Elsa stared at me like I had gone nuts .I knew exactly why she reacted that way to what I had just said. If I had thought that one day I was going to be speaking this foolishly nothing would have made me believe that .I knew it was something that we had planned all along and I couldn't believe that I was the one who was finally breaking out of the plan .I had never seen Elsa look disappointed at me before .I knew that she loved me and she was my best friend , but I just couldn’t come to tell her that. It was because I was longing for my step dad dick that made me make that decision of going to school from home .That would be the last thing that I would ever tell anyone .I don’t care if I keep this secret to my grave , I'd rather die with it than let it out , that was never going to happen .It was my secret and I am going to keep it .“ I can’t believe that you are backing out of this now , you know how much we wanted to be away from our family and have time to do whatever
Elsa and I walked to the dining room and when my mom saw her she hugged her .Mom hasn't seen Elsa since all the wedding stuff and I wouldn't blame her though , if it were to be , I don’t think that my daughter's best friend is the person that I was going to notice at that moment , that was definitely not it , it wasn’t happening .I didn’t know why mom hadn't come to say hi to us all this whine even though she knew that my best friend had been in my room all along .“ you know what , I think I have missed you for the longest time and I didn’t even notice. I am so sorry Elsa , I had so much going through my head , but I promise you that something like this isn’t going to happen ever again .“ Thank you aunt , it’s no big deal , I understand that you had so much going through your head at that moment and that was the only reason why I didn’t want to disturb you , I just want to say a big congratulations to you aunt , you deserved this and thank you for giving my best friend a dad “
I stood outside the garage , I didn’t know why I lashed at my mom that way and right now I was feeling so guilty , but I just couldn’t help it.I was definitely going to tell her how sorry I was but it wasn’t just now , I couldn’t tell her now , she would be so mad at me at this point and I just want her to be calm before I approach her because I do not want to get on her bad side that would be like I am testing her patience .I didn’t know how long I stood there , but I know that I have been there for the longest that I could remember .What the fuck was wrong with me , I just can’t help it .My step dad was doing this to me and I can’t even say a word to stop him but instead , I just sat there with my legs wide open and doing that stuff like it’s any of my business .I didn’t need anyone to tell me how sick I was , I was so sick and I knew that .The one thing I hated right now was myself .I couldn’t believe that I am the one taping this , how could I be opening my legs for my mo
My step dad's voice brought us out of our argument .I felt so pained listening to all that Elsa had just said to me .Not even in my wildest dream did I ever think that Elsa was going to be the one to say something like that to me even though it was true .No matter how easy it was , I just couldn’t accept it .“It was my fucking friend and I thoufht she like me , she was my best friend and yet she could say this to me , call me a pathetic liar ““Isn’t that what you are ?” My inner voice thanked me .I knew that the last thing that I wanted at this moment was to let any of this get to me .I wasn’t going to be a fool or let something like that happen again .Right now I didn’t care if she thought that I was a bitch or not , that didn’t matter to me in any way , the only thing that mattered to me right now was my step dad joystick and that is exactly what I am going to have , I just don’t care how long or what it takes , I am having for sure .“ your mom asked me to drop yo
Two weeks passed in the twinkle of an eye .The more I tried to imagine how my life had been after two weeks, the more complicated it was for me .After that sex I had with Shaun in the car , we have both had sex in the living room twice since mom wasn’t around .I would say that the fact that I was having sex with my step dad had made me forget that I have a boyfriend and since Chris hasn't been texting me anymore , I just decided to let him be , after all he couldn’t satisfy snd duck me as good as my step father does .I didn’t care about what he would feel and what he was going to say when he finally met but I knew that he was going to be so mad at me .Well the both of us had been like this a couple of times and we had it sorted out in a short while , the last thing that I would want is my relationship to go down the drain , that wasn’t happening in any way .I loved him so much and I didn’t want it to end just like that .“ honey , remember to let me know how your day
It was 2pm when classes for that day ended .I stood up immediately after bading Angel goodbye but when I turned, I saw that Elsa had already left with the girls she came in with .I knew for a fact that she was staying in the school and was living off campus in a house that was rented to her by her parents .I didn’t know how I would be able to get to her and from the looks of things , it seems like she didn’t want to talk to me and I seems to be pushing things too far , but right now I don’t think that I really care , all I just want is to make sure that this fight between the both of us end anytime soon , I was sick and tired of it , tried if her acting like I never existed .I just wanted my best friend back and that’s exactly what I am going to do , I don’t care how she would react to me but I knew that I am going to fix this up .I ignored All the weird stares that I got while walking to my car in the garage .I knew that a lot of people Were staring at me as I left but I w
It was so shocking to me how I handled my driving to the address that Chris had given to me .My head was flooded with so many thoughts and so many questions through them .I tried to imagine what it would be like and how true those words from Chris' mouth sounded .I know for a fact that we have had our crazy days but that doesn’t mean that I have to believe what Chris had just said .I just didn’t want to start thinking about the possibilities of what he was saying to be true .I knew that I had in my mind to go tell her how sorry I was for cutting her off but right now that is the last thing that I am ever going to do .I just don’t care how it turns out to be but there’s no way that I am going in there and telling that bitch sorry .I know that I might be weak and not be able to face my fears but I think it was time that I really knew what these people saw and thought of me .I just don’t care how it turns out to be , I don’t care how crazy it is but all I know is that , this i
With each day that passes by , I couldn’t help but reminisce about all the good times that I had with Elsa .I knew that the both of us had fallen out and there was nothing that was going to make us be friends anymore , but right now , I just couldn’t help it , no matter what it was .I felt like my heart was definitely going to pull out if I kept on thinking about her , but what could I do? There was absolutely nothing that could be done at this moment , everything was ending right in front of me and there was nothing that I could do .I knew that my mom was soon going to ask about her and I didn’t know what I was going to tell her , but one thing that I am so sure of is the fact that I am telling her that bitch isn't my friend anymore .A hard knock on my door brought me out of thoughts and when I tithed my mom walked into the room .I arranged myself in my bed and scrolled through the Instagram account that I had created while she sat beside me on the bed .“Mom, is anything goin