I see Violet sobbing, having listened to her emotional goodbye to her Aunt. I was close to tears myself, and I didn’t even know the woman! But as she moves away from the bed, I see she is full on sobbing once more and I can’t stop the urge to take her into my arms. I need to be there for her. It seemed to help before. Maybe that is the mate bond? It is supposed to help calm a mate when they are upset or angry…I pull her into my arms again. “I got you, Vi” I whispered, feeling her sob against my chest.I want to be there for this girl so badly. Want her to know who I am to her, so she knows she is no longer alone. But I can’t tell her.‘Thanks for helping Tate’ Violet links, I assume because she is finding it difficult to talk through her tears again.‘I said I would be here if you needed me. That is what friends are for, right?’ I linked, hating having to say friends, when in truth it is so much more than just friends.She nods. ‘Well, I appreciate it. I am not sure if I could have g
We walked to the Dr Station. Alpha Lachlan walks down the corridors of the hospital with authority. Like he owns the place. He clearly doesn’t fear anyone.“Dr? I believe Violet has some questions” he says, interrupting the Dr who is leaning over the desk, busy with paperwork.I would likely have stood quietly and waited until he had seen me and acknowledged me, rather than interrupt him while he was working. Though I guess that is the difference between me and the Alpha here. He shows no fear. He acts like he runs the fucking world.“Of course.” The Dr says, standing, with a smile in my direction.I suddenly feel uncertain, not sure what it is I wanted to ask. Do I truly want to know what was wrong with my Aunt and how much she suffered? Would that make me feel worse for not knowing she was ill?I chew my lip nervously. I felt Tate slide his hand to my lower back. ‘You ok, Vi?’ he mindinks.“In your own time, there is no rush dear. I realise this has been a shock to you as I believe
I wake in the morning to knocking at my door. I swear if Tate has come to disturb me for lessons…We had driven back from the hospital in almost silence last night. Both Tate and Alpha Lachlan made attempts to make conversation with me but I cut them off as I did not feel like talking. I made my excuses when getting back to pack to head back to my room, despite their insistence to join them in the dining room for dinner. I just wanted to be alone. And food was the last thing on my mind! They seemed to get the message and let me go.I received multiple mindlinks from Tate asking if I was ok, or if I needed some company, or wanted him to cook me some dinner. All of which I politely dismissed, just needing time alone and space. I had too much to process. I spent time looking at pictures of me and my Aunt, and ended up crying myself to sleep.I must have been tired as I am only just waking now. Seems crying and loss makes you exhausted. There was the knock at the door again. Fucking hell,
I walked from Violet’s room. She is definitely a sweet girl. I can see the vulnerability in her already. She needs a friend. She will be the Beta female of the pack. So I should be the one to welcome her and be her friend. I can’t see why not. She seems nice enough, though very young bless her. She will be the one standing alongside me as Luna. The lead females of the pack, though she had a lot to learn by the sound of it, and still had to finish high school.I will discuss things with Lachlan. I think it is going to be better for her to finish her education at home. Get her trained for her new role in the pack if she actually accepts it, of course. Maybe if I can become a friend and make her feel welcome, she will see the pack is not so much of a bad place, she needs to feel safe here. As I imagine right now, she doesn’t feel safe anywhere. She must feel like nowhere is home now her Aunt is gone, and that has to be the worst feeling.Our pack should be a safe haven for her. We don’t
We arrived at Luna and Alpha’s house. It is gorgeous. A newly built home from what Hattie tells me when they found out she was expecting Devin. They decided a family home was better suited to bringing up a baby than the Alpha suite in the packhouse. I have no clue what the Alpha suite is, but going off what a suite is like in a hotel, I assume it is much like a full-on equipped apartment, probably the best in the packhouse with him being the Alpha too.But I smile and nod when she tells me, I like her, and don’t want her thinking I am totally thick. There is plenty of time for that when, and if she starts to do my lessons.“Have you had any ideas for the funeral?” Hattie asks me.“Not as yet, I really don’t know what to do. Still seems surreal.” I tell her.“Yeah I imagine. I found some of the leaflets from when we had /grandma’s funeral, for flowers, food etc.” Hattie says. “Lach told me that the Dr let him know that your Aunt’s body has been taken to the Funeral directors now. No fu
More days had passed, Hattie had come and spent time with me, or I had gone to her. I have to say I enjoy her company. Today I would apparently be meeting the rest of the pack. Apparently, Alpha has decided I have been allowed long enough without it happening. I guess I understand. It doesn’t make it any easier, or make me any less nervous. I would happily continue the way I have been doing.Tate has been busy with paperwork and Beta duties according to his regular mind links, messages or even the updates that Hattie feels she needs to give me. I am not so sure why she thinks I am fussed or need to know. He is the pack Beta, perhaps a friend at a push. No different to her really. Either way all of that meant I had not seen him as much.Hattie tells me I would be going to training with her too, as the women, or she-wolves as they apparently get called, tend to train together for the majority of the time, with occasional entire pack mixed training sessions. I am dreading that. I thought
