I didn't know that there will be a day where i won't like going out even just outside my room but I forced myself.The School Director told me that i should be in her office at 7:00 in the morning but i found myself three in the morning rushing myself to get ready just to get to there earlier without anyone knowing.Ada didn't have the time to question me the next day about why i came back with the school director and with the head mistress at kung bakit wala kaming punishment gayong naabutan kami ng curfew sa labas ng mga room namin.I know she'll ask right away but then she's out the next day dahil my group meeting daw sila tungkol sa isang project.I break two records this time,my usual 5:00 am get up and this thing about the school that Ada still didn't know.When I get in to the building and to the last floor where the Director's office are placed I didn't bother to turn on the lights.I used my flashlight to see where I am going.Ada
I can only imagine my mom getting married again.I mean,is that okay.She's still married to my father.Well,yes Azazel it wasn't okay until they got an annulment first...So Ansel will be the other man?But... that's the bad guy in books.Though my impression of him is ..not that bad ,not that good .I feel like there's still something missing from all of my ideas.So, it's really good to know that i'm not actually connected to him.My guess is right all along.They were a couple.Pagkatapos ibilin sa akin iyon ay pinauwi rin ako kaagad.Alas siyete na din naman no'n kaya naman wala na din akong naabutan.Usually ang library ang bukas pa ng ganitong oras dahil alas diyes ang sarado no'n.Doon ako naglagi at hinanap ang hiling topic sa AP at tsaka inaral mag-isa."Miss Torres magsasara na po"Inangat ko ang tingin ko sa Librarian na nagsalita.Nakahawak siya sa isang libro at nakahanda kaagad ang ngiti niya.Tumango ako at ngumiti bago tuluyang i
He isn't?but my mom thought they will?Nandoon siya para makipagdeal sa Papa ko.Probably for business.And...about my mom?That is still a question right?Why would she say something like that if they weren't in a relationship?They were..kasi halata namang malapit sila.My mom even arrange things for him.Don't tell me it was something she needs to do for an investor kasi wala akong naaalala na ginawa niya 'yon sa iba.They were in a relationship and maybe hindi muna sila magpapakasal.Tapos hindi 'yon alam ni Maggie kahit sila?O hindi pa nila napag-uusapan 'yon tapos natanong ko na?I nodded an approval at my reflection in the mirror.You guess everything right this time Azazel.I grab my cardigan before walking out of my room.It is thursday today at ngayon ay P.E namin kaya naman ang P.E uniform ang suot ko.Ada is tying her necktie habang bumaba sa third floor.Magsasabay kami sa pagbaba.Umalis sa room ko ang isang ito kaninang ala-sais.She took a bath in my
"What time we'll be going?"Ada munch her food infront of me.Tapos na ang half day na klase at nagtatanghalian na kami ngayon.Hindi ako nakasagot sa kanya.I hit the reply button yesterday saying i need to personally talk to Ansel but then,what would i say?What if this is really all part of the business?Ada's Uncle is a businessman,Ansel is businessman,My Dad too.They will going to strengthen their companies and this is the way."Is your Tito and my mom had something going on?"wala sa loob na tanong ko.Mabilis na kumilos ang kamay niya at tinampal ang braso ko sabay irap sa'kin.Umayos siya ng upo at nangalumbaba."Your one hell of a mother can't even glance at my family.I'm pretty sure that she doesn't know that Tito Raul is my Tito "natahimik ako.Right!Maggie Torres is too proud to even consider Ada's family existence."Ano na?"tanong niyang inilingan ko ulit.Sumubo ako mula sa sarili kong pagkain at sinabi ang isa ko pang naisip."I can text him"yes!I
