PART ONE
Today is a normal day.
Well, if you ignore the fact that today is my first day in the new high school and I'm almost shitting my pants because of the stress I'm under. I know that juniors are supposed to be pretty cool and relaxed but that just isn't how I am. To make matters worse, I don't know anybody at school because our family moved here only a week ago and during that week I rather stayed in the house and watched Netflix instead of going out and interacting with my new neighbours.
I stretch my arms and legs, slowly coming to the realization that the summer is over. Grumpily, I push myself out of the bed and start dragging myself to the bathroom across the hall.
My reflection almost scares me. Holy crap, I look horrible. Damn it, it will take me forever to look decent. I grab a brush and work my way through the dark nest on my head until it looks decently straight. Then I wash my face and apply mascara to make my blue eyes slightly pop and go to get dressed. By the time I'm done, I'm late. Quickly, I grab my lunch from the counter, put it in my bag and start running to school.
Oh God, I hope I don't get lost. I have the general idea of where it is because my dad showed me the way on some map he found on Google, but with my sense of orientation I could easy end up at some deserted beach where I would get killed by some psycho, even if this is Montana.
Thankfully, after good 5 minutes of running, an old building, which I recognise as my school, starts to show up in front of me. I pick up my pace and soon make it to the parking lot. When I see that there are no people outside I start panicking and quickly walk into the school, looking for the principal's office, where an elderly woman greets me with a big smile on her face. “Hello dear. How may I help you?”
"Hi, my name is Sophia Watson and..."
"Oh, you're the new girl! Of course, come in!« she invites me in, making me smile with relief at her cheerful personality. “Here, this is the map and this it the paper on which you have to circle the courses you wish to take this semester. she tells me and I quickly check the options, deciding that I definitely prefer Biology to Physics.
A few minutes later I'm back in the school hallway with my nose deep in the map, trying to find my math class. I groan to myself when I see that it's on the other side of the school and start to put the map back in my bag.
And then I hit something hard.
"What the fuck?" a deep male voice whispers from above me and I look up to see a pair of green eyes staring angrily down at me.
"I'm sor-..."
"Don't fucking apologize, just watch where you're going." he interrupts me.
I furrow my brows. Who the hell does he think he is? I might be new here, but I sure won't let people talk to me in that way. I give him a fake smile. "Well I was doing something and didn't see you. Maybe you should watch where you're going as well, considering you crashed into me just the same. I hope your ego isn't so big it's blocking your vision. Maybe you should go see a optician in that case. Or a psychologist."
“What the fuck are you talking about? Who the hell are you?” he takes a step closer, narrowing his eyes.
“I'm someone who won't let you talk to her like that, dick. Maybe if you met more people with a spine you might actually have turned out okay. Shame, really.” I push him further and his nostrils flare at my words.
“Watch your words, little bitch. You're obviously new here but let me be kind enough to give you a tip.” he says lowly, slowly cornering me into a wall. “You really, really don't want to get on my bad side.”
I lift my brow. “Or what?”
He smirks the kind of smile that sends shivers down my spine. “Keep up this little attitude of yours and you'll find out.” His jaw clenches and his green eyes slowly seem to turn darker shade of green, almost so you could mistake them for black, and suddenly, I'm not as brave anymore. Who knows what an asshole like him could do to protect his pride?
Lucky for me, I didn't have to find out because in that moment the bell rings.
Oh, sweet mother of Jesus, thank you.
He slowly backs away from me, rage burning in his eyes, but he knows that people will be swarming the halls any moment now.
This is the first time I actually check him out. He is tall. That is my first observation. And he really is tall; probably a foot taller than me. On his head there is an unruly mop of brown locks and a piercing in his brow. His arms and neck are completely covered in tattoos and he looks dangerous; dangerous but hot as hell. I look into his eyes and see that they are still looking at me, observing me, judging me.
"This isn't over yet." he says and a second later the pupils fill the hallways and take him with them.
"Hey, are you okay?" a kind voice brings me back to reality. I tear my eyes away from where the mysterious man left and look at the person speaking to me. He has short brown hair and is quite tall, but still shorter than the guy I just fought with. His brown eyes look a bit worried but they seem nice."Yes, I just dozed off a bit." I reply.He smiles at me and nods. "I know the feeling yeah, it happens to me a lot."I smile back at him and outstretch my hand. "I'm Sophia, I'm new here."
I break the eyecontact first. I can't stand staring into those cold eyes for a second longer. If I would, I would cry.I hate the way he's making me feel; like I'm worth less than him, like I'm a stupid, naive child. "Let me go." I whisper, looking at anything but him. He doesn't even budge, though I can still feel his eyes on me. "I said let me go!" I say with more force and push him off of me. Surprisingly, he steps away from me.I look him in the eyes for one last time and say:"You are a horrible person. I hate you." He only rolls his eyes in response and starts walking away from me. I wait fo
When Liam sees us in our last class, he almost doubles over in surprise.I sigh:"I'll explain later. I'm sorry we can't sit together this week." I apologize sincerely. I know he's probably as happy as me that he finally has a friend, if not even more."Okay, I'll call you after class. Can you give me your number?" he requests and I quickly scribble it down on the corner of his notebook.He smiles:"Thanks."
