I sit behind the table, barely containing my anger and waiting for Axel to emerge from the bathroom.
A lot of things confuse me; how does he know where I live? What did he tell my mother? Where are we going? Why would he want to spend time with me? What the hell does he think he's doing, threatening me? What is he even capable of? Would he care if I liked Theo? I thought he hated me.
Is it true what he said last night?
And, if it is, do I feel the same?
I groan to myself, needing answers.
"You should eat, you know. We might come back late." Axel's voice suddenly says, startling me. "And by eat, I don't mean your nails."
I give him the most hateful look I can muster and watch him sit down, chuckling. "Don't tell me what to do. You're not my dad."
He shrugs. "True, but I can still be your daddy." he whispers and continues to eat his pancakes like he didn't just say something extremely inappropriate.
I stare at him open mouthed. He did not just say that.
"Where is your mum, anyway?" he asks me.
"She had to go do something." I reply, deciding not to comment on his previous statement.
"Oh, okay."
We finish the pancakes in five minutes because they are completely delicious.
"Shall we go?" Axel asks and I shake my head.
"No, I have to change. I can't go out like this." I also need to hide from you in my bedroom.
He frowns. "What's wrong with what you're wearing?"
I raise my brows. "Isn't it obvious? I'm wearing an old tracksuit, Axel."
He shrugs. "It looks fine to me."
Shaking my head, I start to head upstairs. "I'm not going out like this."
When I come into my room, I see that Axel has come up with me. Well, there goes my plan.
"You know, I need to change." I say and he shrugs, entering my room and sitting down on my bed.
"So?"
I purse my lips. How can't he understand?
"I need privacy."
"I won't look."
"Yes, you will."
"I won't look and even if I would, I've seen plenty of boobs before-." he tries to defend himself.
"Out." I say, pointing my finger towards the door.
"Oh come on."
"Out, Axel."
"Fine." he snaps and leaves the door, slamming the doors. I roll my eyes at his childish behaviour and walk towards the closet, but soon realize that I don't know what to wear because I don't know where we are going.
"Hey, Axel?" I shout.
"What?" he shouts back from the other side of the door.
"Where are we going?"
I hear shuffling and a thud, meaning he probably sat on the floor.
"Somewhere you've never been before." he replies and I unconsciously smile.
"And what should I wear?" I ask.
He is quiet for a few moments before replying: "A dress."
I raise my brows in surprise at his answer, but start digging through the wardrobe anyway.
Normally, I never wear dresses except if I really have to and even then I usually borrow it from someone who has better collection of dresses than me. I still remembered owning a dress, though. I think I bought it last year and have never worn it, I just thought it was pretty.
Biting my lip, I continue to search for it and moments later, I find it.
Bingo.
"Are you done?" Axel asks.
"No, not yet." I reply and start undressing.
I cringe at the underwear I'm wearing, a plaid white bra and Hello Kitty panties, but I decide that nobody will see them anyway so I let them be.
I pull the dress over my head and tug it down. Thankfully, it still fits okay and I smile to myself in triumph. The beige silky material leaves a nice feeling against my skin and it contrasts beautifully. It reaches a little above my knee and it's tight around my waist, but loose around my knees; I really love it.
"Are you done now?" Axel asks again, impatient.
I roll my eyes. "Yeah, I just need to zip it."
Reaching behind my back I try to reach the zipper but unsuccessful.
"Here, let me do that for you." Axel says, already in my room.
I want to argue, but decide against it since I can't zip it up myself anyway. He comes up from behind me, very close and gathers my long hair in his hand, removing it from my back and letting it flow down against my neck. Then he slowly starts zipping the dress up, his finger leaving a trail the entire way up my back. The feeling is spectacular and sends shivers down my spine, and suddenly Axel's mouth is against my ear.
"You look beautiful."
I blush and take a step away from him, but his hand catches my arm and he pulls me back against his chest.
I look up at him, eyes wide. "Axel, I-"
And then his mouth is on mine. He pries my mouth open with his and slides his tongue in, enveloping me in warmth, possesing me entirely. His hand reaches behind my neck and pulls me closer to him and I put my hands in his curls, pulling on them. He growles and presses me closer to him, and in that moment I snap out of it.
