Back to the about-to-cry Sarah slapping me . . .
I was stupified about what happened.
I just did not know what got into me.
I am still in a trance and melancholy from being relieved with that very satisfying love making with Sarah.
But it was shortlived due to a stinging pain on my cheek.
I don't know.
I just can't control what happened.
But I know for sure that I love Sarah.
She is everything I could ask for.
So I don't want to lose her.
Hence, I jokingly said, 'I was just messing with you babe, I'm sorry.'
Then she was pinching his body all over -
'Huh? Messing around?
Do you think that's funny?
Do you think that because I'm head over heels for you that you can just play me like that?
Huh?'
She was really angry, but I knows her weakness.
I hurriedly hugged her, really tight.
And I assured her, 'I'm really sorry babe, I won't do it again. It's just that I th
Yes, Sarah is my first official girlfriend.We started communicating when we were both 2nd year college students.Sarah have grown to be the ideal girl that I wanted.If I had to make a pyramid of the qualities I want in a girlfriend, she has most of it.IntelligentLovelySimpleSexyHas Huge boobsSomewhat RichEducatedI couldn't ask for more!Sarah has been very patient with me as well.Though I don't exactly know what she sees in me, I feel very happy whenever we communicate.After communicating for 6 months, Sarah and I decided to see each other in the city.I am studying Architecture in the university in our province while she is taking Pharmacy in the city.Even though I had a good life and education from elementary years, our family business got bankrupt by the time I had to go to high school so we had to go some place else which is the province I am currently liv
Taken aback by what she said, I can only scratch my head while saying,'Uhm, I did not bring any condoms with me.''No, it's not about that. Think about it clearly. What did you not ask me yet?', she sharply said.'Oh, so I will need to ask something huh, Uhm, you mean, can we make love tonight?', I confusingly replied.She angrily said, 'You are being dumb, just repress your lust for a bit, I don't want us to be just friends with benefits you know.''HAHAHA, I get it now! You mean, 'Can we do it? I will take responsibility.', while I showed a responsible look.She kept quiet while staring daggers at me.'Oh that, I'm sorry babe, but - Can you be my girlfriend?' I asked.'How can you be so slow? Yep, it will be official, we are in a relationship now.', she scolded.'I'm sorry babe, my mind really is slow when it comes to us having this sexy time, it's like time moves very slowly, and I mean it in a good way.Espec
'Babe, Let's do it.'And the magic words have been said.It immediately perked up my ears and I was like a beast that was about to pounce on a prey.When I was about to go up to her body and kiss her lips, she shyly said,'Please be gentle, okay?'I nodded like a child, and continued to make a kissing motion.Just when my lips are about to touch her lips she put her finger in my lips to stop me and said,'Babe, won't you use a condom?'I confusingly replied, 'Do I need to? I don't have one with me and I can just withdraw before I'm about to explode right?'She was a bit hesitant but she still consented, 'Okay, I trust you.'During this time, I surmised that Sarah is the best for me, she trusts me very much.I know that if ever that this will result to pregnancy, it will very well affect our studies and possibly start a family at such young ages, so it warms my heart to know that she trusts me as much.
'Life is truely full of amazing things, and I thank God for everything I have experienced and seen so far from all of his creations', I sighed.I am riding the bus home and it's still early in the morning.Although it's rush hour in the city, I felt very tranquil and with headphones covering my ears, it made me even more undisturbed.I texted Sarah that I am already on the bus and said on the next text,'Babe, I miss you already, but I promise that we'll see each other soon.''I will wait for you (with kiss emoji)', she replied.Wearing a very warm smile, I fell asleep on the bus and got back home safely.'Babe, where are you? Can you go to one of the study huts in Mt. Spring College? I had my cousin bring my gift for you. I'm really sorry if I was not able to go on vacation in the Island, my budget is really tight. I will make it up to you soon'(Sent 5:30 PM) From: Shaun'It's fine babe, I know we'll have more time later
'Are you not afraid of me getting pregnant?'I am not able to say anything back to her.Why not let me indulge in this satisfying feeling first before saying something like that?I know that I assured that I will take responsibility if ever that happens but I can't really help but be shocked for a second there.I said, 'You said it was okay even if I were to finish inside. I really want to try doing it inside and it's really worth it.Shooting it inside you babe is the most satisfying thing ever.'Sarah also agreed that being filled up inside is also a very weird and satisfying thing for her.She added that she's just worried that the calendar method will not work.Both of our brains almost ran simultaneously and we are confident that with Sarah's regular menstruation cycles, it would really be safe.With that being agreed, we quickly put our clothes on.We kissed and I teasingly asked for another round.Sa
