James swoops in and takes my lips, hungrily searching and kneading my hips in a motion that continually crashes me into him and his apparent desire. His hands dip now, and cup my ass giving me a rough squeeze, making me squeak in surprise. He doesn’t back down as he launches his hot tongue into my mouth, mingling our lips in a flurry of need and lust. I can feel my heart pattering loud in my ears and my wolf is silent. Though she once used to enjoy our moments with James, she is now hiding, holding back, and the realization has me on edge. I try to coax her out, to let us just enjoy the moment for once, but she refuses. She is conveying to me that my actions are my own and she washes her hands of it. My wolf does not approve of my feelings or relationship with James.I gasp out when he lifts me, guiding my legs around his waist as he turns to back me against the wall, slamming me hard. The wind knocks out of me and he growls in want with the sound. James’ hands knot in my hair, yanki
Enzo bites his lower lip anxiously before inhaling deeply and kneeling at my feet.“I think about kissing you all the time. It takes me hours to fall asleep because I missed you all day long. I feel like I have to watch you sleep just to make up for it. I don’t just protect you because I have to. Ivy, I do it because I need to. It’s an addiction for me. I’m addicted to you. Addicted to seeing you because if anything were to happen to you…”“Woah, woah… I-I-I… Enzo… I can’t.” I groan as I rest my elbows on my knees, cradling my face between my hands. “Why the hell would you tell me this?” “If the only reason you like him is because he is the first guy to express his feelings, then I’m going, to be honest, and tell you I have had feelings for you since they assigned me as your protector.” he tries to get me to look at him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “But that’s forbidden, Enzo. It’s forbidden to be with your charge.” My voice is panicky even to me.“I am aware of that, Ivy.” He
~Enzo POV~I was raised training to protect the alpha and his family. I have trained since the day I was old enough to run. Every day since that moment I have done nothing but keep my promise to protect the alpha’s family, even if the only remainder is the very thing I crave to make my own. Years were spent learning to push aside emotions and make calculated decisions. Logical ones that aren’t driven by something that could make me make a mistake. Something like love. And at the first sign of possibly losing her to another man, I decide to tell her I want her. Basically, I’m a fucking idiot. A love drunk, needy, jealous idiot who apparently has no control over his emotions anymore. Which just made this mission of revenge more dangerous. I slipped up. When she asked for help, I should not have kissed her. I never should have allowed myself to sleep next to her in any form other than wolf form. Yet, here I am walking myself into the room that keeps me from her because I couldn’t just
~ Ivy POV~I blink at Enzo’s faded wooden door. It’s giving me fewer mixed signals than he is these days. Do I deserve a door in the face? No. Okay, maybe. But I’m not the horny dick head who just confessed feelings for me when someone else shows interest and then goes and screws the girl he claims to hate. I should have called him out on it. But then I would have to admit to him it bothered me and it bothered me way more than I am ready to admit. And what the hell does he mean by going our separate ways? This dummy thinks he can get rid of me that easily? Enzo is the only person I have in the world. Losing him would be akin to losing my family all over again. I won’t be his mistress anymore? Fine. I can handle that I’m a big girl, but if he truly thinks for one damn second, he can leave me in the dust. He has another thing coming.I stomp my way out of his house, creating as much noise as humanly possible. Is it juvenile? Completely. Do I care? Not entirely. I slam the door shut beh
“I wish there was a better way to prove it to you,” James says, giving me a wary look.His fingers twitch like he wants to reach out and pull me close. I’m relieved when he doesn’t. The problem with his statement is that the mate bond, on my side of things, is completely nonexistent. I can feel a pull to him.Yes, I find him attractive and I know I like him more than I should, but that has to do with him and not the mate bond. I could fall in love with and want him, but when I turn twenty-one and meet my mate, it would be as though I feel nothing for James—if he isn’t my real mate. There is no way for me to determine if what he is saying is true or not. “I am just supposed to believe I’m your mate?” I ask him, my voice breathy. “Are you sure?”“I am sure.” he chuckles and shakes his head. “I’m drawn to you, unlike anyone else. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on. Ivy, I’m not making this up. I can feel it tingling in my bones every time I am near you. You were