Is it bad that I am happy that Devin was ill today? Not because I wanted my friend's baby to be poorly, but because it meant I was asked to leave my duties and go spend the day with Violet. Pretty soon she would have had most of her lessons, be fully aware of everything going on and this would not be happening, but hopefully, by then she may have decided being with me may be a good idea and she could come home to me each night…Yeah, maybe I need to stop letting my mind wander and stop dreaming. Even Hattie said Vi had shown no interest in me in that regard, which drives me crazy. So, as of yet, there is no way of knowing how she is going to react when she finds out I am her fated mate. It is a matter of two days now until her birthday. Two days until things change between us. I am ready, but then I am not, in case she doesn’t forgive me. I think she will be angry about me not telling her. But Lachlan said that does’t matter. It does to me.I can’t believe she had agreed to come to my
I sit at the breakfast bar in Tate’s small kitchen, while he begins to make breakfast. I put the book down on the countertop. I really don’t feel in the right frame of mind for reading today. Not after what just happened. He kissed me. I don’t know why. He wouldn’t give me an answer, other than sorry.All I know is it felt good. But I got to keep this normal between us. He is taking my lesson today, perhaps longer if Devin isn’t well for any longer. Plus, I like Tate being around. I hadn’t lied when I told him I had missed him. And knowing he had missed me too had given me goosebumps, not to mention made my heart race. I don’t know why. Well, other than the fact I think I may have a tiny little teenage crush on him.“Here you go doll” Tate disturbs my thoughts by placing a steaming hot mug of coffee in front of me. “You look like you are off in another world” he smiles.I can’t help but smile when he smiles at me. “Be easier if I was.” I tell him.“Yeah?” he asks, returning to the coo
Dear Diary… Well, how can life change in the space of a year? By a crazy amount when you learn your parents lied. Or perhaps not so much lied but kept secrets from you. Secrets do nothing but make life difficult. Make life twisted and they hurt when they are finally revealed. But the secrets in the end brought me the happiness and life I was meant to have. Could the secrets have been part of the fate that led me here? Who knows? Having learned the things I have about being a werewolf, and how the beliefs are, fate plays a big part in our lives. Perhaps the path my life took was all a part of fate's plan... A path that brought me to the Autumn Moon Pack. To Tate. The handsome, mysterious Beta. The sweetest, kindest man I had ever met, that I was able to call mine. All because of a goddess I had never heard of until I learned of my heritage as a werewolf, blessing him as my fated mate. My fated mate. My love. My future. And now the father to the little one I am carrying inside my
I wake up wrapped in the warm embrace of Tate. His head is resting on my shoulder. “Good morning beautiful” he whispers. I found myself chuckling. “Good morning to you too” I whispered back. “You know I am going to have to get you up and out of bed shortly for your training.” He says with a sigh. “Euurrgghh!” I grumbled. “But the bed is so warm and comfy!” Training has been going on almost each day since we returned to pack six months ago. Lachlan was relentless. Though I can’t blame him, Azaria was just as unrelenting too in her necessity for me to refine these gifts of mine and in her need to make me as strong as she could, both physically and mentally. “Oh. You mean you don’t want to stay in bed because of your handsome mate?” Tate huffs, flipping himself, so he was suddenly on all fours, leaning over me. I find myself smirking at his playfulness. We had most definitely refined our relationship and our gifts… “Perhaps I was just coming to that…” I teased,
The doctor leads us into Damien’s room. He is not looking good. Though what would I know? I am not a doctor. But he looks like he is at death’s door. And it scares me. But he is in the right place. Tate had told me this hospital had some good doctors, and I am sure Lachlan would do what he could to make sure he got the best care possible. Pierce led the rest of the family into the room. All looking equally shocked by the state of my grandfather. I doubt the doctors would allow us all to stay in here together for long before trying to throw us out. “What has the doctor said?” Adam asks, I am surprised he is here, expecting him to be with his son, though I can only assume his mate is there, as I have not seen here since we arrived. Lachlan looks up from where he was standing by the side of the bed, his grandfather not having moved since we walked in here. His eyes not having moved from his brother in the bed. “The doctor said he is stable now. Though he is badly injured. He