I did not receive a reply from Sarah during that day.Calling her is also out of the question because I thought I would not be able to handle whatever reaction she may have.Painful, it really is.One week passed and surely, she should've received that text now.My heart is aching until this day.It's hard to accept a break up that stems from fear.More so that I have yet to hear from Sarah.I can't take it anymore. I have to call her.Ring!'Sorry, the number you have dialed is unavailable. Please check the number and dial again'Dialed for the 2nd time, 3rd, 4th, 5th -It seems she really got it and chose to ignore me instead.I bet she blocked my phone number.Well, it's to late for regrets now. I had to.I'm sure that all will be better for the two of us.I hope that she's coping fine.And I should stop thinking about her now, as I remember hearing someone said -
A month passed . . .I sorted out my documents and made sure that I'm ready to take on the new life I'm chasing.My plan was to head to the city and do walk-in applications for any architectural companies available.It has been a few months since I checked my emails because I can't afford to feel disappointed again and again in the past.But this time is different, I'm ready so it is time to accept the failure of the past look forward for a better future.I went to one of the internet shops near me and immediately rented a PC.As I was scrolling through my email page, I saw something I almost can't believe –From: Vulcan DesignsRE: Employment Program Invitation'Congratulations Mr. Shaun East! You are invited to be one of the prospects for our in-house employment program. Please reach out to us within 30 days after receiving this email.'Vulcan DesignsLub dub lub dub lub dubMy heart th
Time flies really fast.It has been a month since my drunken confession to Flor.Flor took it as a very surprising thing as she only feels that we should just be friends in the meantime.Yes, Flor did not reject or accept!She asked for some time to clear her mind and heart. I did not pursue the topic as I can also imagine that I am being hasty to have confessed that soon.Nonetheless, Flor and I remained very close friends and it seemed we became closer.Lynn on the other hand felt that I am too slow and said that if I want, she can help me win her heart completely.I grabbed the opportunity of possibly winning Flor's heart with Lynn's assistance.As they say - effective courting is smoother with a wingman beside you which in this case, even better, a wing woman.I don't want to let Flor slip away as I strongly feel that she is really the one for me.So, I took every chance I get in spending time with her.
After leaving my place, the trio went back to the hotel and waited for Dr. Rose.************‘Big Sis. Do you know the aftermath of your selfish action? I specifically told you to not let him see you. I thought that he was living normally in the province with his family but it turns out that he turned out worse. Why did you do it? You have ruined a brilliant man’s life.’‘I am really sorry Rose. I just can’t help myself. I missed him so much. When I contacted him, he told me that he left. I said that I want to see him one last time and he agreed for it to be the last time; not just for me, but for everyone as well.I went back to my house in the province and we met. He felt like a different person during that time but I thought that he was already fine. We spent the night together. He was really sexually aggressive but I let him do anything to me as I have caused him too much pain. It was the least that I could do.Wh
‘I will try to contact the close friends of Architect Shaun and see if they can help. Something must have happened that led him to be this way. His friends are powerful and well connected so we might be able to help him. I will be back in the next few days when I hear from them. I will not disturb him for now as he might go hysterical if I insist on having a conversation.’, Dianne promised my auntie.7 PM of the same day . . .Ring! Ring! Ring!‘Hi, Big Sis Sarah. It has been a long time. I have news about Architect Shaun. He is currently on the Island where both of you grew up. He’s not what he used to be. It’s a long story and we will need professional help.’‘I see. Thank you, Dianne. I will think about it. (Dada!)’‘Oh. Is that little Sharah speaking? How are you little bunny?’‘She’s a bit hungry so I will have to feed her first. Thank you again!’&lsqu
‘Dummy! Come back! I can help you.’ – Rose 4444Rose waited for a reply but nothing came.After my absence, she felt uneasy. Most of her time in the city was always spent at work and with me but that suddenly changed.The next week . . .Ring! Ring! Ring!‘Dr. Rose Mitzva speaking.’‘Hi! This is Blaire of Vans Publishing. We were not able to reach Mr. East for a week now. We called you today because he put your name and contact information for emergency purposes.’‘I see. How would I be of service?’‘We would like to inform him that the book tour for his best-selling novel will commence next week. We understand that he is busy but not returning our calls and texts will affect our plans and possibly his book’s fanbase.’‘I will try to let him know Blaire. He is currently on a writer’s retreat; he might be on to a new book or a sequel of so
