Samuel They won't stop talking. No matter how much I try to get myself into a shell, I can still hear, those muffled words filled with disgust and degradation. The sound of laughter. "Look who's here""Samuel Vance, how are you still allowed in here?""Assholes like you should rot in hell""Why aren't you still kicked out?""Genes speak!""Shame on you!"I'm screaming but I can't hear my voice. I can only feel my body getting colder and shivering. I want to shut down. I want to push myself to a place where I don't hear those voices anymore. The lights— the damn lights shudder me from the core as I throw my hand over my eyes to get rid of them. It scares me to death. I can't breathe or even move. The voices keep howling around me. I think I'll die. Fuck! I'm dying. My lungs are exploding from the lack of air as I gasp."Samuel!" among those voices I hear her. The next moment, two soft warm palms rest on my cheeks. Cold shivers jolt through my body, making my heart beat faster agai
Chrisanna I can't believe what I'm seeing on the screen. These are anti-anxiety drugs. My hands are shaking as I scroll more, trying to keep my calm. The more I read about them, the more my fears turn into reality. He was having an anxiety attack?A freaking anxiety attack!My body refuses to work and my sanity overloads with so many thoughts at once with questions I have no answer to.How? Why? Since when?I swear he never had this issue years back. How did he develop such worse anxiety issues over the years? What might have happened that made him so scared and anxious? I slam the laptop shut and pin myself against the wall, closing my eyes. How did I not notice it at all? Fisting my hair with both hands, I inhale deeply, parting my eyes wider at the sky. Tears sting my eyes. I wonder how long he has been suffering from this issue. How long has he been coping with all this alone?I know him so well that it's clear to me, he never let a soul know that he was going through somet
Chrisanna "Oh, my God!" I snatch the Subway burger Cooper holds in front of me. "How do you know I gobble Subway burgers when I'm upset?""Are you?" he laughs. "I didn't know any of it. I stopped for brunch and thought you might be hungry""Some coincidences are so good", taking a bite, I gasp. "Why are you upset though? I knew something was off when you and Mr. Vance came separately", he says with a grin. "The typical married couple issues"I slow down while munching. "I wish!""Huh?""I wish we had typical married couple issues""So, these are not like—"I shake my head."Well, you guys are really really weird", he shrugs. "Weirdos!"I should be freaked out because he doesn't know the context yet, but the way he says that makes me laugh. I have a subway sandwich to feel better, of course.Cooper keeps on venting his frustration about our weirdness, making me laugh in tears as I continue eating. When the dry chunk disturbs me, I turn a bit to grab the water bottle and my eyes unwil
Samuel "Samuel!" she scoffs, avoiding eye contact with me. "I think we should maintain a boundary in the office. Especially in your cabin""I told you I don't care", I decrease the gap between us. Her body tenses, and so do her auburn eyes."But I do. It's not always about you", she seethes. "You have to understand that you can't keep doing this, Samuel""I can't do what?""You clearly know what I'm talking about. Everything you do when people are mean to me. I'm not a weak-ass woman, Samuel. I can also shut their mouths as I did to Rhys now. Just because I wanted to show you I can speak for myself""I never doubted that", I smile. "But you don't do that when you need to. You let them—""Because there's a proper way and situation to everything. I don't want people to frown upon us. Especially on me. I have really worked hard all my life, not to face this day when people can spread rumors about me having an affair with my boss and getting privileges"With her last words, a slow and pe
Chrisanna "Kenneth! Hold the light properly. Five degrees downwards. More!" I scream at one of my interns. The troublemaker kid just out of high school."Miss C, I think it's broken", he shrugs, moving it literally 45° upwards and downwards. "I think your function is broken!" a howl escapes my mouth, startling the soon to be bride and groom who are posing in this ground breaking wind. "Relax, Sharon!" I tell the bride, focusing on the lens again. "Peter, I want you to keep your chin a bit up"They grin, getting into their moment again as Sharon's hair brush all over their face due to the heavy wind."Jesus! I'm blowing away", Lynn screams, facing a hard time controlling the softbox."God! This is going crazy!" Phoebe gasps. "You can take the snaps?"However, I focus on taking the clicks as well as possible. Because as of now, I can see only two people, deeply in love, willing to capture the best moments of their lives, not caring about any storm. It makes me forget all the problem
Samuel My heartbeat stops as I press the brake. It better not be her car. It better not be. My eyes freeze in the direction of the car and my body stiffens. I push myself with the strength I have and storm out of the car, running across the streets when it's raining heavily. It's Chrisanna's car!I can clearly see her logo sprayed on the door. The next moment, I'm fighting heavy rain and wind while barging on the door. It's locked. And there's a huge branch of a tree that crashed on the front of her car, damaging the entire surface. I hope she's not injured. My brain literally stops working as I bang on the door, and my voice barely comes out. I press my ear against the door to hear anything from her. There's pure silence, enough to scare the hell out of me. Then, she breathes. I can clearly hear her breathing heavily even though the sound of rainfall has made it nearly difficult to hear anything. "Go!" her shivering voice comes, muffled and terrified.Damn! I should have said s
Samuel Our lips connect, remaining steady in that position which is familiar to us since the wedding day. I take my time and catch my breath. Her lips are so soft and tempting that I have wished to not only get a smooch but truly kiss her the way she deserves to be kissed. Those precious lips need to be treated with all passion, affection and desires. And deep down, I'm scared I won't be able to do that.We keep our lips connected— still in silence as I hear her soft breaths. She doesn't flinch, nor do I, as if one is waiting for another one to make the first move. And I'll be doing it.I part my lips against her and she sucks under her breath, sliding her arm around my neck and clinging onto me. I shut my eyes and allow my heart to take power, turning off my sanity. My top lip is captured by her lips as soon as I can feel her bottom lip between mine.My heart explodes with warmth, passion and longings as I wrap my arms tightly around her waist, trying to believe it's all real. He
Chrisanna I trace my fingers on the tattoo on his arm which has covered a good space of his biceps. I have always wanted to look at it from closer but I never got that chance. Most of the time when we were this close this close, we would either fight or my entire focus was on the hyperventilating Samuel. I couldn't see how fucking hot the tattoo looked on his skin."You don't wanna share?" my voice comes low as I keep caressing and staring at it, making countless assumptions about what it can be. He doesn't reply for a long moment before holding my wrist and sliding it down to his bare torso. My skin burns with his knuckles continuously tracing my bare shoulder. The intimacy we share is next to sheer perfection and I can't stop wanting him to leave a trace of his magical touch all over my body. However, I also know we're still not ready for it. "This—" he lets out a sigh, staring at the tattoo. His eyes slightly flinch. "What can you see?"I carefully stare at it, not really graspi