Sa sobrang kaba ko sa pag-akyat sa hindi gaanong mataas na pader sa likod ng pangatlong dormitory hindi ko alam kung isasampa ko pa ba ang paa ko papuntang kabila.My knees are trembling i even forgot what am i doing there i can only remember the word 'outside' . Maybe that's what's give me strength to push myself up and sneak into the car before Ada even get down of the Director's Office. As soon as the warm air kiss my face as i told them to go slow when we get far from the School.I watch the trees allow itself to draw cool air in the open and let it hug the hot weather.It was a fresh air.It is a cold air.It us warm and it is ...something i don't know i would ever like.Dinaanan ko ang pakurbang daan.Dinaan ko ang matatayog na puno.Hindi sila bago sa akin pero pakiramdam ko ngayon ko lang nakita ang lahat at parang ngayon lang sila naging totoo."Why are you here Azazel.Nobody sees you leaving the school but you can't be found in the whole campus"I
Dalton is six years older than me.I was twelve when i saw my own father beat Dalton infront of the crying Maggie."He'll be 18 soon!Bakit ang tanga mo pa'rin!At your age ,dapat nakakuha ka na ng para sa'yo!Nabubuhay mo na sana ang sarili mo!At sana nakatulong ka na sa kompanya!"His voice echoed the whole place and I was too shock to even move a muscle when I saw him lying on the floor.Dalton was once kind to me.Not that kind but he treats me okay.He talk to me when he's in the mood but most of the time he's silent.He's always been alone ,not until that unfortunate day.I know that Maggie take him to the hospital after the beating.He needed to go because I saw a lot a blood on the floor.Maggie is crying hard as she pass at me.They walk out of the dining without noticing me, standing there.I was only left with the cold sweat and trembling hands watching the maids carefully washing away the evidences, Dalton's blood.I have loathed my father from the way he treated me
I'm spending my teenager years in an All Girls School.We grow along with the nature around us.I dream to have a house of my own in the middle of the forest ,beside the river.I always picture myself having a cat as my companion and Ada's visit every now and then.It is simple but that dream always leap my mood everytime I was in trouble with my mind.Beside living with the girls all around me,I only have Ada as my friend.She's my only listener and ..well..we can say an advicer kahit na madalas puro lang siya kalokohan.Hindi ako nagsabi ng kahit na anong problema ko sa kahit na sino and in just a moment, i have let someone else know what I have been dreaming all this time."Kumain na ako Caza..Mr.Millano.Bibili lang po ako ng karagdagang damit sa closet ko kaya papasok ako sa isang boutique"tuloy tuloy na sinabi ni Ada sa harap naming dalawa ni Ansel before she enter the boutique named as Genteel."Siya nga po pala hindi nila ako pinagbayad sa kinain ko kanina"iyo
Tumaas ang balikat ko sa pagpipigil ng ngiti.Bumaba ulit ang tingin ko sa paa kong suot na ang bigay ni Ansel Millano.Hindi na kagaya ng black shoes at boots na automatic na kapartner ng uniform ko.This time,I have a new pair at malamig talaga 'yon sa mata at malambot!I giggled again before jumping out of my room.Sa hallway ay may mga estudyante na kaagad.I feel extra light today siguro dahil hindi ko suot ang may kabigatang boots.Tuwing papasok ako noon wala akong ibang nararamdaman.I don't actually stop and check about my feelings I only know what I've got to do that day but this day was as strange as what it did yesterday.It's strange...but..it feels good.Bumati ako sa mga students.I even smile at them that caused them to frowned at me.Kahit na natulog akong alam na papupuntahin nanaman ako ng mama ko sa bahay para sa kung ano,surprisingly,sobrang sarap ng naging tulog ko.I don't know what has gotten to me at nakapag-text ako ng hindi ako available sa umaga da
Kung nakaabot ka sa last part ,MARAMING SALAMAT!!This is my first story online na natapos ko.I know this is not the best pero this is a step para na rin ma-improve ko ang pagsusulat ko.Salamat at nakaabot ka sa last part.~~~~In this life ,may mga bagay ka nga talagang hindi makukuha,at iyong mga bagay na iyon matututunan mong pangarapin.I have never been on the other side of my world ,my strongest desire to have it known within me became so powerful after i befriend Ada.She knew both the inside and outside world and that is one of the things i let her enter my life.Eventully nga lang , i got used to her and learned to understand another soul. Things were even complicated when Maggie is around."Your father hit your brother because he's losing so much.Iyon ang nangyari kaya naman hindi na muna uuwi ang Kuya mo dito"I know for a fact,that when i received that kind of smile a her ,i did turn the wrong way."Dahil sa kompanya kaya ka nandito ngayon.Hindi ka pwedeng lumabas ng school d
