hello all :) this is Carmella's excerpt now. Magsisimula na po ang kwento niya. Maraming salamat.
CarmellaDownhill"Are you sure you're going to be okay?""Yes, Fel, don't worry. Hindi na ako bata para bantayan pa ano! Sabihin mo iyan sa asawa mo. I don't need his nagging every morning. I'm in good hands!" I responded with an open arms. I shut my eyes and inhaled deeply.Naka-speaker ang cellphone at maaga pa rito sa Victoria. I've toured almost all the countries in the world and settled here. I found my peace here down the countryside. Walang kapit-bahay. Malawak ang bukid at purong mga hayop lang ang nasa paligid.Drake and Diego has settled on their own and the clan is not making any troubles anymore. Naubos na yata ang mga demonyo sa paligid at lahat sila ay nagbagong buhay na.This is the new millennium of my life, and I'm happy. Life wasn't easy as I've been through a lot of roller coasters, after all. And whatever is left now is a peaceful life that I want to establish.Ang huling misyon ko ay tapos na. Maayos na sina Melissa at Reeve sa bago nilang pamilya."Gabriel alway
Carmella Noise I can't sleep! Kanina pa ako hindi makatulog dahil sa ingay na galing sa labas. Hindi ito malakas, pero nakakabulabog ng utak. Iyong parang musika sa tainga mo at hindi maalis-alis ito. "My goodness! At sino naman ang nagpupukpok ng martilyo sa oras na ito!?" I looked at the time on the vintage wall clock. It's past twelve midnight. Baliw nalang siguro ang gagawa ng ganitong klaseng gawain sa dis-oras ng gabing ito. Kung sa Pinas ito, ay maiintindihan ko. Nasanay ako sa maiingay na traffic sa paligid. The penthouse where I was living for one month was in Makati. I was living in the center aisle of it, and I got used to all the rapid noises and busy life of living. Pero ito ngayon. Nasa countryside na ako nakatira at dapat sana ay ang ingay lang ng mga tipaklong at palaka ang maririnig ko sa gabi. Maliban na nga lang sa mga kalabaw sa kabilang bakod na hindi naman akin! Maiingay ang mga iyon! Lalo na ang mga lalaki. Parang nakikipagtalo sa mga babae tuwing gabi.
Brodie."I'm sorry to tell you, Brod, but you must return to Victoria as soon as possible. Your father is dying and wants to see you before it's too late," our family's lawyer, Atty Simone, is on the line."I'll be in first thing in the morning," I responded. Even though it's against my will, I have no choice. I need to go home."Okay. I will fetch you. Bye," Atty Simone ended the call.I came home that same date. I'm glad that I wasn't that far from Australia. I was visiting the company branch in New Zealand when I got the call from Atty Simone. It happened so fast. It seemed like a dream, but it was no longer a dream as reality hit me.Pumanaw si Papa at nakausap ako sa huling pagkakataon, at narinig ko ang huling testamento niya."Fuck. Damn." I gritted my teeth and held my breath when I accidentally hurt my hand."Shit." I wiggled my fingers, and they were all okay."That was close," I said, looking at Almond beside me. He wiggled his tail. I showed him the cut from my pointy fin
Carmella."Ugh! Konti nalang talaga at magiging bulalo na kayong lahat sa akin!" I let an air out, soaking in my own sweat."I swear I'm going to kill your boss. Aalis siya at iiwan kayong lahat na nakatuwang-wang sa buong paligid!? And worst, you animals ruined my backyard!" I screamed in expressed.Mooo! Mooo!Meow? Meow?Tumabi na si Smokey at naupo sa paanan ko. Pangatlong araw na ngayon, at kahit na mahimbing ang tulog ko dahil walang ingay sa gabi ay naiinis ako dahil sa nangyari sa likod ng bakuran ko.Walang available na builder. Lahat sila abala sa mga proyekto. Ang hardenero ko naman ay on leave. Sa susunod na buwan pa siya babalik para maglinis. At heto ako ngayon, pilit na inaayos ang mga halamang natira sa paligid."Ba't ba kasi iyan pa ang kinuha at binili mong lupa? Imagine, you have one hundred acres of land, Carmella. You don't even have an animals around except for the cats. Ni wala ka nga'ng aso sa paligid. Alam mo naman na venomous ang mga ahas diyaan 'di ba? Hind