A waiter brings me a glass of wine as I take my seat. I look at James, who is sipping on a glass of bourbon. In the human communities, they have what we call watered-down alcohol. Their alcohol has no effect on us, no matter how fast we drink. Our metabolism does not allow us to build up the blood alcohol level in our systems.Enter our own version of alcohol, the same thing the humans have, just a hundred proof and somehow filtered to perfect to still be smooth and tasty. I have only ever had it once. When Enzo and I finished our training and set out on our way here. It ended terribly. I ended up throwing up all night, cuddling with Enzo’s wolf for warmth.I take a few sips, then a tall, thin man approaches James. His eyes skirt over me lustfully and instantly I wrap my free arm over my stomach and avert my eyes.“Dorian is still nowhere to be seen.” Then a salad lands in front of me and I look up, surprised at the waitress, who gives me a sheepish smile.“The alpha pre-ordered all y
~Enzo POV~I scowl at Ivy’s bedroom window from the cover of the bushes, hating that I can’t be up there. The only thing I hate more right now is that I let her kiss me for as long as I did two days ago. My pathetic, weak heart didn’t need a reminder of how perfect she felt against me and now here I am waiting out her window for her to give me something. It’s been complete radio silence since she walked in that front door. Two days of not seeing or hearing from her. If I didn’t think she could handle herself, I’d be more worried. Instead, I will sit out here and wait for the moment she faces me and that kiss she started. It has been haunting me for too long. I know she was drunk on whatever werewolf-proof wine she had at dinner that night, but she wouldn’t have kissed me unless she wanted to. Unless she thought I was James, maybe? But if she did, that just proves she is in over her head. I know she is deviating from the plan. She is developing feelings for our target’s son. All the
“What do you mean, she is missing? Didn’t you just say she was waiting for you in your bed?” I ask James, confused.“Clearly she wasn’t.”“When was the last time you saw her?” I ask.“Two nights ago. We went on our date and it was ruined. I went to her room after I got back and spent the night with her. But I had to leave for a meeting and I got back this morning. Sarah said Ivy left after I did, but never came back.”My stomach burns and bile tries to claw its way up. A steady dose of both jealousy and fear prickles up my neck. I fucking hate how he said he spent the night with her, but what sticks out in my mind the most is the latest cryptic letter. ‘Hard to protect her if she isn’t on pack lands’. Fucking hell. I stuff my feet in my shoes. “She didn’t tell Sarah where she was going?” I ask, standing, then rushing out the door and reaching back to close it behind us.“No,” he shakes his head. “Sarah said she just left the house and ignored her on the way out.”“Did you have any ru
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5 years later~Enzo POV~ James laughs at me as I pace the living room anxiously. It’s been years since we buried the hatchet. I hate to admit it but with him being so close to Caleb considering they are family now through the mate bonds that tie us all together, I’ve come to call James a friend. And a good one at that. Caleb made us sit down and have a very serious chat about Ivy and Sarah. I can’t say I would have subjected my mate to watching me pursue another woman in order to free her from the abuse she was living through. In fact, I know I would have just killed the fucker. But James and I are not the same. Where I had nothing to live for he was afraid to lose his mate, even after knowing he would have to give her up for her to be safe. I don’t think it makes him braver than me or my methods but it makes him honorable all the same. Sarah was subjected to far worse at the hands of James’ father. All because they were mates and James wanted to protect her. Only a monster uses th
8 Months later~Ivy POV~Enzo and I have been traveling as fast as possible to get back to Caleb and Clem. After taking a few months to travel and be together, just us, we are finally, frantically I might add, heading back home. Home where my brother and his mate share their alpha ship, home where I finally grieved my parents and Enzo’s. Home where my baby niece or nephew is waiting to meet us. Auntie Ivy. Uncle Enzo.Best nicknames ever if I say so myself. Honestly, Enzo seems to be more excited about it than I am, and that is saying something. We came to the agreement that we want one or two pups of our own one day. But not anytime soon. I have five years of ignorance to make up for by giving my man my undivided attention and all the love he could have ever dreamed of. “How much further until we hit the meadows?” I ask him anxiously as he tears down the road in the borrowed car. I use the word borrowed loosely here.“I would guess maybe fifteen minutes?” He says, scanning the roa
The breeze picks up as we stand in a freshly mown meadow. It whips my loose hair around my face. Caleb was insightful enough to have the areas where we would all walk and witness the ceremonial burning mowed, so we don’t set the entire area ablaze. Everyone stands in silence, all women in black dresses and men in black shirts and their choice of slacks. The amazing thing is there was no dress code, yet it looks like we had stripped the choice from everyone. To me, that’s what makes it seem more beautiful.We are all in mourning. Here we stand united with all those who came to acknowledge the terrible history of my brother and his mates’ newly acquired pack. The darkness that lingers in the trinkets and trophies of a man possessed by madness will soon be laid to rest and made free. No longer will he have a hold on me or any of the others who had loved ones that fell victim to the monster that was Jonathon. When James approaches with a wary-looking Sarah on his arm, the crowd watches wi
