Elsa stared at me like I had gone nuts .I knew exactly why she reacted that way to what I had just said. If I had thought that one day I was going to be speaking this foolishly nothing would have made me believe that .I knew it was something that we had planned all along and I couldn't believe that I was the one who was finally breaking out of the plan .I had never seen Elsa look disappointed at me before .I knew that she loved me and she was my best friend , but I just couldn’t come to tell her that. It was because I was longing for my step dad dick that made me make that decision of going to school from home .That would be the last thing that I would ever tell anyone .I don’t care if I keep this secret to my grave , I'd rather die with it than let it out , that was never going to happen .It was my secret and I am going to keep it .“ I can’t believe that you are backing out of this now , you know how much we wanted to be away from our family and have time to do whatever
Elsa and I walked to the dining room and when my mom saw her she hugged her .Mom hasn't seen Elsa since all the wedding stuff and I wouldn't blame her though , if it were to be , I don’t think that my daughter's best friend is the person that I was going to notice at that moment , that was definitely not it , it wasn’t happening .I didn’t know why mom hadn't come to say hi to us all this whine even though she knew that my best friend had been in my room all along .“ you know what , I think I have missed you for the longest time and I didn’t even notice. I am so sorry Elsa , I had so much going through my head , but I promise you that something like this isn’t going to happen ever again .“ Thank you aunt , it’s no big deal , I understand that you had so much going through your head at that moment and that was the only reason why I didn’t want to disturb you , I just want to say a big congratulations to you aunt , you deserved this and thank you for giving my best friend a dad “
I stood outside the garage , I didn’t know why I lashed at my mom that way and right now I was feeling so guilty , but I just couldn’t help it.I was definitely going to tell her how sorry I was but it wasn’t just now , I couldn’t tell her now , she would be so mad at me at this point and I just want her to be calm before I approach her because I do not want to get on her bad side that would be like I am testing her patience .I didn’t know how long I stood there , but I know that I have been there for the longest that I could remember .What the fuck was wrong with me , I just can’t help it .My step dad was doing this to me and I can’t even say a word to stop him but instead , I just sat there with my legs wide open and doing that stuff like it’s any of my business .I didn’t need anyone to tell me how sick I was , I was so sick and I knew that .The one thing I hated right now was myself .I couldn’t believe that I am the one taping this , how could I be opening my legs for my mo
My step dad's voice brought us out of our argument .I felt so pained listening to all that Elsa had just said to me .Not even in my wildest dream did I ever think that Elsa was going to be the one to say something like that to me even though it was true .No matter how easy it was , I just couldn’t accept it .“It was my fucking friend and I thoufht she like me , she was my best friend and yet she could say this to me , call me a pathetic liar ““Isn’t that what you are ?” My inner voice thanked me .I knew that the last thing that I wanted at this moment was to let any of this get to me .I wasn’t going to be a fool or let something like that happen again .Right now I didn’t care if she thought that I was a bitch or not , that didn’t matter to me in any way , the only thing that mattered to me right now was my step dad joystick and that is exactly what I am going to have , I just don’t care how long or what it takes , I am having for sure .“ your mom asked me to drop yo
Two weeks passed in the twinkle of an eye .The more I tried to imagine how my life had been after two weeks, the more complicated it was for me .After that sex I had with Shaun in the car , we have both had sex in the living room twice since mom wasn’t around .I would say that the fact that I was having sex with my step dad had made me forget that I have a boyfriend and since Chris hasn't been texting me anymore , I just decided to let him be , after all he couldn’t satisfy snd duck me as good as my step father does .I didn’t care about what he would feel and what he was going to say when he finally met but I knew that he was going to be so mad at me .Well the both of us had been like this a couple of times and we had it sorted out in a short while , the last thing that I would want is my relationship to go down the drain , that wasn’t happening in any way .I loved him so much and I didn’t want it to end just like that .“ honey , remember to let me know how your day
It was 2pm when classes for that day ended .I stood up immediately after bading Angel goodbye but when I turned, I saw that Elsa had already left with the girls she came in with .I knew for a fact that she was staying in the school and was living off campus in a house that was rented to her by her parents .I didn’t know how I would be able to get to her and from the looks of things , it seems like she didn’t want to talk to me and I seems to be pushing things too far , but right now I don’t think that I really care , all I just want is to make sure that this fight between the both of us end anytime soon , I was sick and tired of it , tried if her acting like I never existed .I just wanted my best friend back and that’s exactly what I am going to do , I don’t care how she would react to me but I knew that I am going to fix this up .I ignored All the weird stares that I got while walking to my car in the garage .I knew that a lot of people Were staring at me as I left but I w
It was so shocking to me how I handled my driving to the address that Chris had given to me .My head was flooded with so many thoughts and so many questions through them .I tried to imagine what it would be like and how true those words from Chris' mouth sounded .I know for a fact that we have had our crazy days but that doesn’t mean that I have to believe what Chris had just said .I just didn’t want to start thinking about the possibilities of what he was saying to be true .I knew that I had in my mind to go tell her how sorry I was for cutting her off but right now that is the last thing that I am ever going to do .I just don’t care how it turns out to be but there’s no way that I am going in there and telling that bitch sorry .I know that I might be weak and not be able to face my fears but I think it was time that I really knew what these people saw and thought of me .I just don’t care how it turns out to be , I don’t care how crazy it is but all I know is that , this i
With each day that passes by , I couldn’t help but reminisce about all the good times that I had with Elsa .I knew that the both of us had fallen out and there was nothing that was going to make us be friends anymore , but right now , I just couldn’t help it , no matter what it was .I felt like my heart was definitely going to pull out if I kept on thinking about her , but what could I do? There was absolutely nothing that could be done at this moment , everything was ending right in front of me and there was nothing that I could do .I knew that my mom was soon going to ask about her and I didn’t know what I was going to tell her , but one thing that I am so sure of is the fact that I am telling her that bitch isn't my friend anymore .A hard knock on my door brought me out of thoughts and when I tithed my mom walked into the room .I arranged myself in my bed and scrolled through the Instagram account that I had created while she sat beside me on the bed .“Mom, is anything goin
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know