My body stiffs, a lump gradually forming inside my throat and I can feel my hands shivering as my eyes slowly adjusts to the sudden explosion of light. His figure stands right in front of me, firm and powerful. This man is so tall that he towers over me, and my scalp barely reached his chin and I'm five feet and six inches tall. He is topless and I can smell the fresh and manly scent of his perfume mixed with the sweat that makes his body seem to twinkle under the lights. He has broad shoulders—so manly and powerful, and so are his chests. The man is well-built, not typically bodybuilder-looking male but a male model. And now that his face has a better lighting, he's even more attractive than I first anticipated. He's handsome—no, handsome is an insult. He's beautiful. He's the epitomy of male beauty. He's so freaking gorgeous that the heat I've felt in the elevator and the humidity in the air rises to a stifling proportion.
He rubs his eyes and for a moment he tries to focus on me. Then he looks down at my body, gaze penetrating my brassiere. His eyes grow big and so does mine. We stare at each other's body for a long moment before realizing that were both topless and I am completely unaware of what I desired until it finally explodes in my femininity.
He is not touching me but my body is overwhelmingly conscious of his, as if my body has been asleep for so long and he somehow brought it back to life. Don't get me wrong, I've met countless attractive males before, but nobody has an aura that ignited my female desires and fantasies such as his. Now I'm suddenly hungry—no, I'm starving.
Self-consciousness brings me back from my reverie and I immediately cover my chest with my arms. I Drop my gaze down, figure in a protective stance, cheeks warm and stomach concealing butterflies. I twist my body and turn away from him. Oh shit! This is embarrassing! Not only did he saw what's inside my clothes, he also summoned a mysterious itch between my legs.
“I…I'm sorry,” I squeak, embarrassed. He doesn't reply. I suddenly feel uncomfortable by his silence.
“I…I uh…” he says and clears his throat.
“Put on your sleeve and jacket. I won't look.”
I peek at my shoulder. He turns his back at me, facing the wall. I collect my discarded piece of clothing and cover my top in a hurry. I button my sleeve and put on my jacket then tie my hair.
I hesitate to look back at him. Out of the corner of my eyes he has already put on his sleeve. I slowly twist my body and so does he. We remain silent for only a while, but for me it feels like an eternity. I swallow hard. This is the most embarrassing thing in my life but I bet this isn't his. I know he's not embarrassed. I know he has seen more woman's body underneath their clothes than I did to myself in my whole life. I know a womanizer when I see one, and this man is the perfect fit for that term.
The elevator door opens and I step out first. Then just as I am about to rush out, he calls me.
“Hey.”
I turn to look at him.
“What’s your name?” He climb out of the elevator and stop right in front of me. I'm suddenly suspicious by his sudden question.
“Kiela Taylor,” I reply. He nods his handsome head.
“Do you really think a man like Jordan Crown needs the thing you call love, Miss Taylor?” Our eyes locked.
“Yes…” I answer.
“I believe it's what he truly needs.”
He responds with silence and stares deeply into my eyes. Then his lips contorts into a smug.
“It's nice to met you, Kiela Taylor.” His voice is deeper than it was before.
“I’ll see you in my office.”
* * *
So this is what he meant by 'I’ll see you in my office'. I should have known. I watch him nervously as he is seriously reading my resume and application letter, sitting in his throne with a sign in his table that says,
“President/Chief Executive Officer
Jordan Crown”
He shots me a doubtful gaze several times and I'm slowly comprehending where this will lead. I should have known. I should have known that the person I've been talking to about this Jordan Crown and things I've only read from newspapers about him is no other than Jordan Crown himself.
It's weird. I have seen him so many times in television and magazines and newspapers, but this is the only time I recognize the billionaire. Perhaps because he looks different in TV than in real life, or perhaps because of his new haircut. Crap!
“There is nothing interesting about your resume, Miss Taylor,” he says candidly that no longer caught me off guard because I know it's the way he is. Crap!
