It was Sunday. My cousins from my father's side would usually visit our house during this day. Mommy has declared Sunday a family day so we really have no choice but to gather here in our house.
"Felice! Why aren't you dressed yet?! You cousins will arrive soon!" I heard mom yelling.
I almost rolled my eyes and closed the book that I was reading. I stood up and went inside the house. Mommy is with our maids in the garden, preparing our lunch. It's still quarter to 9, but it has been our tradition to go to mass every Sunday with the whole clan.
I went to the kitchen and just grabbed a sandwich before heading back to my room. I sat on my bed and ate my sandwich first.
I got my phone and messaged my cousin, Karrie. We're just a small clan actually. Daddy has two more siblings, a girl and a boy. Both of my tito and tita has two children each while daddy has me only.
Karrie is my closest since we're almost of the same age and we're the only girls in the family. She has been my best friend, my only friend actually. I'm also close with my guy cousins, but not as much because I can't relate with them.
"Are you on your way?" I asked Karrie when I picked up her call. She called me right after I messaged her.
"Yep! Just a few blocks away, dear."
"Hmmkay. I'm going to take a bath first."
"Yeah sure! Don't worry about your outfit, Imma pick it up for you." I could imagine her winking. I let out a soft laugh.
"Okay. I'm hanging up. Bye!" I ended the call and finished my sandwich as well. I just left the door unlock before I went inside the bathroom.
I was in the middle of scrubbing my body when I heard my door opened.
"Fel, Imma rummage your closet!" I heard Karrie shout. I laughed and turned off the shower.
"Make sure to put it back in place! Mom's gonna kill me!" I shouted back, but I just heard her laugh. I shook my head and turned on the shower again.
I finished bathing and did my morning routine. I was wearing a robe when I get out of the bathroom.
"Here!" Karrie said, pointing at the dress on my bed. There was also a pair of wedge heels on the floor.
"Aww, you're so sweet, Kar!" I said and hugged her. She just rolled her eyes and got the dress.
"C'mon, try it on!" She pushed me to my walk in closet. I just shook my head and rolled my eyes.
I never doubted Karrie's taste in fashion. As expected, the dress looked good and it fitted me well. I didn't even recognize it. I never thought I had this dress before. Maybe a gift from mom that I never got the chance to wore.
"You look gorg!" Karrie screamed excitedly. I just laughed at her.
"Let's go down! The oldies are getting mad already!" Both of us laughed.
We were complete during the mass. Each family brought one car, but Karrie rode with us. We arrived just in time for the mass. It lasted for one and a half hour, I guess?
We left the church at around 11:30 already. My guy cousins talked about having golf this afternoon. Even Karrie invited me, but I'm too lazy to come. Plus, I don't know how to play golf.
We arrived at the house at exactly twelve. Our lunch was already prepared in the garden, just like what mommy instructed our house helps.
"C'mon, can we eat already? My stomach's grumbling already," Karrie exclaimed.
"You're always hungry, you fatty!" Kuya Josh, our other cousin, teased her. Karrie raised her middle finger at them. The guys just laughed and teased her more.
Oh god.
"That's enough, let's eat already," daddy said. Karrie almost clapped her hands and immediately went to her seat. I just laughed at her reaction.
Kuya Josh's right. She's always hungry.
We ate lunch peacefully. The oldies were talking business stuff as usual. Our other guy cousins were having their small talks as well. Karrie and I just focused on our food.
When lunch was over, the oldies went to the gazeebo to play chess and have some tea, while my other cousins went to the entertainment room to play video games. Karrie and I were left in the living room.
"What are we going to watch?" I asked her as I turned on the TV. She snatched the remote from me and browsed through Netflix.
"Hmm. I want chic flick for today," she said and browsed some movies.
We prefer watching movies than series because we easily get bored. I just let her choose the movie and went to the kitchen to get some popcorn.
When I came back, the movie was already starting. It was Kissing Booth. I placed the popcorn on the center table and sat beside her.
"Oh, Noah's so hot!" I rolled my eyes at what she said.
"Every guy who has abs is hot for you," I told her. She just glared at me. I chuckled and shook my head.
All through out the movie, Karrie kept on screaming about how hot the leading guy is. I was just shaking my head at her reaction.
"Your phone's vibrating," I told her when I felt something moving in between us. Her forehead creased and reached for it.
I stuffed my mouth with popcorn. I looked at my cousin who was smiling from ear to ear while staring at her cellphone. She was even biting her lips to suppress the smile on her face.
My brows raised at her.
"What's with the smile?" I asked her. She immediately turned to me, her smile widened.