Carmella."Oh my, God, multo!" Napaatras ako. Iyong tipong lumubas ang kaluluwa ko sa katawan at bumalik lang din."What?""Shit." I stood up, composed myself, and smiled a little bit."G-Good morning, Sir. Uhm, I-I'm here to see the owner of the farm. H-He's cows are eating my plants in my beautiful backyard, and now I have no plants left on that part. The cow wrecked my fences five days ago," I stammered.Eh, sino ba naman ang hindi mauutal sa kanya! Eh, mukha siyang maligno sa paningin ko ano. Utusan yata ang lalaking ito sa farm na ito.Hindi siya umimik at segundong pinagmasdan ako. Hindi yata ako naintindihan ng malignong ito."Oh God. I'm here to complain, okay!" tumaas na ang boses ko."Tell your boss that he needs to pay the damage! Your boss got thousands of hectares of land, but why the hell did those cows trespass on my property? Okay, I get it. Wala namang utak ang mga kalabaw ano. Kaya kasalanan talaga ito ng boss mo!""I don't if you don't understand me. Who cares! Jus
Carmella."What are you looking at? Talk!?" I squinted, "Ano 'to magtititigan nalang tayo hanggang umaga?"Hindi siya umimik. Nakalimutan ko. Hindi pala nakakaintindi ng tagalog ang taong ito. Ba't nga ba ginagawa niya ang normal na gawaing pang-umaga sa gabi? Iba ba ang paningin niya sa buwan? Araw na ba 'to?"Don't you dare make any noises. I'm going back to bed!" I pointed my finger at him and walked away.Mabilis kong pinaandar ang quad bike at gaya ng dati, nasa likod ko na ang pusa. Pinaharurot ko ito pabalik sa territoryo ko.I never realized I went out wearing only my evening dress. I have nothing inside except for my undies. I'm sure he saw what he need not meant to see. And the hell, I care! He can watch me. That's not a big deal.NAGISING AKO sa ingay ng iilang boses sa paligid. Pakiramdam ko ay astronaut ako ngayon. Lutaw kasi ang ulo ko. Kailangan ko ng kape.Before going out to check what was happening outside, I washed and fixed myself. I changed my clothes and combed
Carmella."Really? Are you sure about this, Daisy?""Yes, Miss Del Fiore. It's on lease for three years."I sighed. I can’t believe it! I didn't see this coming. Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko. Masyado akong kampante sa lahat, at hindi ko man lang binasa ang pinirmahan ko.This is why I don’t do business. It's a headache. The contract is too contradictive for me to understand. I'm not into that. I'm not good at understanding rules, primarily if they are written in legal forms. It's too complicated.Kung baril lang siguro ay kayang-kaya ko ito. Eh, sino ba naman ako? Kung nandito lang sana si Drake ay hindi ako mahihirapan. Pero wala ako sa Italya. Nandito ako sa isang bansa balot sa salitang Ingles at nag-iisa."But the good thing about this, Miss Del Fiore is the money. Wala ka naman sigurong pag-gagamitan sa lupa ano? Are you planning to do beef cows? Or milking? Or plowing the land into some crops?""No. Not really, Daisy. Wala akong alam sa pagtatanim. I just want to have a big la
Brodie.It's weird that she didn't come out after I finished everything. I did all her orders and requests. I covered the holes, fixed the fences, and planted the plants that she needed. It was my obligation anyway. It was written on the lease contract that anything that my animals damaged along her property is my obligation to cover.The electric fence alongside was set, too. I don't want my animals, whom she called 'polka dots', to wander around again in her yard. I felt terrible that my cows damaged most of her beautiful bush and flowers. And the only remedy I could think of is to replace them with new ones.The animals are good. The Angus beefy ones are pretty calm, except for the two male ones that I mixed together with the female dairy ones. And they're the ones that she named polka dots."This is very professional, Brodie. You will win again. I'm sure about that," Jarrod, my cousin, exclaimed while looking into my sculptor masterpiece.It has become my hobby at the moment. Asi