“You don't have that particular experience I look for a secretary. Sure you have a handful of experiences here in your resume, but even teenagers these days are able to do this already,”
“What do you mean, Mr. Crown?” There's a slight worry in my tone.
“That you're not the person I am looking for. That you're not capable of handling the job.” He is so straightforward.
“Mr. Crown, when you said that I don't have the particular experience you've been looking for a secretary, what did you meant by that?”
“Positions I guess. Here in your resume, you used to work as a manager at a local restaurant, project supervisor at small-time construction firm and an admin manager at a hotel.” He takes his gaze from the paper and looks at me.
“I mean sure, quiet impressive for someone fresh from graduate, but I'm looking for somebody who knows exactly what it means and needs to be an executive assistant. I'm looking for someone with long-term experience.”
I roll my hands into a ball. After having the struggles and efforts just to pursue the job that had been fought by others, I will only end up being rejected?
“Then sir, if you're looking for that person with long-term experience, apparently, you're not looking for that one person who knows what it means to be an executive assistant,” I protest.
“What do you mean, Miss Taylor?”
“What I mean is you can have a long-term experience without learning much at all,”
“And you think you're different, Miss Taylor?” he simply says.
“I do,” I answer.
“You do?” Mr. Crown giggles.
“You don't even have the kind of experience I need.”
“But I have the knowledge of what makes a good executive assistant and I believe I can learn from it as time passes by in your company.” At this point, I no longer know where my answers will lead me.
He lean his back against his chair and rub his chin.
“Interesting. Now let's what kind of knowledge you have.” He grins.
“Tell me, Miss Taylor, what really makes a good executive assistant?”
He stands up from his chair.
I erect my spine, nose in the air. I breathe deeply. Whatever his challenge is, I need to be up for it.
“Adaptability,” I reply. He walks around from his table, arms crossed.
“And by that you mean?”
“A good personal secretary should be able to adopt in her environment. Whatever changes of how the company flows, whatever the changes of her workload, she must be able to adopt those changes, thus making the job simpler for his boss,” I say with a great confidence that has sparked in me. He wander around his office with no specific direction.
“Is that all the trait a secretary should harness?” I hear him from behind.
“Excellent communication skills,”
“I'm listening,”
“A good secretary needs to have a good communication skill. Most of the time an executive assistant's work is to use her mouth. She has to speak in way that will give the company and the executives she represents a good image,” I explain.
“Major part of a secretary is to draft letters and write memos, and she must have a good grasp of grammar, spelling and punctuation in order to do those things. Being able to use your mouth correctly and properly is a great advantage.”
“Is that so?” He gives me a lascivious grin, leaning an arm against the table, next to me.
“Tell me, Miss Taylor, how good are you with your mouth?”
For a moment, I thought he meant something else but I guess I was too affected by his aura to think of something deeper than what he mean.
“I'm pretty capable of speaking to people, Mister Crown,”
“How so?”
“If I wasn't then you would have kicked me out of your office minutes ago.” He looks straight into my eyes and I look straight into his. I am staring deep into those blue eyes and he is staring deep into mine, and I can feel the shivers running down my spine the whole time we look at each other.
“Next is?” He stands erect and continues walking. I take a deep breath. I need to finish this as soon as possible. Anytime soon I'm going to collapse in embarrassment.
“Next is a great collaborative skill,” I continue. He nods his head as he wander around.
“Simply because a competent executive assistant is an excellent member of the company. A good secretary should be able to compete, cooperate and make an impact to the company. A good EA considers the company's success and accomplishment as their own and will work tirelessly with her executives to meet deadlines, manage projects and produce results.”
He stops right in front of his wide window and stares at the overlooking Manhattan.
“That’s all you have in mind, Miss Taylor?”
“Lastly is the willingness to learn,” I continue. I should have proceed to elaborate further, but he cut me off.
“Are you willing to learn from the person you find arrogant and self-centered, Miss Taylor?”
I keep my answer inside my mouth. That's right. I am so preoccupied with the subject that I almost forgot I insulted him a few minutes ago. Now that I think of it, why haven't he rejected my application yet? Shouldn't he turn me down because of what I said before? Besides, I was just being honest wasn't I?