"What? You look like a psycho," I told her, but she just laugh and giggled.
"Seriously, Kar?" I asked once again. This time, she heaved a sigh and sat properly. My forehead creased.
"Hmm have you experience those butterfly in the stomach like what they describe in books and movies?" I could see her eyes twinkling as she asked those. I shook my head and stared at her confusingly.
She giggled and smiled even more.
"Fel, I think I'm in love…" she almost whispered the last word. My jaw dropped and my eyes widened.
"Oh my god, with whom?!"
The smile never left her face.
"Hmm with some jock in my school. He's just so adorable! And hot! And gentleman! And ideal! Fel, oh my god! I could still remember the feeling when our eyes first met! Then my heart started beating so fast! Every time he's near, I feel so shy and embarrassed. Then my heart would beat so fast again! Fel, I'm really in love!" she exclaimed and giggled excitingly.
I wanted to smile and be happy for her too, but what she said struck the hell out of me. I stared at her for a second.
I held my left chest.
"Hey, you okay?" I almost jumped in shock when she touched my arm. I sat properly and cleared my throat.
I forced a smile.
"Uhm yeah!" I tried to make my voice as lively as hers. She just stared at me fora second before nodding and shifting her glance to the TV again.
I slumped my back on the couch's back.
Shit.
"Karrie…uhm I have to ask something?" I called.
"Hmm? What is it?" she asked back, not looking at me. I heaves a sigh and swallowed the lump in my throat.
"Uhm do you feel odd when you're with him? I mean like you feel distracted and all?" I could see how she stopped texting when she hears my question.
She turned to me with her forehead creased.
"Hmm yeah, somehow. I remember I would always run away whenever I see him coming. I don't know. Feels weird." She shrugged and turned away.
My mouth parted.
It's impossible. I was just embarrassed because he caught me sleeping on his class the first day we met! That's just it! I know it when I like someone. I should know! Why am I making it a big deal?!
I was becoming weirder ever since I had that talk with Karrie. Oh my god. I have a crush on my History Prof!I was already uncomfortable around him before, but it got worse now. I couldn't even look at him anymore! That realization made me more uncomfortable.I gulped when I saw him from my pheriperal view. It was our first quiz and I hate it because he keeps on walking around! I feel like my heart will go out of my chest whenever he stops beside me! Why does he even need to stop?!Ugh! Felice, you need to concentrate! Oh my gosh. This is a quiz!"Five minutes left."My eyes widened when I heard his voice. I quickly looked at my test paper and I still have three more question
I was not in a good disposition when I went back to the student council office. I could even still feel my face burning. I almost finished my iced milo on the way here.I slumped my back on my swivel chair and put my milo on the desk. I covered my face with my two hands and shouted on it.Oh my gosh, Felice! Oh my gosh! I don't think I can still have a face to show him after that! I know it was an accident, but heck! I could already picture my embarrassing face!Why the heck did that happened?! Why are you so clumsy, Felice! Ugh! This is so frustrating!I had to almost bury my face on my desk just to get that scenario out of my head. I didn't know for how long did I stay in that position. I just sat properly when I
I wasn't moving the whole ride. I kept on cursing the turtle like traffic. We were almost not moving! The heck! It's so awkward already!I heaved a sigh and sat properly.I swallowed the lump in my throat and bit my lip. Gosh. I could almost hear the crickets in his car.I just focused my eyes on the window.I took a deep sigh and slightly hugged myself because the aircon of his car was so strong.I bit my lip and just kept my head down."Are you cold? You can use my jacket. Here…"I almost jumped on my seat when he handed me his jacket. I gulped and gave him a small smile.