New BeginningAnastacia.Note: This is seven years later. The twins are now six years old.Binalot ko ang makapal na jacket sa katawan. Tumigil na ang ulan. Kailangan kong umakyat sa bubong kahit na hindi mabuti ang pakiramdam ko. Wala kong choice at kailangan ko ng gawin ito. Baka kasi mamaya ulit ay uulan na naman. Mas mabuting maagapan ko na ngayon.I need to climb up the roof to check the leak. The rainwater drips in Zev's bedroom. It's not that bad, but it really annoys me every time I hear the drip sound inside his room. It sounds frustrating, and my poor boy can't even complain. It hurts to the bones to see my children struggle along with me.Hindi man nila sinasabi sa akin ito, ay ramdam ko ito bilang isang ina. Naiinis ako at galit ako sa kung ano man ang sitwasyon meron ako ngayon. Wala akong ibang masisisi kung 'di ang sarili mismo."Mama? Aakyat ka?" Celestine Skye looked innocently at me, my sweet, beautiful baby."Yes, Skye. Get back inside. You will get wet, anak."Kin
Anastacia.Mama accepted it without knowing the entire truth about my secret. Only Tessie knows everything, and she promised me that she would never tell anyone about it.Bumalik na si Mama sa probinsya. Marami siyang ginawa para mapagaan ang lahat sa akin dito sa loob ng bahay. Babalik siya sa kabuwanan ko, at mananatili ng iilang linggo.May isang anak si Mama sa bago niya, pero malaki na ito. Nasa high school na si Neri. Mabait na bata at magalang. Malapit siya sa ama niya at nakakaingit ang closeness nila.I have no memories of my father. He left us when I was only five years old. Mama and he were never married. Since then, I haven’t seen him. The last I heard, he was doing well and living in Baguio with his five kids."Okay ka lang ba, Anastacia?"“Oo, okay lang.”Abala kaming pareho ni Kagawad Camilla. Siya ang kasama ko ngayon sa convention ng lungsod. Nasa Cagayan de Oro kami, at dalawang araw kaming mananatili rito dahil sa convention. Parte ito ng bagong proyekto na iniluns
Anastacia."Ano? Dalawang buwan!? Anong klaseng lalaki ba siya? Hindi pwede 'to, Anastacia! Babalik tayo doon. Kakalbuhin ko ang lalaking 'yon!""Ang galing naman niya! Pagkatapos siyang magpakasarap sa 'yo ay ganun na lang ba? Wala lang sa kanya ang lahat? Anong klaseng lalaki ba siya!? Pesti! Halika! Babalik tayo! Bilis!"Hinila niya ang paa ko at pinadyakan ko siya. Bumitaw siya at mabilis kong binalot ang kumot sa katawan. Umiiyak ako. Hindi hihinto ang luha sa mga mata ko dahil nasasaktan ako ngayon. Pinipilit kong magpakatatag, pero bakit ang hirap? Sinusubok ako ng tadhana at pakiramdam ko ay wala na akong pag asa sa lahat.I have no work, and I'm running out of money. What will I do next?"Anastacia…"Ramdam ko ang pag upo ni Tessie sa paanan. Minasahe niya ang paa ko, at tahimik siyang nakikinig sa hikbi ko.Promise, huli na ito. Bukas at sa mga susunod na araw ay ayaw ko ng umiyak. Nakakapagod umiyak. Nakakawalang gana sa buhay. Pero ganito naman talaga 'di ba? Kasalanan ko
Diezel.My eyebrow raised while listening to John. He's got less than twenty seconds before he fuck up. How the hell will he bring an investor to this project if he can't deliver his report properly? He can't even justify some of this. I'm not listening to him while I read his report. It's full of nonsense."Next!""B-But, Sir. I'm not yet done.""You're fired. Next!" I blurted out, fixing them with a hawk-like stare. When I locked eyes with them, they all averted their gaze."Damn it! Wala bang maayos na proposal sa inyong lahat? These reports are all boring! How will you bring a golden egg to the table if all your proposals are as boring and useless as shit!Tumayo ako at saka napabuntonghininga sa sarili. I need some air, or I could end up dismissing the entire team.Lumapit si Joel sa akin at bumulong."Your secretary is on the line. It's important, she said."I rolled my tongue, and Joel handed me the phone."Yes, Sharon?" I raised my eyebrows. "I'm not in a good mood already, S
Anastacia.Bago na ang lahat. Pinalitan niya ang lahat ng staff rito at hindi ko na kilala ang mga ito. Kahit pa ang gwardiya ng gusali ay bago.What the heck? Talaga bang ginawa niya ito dahil ayaw na niya akong makitang muli?Shit.Hindi ko na tuloy alam kung tama pa ba itong ginagawa ko ngayon. Nanginig tuloy ang tuhod ko, at peke akong ngumiti sa babae rito sa front desk. Nasa likod ko naman si Tessie."Yes, Ma'am. How can I help you?" She smiled, but it was obviously a fake smile. She looked at me from head to toe and back again."Uhm, I would like to see Mr. Dennis Ezequil Mondragon?" Kumurap kurap ako. Nilakasan ko na ang loob."Oh? Do you happen to have an appointment with him, Ma'am?""A-Appointment? Wala, Miss."Nawala ang ngiti ko. Inaasahan ko na ito. Kilala ko si Diezel, at kahit noon pa ay hindi siya basta-basta tumatangap ng bisita.Ang buong akala ko ay nandito pa sina Kimmy at Dora. Pero wala na. Ano kaya ang nangyari sa kanila? Nilipat din ba sila ni Diezel?"Sorry