I push him away from me and wrap my arms around myself, turning away from him.
"You can't do stuff like this, what is wrong with you?" I say, my voice trembling slightly. "You can't be rude and mean to me one day, and then the next day telling me that I look beautiful and kissing me like that. I am a human, I have emotions and all you do is play with them."
He sighs behind my back and I can hear his hand going through his hair. "I don't mean to do that, Sophie, I didn't realize you feel that way."
I turn to look at him. "How could you not realize I feel that way? On one hand you are so cruel and horrible, you threaten to ruin me and on the other hand you are so fucking hot that my hormones are killing me and-"
I quickly put my hand on my mouth.
I did not just say that.
Sophie, you did not just say that out loud.
However, a smirk on his face tells me otherwise.
"You think I'm hot?" he asks, raising his brow.
I groan and cover my face with my hand.
"There's no need to be embarassed, I mean it's pretty obvious that I don't look bad. However, hot... I didn't expect you to say that."
I hit his chest and he starts to laugh.
"Come, let's go." he says, smiling down at me and taking my hand in his, leading me out of my room and down the stairs. Downstairs, my mother is cleaning the dishes and turns to look at us as we pass by, my hand still in Axel's. Her eyes widen and I quickly let go of his hand, but mum just smiles and sends me a wink. "You two have fun."
"Thank you, ma'am, we will." Axel replies and we exit the house. We walk to a black pick-up truck, parked outside our house and I smile.
I love pick-up trucks.
"This is yours?" I ask and he nods. "It's a bit old, but still working." he shrugs.
"It's great." I grin and he looks at me surprised.
"You think?"
I nod. "Yeah, I've always wanted one. I dreamt about filling it with a bunch of pillows and blankets and driving out of the city to look at the stars at night." Why the hell am I telling him this? He smiles. "That's not a bad idea. We could do that sometime."
I glare at him. »Yeah, right. Maybe you should stop being a dick first.«
He rolls his eyes, going to the driver's side. I open the door for me and I climb in, having a bit of trouble because it's a little high and I'm wearing a dress. I consider running away from him for a second, but I've never been a runner and I have to admit that I'm curious as to what he has to say. I don't doubt the majority is going to be horrible, but I cannot kill the hope that a small portion might be nice.
The interior of the car is clean, just like his house. It is noticeable that it is a bit old, because there are scratches here and there, but overall it's a great car. He looks at me. "Off we go." and turns on the engine.
"You still don't want to tell me where we are going?" I ask him as he speeds down the road, in the direction away from the city."Nope." he says, popping the p."Then can you tell me how you found my house?" I ask as I look out of the window at the trees we're passing by."I saw you walking there from school one day." he simply replies and I turn to look at him.
I look up at him, eyes wide open and terrified and he locks gazes with me."Come, let's go, quckly. It's okay, just breathe. Breathe and be quiet." he grabs both my arms and tries to pull me with him, but I'm in shock and simply can't move my feet.Without a single word, he lifts me up bridal style and starts moving so fast, but so quetly I'm actually amazed."It's okay, everything is okay, we just need to be silent." he continuously keeps whispering in my ear. A
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Sophia’s P.O.V.I sit on the bed, unmoving and watching the window Axel has just stormed out of.What the hell just happened?We were having such a good time, it was amazing. He was so funny and so comforting, I wanted to stay in his arms forever.Now that I think about it, I haven't felt this close to someone in a
After the school is over, I rush to Axel's car. I want to make sure that he doesn't leave before I get the chance to apologize, so I'm going to wait for him by his car. When I come into the parking lot, his car is thankfully still there. I make my way through the crowd towards it and lean on the black pick-up truck. People walking past me start giving me weird glances when I do so. Some girls and guys give me sympathetic looks, other girls glare at me and some just simply roll their eyes.Right, they probably all know this is Axel's car.I frown when I begin to realize what they are prob
The next day I don't speak to Axel, nor do I try. I catch him looking at me a few times, mostly during lunch and Biology where I still have to sit with him. There is a one weird time during the day when I'm walking down the hallway towards my next class, alone because I had to go pee and he appears on the other side, walking in the opposite direction towards me. He halters when he's close and opens his mouth like he's going to say something, but then he quickly closes it and walks away.I do see Theo though, and when I meet him in the morning I happily hug him. We have really bonded yesterday by the stream and I can see us becoming great friends. The rest of the week goes by casually. On Wednesday I notice that Axel has gotten a piercing on the corner of his li
They look at eachother."The guy with black hair? The one who smokes?" Liam asks and Amber sighs."Well I guess he's better than Axel." she says and then shakes her head. "Damn girl I didn't know you had such a thing for bad boys."I chuckle. "Yeah, neither did I."We all laugh at that. "Well, have fun." Liam says.