Tears start to form in my eyes at the thought of what just happened.Nobody has ever talked to me like that; especially not implied rape on me. I'm a virgin, I've never even had a boyfriend so to say that I'm shocked is an understatement.A silent grunt snaps me out of the transe I'm in and I immediately remember why I'm here.Axel.
The weekend passes quickly and calmly but when Sunday evening comes around, my nerves get the best of me. I only sleep for about 2 hours and when I wake up, I look and feel like shit; there's no other way to put it. Right now, I'd rather be thrown to wolves and tigers than be in the same building as the Devil.Still, I have to go to school even if I dread seeing Axel. It's not like I can avoid him for the rest of my life."Bye, honey and try to come home on time today." mum says as she gives me a kiss on the cheek before I leave and I sigh to myself. We had a fight on Friday because I came home t
I gulp and slowly start to move towards the house I have never wished to be in again."Come on." Amber smiles at me and enters it and I follow behind her.Immediately when people see her, they cheer and pull her with them. I sigh and slowly look around to see if there is a particular person in this room.Thankfully, he isn't.Alc
My hands tangle into his dark curls as I lay my lips onto his incredibly soft ones. I take my time to enjoy the way they feel, the way they taste and along them I could taste my salty tears.Axel stays completely still, as if he doesn't realize what is happening.Just as I begin to worry that he doesn't like this as much as I do and pull back slightly, he kisses me.He pushes harshly against me, his hands now tightly on my sides and pries my mouth open.
I sit behind the table, barely containing my anger and waiting for Axel to emerge from the bathroom.A lot of things confuse me; how does he know where I live? What did he tell my mother? Where are we going? Why would he want to spend time with me? What the hell does he think he's doing, threatening me? What is he even capable of? Would he care if I liked Theo? I thought he hated me.Is it true what he said last night?And, if it is, do I feel the same?
The next day"Hey baby." Axel's raspy voice greets me as I open my eyes, beyond tired.Something seems different, but I can't exactly put my finger to it."Axel?" I ask, but I'm answered by a baby's cry. "Shit." Axel silently curses and I'm completely awake all of a sudden.
"This is not how I imagined spending the last day of the year." Amber groans, holding me up by my arm, Liam on the other. I can walk, but they insisted that precausion was necessary."Sorry, guys, I just- I couldn't spend another day locked inside the house without... Well you know." I muster up a shitty apology for the shitty situation I'm in.Axel's been gone a week today and I can't stand to even think about it.
Axel's P.O.V."I'm sorry, okay? Fuck, I've forgotten what it's like to ask forgiveness from people who aren't Sophie." She always caves in quite soon, thankfully."Yeah, well, I'm not fucking Sophie and that's a pitiful fucking apology, you need to do better." coach replies, shutting the door of his bedroom in my face.
Axel's P.O.V.I slam the door behind me, kicking the snow underneath my boots as I make my way to the car. I'm still hungover and my alcohol level is probably way fucking higher than it should be, which is why Catherine brought me home. She was the only one sober in the apartment and wouldn't let me drive on my own.Well, she's not here no stop me now so she can suck dick.
"You were with a woman?" I ask, careful to not let my voice break. Deep down, however, I know he wouldn't cheat on me.Would he?No, Axel wouldn't.He rolls his eyes, like the child he is. "No, I wasn't. I thought you trust - why are we even talking about this? What is he doing in our f
I push him away in shock. "What the hell do you think you're doing?" I'm beyond angry at this point and I wish I pushed him harder and he'd hit the ground. The baby inside me kicks, like he's excited."What does it look like? I'm trying to show you that he isn't the only one who can make you feel good." he responds calmly and I wonder for a second if he has an actual death wish or he's just plain dumb.I don't remember him being like this.
"You can't marry Axel, Sophie." he blurts out instead of greeting me back.I frown. What on Earth is he talking about? "What do you mean?""Don't marry Axel. Just... Don't. It's a bad idea." he says again and I'm as confused as ever. "Can I come in?" he adds after a while when I stay speechless. Not knowing what to say, I just open the door a little further, signaling him to enter.
Every drink makes my smile, my courage and my guilty conscience bigger, however I keep on drinking because as long as I'm drunk, I'm not realizing the fact that I have a kid and will soon have another. It also makes me forget that I have a serious fucking job because of a person that I threw away like garbage.I ignored all the shit that was building up and now it's overflowing.I quickly drown another glass of Whiskey to drown the guilt of calling my children shi
"This is exactly why I love you. You seem so fucking innocent and good yet here you are, in our bathroom, taking my pants off to shove my dick in your mouth." I whisper to her while we kiss, making her moan in response."I's the hormones... There are so many in my body right now, I can barely control myself." she admits, finally winning the battle with the zipper and eagerly pulling my pants and underwear down, squeezing my dick in her petite white hand.I harshly