Anastacia."Ano!? Buntis ka? At dalawa pa talaga? Shit!"Parang putok ang boses ni Tessie sa tainga ko. Sinabi ko na sa kanya. Wala akong ibang mapagsasabihan at siya lang din."At ano ang plano mo, aber?"Namaywang siya at seryoso akong tinitigan. Umiwas ako at nagpabalik-balik ang lakad ko sa harapan niya."Hindi ko alam. Nalilito ako, Tessie." Kinagat ko na ang pang-ibabang labi."No, Anastacia. I know what you're thinking. Hindi puwede 'to! Kailangan mong sabihin sa kanya! Sasabihin mo at sasamahan kita!"I paused and inhaled deeply."Paano kung ayaw niya? Paano kung ipagtabuyan niya ako, Tessie?"Takot ako, at hindi ako handa kung sakaling magkikita kami ulit. Hindi na kailanman sumagi sa isip ko na makipagkita sa kanya.After he abandoned me, I erased his existence. I hated him so much! I want to forget him. At kung kailan ay okay na ako at handa na ang puso kong makalimot sa lahat, ay saka naman dumating ang problemang ito.Talagang hindi ko na makakalimutan si Diezel dahil bu
Diezel.What are the odds? I'm so effing bored. I raked my hair in exasperation, feeling so frustrated.I'm back here in the business after Italy. I went to Italy to forget Anastacia, but damn it. I couldn't get over with her. I couldn't forget her. Every time I shut my eyes I always see her face, crying, pleading and I feel effing guilty about it.Kung hindi ako pinigilan ni Joel ng gabing iyon, ay tiyak kasama ko na si Anastacia ngayon.I was determined to leave because it was the right thing to do, even if my heart said no. I hesitated and briefly considered going back to Anastacia, but Joel stopped me. He told me there was no hope for me and Anastacia. If I chose her, it would only complicate everything.Damn him! Damn them!They think my life is a game, right? Eff them all.Yes, I have set my goals. I want to build a perfect family with an Italian heritage. That's the ideal gift I could give to my mother and to the whole clan. The Elders are hoping that I will produce an Italian
Anastacia.I was crying the entire time I was inside my bedroom. After he dropped me off yesterday morning, I never went out. I have no work anymore. I've finished all my work at Diezel's company, and I have no plans to look for other work at the moment. Ang buong akala ko pagkatapos ng masasarap na gabi namin ay iisa na kami. Nagkamali ako, dahil heto umiiyak ako ng wala sa sarili.I was hoping that he would come back. I never went to bed last night. I was waiting for him the entire time. My cell phone was not even turned off. I was waiting for Diezel to call me, but it never happened.Siguro nalilito siya at nag iisip? Iyan lang ang iniisip ko, na baka hindi siya nakatawag agad dahil nag iisip pa siya. Pero mukhang wala na yata, dahil dalawang araw na ngayon simula nang huli ko siyang nakita, at wala pa rin akong balita sa kanya.The two days have suddenly passed into seven days, and still, Diezel has not even contacted me.Mataas ang pride ko, pero sobra na ito. Ganun na lang ba
Anastacia.Naimulat ko ang mga mata at wala na si Diezel sa tabi ko. Bahagyang nakabukas ang bintana. Maliwanag na, pero maaga pa naman. Humikab ako at saka napangiti nang maalala ang ginawa namin. Nakakataba ng puso iyon, dahil ramdam ko na mahal ako ni Diezel sa kabila ng lahat. Gusto niya ako!Tumayo ako para hanapin siya. Lumabas ako ng kwarto niya at bumaba ng hagdanan."Diezel?" I called him, and my eyes surveyed his place as I descended the stairs.This place is massive. This is one of Diezel's place in town. "I'm here, Anastacia." He calls back.Binilisan ko ang hakbang. Nasa kabilang banda siya, sa baba, sa mismong opisina niya.Ang bahay na ito ni Diezel ay malapit lang sa opisina ng kompanya. Madalas na ako rito dahil na rin sa trabaho. Alam ko na ang lahat sa kanya, at pinagkakatiwalaan niya ako sa lahat ng bagay.Nakabukas nga naman ang pinto ng opisina niya rito, at nakaupo siya nang pumasok ako. Parang tinatapos lang ang ginagawa."Nagtatrabaho ka?" Nangunot ang noo