“It depends if you're willing to teach the person you find noisy and annoying, Mr. Crown.”
“I not only find you noisy and annoying, Miss Taylor. I also find you a bit intrusive,”
“I wasn't being intrusive ten minutes ago, Mr. Crown. I just stated what I think you're lack of.”
His eyes drop to mine and for a long moment, we just sit here, staring at each other. His eyes are full of thoughts but there is no mistaken that he has a clear spectacle of me.
“Do you have plans after this interview, Miss Taylor?” Mr. Crown suddenly ask out of the blue.
“No…why?” I grow suspicious.
“Let me show you something.”
He takes off his jacket, revealing his obviously masculine figure beneath his sleeve. Then he hangs his jacket on his chair. He leads me out of the door, and then out of his building, and we head straight to his vehicle.
It is a mix of black and navy-blue Bugatti Chiron and though I'm not actually expert when it comes to these kind of luxurious cars, I know just from the sight of it that it's way more expensive than the value of all of my properties combined.
“Get in,” he orders as he puts a sunglass between his ears.
“Where are you taking me?” I demand.
“You'll know once we get there.” He climbs inside his vehicle and gestures at me to hop in. Hesitant I am, yet I still obey, left without much of a choice.
* * *
After driving for five minutes, we arrived at a local harbour. He climbs out first and I follow. Speedboats and small yachts are floating around, some about to sail towards the depths. The afternoon sun bathe both Mr. Crown and I with warmth and I can feel the satisfying sensation of the warm breeze of the sea waffling against my face. The afternoon is beautiful, blue sky stretching across the horizon where under it are seagulls soaring around mid-air and the giant white clouds drifting across the circumference of the blue dome above us. It's beautiful, and though I'm still buffled by Mr. Crown's plan, I'm glad he takes me here.
“Hurry up,” he orders, walking down the wooden bridge, a soft thump responding to his footsteps.
“Where are we going?” I demand, taking few hesitant steps, tailing him.
“Too many questions, woman.”
A man smiles genuinely at Mr. Crown as he comes to a stop right in front of him. He has a look of a fourty years old fisherman with hairs that are turning gray and wrinkles forming on his face. Despite his aging face he has a look of a ready smile.
“Good afternoon, Mister Crown,” the man greets.
“Good afternoon, Steve. Is the yacht ready?” Crown simply replies.
“Yes, sir. Yacht's ready. Captain is waiting for you,” says the man.
“Good.” Crown turns to me as the man climbs up to the yacht right in front of the dock.
“What are you waiting for? Let's go!”
“On the yacht?” By this time, my confusion rockets. Crown responds with a nod.
“Why? Where are you taking me? I thought there's something you want to show me?”
“There is. So hop in.” His tone is less than inviting.
I look at the yacht double-heartedly. Whatever this guy has in mind, this is absolutely out of the idea that I basically just want a job.
“Let me tell you something, Mr. Crown. I know you're a very wealthy and a man with connections, but whatever you are planning to do, just know that—”
“Lady, you absolutely have a mouth,” he snap. He grips my wrist and I gasp involuntary in response, and he pulls me through the wooden plank that linked the yacht and the dock.
“Sit,” he commands. I watch him take the steering wheel. After the man collected the rope, the yacht comes to life and Crown maneuvers it across the water, heading straight to the extension of the sea. I sit there next to the man, silent and bewildered by the situation.
* * *
I'm starting up at the sails, bulging in a direction in response to the winds collision against it. I have never been in a yacht before, and I'm glad that Crown actually takes me to a trip on one. The sun is setting, painting the sky with hues of orange and red and blue and indigo and tiny dots begins to reappear as the night is approaching. I feel so comfortable, laying down, staring up at the sky, unaware of where this arrogant man will take me—but I'm comfortable.
“Hey, lady,” Crown calls. I quickly stand to my feet, my eyes following the direction of where he is pointing. I rush next to him, leaning against the railing.
