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2024-10-29 19:42:56I watched Zee, taking in her facial expression. There was no hint of amusement, this sounded serious, as in the serious that I was not ready to follow through. I was scared of what she would say. I wanted to avoid any talk of anything negative or bad right now, I was not ready for it. I had to decline her offer, not because I hated or disliked talking to Zee. It was because I had a feeling, than negative nagging feeling that I always felt when I knew that I was going to be roped into a conversation or a talk that would involve me opening out, and pouring out my emotions. I did not want that. "Zee, I do not want any of that, not right now at least. Please." I was trying to walk away, when she quickly grabbed my arm, stopping me from advancing in anything, like walking away from her. But I felt there was a deeper reason, like me avoiding any talk of anything personal.
"No, Alexis. Please. We need to talk about this. You can not run or escape from this."
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"I do not know what you want me to say Zee." But I knew exactly what she wanted me to say and I knew exactly what I wanted to say. I wanted to say something, anything that had some type of substance. I wanted to say something that represented how I felt inside. I mean I knew what she wanted, but I was not sure if exactly that, that I could give it to her. I was still conflicted as to how and why I did that. I was in such a trance like state that it did not even cross my life who or what that I would be living behind. But regardless, what was done was done. Now all I could do was fathom how and if that gun contained the real bullets, then what? What would happen then? And what would I do then? I would have left everyone and everything I love, I would have left all of them behind. Godness, I can not even think about something like that, it was almost too much and too hard to bear."I know that you know what you want to say, Alexis. I know how you feel. Truly, I do. But if
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I could tell undoubtedly and undeniably there was a lingering side to her story. And I would be lying if I said that I was not desperate to know more about it. "I have not told you this," Zee continued with her head hanging low. It then occurred to me that whatever the SIM took from her also, that it must have been hard for her too. As in really hard, because I have never seen her as sad as this, ever before. Except obviously with Jordon. But, no matter how we or she felt about him. About Jordon, there was no lie that Jordon was a traitor, he may not have deserved to die. And that image of him dying would always haunt me. I mean it always did, it would come consistently like clockwork in my dreams. But right now, I had to push myself back on to the line of being able to comfort her, comfort Zee. She needed it. I placed a gentle hand on hers and squeezed. I could tell that gave her the ample strength that she needed to push on, she needed this as much as anything else. "But, when we
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I saw a break in what she was about to say, and I took that as an opportunity to ask this question. "Zee. Would you say that you loved him?"She looked at me, peering in to my eyes as if there was nothing else that she could do. "Love is complicated, Alexis. It is not as easy and clean cut as you think or believe it is. There are many things that you have to take account of. It is not that straightforward."I could tell that she was trying to skirt around the question and the topic, there was never a proper time that I thought that if someone did not love someone then it would not have been clear. I knew for a fact, that she loved him, and I knew for a fact that it was clear. She did not have to tell me, I knew it already. "I do not think it is that complicated Zee. It is either you loved him or not.""So what if I did? Would that change anything? Will my whole life be destroyed and altered and turned around because I love him.""What? No, that is not wha
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My mind flashed back to me and Zee. In that hotel room, wrapped and covered in each other's arms, as I gave her encouragement that I knew at that time, more than anything that she needed. I guess I needed to tap into that side again, that side that was caring, intuitive and compassionate. She has been here for me, for as long as I could even begin to remember. She needed me, now. More than ever. "Zee. Zee. Look at me." But her eyes still remained glued to her hands. Slowly and gently, I took her hand apart, and guided it towards me, so that she would have no choice but to be forced to look at my face. As her eyes leveled upwards to my own, I smiled gently at her. "That is better, now I can see your beautiful, smiling face. Zee, you need to understand something, it is not always that you can have been this brave, confident, strong, independent woman that I know that you are. You need to have break downs, like me. Like I have all the time." I smiled jokingly at her, which she gave bac
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I mirrored back what he said. I stopped and spun him around, so that he was facing me. Isaiah's smiling face peered back up at mine. "Your finance. Fully and wholly yours, Isaiah. Always and forever. And there is nothing and nobody that could change that." Before I could get another sound or word in, he dragged me down to his level, putting me in his lap, and trapping my lips with his. As he hands trailed down and through my waist, and my entire body. It felt like I was on fire, his touch and everything about him invoked and lit something in me that I could not swallow down, I leaned closer in him, breathing him in, until he was all I could sense and feel. Before he could pull away again, I dragged him down one. Deepening the kiss even further. "Alexis." My name came out as more of a moan than anything else, and I pulled him further in. Hearing my name in his name drove me haywire. It made me think and feel things that I knew were not appropriate to even say out loud. As muc