I bring my other hand up to his face, touching his dimple. He is so handsome, it's almost unbelievable. His face relaxes at my touch, and he slowly brings my finger lower to the corner of his lip where there is a piercing now.I touch the metal and it's cold to touch; colder than I have expected it to be. It feels almost rough against his soft lips, but somehow makes a great combination.Axel has his eyes on my face the entire time I inspect his face, but it appears that he has had enough. He gently grabs my finger from his lips and I think he's going to put my finger away from his face, but he does the exact opposite. Keeping an eyecontact wi
The next day"Hey baby." Axel's raspy voice greets me as I open my eyes, beyond tired.Something seems different, but I can't exactly put my finger to it."Axel?" I ask, but I'm answered by a baby's cry. "Shit." Axel silently curses and I'm completely awake all of a sudden.
"This is not how I imagined spending the last day of the year." Amber groans, holding me up by my arm, Liam on the other. I can walk, but they insisted that precausion was necessary."Sorry, guys, I just- I couldn't spend another day locked inside the house without... Well you know." I muster up a shitty apology for the shitty situation I'm in.Axel's been gone a week today and I can't stand to even think about it.
Axel's P.O.V."I'm sorry, okay? Fuck, I've forgotten what it's like to ask forgiveness from people who aren't Sophie." She always caves in quite soon, thankfully."Yeah, well, I'm not fucking Sophie and that's a pitiful fucking apology, you need to do better." coach replies, shutting the door of his bedroom in my face.
Axel's P.O.V.I slam the door behind me, kicking the snow underneath my boots as I make my way to the car. I'm still hungover and my alcohol level is probably way fucking higher than it should be, which is why Catherine brought me home. She was the only one sober in the apartment and wouldn't let me drive on my own.Well, she's not here no stop me now so she can suck dick.
"You were with a woman?" I ask, careful to not let my voice break. Deep down, however, I know he wouldn't cheat on me.Would he?No, Axel wouldn't.He rolls his eyes, like the child he is. "No, I wasn't. I thought you trust - why are we even talking about this? What is he doing in our f
I push him away in shock. "What the hell do you think you're doing?" I'm beyond angry at this point and I wish I pushed him harder and he'd hit the ground. The baby inside me kicks, like he's excited."What does it look like? I'm trying to show you that he isn't the only one who can make you feel good." he responds calmly and I wonder for a second if he has an actual death wish or he's just plain dumb.I don't remember him being like this.
"You can't marry Axel, Sophie." he blurts out instead of greeting me back.I frown. What on Earth is he talking about? "What do you mean?""Don't marry Axel. Just... Don't. It's a bad idea." he says again and I'm as confused as ever. "Can I come in?" he adds after a while when I stay speechless. Not knowing what to say, I just open the door a little further, signaling him to enter.
Every drink makes my smile, my courage and my guilty conscience bigger, however I keep on drinking because as long as I'm drunk, I'm not realizing the fact that I have a kid and will soon have another. It also makes me forget that I have a serious fucking job because of a person that I threw away like garbage.I ignored all the shit that was building up and now it's overflowing.I quickly drown another glass of Whiskey to drown the guilt of calling my children shi
"This is exactly why I love you. You seem so fucking innocent and good yet here you are, in our bathroom, taking my pants off to shove my dick in your mouth." I whisper to her while we kiss, making her moan in response."I's the hormones... There are so many in my body right now, I can barely control myself." she admits, finally winning the battle with the zipper and eagerly pulling my pants and underwear down, squeezing my dick in her petite white hand.I harshly