An island appeared long before I even realized. At first glance it look inhabited, but when I narrow my eyes to look, I realized there is actually a dock and a mansion in the middle of that island.
“What is that?” I ask, jaw hanging loosely in astonishment.
“I call it Crown Kingdom,” he respond.
“You call it Crown Kingdom?” I giggle.
“Do you often make this habit, mister Crown? Naming random places you don't even have the authority to?”
Laughter in my eyes, I look back at him, seeking for an emotional connection and falling at first hardle. There is no connection. No answering smile, and I begin to comprehend.
“Wait, don't tell me…” I cover my mouth in shock.
“That island is one of the few lands under my name. In other words, I own it.”
Silence takes captive of my words. I knew long before I met him that he's a wealthy man, but to think that he actually owns an island is something that will hunt my pride forever.
“It's one of the many properties and wealth I own, miss Taylor. Everyday I sit on the throne of my kingdom. Never in my life I suffered financial problems and never in my life I envied people. I wasn't expecting that these facts are not sufficient enough for you that you even believe that I don't have everything. That I lack of something.” He inches closer to me and I make an instinctive retreating steps until I am cornered by him. His eyes and mine are locked, face and body dangerously close to each other.
“I can have everything I desire, miss Taylor. Things, foods, cars, women and attention. I can even have you if I want to.”
His last word startle me and I can feel my cheeks burning, lump forming in my throat, panic surging, and I can feel my heart begin to beat in haste that I might actually suffer difficulty breathing.
“Now, what is it that I lack of again, Miss Taylor?” His voice holds the clear indication of his masculinity. So powerful and authoritative. I brainstorm for something to answer and I only come up with an embarrassing one.
“Me?” I reply and regretted it immediately. A lascivious grin then shapes his soft manly lips and his eyes pierces through mine in shared understanding.
“You’re hired, Keila Taylor.”
“What?” I demand, irritation abruptly rising.“But this is too sudden. It's only my first day.”Mister Crown turns his head and looks back at me as he is descending from the yacht down to a speedboat. He's beautiful but his manly brows indicates he is annoyed.“Are you gonna come or not? This is your first day of work, lady. Shouldn't you be obeying your boss’s order rather than complaining?” A brow of his rises.“I’m not complaining, mister Crown. I just wasn't expecting that we're going to spend the weekend here on my first day. I wasn't even prepared,” I reason, fidgeting on the spot I am standing.“Well, weren't you just talking about adaptability and bullshits mere hours ago?” he respond. He's right. I was. But I wasn't expecting that I'd be needing it so soon. I thought he didn't need it.“Well yes…”“Then hurry up.”I stare at him double-heartedly for a moment. He's my boss and as her secretary it's my responsibility and obligation to do what I am told. But isn't this way too s
I conceal my face with the use of the mask, and Jane follows suit. She climbs from the vehicle first and as immediately as she does, she already seems to consume everybody's attention. I am not surprised. If I am one of these men, I'd most likely turn my head and have a boner with Jane in sight. She's wearing mesmerizing clothing. From being dark, the dress twirls down into waves of midnight blue, glittering stars sparkling from the V-line that crossed her chest, allowing a generous view of her cleavage. Earrings that seem to glint are hanging in each of her ears. They're very simple and minimalist, not as head-turner as mine, but equally beautiful. She looks incredibly attractive and the only thing I'm hoping for at this moment is that she's aware of it.I breathe deeply. I didn't realize that guests come in such a number. They're wearing their expensive suits and dresses and glinting jewelries that almost blinds me. Jane looks down through the window and gestures her head. I nod at
The sun's rays peeks through the bay window of Jordan's rest house and I barely open my eyes to check. I pound my temples. My throat feels dry, a vein on my forehead throbbing and I feel like I just got out of a spinning car. This must be the effect of the alcohol I drank last night. I carefully push myself up to sit and stops abruptly when the throbbing in my head kicks painfully hard. Oh what a pleasant morning!I climb out of the bed and rush to the bathroom. I am mortified by the face in the mirror that greets me. I must have been very drunk that I actually forgot to take off my make up. Now I look like a raccoon, heavy black mascara and liner smudged around my eyes like lopsided dark rings. I sigh. Good thing I didn't give in Jordan's charm immediately last night. If I did he would have seen me in this miserable look. I turn the faucet, taking my make up off with the running water, washing my face several times. I pluck several tissues from a box on the shelf and wipe it all ov