*Ivy POV*I sit with Clem as she vomits in the trash can in the kitchen. All I did was offer to make her eggs before we head out to the ceremony. I didn’t even pull them out, or crack them open. Just a loose suggestion to help with all her nausea, which she still claims is from a bug. Luckily for her, after my conversation with Caleb the other night, he stocked the fridge with ginger ale and the cupboard with plain old boring crackers. The original pack house is undergoing some massive renovations since it was abandoned for quite some time. I was under the impression James lived in this cabin we claimed as ours because he was never actually the true Alpha of the pack. Maybe that was part of the issue, maybe not. As lovely as the cabin is, it was made quickly and isn’t of the finest qualities. Which, if I’m being honest, lends to its charm and makes me like it all the more.Caleb and Clem have since moved into the little cabin with us, taking James’ old room and using his office for A
~Enzo POV~It’s been nice not being on edge every second of every day, strange, but nice. I can feel the change in Ivy, too. Hell, I can see it in her smile and eyes. She is lighter now, somehow unburdened and free to be who she was supposed to be before the darkness touched her. Is she perfect? No, she is flawed, like me. But there is beauty in imperfection, and it’s a beauty I plan to revel in until the day I die. Unfortunately, we have to get through some hurdles before I can fully relax with her. The first of which would be this memorial where we return the nasty-ass trophies that Jonathon collected from the Alpha’s he killed. Caleb and Clem have gone back and forth arguing about how to return the items. Clem is convinced we should return them wrapped in ornate fabric and sewn shut to not cause more distress than the entire ordeal is already doing.Caleb agrees with her in this regard, but where they differ is Clem thinks they deserve to know what the fabric contains. She says th
A week ago today I killed the man who ruined my life. A week and a half ago I almost lost my fated mate at that same man’s hand. It’s crazy how life can feel useless when you are searching for revenge. I would like to say that getting said revenge didn’t feel good, that I realized I was wrong and a life for a life doesn’t undo the pain. It’s accurate enough, I guess it doesn’t take away the pain of the loss. But it sure a shit feels good to know I was strong enough to avenge them.Would I change the events that led me to where I am at this moment? Perhaps that’s a better question for a day further down the road. It’s all still too fresh. I need more time for reality to settle in. For now, we will take things day by day. And today is a yard work day. When I was a slave for Haley, she made me do some landscaping with Garrett. At first, it was stupid and hot, but I think that was more because what Haley wanted was not attainable. What I want here in the front of this little cabin is smal
~Ivy POV~The house is silent as I wash the dishes and stare out the window. It’s strange being here, in a place I am comfortable in, with the people I love. The thought makes my heart swell while simultaneously making me fear that at any moment, someone will rip it all away. That seems to be the common theme in my life. One minute I’m happy and the next I’m falling apart. Warm hands circle my waist and Enzo’s chin finds the crook of my neck. He says nothing, only sighs in contentment as he looks at our reflection in the window. This man has been my constant for over five years. My companion and my protector, but I have never seen him more himself than I see right now. It’s like all the sorrow and pain in my life has led me here, to this very moment of utter peace in the arms of the man who was fated to be mine.“What do you think would have happened?” Enzo asks. I place the cup in my hand to the side and tilt my head.“What do you mean?” I ask. Enzo lets go of me and spins me to fac
I find Clem and Ivy sitting at the kitchen island in silence, staring at the backsplash over the oven with distant faces. I lean against the doorjamb, watching as Ivy slips her arm over Clem as her face falls into her hands and she cries. It’s strange, watching Ivy be the one doing the comforting, but the more I stand here, the more it seems to make sense. Caleb needs time to digest what he saw. I push off the frame and walk into the kitchen, pulling the kettle out and filling it with water.“He closed off the emotional link,” Clem whispers, looking up at me with sad eyes. I frown at her and slide my eyes over to Ivy, who watches me intently. “Caleb is showering and then he will be down for tea.” I sigh, spinning and placing the kettle on the stove. “He needs a few minutes of silence.”Clem nods her head. “He blames me, doesn’t he?” she asks so softly.“No,” Ivy responds instantly. “If he blamed you, he wouldn’t have mated with you. Caleb thought all of us were dead. He may not have