My hands were shaking as I affixed my signature on it. I closed the folder after and stared at it for some seconds.I bit my lip and took a deep sigh. Oh come on, Felice. You're just gonna give this to him. For god's sake calm down! I clenched my fist and swallowed the lump in my throat.I sighed and stood. I fixed the folder and went out of the office. I walked to the Arts and Letters building. The faculty was just on the ground floor so, I wasn't stuck with the bulk of people waiting for the elevator.I took another sigh before I knocked and opened the faculty's door. I sighed and slowly enteered the room. I gulped when no one was there.My forehead creased and finally entered the room. I didn't know where Sir Greg's table so I had to search for his name on the nameplates on the table."Miss Lemuel?" I almost jumped in shocked when I heard that voice.My eyes widened and I immediately looked at my side. There
"Are you okay?" I heard Bran asked.I sighed and gave him a small smile."Yeah, don't mind me," I said and focused on my food again.We were in his favorite french restaurant. And ever since what I saw in the parking, I wasn't really in the mood.I just feel sorry for Bran. Sure, he's annoying, but he asked me out politely and the least thing that I could do is to actually enjoy and treat him well. But I just cannot force myself bring back my mood.Damn, Felice. What the hell is happening with you? So what if he's with someone? So what?"Hey, you really okay?" Bran asked again. I sighed and looked at him apologetically."I'm sorry, but can I go already? I'm really not feeling well." I bit my lip as I said that.I saw his face saddened, but he still managed to give me a small smile."Tss. Of course. But then, you'll have to eat with me again." I almost rolled my eyes, but in the e
The next day, my blockmates were busy discussing our assigned readings for the day. We will have our recit for History again, so everyone was anxious.I sighed and kept my head down. I focused on my readings. I read these last night, so I was just reviewing it already. I also had my notes already for the important details.I closed my eyes and recited the keypoints in my head.I was at that state when I heard the door opened. I immediately opened my eyes and I saw Sir Greg in front of the class already. I sighed and closed my notebook."Good morning, class. Beadle, your index cards please." Our beadle went to him and handed our index cards.I sat properly when he started shuffling the cards. I read this, but I'm not that confident yet.I pressed my lips togethe"First one would be... Lemuel, Felice." I gulped when I heard my name.Fuck. Really, first?DamI took a deep sigh and compos
I didn't know what to say nor how to react! How the hell did my parents know about Sir Greg? What's their business?!"Let's eat?" Mommy urged. I smiled awkwardly.
“Mom, I’m going already! I’ll be late if I’ll wait for you!”I was half shouting already as I ran down our grand staircase. Mommy was in the kitchen, making sandwiches. Well, I’d like to have some because her sandwiches are the best, but then I am super late with my first class already.“You sure you don’t want the sandwich?” I can hear her giggling while saying those. I pouted.“Nope!” And I ran outside the house already.Our driver was already opening the door for me, so I just hopped in immediately. I heaved a sigh and rested my back on the backrest. I closed my eyes and placed my bag beside me then I plugged my air pods and played it on full volume.
All my life, I have been trained to be the best. I was trained to always follow the norm, the standard. I was little miss perfect. They turned me into one, and I had no choice but to be one. I didn’t have much freedom growing up because there were a lot of expectations from me. They were all watching me. I couldn’t move freely because every move that In make, they will always have a say about it. When college and Gregory came, that’s when I first got a taste of my freedom. It was forbidden, but every time we go out on our own, I just felt so free. I felt like I was spreading my wings and flying to wherever I want to go. I was out of the limelight. No one was giving a fuck about what I do and no one was judging me from head to toe. But then that freedom with Gregory has its perils. I was so much ready to fight for him, but it turned out that he was not worth to fight for. Greg is my first love and my first heartbreak. What he did to me and to my family was just so much that I couldn’t
“They will announce you already as the new CEO, hija, at the gala.” My mother said while we were in the living room. It has been days since that meeting with the family and currently, we are preparing for our departure two days from now. I just gave her a smile. “I know, Mom,” I answered before looking back at my laptop where I am reconnecting with my former boss and Flannel’s requirements for school next academic year. “Alright, you should bring Flannel to our designer, then. We need to look gorgeous in the gala, hija,” she said while smiling from ear to ear. I just rolled my eyes and nodded at her. I went back to making my Flannel’s requirements again. She didn’t bother me anyway. She just stood and went to my dad’s office. I shrugged and continued what I was doing. I want to finish everything before our flight to the US, so all I would think about once we get there will be just the house where my parents will be staying and how I will get back to work again. I was lucky enough b
I honestly don’t know if it is the right time to do this meeting with the family because of what is happening in the family, but then we have no choice as we were running out of time already. We need to do this now since we also need to go back to the US already. I don’t know but, I just felt like I needed to get away from this all ready for me to start over again. “Are you ready?” Mommy asked again when we were getting out of the car in front of the building. I looked around the lobby and saw that there were a lot of employees eyeing us. Mommy was walking with her head up. I was beside her and we were walking side by side as we went to the elevator. A lot of guards were with us. I didn’t even know why Mommy brought these guards with us. I mean, it's not as if we are going to war here, you know. Tsk. I shook my head and just walked with her though. When we reached the office, Atty. Lockheart was already there, waiting for us. Mom went immediately to our lawyer."How's your paper?"