I open my eyes and study the four corners around me. Last night had ignited quickly that I almost forgot the time Jordan carried me to his bed. Last night was something special, and I won't deny that I've been looking forward for it since we arrived here. The ritual had been long, steamy and slow and each second spent with him last night I have cherished. An experience I will carry with me to my grave. I stare thoughtfully at the naked man I am on top of. It's as if I am a prisoner, willingly offering myself to his captive. I glide my fingers down to his chest, each well-defined muscle of him marking forever in my mind. I wanted Jordan all along. Shame how I didn't realize it sooner.Carefully I move away from him as I plan to get to the bathroom. I startle when his arms catches me by my waist.“Where do you think you're going, woman?” Jordan sits erect and nibbles on my ear, keeping me close.“Jordan, you surprised me. I'm not planning to sneak out. I promise,” I chuckle.“I just w
Friday | Crown Building “Sir, I just received an invitation from Mr. Barkley. He says he would like you to come to a dinner party at his mansion next Saturday,” I say to Mr. Crown politely as he is sitting in his chair, his fingers running across the keyboard of his laptop.“Refuse the invitation. I already have plans this Saturday,” he orders with high authority.“Noted, sir.” I type something on the iPad I am holding, composing a response for Mr. Barkley's invitation. I scroll down to unread messages on his emails and finds a message from someone that impacts me such. I hesitate for a bit.“You have a message from Barbara Lang, sir,” I stutter intermittently.Mr. Crown pauses and the faint sound of the keyboard suddenly vanishes. His eyes casts up at me. The same eyes that used to look at me with interest. But now, beneath those blue eyes oh his is pure nothing but ice.“What does she want?” He sighs disappointedly, like he has received a message from someone who's in debt with him
After my shift ended, Jean and I met at the local bar we used to go to.The bar is loud and reverberating, and looks downright painful to the eye. Disco lights dances and spins, a catchy playlist of nothing but disco songs fills the establishment with power and energy—the exact opposite of what feelings I possess the whole time I got here.Women wiggle their bodies like worms, quietly offering themselves to potential one night stands while men decide who to pick. Stereotyped situations like this never get old, and it can never be denied because why else would sinners go to bars? To get laid of course. “This is your suggestion?” I shout over the ear splitting sound that colonized the entirety of the establishment.“This is everybody's suggestion!” Jean shouts back.“Why else would you visit bars like this? To drink your troubles away of course. To get wasted!”Jean howls and begins to wiggle, influenced by the catchy music.“Come on! Dance!” she bubbles, shaking her limbs, dancing ero
Entirely unprepared for the physical impact of the man, I cease to breathe. From the way Jean would glance at the two of us, it must have been obvious from her; Sebastian's eyes and mine sharing the same comprehension. I don't realize her existence at first, too stunned to even look away from this handsome specimen. It should be a crime to look this attractive. If that would somehow be a law, this man would be guilty and most likely sentenced to death. Our gaze settles for a moment, but for me it seems like I am counting everyone's fingers.I should still be in agony. I should still look gloomy. However with the surprising presence and the mysterious blaze of his charisma deep within those eyes of his, all the negative emotions suddenly seem to slowly disappear. He's not Jordan Crown, but he also has a bad effect on me.Jean clears her throat, causing me to shake my mind off of my reverie. I look away and avoid the man's gaze, who seem to be doing the same.“You almost forgot that I