‘What’s going on with this guy? He really is bipolar. But what triggered this episode? And how will I be able to calm him down? Seems like a back hug will do, but do I need to do this till morning?’, she asked herself after calming herself from shock.Rose thought of all the possible things to do to calm me down. After an hour of hugging, she felt her arms feeling stiff.She already contemplated my actions and that led her to believe that my current episode is sexual.1 AMShe slowly took her arms off me and observed how I acted.My shivering slowly came back but it did not get violent like before. She wanted to find my blanket to cover her ample breasts but I suddenly faced her and dived my face in between her two soft huge mounds while shivering.After my situating my face, the shivering stopped.‘Wait. This is somehow the same in the situations in his book. Is he re-enacting what happened in the past with hi
‘No worries Big Sis. Please remember what I advised you. Don’t ever let him see you.’Rose’s presence seemed to be a good thing for me as time passed by. It is rather an unworldly feeling to have someone care for you without being romantically involved. She felt like family.Her consultation clinic became a success with a lot of partnerships asking her to open other branches.It is really bizarre since she chose to live next door. I am even inclined to think that some cosmic energy urged the owner of the house beside me to sell it at the last minute when Rose planned to find a home in a different subdivision.Good things keep coming after my suicidal attempt. I thought that living the life of an author will need arduous time and patience before getting recognized but my book turned out to be better than I expected.The rest of my days, weeks, and months were just a cycle of polishing my book writing skills, spending time wit
My fingers caressed the laptop keys in preparation and pressed the letters SEX IS YOU.I smirked when I typed the title.‘’Sex is You’ huh? I am intrigued. I will now leave you be. You can choose to write anywhere that gives you peace and quiet.’, Rose commented when she saw what I typed on the laptop.I did not reply right away as I got lost in the memory where Ellen and I were taking a shower together. In this memory, she was behind me and wanted me to guess what she finger-wrote on my back.Yes. She wrote something on my back right after I asked her why she thinks about me. Her reply was the movements of her fingers that completed the words SEX IS YOU.I suddenly picked up the laptop and did not say anything to Rose.With quick steps, I went inside the room.*********‘I knew it! His problem is more severe than I thought. Hopefully, he will find peace after confronting his past.’, Rose sai
‘Oh, I’m sorry Rose. I was just kidding. I will be in my room answering this one. I will go out once I finish.’, I said while walking towards my room.After answering the questionnaire she gave, I got out of the room and passed the paper to her.‘Rose. I am just curious, am I your sole focus right now? I mean, did Ellen tell you to prioritize my well-being rather than attending to other clients or patients of yours?’‘I know that you will come to ask this. As per my promise of transparency, it is my own decision to focus on your case. Actually, I planned to tell you this in the next few days but I guess I can say it now. I plan to build my clinic in your country. As for the reason why that is, I wanted to make sure that you can consult me anytime.Believe me or not, I find that your problem is way too complicated. The reason why it is hard for me to formulate the therapy is that you are very self-conscious and look norm
‘Subject # 12 – Shaun East – Possible multi-personality > likely – possible bipolar > likely – possible Hypersexual Disorder> very likely – possible borderline personality disorder > likely.’‘Why are you reading that! Give me that!’I got startled when I got shouted at by the always soft Rose. She was like a different person when she got angry.‘I am really sorry Rose. I did not mean to. I only saw the first page, nothing else. Here you go!’, I apologetically said while handing her the notebook.‘I am sorry for my sudden outburst as well. You are my patient and you should not see what I wrote in here. Please go back to your room and rest. I just suddenly remembered that I left the notebook so it’s my fault. I apologize.’, she replied softly.********‘Hi, Big Sister Ellen. This guy is very interesting. You are right, we really are so much a
‘Lastly, you mentioned that there were 6 women who made a significant influence in your life namely: Ellen, Alesandra, Sarah, Flor, Dianne, and Lynn; if all things are in perfect circumstance, who would you choose to spend your life with?’, Rose asked.I got lost when I thought about the answer. All of these women brought different colors to my life.‘I can’t give you a definite answer. They are all very different. But one thing in common is that they left me.’‘Thank you for answering honestly Shaun. For now, just relax and I will contact Vulcan to arrange things pertaining to your work. As we agreed on, you will be with me for a month for observation and therapy.’. she said monotonously.‘Is it really okay if I stay at your house? I mean, I can be in a hotel for the duration of the therapy. Do you really think that Reid will still be threatened by a loser like me?’‘People are complex be