Everything was chaotic. We were the talk of the business world for I think weeks. Yes, the issue was that long. Aside from the chaos outside, we also had inside fights of course, but then unlike before, Mommy and I didn't make Flannel available to any of our relatives. They can lash at us all they want but they are not touching my daughter.I've heard the worst things from them. They had their presscon and we just stayed silent because we didn't want this to grow like wildfire. May they want to? But then I won't give them their satisfaction. The important thing is that my daughter knows my truth and I have already explained to her what happened and why this is happening. It took me a lot of courage, but I was just so blessed that she was able to understand and that she didn't make it hard for me to explain. She understands why I needed to do it for her and she also understands why she cannot see her father yet. It's been four weeks and during those times, I did nothing but make sure
"Let's go, Felice!' I wasn't able to say anything and I just let my mother dragged me out of that cafe already. I was still so stunned because of what happened. My mom was ranting while we were on the way to the car. My daughter was asking me questions but I couldn't answer them because I was still so preoccupied with what happened. All the things that my mother was saying in the car were like air that passed by me. I couldn’t comprehend what they were saying and I felt like I was floating and everything around was just background noise. All the way to our house, I was just staring at outside blankly. I couldn’t believe what just happened earlier. Everything was chaotic when we got home! I was so shocked to see a lot of reporters outside our village and even outside our house. Shit. What the hell is happening?! “Get Flannel inside now! Secure everything inside and outside the village, am I clear?” I slumped my back on the couch. I saw Maia getting Flannel out of the living room, w
“Shall we talk about our setup, then?” I asked Greg as I watched him looking at Flannel who was enjoying her ice cream. He has been silent for the last few minutes that we were here. I sighed again and just looked at him. I saw him gulp and then he cleared his throat. "Uhh, yeah…" he said and looked away. I raised a brow on him. I don't know why he couldn't look at me, to be honest. I just didn't dwell on it and started talking. "We will be going back to the States," I started. That's when I got his attention. His eyes widened and looked at me confusingly. "What?" he asked unbelievably. I sighed. "You know that Flannel's school is in there and my decision in managing the company remotely is final, so we will really need to go home, Gregory. Plus, my parents are going with us, too."I saw how his lips parted when I said that. He gasped hard. "But what about me, Felice? How can I be with my daughter?"I let out a sigh again. "That is why we need to talk about it. We can have an a
“Are you ready?” Maia asked my daughter as she was getting her ready for later. “Yes, I am! I am!” she said excitedly. I quickly avoided her gaze. We were on the couch in the living room and I was watching her as she was getting dressed by Maia. She was wearing a pink dress and cute white doll shoes. She looked like a princess twirling around. I was staring at my daughter who was all smiles already. I couldn’t look at her. My heart felt like it was about to go out of my chest already. I don’t know what to feel. My body was trembling already and I could feel the cold embracing my whole body. I took a deep breath again, trying to calm myself. I closed my eyes for a bit. “Felice,” I froze on my feet when I heard my mom calling me. I let out a sigh before slowly turning to her. “Mom,” I called. She gave me a different kind of look. I couldn’t tell what she was trying to tell me. I find it hard to read her face at that moment. In the end, she gave me a small smile. She then went ne
Ever since the incident five years ago, I have always taught myself to be very careful of the decisions that I will be making in the future. Being careful means choosing whom to be with. When I gave birth to Flannel, I vowed to myself that I will never be near my relatives again and I will never introduce her to Greg. But really, life is just so unpredictable, huh. I mean, just when I didn't want to come back to the Philippines when my father got sick leaving me with no choice but to come back anyway. Then, I was able to fix my family which I thought to be so impossible already. Now, I am just not sure if I am willing to let destiny decide whether I should let Flannel meet her father. I don't know. I am just so confused right now. "Felice…" Maia called. I closed my eyes and covered my face with both my arms. I bit my lip and looked down. I was on my bed in an indian-sitting position. My head was aching and my mind was haywire. I couldn't think straight, honestly. Flannel was with
After that exhausting meeting and commotion, I went home to our mansion already. We were supposed to have a meeting in the afternoon, but after all the drama, I just couldn't take it anymore. I needed to rest already and I needed to relax first. I needed to see my daughter. She's the only one that could calm me now, to be honest. I sighed and closed my eyes. I took a deep breath before going out of the car. I held onto my shoulder bag and went inside our house. It was already 3 in the afternoon and the living room was so quiet. It made me wonder then if Flannel is taking a nap or something. All I saw were our helpers. They were doing their chores. I sighed and decided to go up already. I went to my room but it was empty. I was about to go to Flannel's room. When I bumped into Mommy on the way there. I immediately arched my brow on her. "Mom, is Flannel sleeping?" I asked but instead of answering she hurriedly went to me and held both of my shoulders. "Oh god, what happened?! Are y