I watch her. Doing whatever it was she was doing. Speaking as someone else through her body? She is unreal. How did she manage that? Her eyes shifted, to a deeper blue. She looked like she was from another world for those few moments she spoke. An aura radiating off her that gave that otherworldly glow. The voice coming from her was unrecognizable to me. But the look on my grandfather’s face changed instantly. Color draining from his skin. Eyes wide open as he looked at her, and I could see tears in his eyes. ‘What the fuck?’ I mindlink Tate. ‘Not a clue. I thought Azaria was going to talk, she can do that like most of us can. But that is not her voice. That voice is not Azaria's. I do not know who that is.’ Tate says, yet his eyes have not left his mate. He looked fearful for her, not knowing what to expect. All these gifts are new to us. We don’t know how she will be with them. During them, or after them. What effect they could have on her. But Azaria clearly felt the
I stood watching Lachlan walking away from me. My skin turning cold hearing my brother’s name echoing through my mind. How can they seriously expect me to want to help him? He killed our mother. Kidnapped her. Then tortured her to the point of her death. No. Have they lost their damn minds? I look to Pierce. His eyes are dark, but he is watching me. A sad smile on his face. He knew of this? I find myself struggling to speak. No. Have they lost their damn minds? I can hear voices surrounding me, but they are not registering in my mind. This is madness. This made no sense. They had brought my brother back here. To the pack we had him exiled from. What the hell was Lachlan thinking? Was he even fit to be an Alpha of our great pack? Does he not know what this man was capable of? Suddenly, a hand is on my shoulder, snapping out of my angry mind wandering. I realize there are many more unfamiliar faces surrounding me now. Unfamiliar. But yet they have a hint of familiarit
I stand waiting within the pack hospital as requested by my grandson. Things seem so hectic in the pack. My son dashing off here and there. I hate being old and not quite so able to help anymore. That used to be part of the role of Alpha I loved the most, the drama… the action. And I have to say it was something I missed as I got older, as I handed down the role to my son. Lachlan’s call was unclear. The signal was not good, and the reasoning behind him wanting me at the hospital was not quite explained. He just asked me to be here, saying I would be the best candidate for a blood donor if needed. I am not going to decline that, if somebody needs my help, it is there, no matter how old I am. I may feel like an old and decrepit man most days, but if I am still capable of helping, if it is needed, then I will be there. I may not be able to do much as a former Alpha and I miss that role and all that came with it, but if I can help, then they could rely on me. I had got here as quic
I watch as they drive away with my grandfather in the back of the truck. Fear is filling me. He looked dead. I was pushing toward him, trying to get to him, wanting to try to heal him. But Tate was mindlinking me, telling me to stand back, to not try this for the first time on him, not to risk his life further when I am not sure of what I am doing. Lachlan is taking charge. The voices are just a blur to me. I hear Adam saying that my grandfather’s wolf is dead. How can that be? He has been suffering, and nobody seemed to know other than his son. How much pain had this man had to endure? “Violet, come on now, we need to go.” Tate is leading me to a waiting car. I can only assume we are heading back to Autumn Moon. Azaria seems to have retreated once more. She is meant to be a gifted wolf yet seems to spend most of her time hiding in the outer edges of my mind. Though my lack of experience of how to deal with her maybe doesn’t help. My body was in a daze. Nothing around me reg
I feel my wolf pushing through and shifting once more, my body adjusting and altering of its own accord, turning into Rye, the dark gray form of my wolf. He seems to have pushed me right to the back. I can sense his anger. I don’t know what happens, but he is suddenly moving toward the two wolves still fighting alongside us, and before I know it, and because they are so engrossed in attacking one another, Rye pounces… Bringing his jaw down on the neck of the Alpha, clamping his teeth into the neck and sinking them in before twisting. The Alpha realizes what is happening and tries to fight back, but the grip Rye has is too tight and the way in which the Alpha is moving is only making the situation worse for himself, as I hear a galling snap as his neck breaks, and he falls from the grip of Rye before Lachlans’s wolf takes him and attacks him once more, making sure he is dead. Aggressively dropping him to the floor once he is done with him, before his human form is suddenly pu
I check on little Alfie. He is still snoozing, his little eyes tightly shut as he is swaddled in his blankets tightly to protect him from the outside elements, as well as having been in the protective embrace of his parents as we have alternated in carrying him since leaving the hospital. He has slept so soundly since we left, and I am glad. Hopefully, he will stay that way until we reach this new pack. I did not expect all of this, but deep down I have to say I am glad. Our pack never offered us much, and the hospital did not have much in the way of options for our little one. We feared we would lose him. Hopefully, our new pack may be able to give us hope for a future for me and my family. My mate and our little one. The pain of losing our firstborn tore us down, but we worked through it and decided to try again. We were overjoyed to discover we were expecting another pup. Our beautiful child. The creation of our love and happiness of being mates. Only to discover he too had th