' I am sorry ,i didn't get to call you yesterday' i nodded diligently as if he was infront of me .That was okay ,i understand .~'We'll have so many meeting tomorrow and i might not call you at lunch''You know the projects were even getting better''You can't answer your phone the whole day''Caza why are you always unavailable.I'm gonna be a bit busy today but i will visit you later'. ..... 'You guys have sleepover?Okay .Enjoy your sleepover Azazel''I miss you'~I sighed again for the nth time .I close me eyes ,pick a glance on my phone again and sighed.Hindi ko alam kung gaano na kadaming buntong hininga ang nagawa ko."Azazel let's go eat!"nilingon ko ang loob ng kwarto,sa pinto kung nasaan si Ada na may hawak pa ng kutsara at tinidor .Tinanguan ko siya at nginitian ,nang umalis siya sa tapat ng pinto naiwan ang iyong nakabukas.Napabuntong hininga ako sa sobrang pagkatamad na nararamdaman ko.Siguro kasi palagi na lang kaming busy ,katatapos lang namin asikasuhin ang paglabas n
The next time Sheylla approached me with her bitchy attitude i will show her the real deal between doing that and being good to me.Dalawang lesson ng ginawa ko ng gabi din na iyon pero nagtagal pa rin ako dahil sa marami akong nakita na paliwanag sa internet kaya naman ng sumunod na lesson na binuksan ko ang kinuha ko nalang ay ang libro na nahiram ko at sinubukan na doon na lang din kuhanin ang lahat ng magiging paliwanag para doon.Maybe it was just me that i really needed much more details with something that i missed that is why kahit saan ay nai- aapply ko iyon.The sleep over in Krystal's house was now quiet planned.Nangyari iyon noong natapos ko na ang paghahabol sa mga lessons na na- missed ko.The farthest i get in this life te more it became now wonderful to me .I am so glad that made some changes at hindi ako naging mahina o kung may times naman ng nagiging mahina ako ay may taong nandiyan para sa akin.The school days were eventful.Matapos ng successful na performance ng cla
Dala ko ang pagkainis ko sa klase na sumunod.Na hindi ko malingon ang kahit na sino sa mga kaklase ko sa sobrang pagka-bwisit na nararamdaman ko.Hindi ko alam kung iniisip na ba ng teacher namin ngayon na sa kanya ako galit dahil kanina pa masama ang tingin ko sa blackboard.This is just so unreal , napaka-insensitive!Talaga pa lang may mga ganoong tao talaga !I can't believe that i experience bullying at this time ,or hour at sa ganitong pagkakataon pa kung saan ay katatapos lang ma pag-usapan ng dalawa ang tungkol doon."Okay guys tapusin niyo na lang muna ang lecture na ito"ipinaubaya na lang ulit ni Ma'am ang pagsusulat sa secretary namin.Paulit-ulit akong huminga ng malalim at kinalma ang sarili ko.Nasa alphabetical order pa naman kami ngayon at malayo ang dalawa sa akin para masabi ko na kaagad ang kinaiinisan ko at ng makapag- concentrate na ako pero nasa likod ko kasi sila.Wala akong nagawa ng mga sumunod na minuto kung hindi pakalmahin ang sarili ko kahit na nag-uugat at nagk
"I'll just see you later"kimi akong ngumiti kay Ansel at tumango.Tinitigan niya ulit ako kaya naman iniwas ko na lang an tingin ko sa pamamagitan ng pindot sa pinto para bumukas."See you later Azazel"nalingon ko ang kapatid kong nasa backseat ng kotse ni Ansel.He's sporting a grim face as he glances at Ansel na deretso lang naman ang tingin sa akin.This time around ay pinayagan ni Kuya na si Ansel ang maghatid sa akin ,sa isang kondisyon ,dapat kasama siya.I know ,i know mahihiya akong kasama lang si Ansel sa isang sasakyan pagkatapos ng sinabi niya pero mas nakakahiya naman yata na nakikita pa ng kapatid ko kung paano ako mahiya.I finally get off the car ,ngayon pa lang ay curious na ako kung paano nga ba sila sa loob ngayong nakababa na ako.The red sports car beep twice and i wave goodbye at them.As usual ,mabilis iyon na nawala sa paningin ko,nilingon ako ng mga lady guard ng mawala sila,binigyan nila ako ng ng tag-isang ngiti kaya naman sinuklian ko rin iyon.When i entered the