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So we made our way to the table and sat down at our individual places, still wrapped up in the aura and air of ultimate freedom, peace, and happiness. There was never a moment that passed that made me believed that in all of everything that there was never a time for me and Isiaih, there was never a time that the both of us did not want each others' presence. The aroma from the food waft and the scent resided in my senses. Godness, I forgot how well that Zee could cook. Before Isaiah could say anything else, I already had a fork that was suspended in the air with rounds of spaghetti on it. The aim was to head into my mouth, but before I could fully slide it in, I looked up, only to see Isaiah staring back at me with an amused expression on his face, looking down at the feed of pasta in my hand. I laughed, placing the fork down, and looked back up at him. "What?"Still smiling, he shrugged. "Please, no, by all means, eat. I know how hungry you must be." We shared a knowing loo
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I took a deep exhale out, releasing all the pent up emotions that I seemed to be harboring nad storing deep within me. I had to tell him, I knew that. And I was going to, I was going to tell him. I gave him a small smile. "Isaiah, you know how much I love you, right? And you know how much I care about you, and I want you always, right by my side without fail-"Abruptly, he stopped my ranting, giving me a small brief smile. "I know." He grabbed my hand, and squeezed it tighter. "I know, Alexis. Please let me in, tell me everything. I want you to open up."I nodded, gifting him another small smile. "It is not very different to things encompassing and surrounding that, you know. I wanted you more than I wanted anyone else, there was never a situation or issue that I have ever had, that you were not there, guiding me through, helping me and being there for me. And without that, without you, and without your support it was hard to even function. I could not separate my feel
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His eyes glazed a darker haze, as I could see clearly almost as clear as the bright blue sky during a warm, sunny day, I could see that he wanted me. As in he wanted every part of me, I could see the whole thing behind his eyes, and it made me feel as if he needed more, more than anything. And I would be lying if I said that I did not need him as well, I needed him more than I could even manage to say, I needed him as much as I could fathom to say. It was time, I was ready. I was ready to take that deep plunge. But behind all that hazy darkness, there was some doubt still lingering behind it, I mean it was soft, hazy but it was there. It was there, I knew it was, and I needed to reassure him, I needed to reassure him that aside of everything that he was the one, that he was the one that I wanted.So this was the only thing that I knew that I had to do, I held his face, with both hands clasped around his face. I was confident in it, I mean, I had to be, if I was not, eve
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I looked at Elijah, then at Isaiah, the only thing that I could do was to look at all my friends with the utmost confusion that I could muster. What in the hell were they actually talking about? "What do you mean? Do not tell me that all of you concocted some other ridiculous plan about how you are going to save me? It is not going to work, there is no way that you guys could have come up with a plan in less than forty eight hours."I felt Isaiah's hand on mine first, as he looked at me, with the same amount of determination that he always has when it is regarding my life and well being. "But Alexis, what if we can, what if we can save you. Would you accept our help? Would you take that risk, for us, for me? Would you?" I looked at him, as in really looked at him, and I knew it, I just knew it deep down within me that he was not lying, he really was not. They have come up with a plan that is going to save me, I myself was not intent of dying, so if there was a way back,
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He smiled, the stretch on his face pulled him in to a wide and bright smile. It was weird actually, I never really thought that I would have made a good wife, but I was more than willing to try for Isaiah, he was everything that I wanted and more. There was nothing that he could not say to me that I would not do for him, nothing. But I knew that I had to do this, not just for only him, but for me too. I had to do it, because if I did not, I am not entirely sure what hope our future had, and that fact was more scary than anything. "I love you, Isaiah. I really do."Although, I saw that hint of sadness crown his features, I could see in clear as day in his eyes that he loved me too, he loved me more than anything. And if there was something I was thankful for, it was most definitely that. He loved me, he loved at me as if I was this rare treasure, this rare jewel that he never thought in his life that he could gain a hold of, but here I was. In front of him, in his arms. Slowly
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Before Miss Smith- Anna could say anything else, Isaiah quickly interjected himself, "No! This is not happening, I will not even let anyone entertain the idea." His hand grabbed mine and he squeezed it, hard, I turned to face him. His eyes said everything that I knew he was keeping locked in his heart. I knew that he could not break his composure, but I also knew that it was killing him that I would even think of something like this. For him, it was like I was leaving him, almost like a betrayal. But for me, it was more like a gift from me to him, it was a chance of a better life for him. "Alexis, why are you even thinking about doing this? Have we not been happy? Why would you want to throw it all away when we can find another way around this. It is not fair, please do not do this to me."I looked at him, as in really looked at him, and all I could gift him was a small smile. He would never understand, even if I told him, he would think that I was just doing it to fabricate