Saturday | New YorkI open my eyes and cover it immediately, troubled by the warm light that the sun has bathe me over. My head feels heavy and I almost feel like I'm inside a spinning wheel. My stomach grumbles, intestines wiggling like worms. I look around and find myself lying down on the back of Sebastian's white pick-up car, covered by a blanket. I look at myself underneath and realize I'm still naked. I collect my discarded clothings and put them back around my body accordingly as I remain lying down to restrict views from anyone.I push my spine up and sit down on the floor. I glance around the beach. It's so lonely, so calm and tranquil. It's so quiet that I can hear the faint sound of the waves waffling against the sand. The wind blows to my face, but it almost feels like nothing but a kiss from nature. The surrounding feels so peaceful. It almost feels like Earth was reformed and goes back to the state of hers which she's proud of—and the sun—shining through the billowing c
By the time Sebastian arrives in the visiting room, and sits on the opposite, across the mirror that separates the two of us, he looks rather concerned than frightened. He is accompanied by two uniformed officers and handcuffs limit his hands from unnecessary movements. The bright orange of the inmate uniform he wears glows, but his face doesn't. Our eyes meet for a moment before he decides to sit down. He drops his eyes in visible guilt. I almost cried watching wearing that outfit and in handcuffs. Sebastian wasn't like this a few months ago. He used to be the charming, charismatic, outgoing and nice vocalist who once colored my life. And now his life is dull. He looks tired and pale, and wrinkles begin to form on his face in just a matter of days. And yes I said 'he used to'. Implying something that went down the drain miserably. It's horrifying how one person's life can change in an instant. I grab the telephone hanging against the wall, putting it next to my ear. I wait for
The last glimpse I gave to sleeping Jordan is when I prepared to take off. He was sleeping comfortably and as if in a beautiful dream. I would admit I was hesitating that time and had the urge to rather go back to sleep with him than do this stupid mission. And now I'm on one of the villagers boats and managed to convince him to take me back to New York which is roughly fifteen minutes of sailing from the island. The cold wind that touches the sea before waffling against my face makes me shiver. The same way it makes me as I predict how my mission will end. I needed to sneak from Jordan. I know damn well he won't let me go get my stuff and say my last farewell to his brother. I know I need to do it myself. Who knows what Jordan might do if he goes instead.I won't lie that I'm still having anxiety. Mainly about how Sebastian would react. Would he beat me like what he did a few days ago? Is he doing smoothly by now? The time should be enough for him to clear his mind right? Or is it? I
Love never felt this strong. The wanting, yearning and longing for nothing but his general existence is one struggle I won't hesitate to take over and over again. Jordan for the second time awakened something deep within me I never knew existed until it bloomed, and when I realized it, it was way too late. He has already taken captive my heart, and I doubt he ever has plans to let it go. But I can live with that. In fact I'd even encourage him to do so. Jordan carved my heart, let it go because of failure and was found by his brother. But his brother was not a keeper. Sebastian treated me with no importance. And now the carved heart has finally made its way back again. Perhaps I really was meant to be his. Perhaps it was all a test of time, a test of how great the emotions we shared before. So many things love can affect. Just like how more exciting and pleasurable making love with him has become. He felt so eager, so hungry and full of passion. Not like the rough and selfish sex we
In your adult days—that span where you most likely first experienced a midlife crisis, were you still able to feel great excitement each day of your waking? The same kind of excitement we used to have when we were kids? The same excitement toddlers used to have that restricts them from sleeping? The kind of excitement that seems to highlight the color of your life you weren't expecting the kind of glow was possible? The adrenaline, the consistent and uncontrollable innocent grin and the tippy toes that just seem to not know how to calm down? That kind of excitement? I hope you still did. Because in my case…I do. I open my eyes, blurry and wet and glinting with a strange gleam. This is the first day this year where I am actually looking forward to the day. I actually feel energetic. I must have had a long and undisturbed sleep because I am feeling like I'm in a different body. A new body. But perhaps it's not the body that's new. For years of being in my adult lifespan, I have never f