Bandang ala-sais ng makuha kong tuluyang bumaba sa kama at maligo,of course dahil sinabi ng kuya ko na gamitin ang warm water kaya naman iyon na nag ginawa ko.Medyo nangawit lang ako dahil sa matagal na pagkakahiga ko sa kama pero nakatayo pa'rin naman ako ng maayos.Siguro nga ay panaginip ko lang 'yon ,bakit ba ako nananaginip ng gano'n? Sinabi ko rin na hindi ako gaanong magtatagal sa paliligo pero medyo gano'n ang nangyari dahil sa pag-iisip ko tungkol sa nangyari sa party.Saan nga ba nagtapos ang party?Bakit parang tama naman ang naiisip ko na parang ayoko na lang din na paniwalaan.Maybe,nahimatay na ako bago ako makapunta kay Ansel?Pero di'ba ay nagsasayaw na kami no'n.Hindi ba talaga nangyari 'yon?Wala ba talaga siyang sinabi?Wait lang Azazel,bakit mo ba iniinsist 'yan? Do you want that to really happen?Bakit?Pakiramdam ko ay nahiya na lang din ako sa sarili kong iniisip.Kaya kahit na nahihirapan ako ay pinigilan ko na lang din ang pag-iisip pero hindi ko alam kung papa'no ko
The party seems like at it's peek again ,but the people is still slowly dancing so i don't know where all the fireworks came from.My mind freeze i think dahil kahit na nakikita ko naman ang paggalaw ng mga taong may iba pang makikinang na damit parang nasa slow motion naman sila .I saw the trees getting so wind up and obviously glowing and i just seem to watch all of it ,but i am still slowly dancing and Ansel seems to tell me something pero bakit parang slow motion din ang pagbuka ng bibig niya ,hindi ko rin magawang marinig 'yon kasi parang wala namang sound na kaakibat ang mga sinasabi niya.What is even happening right now?Hindi ko na alam ang mga sumunod na pangyayari,kung may nasabi ba ako sa kanya bago man lang tuluyang matapos ang sayawan na kahit na hindi ko naman narinig ang mga sinabi niya ay ayoko namang isipin niya na hindi man lang ako sumagot pero namamalayan ko na lang na hawak ko na ulit ang mic at nagpapasalamat sa lahat ng kailangan kong pasalamatan.I was so confu
My father politely nod his head at Tita Letty habang kimi lang naman ang ngiti ni Tita sa kanya."She remained at the top one Mr.Millano.She is really a bright lady"maikling tumango si Tita as she glances at me.When my father thanked her as if there was an awkward silence that drowns us."This is a very beautiful theme that you picked Azazel"bumati na sa akin ulit ang tatay ni Ansel.Michelle on his side, nodded at him earnestly."Thank you po Sir""Oh no!Drop the formalities.Call me Tito"tumawa si Tita sa ginawa ng asawa niya.They all smiled at me na nakumbinsi nila akong ulitin ang sinabi niya."Thank you Tito"Tita cheered with her daughter na nahiya ako dahil medyo malakas at nakakuha iyon ng pansin sa iba.My brother smiled at them ,dumamot na sa pagbibigay ng ngiti na kanina lang ay free niyang ibinibigay kahit sa mga masama ang naging komento sa'kin,ngayon na hindi naman masama ang naging turing sa'min tsaka naman siya ngayon nagdadamot.Medyo nagtagal kami roon na nakikita ko na a
Soon after ay nagdi-dinner na.There were bands playing instrumental soothing songs at ngayon nga ay nakaupo ako sa grand table kaupo si Papa at Kuya .Ada is with her family and so was Krystal at nakikita ko lang ang pwesto nila mula dito sa pwesto ko.I am consciously eating my food dahil alam ko,and i can't feel their stare were towards me.Binigyan ako ng part ng cake ng kapatid ko,the one that i blew with candles bago pa man mag-umpisa ang dinner na 'to.My gown was too big that they have to stand up when they wanted to give me something.Nasa pinakagitna tuloy ang naging pwesto ko tapos almost nasa dulo na si Papa at si Kuya .Matatapos na ako sa pagkain ko ng maglapag pa rin ng paborito ko ang kung sino kay papa ay kuya ng pagkain sa plato ko.It was that Lumpia that i can't say no.Dalawang piraso lang kasi ang ibinigay sakin ni Kuya kanina dahil kailangan yatang lumibot kami para sa mga bisita.I look up only to see Ansel smiling at me ,he even arrange some of the strands of my hair i