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She was silent for a while, but I knew that she heard me loud and clear, I could see the gears turning behind her eyes, and I saw all she wanted to know and to tell me, without her even needing to move her lips. There was fear and apprehension, but eventually, she nodded. "If that is what you want and that is what you wish for then, so be it."Isaiah was the first one to make a quick protest, "Are you actually kidding me right now. No." Abruptly he turned to me, "No, Alexis, no. You can not do this you are bringing yourself up for slaughter, and no one at all she be even saying something like that."Zee's hands rest on me, and I turned my attention towards her, "Alexis, Isaiah is right, this is nothing more than an execution on your part. You do not have to sacrifice yourself for us to live. That is not necessary, and it will never, ever be necessary." My eyes then met Elijah, sitting directly opposite me, and he just shook his head. Simple and slow. Side to side. Ther
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I was in Isaiah's room wrapped in his embrace, enjoying his warmth when Zee stormed in. Her eyes fueled with fury and there was a hint of something scared between them. My mind started racing rapidly, and the first thing that I could think of was Evan. I mean, Isaiah was okay, I was in his arms, and Zee would not the one to barge in like that for no good reason, especially with the expression she had on her face, right now.Instantly, I forced myself out of Isaiah's embrace, and looked at her straight in the eyes. I do not know what I was searching for, possibly any bad news about Evan, that could only be communicated through the eyes, before she told me out right. But I could not find anything, I mean the clear explanation was that she was trained to be able to effectively conceal her emotions, and she did it well. "What? What is it, Zee. Please tell me, tell me now.""Alexis, you have to come quickly. Miss Smith needs to see you. Now."My bre
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"You can never keep your hands off what is someone else." I do not think there has ever been a time, and I mean there has never been a time, ever in my life that I have ever seen Isaiah look this angry, and he has had his fair bout of outbursts in his lifetime, it was almost painful to see him like, all because of me. I did not know what to do, even placing my hands on his chest to calm him down, was beginning to scare the living hell out of me, I did not know what to do. So, I did nothing, and just stood there. But, I still was acting as a barrier between Isaiah and Elijah.I turned over to Elijah, who did not look the slightest bit upset with me, he just gave me a small smile, when I mouth a quick sorry and in return, he gave me another small nod. He was not angry, but I knew that he should have been. I mean, I would, because yes, I said it so I could clear my conscience, but it did not mean that I did not just fracture and damage the relationship that they shared as
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There it was, the word vomit that was creeping up inside my throat, gear to escape, I knew that telling him the truth, and the end of things, would prove much greater than lying to him, just as I knew that the truth always had a nasty habit of leaking out, and against my better judgment, I knew against everything that I did, that the truth would eventually come out, whether I truly liked it or not. And I knew that deep down, there was nothing that scared me more than that. Nothing at all, so I took the deep dive, and I opened up emotionally, mentally and physically. I could tell that the heart was becoming very evident on my face because he looked at me, Isaiah looked at me, as if there was something deeper that he had to know. Both of his arms wrapped around my own, "Alexis." His voice dropped, the tone considerably lower than before, "What is the matter? Tell me, what is wrong?"I looked down, I could not bear anything in him to look him straight in his eyes, he lifted my h
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"Congrats, Alexis." I am so proud of you, Zee quickly engulfed me in a tight and quick hug, I almost felt as though I was suffocating, but if that was not enough to tell me how proud of me that she was, I really did not know what would. Right now, they decided conveniently, to hold an after party, as a sort of celebration for me, and the apparent hope that they now had, not as though I could be able to do everything by myself. It was not just solely and wholly me. It was not, and I do not think that it will ever be that. I had the help of Miss Smith, and everything surrounding that, without her, I do not think that I would have been able to reach this stage as I have done now. So, I have to give all my thanks and appreciation to her, and only her in my honest opinion. But they all insisted, and I would feel as though I was being ungrateful if I did not accept it. There was no teachers present, there was only agents, and soldiers, and Evan. Zee did the courtesy of collecting him from
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I walked up further to the front of the stage, and I could feel the paper that I was currently holding in my hand shake, as in it was not the type of shake that would be easy to hide, it was clear and evident and very. very out there and it was that bad that I knew that I was struggling to keep myself still. I took a deep breath in and out, and then in again, thinking that would prove something, and hopefully that would calm me down. But to no avail, I felt myself trying to swallow down the upcoming bile that was raising steadily and rapidly in my throat. Come on, Alexis, come on you can do this. My eyes found Isaiaih's again as he gave me a small, encouraging smile, his blue eyes lightening up and he gave me a thumbs up. I smiled appreciably, and nodded, releasing the breath that I currently took in. I can do this. I know that I can.I looked down at the paper in front of me, and it was as if the words on the page started blurring and moving around everywhere. I was st