“Can you walk?” Jordan asks as he guides me up from the bed. I force my feet myself up with every effort that I look like a simple stand is difficult to do. “Yeah. I’m alright,” I reply, enduring the prickling sensation all over my legs. He maintains his assistive hand on mine until I finally stand tall on my feet. The whole thing feels like an achievement. As if standing is something I have never done since the day I was born. I let out a long gasp of relief—the same manner as a thirsty traveler finally drinking water. “That wasn't so bad at all.” I grin, which in response he imitates. “Are you sure you want to walk around? You know you have to take some rest first, right?” says Jordan.“Laying down for the whole day won't help me get over what happened. I'll just end up thinking about it. I need something to occupy myself with,” I reason.“And you think in that state of yours you can do something other than walk?”Before I can ever reply, my limbs suddenly explode in weakness.Be
Confusion and consciousness seems to collapse over me at the awakening of my eyes. The display appears foggy and blurry and as if the world becomes nothing but a Merry-go-round—spinning and spinning, until it finally reaches to the point of my clear vision. A sting quickly triggers the nerves above my eyes as if it's my brows that somehow caused it. My body feels weak and dead and as if I've been in a coma longer than I have ever lived. As if heavy weights laid organized in every part of my body, except for my head. My spine feels stiff because with every effort I give to sit down, I just end up in a series of helpless gasps. I blink my eyes several times, further adjusting my view in focus.I look around. The surrounding is familiar, looking straight out from a place I believe I have been before. A wealthy guy's bedroom, with dark walls and ceilings mostly adored by those ruthless gangsters. The bedroom is abnormally large—as large as Sebastian and I used to live in. That's right. N
Sebastian keeps his tight grip around my wrist as he silently drags me out of the venue. Several people turned to look, but none bothered to intervene—not even Jordan.He clasps my wrist so hard that it almost feels like he's about to shatter the bone inside. Several times I attempted to pull my arm out for my escape because I had already expected another beating from him—something there's no way I'm gonna let happen again.We reach his car—the only time he finally let go of my hand “What’s wrong with you?” I ask, but deep down I already possess the knowledge as to why he suddenly acts drastically. He freezes in the spot he's standing, arms in the waist, visibly fuming. And then he transfers his dangerously dark eyes to me—the eyes that possess mixed emotions in which anger stands out. “When are you planning to tell me, Keila?” And that simple phrase his mouth utters proves my guess even more.“Tell you what?” I swallow hard, uncomfortably carrying the guilt around my shoulders.“Th
Part IIIWe arrive at the venue five minutes before eight. The sky provided a natural disco ball into the house for the guests that had been coming in dozens. The place is fairly-lit, like a setting straight out from books like Pride and Prejudice. A place that holds the kind of lighting that emits a Dark Academia vibe. As expected, each and every lady is sported in expensive dresses, decorated with gold and silver, faces covered by well applied makeup and foundations that didn't fail to make them look and feel good. And as for the gentlemen, suits of various colors are proudly represented by their figures. All with expensive watches that supplied the requirement for a stylish men's attires. As Sebastian and I climb out of the vehicle, and as crowds of suits and dresses trace the stairs that lead them to the entrance, hesitation stops me for a brief moment. I don't know what it actually is that's keeping me from taking one more step.Is it because Sebastian and I are still not on go
I have always believed that there's nothing more painful than break up. But then I realize, being in a relationship where you feel like you don't belong is a greater predicament. I used to feel Sebastian's unconditional love for me. Like he was the sun and I was the flower that happily opens and blooms as another day reunites us. He used to take care of me with his sunshine, giving me the nutrients I need to blossom, and I accepted it, wholeheartedly. Everything seems different now. He's trying to burn me now, his strong heat wanting to destroy me every time he's angry. He did it again. He hurt me once more.Or rather… He destroyed me.. . .The night was sleepless and the tears and agony accompanied me the whole time I lay on the bed. My heart feels like being dropped with a weight, crushing it down into fragments. Sebastian used to be someone to me. He was the one who brought spark to my life, but what's upsetting is that he's also the one who took it. I'm drowning. Now I know w