Eight hours earlier (Axel's POV)
Blood.
Blood everywhere, sinking into the dark as fuck forest ground, as I stand there not knowing what the fuck to do for the second time in 24 hours.
Fuck, fuck, fuck, what did you do, Axel? What the fuck did you do!?
Nine hours earlier
"I'm here, you fucking asshole, like you said I have to be. Now what?" I bark, climbing out of my car and slamming the door behind me.
Sophie's P.O.V."Axel? Is that a blood stain?" I ask him again because of his lack of response.He seemed to have stiffened up completely, just looking at me with his mouth closed and I immediately know that it's definetly blood stain.Shit, what did he do now?I gulp, my hands starting to shake in slight panic at all the possibilities running around in my head. He could've gotten into a fight, most probably and it's either his or the other guy's blood. He could've fallen and injured himself.
"This is it?" I ask as Axel finally stops his car after 3 more hours of driving. We were far away from Spokane now, no doubt. I slept most of the ride, exhausted from the lack of sleep."Yep." he says, and climbs out of the car then waits for me to come out, too. It was the middle of the afternoon and we still had a few hours till nightfall."Where are we?" I climb out the car as well and walk towards Axel, taking his hand to feel safer in an unknown location."Canada." he replies and begins to walk us towards the poor looking motel in front of us.
The night sky above me is clear and filled with small shiny stars. It seems like the whole universe is at peace, except me.Do I go with him? Do I change my life again? Or do I stay? I have managed to survive without him, I could do it again probably even if I hated every second of my life.I groan out loud and put my head in my hands. What do I do?!"Don't stress yourself out so much, baby." Axel cooes and sits behind me on the balcony, each leg on my side, then he wraps his arms around me. We sit there in silence for a few more moments, before I sigh. "I love you, you know that, right?" I ask him and feel his lips on
The way ahead of me seems long, too long, and terrifying as I sit in the back of a train, driving back home. In my heart there is immense sadness, filling my being and making my thoughts unbearable, yet I still try to convince myself that I'm doing the right thing. I'm keeping my life together, for all the right reasons.It doesn't seem like it, though. It seems like I made the biggest mistake of my life, choosing to leave Axel behind. There's a small piece of hope I keep on clinging to, a foolish piece of me, that he will come after me. He won't and I know it, but I still hold on to the hope, the hope that at the moment is the only thing keeping me on my feet.When tomorrow comes, I'll be on my own,
Axel's P.O.V.Deep breaths.In, out. In, out.Come on. It's not like it's fucking hard.But it is, it is, it really fucking is.Still keeping my eyes shut, I refuse to move. I'm still, pretending not to be awake at the moment. Actually, I think I'm trying not to fucking be alive right now. I don't really want to breathe. It seems like it would be useless, kind of just prolonging the inevitable. I woke up half an hour ago without the f
Sophie's P.O.V.I wake up again with the sick feeling in my stomach, which makes me run to the toilet and empty out my empty stomach. Again.Considering the dreams I had, my body's reaction does not surprise me.I crumble beside the toilet after I'm done. This time, the house is alone. This time, nobody comes to check if I'm okay. Not like it helps, anyway. Not that it'd make me okay.Yesterday Sonia came to pick me up at the train station and I could see in her eyes that she knew it happened, again. She didn't say a word, however. It
Axel's P.O.V.Phone buzzing brings be out of the shitty sleep and dream I had. I groan and reach out with my hand, feeling for the fucking phone but instead touching something wet, cold and sticky.Fuck me, that's vomit.I pull back my fucking hand and groan. Fucking disgusting.Standing up, I run to the bathroom to empty out the rest of my stomach into the shitty toilet in this cheap hotel room. While vomiting my ass off because of all the alcohol consumed yesterday, pieces of her come back to me, like they always fucking do.
My muscles hurt, they hurt like they've never hurt before but I continue to punch the fucking bag in front of me.In my mind, a scene from when I almost died keeps repeating like a shitty movie, and I never want it to happen again, never want to let anyone have the power over me the way Greyson had, so I keep on punching the fucking bag.Hold on, keep it up, only five more fucking minutes and then you can take a breath, Axel.I'm so focused on hitting the punching bag that when a hand touches my shoulder, I almost knock out the owner of the hand.
The next day"Hey baby." Axel's raspy voice greets me as I open my eyes, beyond tired.Something seems different, but I can't exactly put my finger to it."Axel?" I ask, but I'm answered by a baby's cry. "Shit." Axel silently curses and I'm completely awake all of a sudden.
"This is not how I imagined spending the last day of the year." Amber groans, holding me up by my arm, Liam on the other. I can walk, but they insisted that precausion was necessary."Sorry, guys, I just- I couldn't spend another day locked inside the house without... Well you know." I muster up a shitty apology for the shitty situation I'm in.Axel's been gone a week today and I can't stand to even think about it.
Axel's P.O.V."I'm sorry, okay? Fuck, I've forgotten what it's like to ask forgiveness from people who aren't Sophie." She always caves in quite soon, thankfully."Yeah, well, I'm not fucking Sophie and that's a pitiful fucking apology, you need to do better." coach replies, shutting the door of his bedroom in my face.
Axel's P.O.V.I slam the door behind me, kicking the snow underneath my boots as I make my way to the car. I'm still hungover and my alcohol level is probably way fucking higher than it should be, which is why Catherine brought me home. She was the only one sober in the apartment and wouldn't let me drive on my own.Well, she's not here no stop me now so she can suck dick.
"You were with a woman?" I ask, careful to not let my voice break. Deep down, however, I know he wouldn't cheat on me.Would he?No, Axel wouldn't.He rolls his eyes, like the child he is. "No, I wasn't. I thought you trust - why are we even talking about this? What is he doing in our f
I push him away in shock. "What the hell do you think you're doing?" I'm beyond angry at this point and I wish I pushed him harder and he'd hit the ground. The baby inside me kicks, like he's excited."What does it look like? I'm trying to show you that he isn't the only one who can make you feel good." he responds calmly and I wonder for a second if he has an actual death wish or he's just plain dumb.I don't remember him being like this.
"You can't marry Axel, Sophie." he blurts out instead of greeting me back.I frown. What on Earth is he talking about? "What do you mean?""Don't marry Axel. Just... Don't. It's a bad idea." he says again and I'm as confused as ever. "Can I come in?" he adds after a while when I stay speechless. Not knowing what to say, I just open the door a little further, signaling him to enter.
Every drink makes my smile, my courage and my guilty conscience bigger, however I keep on drinking because as long as I'm drunk, I'm not realizing the fact that I have a kid and will soon have another. It also makes me forget that I have a serious fucking job because of a person that I threw away like garbage.I ignored all the shit that was building up and now it's overflowing.I quickly drown another glass of Whiskey to drown the guilt of calling my children shi
"This is exactly why I love you. You seem so fucking innocent and good yet here you are, in our bathroom, taking my pants off to shove my dick in your mouth." I whisper to her while we kiss, making her moan in response."I's the hormones... There are so many in my body right now, I can barely control myself." she admits, finally winning the battle with the zipper and eagerly pulling my pants and underwear down, squeezing my dick in her petite white hand.I harshly