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Author: Ceejhay Jones
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SEBASTIAN.

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I know, you all think I'm a bad person, but before you come for me, no I did not regret it, I didn't, not for one second or minute.

And I meant everything I told him. Everything.

Hell I wasn't even that drunk.

It's just that this morning, I realized I actually did it, and I had to do and say something to him, I had to. And I didn't want to talk about it.

I don't want to talk about the fact that I'm into men, and I'm so into him. It's my secret to take to my grave. My father will disown me if he ever find out I'm into men. I'll loose the company too, I'll loose everything. It will be so scandalous.

I can't afford to risk that, risk my whole life on one moment.

So the best thing I had to do was to pretend like he didn't exist, last night never happened and push him away.

And my entire mood got ruined already from just waking up to the thought that I can't do what makes me happy and be with who I want to be pissed me the fuck up

He looked so stressed and worrie
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