickering across the walls, whilst the bass of the music vibrating through my chest. A steady thrum was setting the atmosphere, loud enough to drown out thoughts, probably emotions and other unlikable activities, too.I had been eyeing the whole bar, and I had seen people moving against each other on the dance floor, their laughter and voices merging with the music. I was more distracted with my surroundings than Abby and Alicia’s conversation.“Guess where the contract signing’s gonna be…”“Where? Omg! This is next week, right? Have you booked your tickets? I wanna come with you!”“In Dubai!”“Dubai? I have never been to dubai! Oh! Eleanor, let me come!”Abby held me by my arm, which disrupted my thoughts. I looked at her, completely clueless.“Yes?” I asked her, my brows slightly meeting.“Alicia and I are talking about where your contract’s signing gonna be, and I want to come!” Abby was smiling from ears to ears, her eyes goi
Was I really thankful? I probably only said that to fake composure— so he’d know that even if it affected me, it wouldn’t be enough to break me down which would be quite a stretch to comprehend considering I had been playing dumb for two whole years just so Damian wouldn’t leave me, and my family could keep being my family.Now, when I thought of that, it always reminded me how much of a big decision confronting them was. Yet, even if I turn back time, I knew with certainty that I would done the same. Not just because of Elon, but because of the personal growth, lesson, and courage I earned along the way. I had to stand up for myself, and making that choice helped me alter my course from a more heart-wrenching dilemma. I just knew it would be more worse as time went by and it would probably keep going until nothing was left of me. Not even Elon.After that talk, I buried myself in work. I forced to kept my mind occupied with something more valuable, something that I knew didn't have
I felt like I was standing on a crumbling ground, like the floor beneath me was beginning to give me way and I was free-falling into something dark and endless. It wade my knees weak. “This apology probably wouldn’t mean a single thing to you now. It’s late and I’d understand if you won’t take it…” Damian continued, his voice careful, struggling. “But I thought it was about time we talk about it. So when Elon gets better, and we divorce… everything will be—”“You thought you’ll be able to start with a clean slate if you apologize now?” I asked, breathless. “Eleanor..” He heaved a deep breath. “We’re eventually going to go our separate ways, and it would be better if we could move forward without this issue holding us back.”I wanted to scoffed. Goddamn, if the pain inside me wasn’t stronger than hatred, disappointment, rage and everything else— I definitely would have mop the fact that I wouldn’t move on just because he apologized to me on his face.It wasn’t that easy— and hearing
My fingers curled around the doorknob—and I chastised myself upon giving away seconds of hesitation. Really… After saying that I had enough, that one statement was all it would took for me to swoon and reconsider talking to him?“Okay..” I breathed, not taking my eyes off him. “Let’s hear it.”Let’s talk about it. This will prove my weak resolve when it comes to him, but I wouldn’t pretend to be unbothered and uncurious. He wanted to talk about it suddenly like he owe it to me? Okay. Afterall, I had been dying to hear the answers from him. Why did he cheat on me with Elizabeth? Was it truly because I wasn’t enough?Agreeing to hear him out was pure stupidity. But I didn’t care.“Elizabeth and I started even before you find out. Even before the two years you know…” His throat bobbed as he swallowed, his hands clenching at his sides. I kind of saw that coming. Of course. Elon’s turning eight now. I knew they had been a thing probably after she gave birth, or maybe even before. I expec
“I’m sorry..”Sorry? He was sorry about it?What he said barely registered at first. It felt implausible that I actually thought I was hearing things, but I heard him sigh and take a few steps, which rattled me.So, when I turned, and saw Damian standing a few meters away from me, I intently meet his gaze to try and weight down the emotions lingering there.He was sorry? Was I hearing it right? Damian apologized to me… just as I thought he’d avoid me as I did?I couldn’t do anything when it repeatedly echoed in my mind, clattering something loose in my chest. After all these years, I went through all the pain, all the betrayal, and not once did I ever hear him apologize to me— not even an explanation, or even a reason why he did that. Why now?I struggled to breath. I couldn’t continue walking even if my mind wanted to. I should have walked straight. I should have gone straight to Elon’s room like I intended, ignore him like I planned—like he deserved. But instead, my feet double cro
Chapter 41: Big DecisionI walked down the hall, my fingers tracing the details of my ring on my fourth finger as I moved. My steps were small, making little to no sound. I was afraid Elon would hear me and he’d come to ask me down to continue the small talk we were having before Damian arrived.That, I can’t do right now.I headed to my room— the guest room sitting just beside Elon. Walls painted cream and dark brown, with three of my paintings back when I was college hanging in the wall. It was where I had been staying.And Damian hadn’t said anything about it— just as expected. Surely, he wouldn’t think we’d still share a bed together even after all that. Except the room felt quiet draining when entered. The space felt foreign— or was it the feeling, after letting it all out like a mad woman?I sat in the bed and stared at the floor— then to my right hand where my ring was on. Looking at it pained me, which was strange, because I had always hold on to it because it gave me so much
“I can’t believe this…”My voice trembled despite my best efforts to keep it steady. My hands were shaky. I have given up on saving my composure. The calm and collected facade just dropped and I knew I would have to unknow everything for me to keep a straight face and continue giving that low tone.At this point, I wasn’t even surprise anymore. Not even this powerful, heart-wrenching pain could hold a candle against my building anger. Everything kept pushing me to my edge and I felt so done bein trampled on.No. They couldn’t do that over and over and expect me to apologize even when I was on the wrong."You know what, Damian? It doesn’t even matter anymore. Do whatever you want. Let her move in. Make her feel comfortable.” I breathed hard, trying to end this conversation once and for all. “Do what will help you sleep at night, but just know that you’ll lose your right to Elon.”His brows furrowed. "Eleanor, it’s not—"I angrily shook my head. I wasn’t and didn’t want to give him a ch
Chapter 39: Emerging AngerMy heart was in discord, thrumming with a mixture of uneasiness, and concern. I didn’t really had a choice when he spoke to me looking like that. He sounded impatient, and I definitely didn’t want to throw the good atmosphere in the living room so I stood up and followed, with hesitant movement.We walked upstairs, and went into the master bedroom. I was the one who shut the heavy wooden door behind me, and I felt the tension rightafter.If this was about me not telling him beforehand that we left with Mike, then I could apologize. But why did he look so bothered?“Damian, you weren’t answering my calls, so—”He turned to me with his jaw tauted and his gaze dark with something unreadable. That made me stop— and threatened.I held my breath.I was wrong. This wasn’t just because of that. There was something else and I feel that I could guess what it was.Elizabeth.“What happened this morning, Eleanor?” he finally asked, his voice now low but firm.I let out a
I hesitated. Looking at the new message I was about to send, seconds stretched with anticipation. Was apologizing the right thing? He was late. He wasn’t answering my calls.Would this sound like I was pleasing him too much?My phone buzzed again, disrupting my thoughts. Damian’s name flashed on the screen, and I once again contemplated if I would answer it.But I was sure as hell he’d be mad if I didn’t.I inhaled sharply before swiping towards left. "Hey.""Eleanor," his voice was firm, and edged with somethingI could call displease. "Where are you?"I swallowed. "I just texted you. Mike dropped us off. I—" I hesitated. "I meant to text you earlier, but it slipped my mind. I'm sorry."It must have been when Abby called me on our way home, I didn’t have the chance to inform him.There was a pause on the other end. Not that long, but enough to make my pulse beat fast."You should have," he finally said with his tone neutral. Disappointment was evident, so was irritation. But I didn’t