AUGUST
Rachel casually tucked her hair behind her ear before taking her time to sit right in front of me. I'm no blind person; I know when someone's trying to act cute, and Rachel's totally doing that. She lets out a tiny smile, and now that I have a closer view of her face, I must say she's a true natural. I think I'm starting to develop a girl crush on her.
"Did you know that you are the first person who stood up against Ambrose?" She said as a little trivia of my work."I don't, but now I do," I replied."Hahaha." She lets out a short chuckle. "And you are funny.""Ha, I don't know about that."Rachel's totally trying to flirt with me, and once again, the gayness hiding inside of me is already commencing in panic mode. There are a few girls who tried their luck to flirt with me back when I was still at Highmont high, and I just didn't like any of them. And now here's another hopeful girl, and her actions brought back those cringing memories. I may be developing a girl crush towards her, but that's only because of how naturally pretty she is, and I know she's a strong woman for not letting Ambrose get into her."That guy has been trying to ask me out for years and I just don't see myself dating a bully," Rachel admits."I know. A strong and beautiful woman like you deserves someone better and that's definitely not Ambrose." I spat, and I didn't know that I was already flattering her."Nor Phil." She trailed, followed by a shy chuckle. I instantly grew curious about hearing that."Phil?""Yeah, Ambrose doesn't know this but Phil has been secretly texting me," Rachel confessed, and I thought that's some hot tea. I have a strong feeling that Mary doesn't even know about this gossip."I'm sorry for asking but Phil and Ambrose are best friends right?""Yes, they are. They've been friends since middle school and Phil's doing moves behind Ambrose's back.""That's a dick move.""You bet. I used to have a huge crush on Phil back in middle school but he changed a lot. I don't know what happened to him but he was once the kindest kid that I know and now he's going off behind his best friends' back.""Welp, people do change," I added.People do really change, and there's always something that triggers the change to happen.There was a short dead of awkward silence, and we just exchanged awkward smiles before Rachel eventually decided to open her mouth to talk."Uhm, me and my friends are having a karaoke night this Friday. Would you like to come and join the fun?" I can tell Rachel was so shy to ask. She must've found that courage during that short span of silence."Karaoke? I love karaoke." I lied. Of course, I don't like karaoke or anything that involves singing.I'm not a good singer, but I have to take into careful consideration that this is one of the most popular people around asking me out to have fun. This is precisely what Mary is talking about. I get to write my own thing, and I'm looking at this as a golden opportunity to not have a normal high school experience. I don't want to peak in high school, that's for sure, but I certainly don't want my experience to be forgettable."So that's a yes?" Rachel asked, seemingly unsure of my answer."Ahuh," I said, nodding in absolute agreement."See you this Friday night then." She said and gave me that tiny smile one last time before leaving.***I surfed through the crowds of the cafeteria during lunch, and everyone was looking at me like I was some huge celebrity walking around. I'm feeling a mixture of embarrassment and excitement about this sudden rise to popularity. I know this is about the clip of me and Ambrose fighting and although it isn't some kind of a humiliating scandal, I don't want people to think that I'm that strong and brave enough to pick a fight with a lion. I don't want these people to think that I have the guts and muscle. I know myself, and I know that if Ambrose is the lion, I'm just the powerless gazelle.Mary and Rock were already sitting at their usual spot. Mary waved her hand at me, and I had no other choice but to inch my way towards their table. I saw Gustav still picking his food at the counter, and I'm going to say he's one hungry human being."What's up Mr. Popular Overnight." Mary spat sarcastically the moment I settled down beside her."What are you talking about?" I said, pretending to be innocent."Don't mind her, she's just mad that Rachel asked you out." Rock explained."What? Who told you that?" I was a bit confused about that information. "She didn't ask me out. She just invited me to their karaoke night." I spat, and both Mary and Rock exchanged some looks."Are you freakin' kidding me?" Rock scowled. "No one gets invited to that karaoke night.""What do you mean?""They're famous for that." Mary was thrilled to reveal this news. "Rachel's parents gifted that private karaoke bar for her sixteenth birthday. They've been posting pictures and clips to their Instaglam page and everything's made of lamé.""I mean, you said they are rich so…""You are so lucky, August!" Mary chirped. "I hate you for that!""I was actually thinking of…" I was just about to finish my sentence and tell them that I don't want to go to that karaoke night, but Mary seemed to know what I was about to say and cut me off right away."You should go!!!" Mary slapped my shoulder."Why? What if I don't want to go.""Listen August, we've been only hanging out for two days and I know this is a stretch but I'm going to ask you a small favor." Mary continued."Uhm, I guess so.""You are the key,""The key to what?""You are the key for us to be finally free from being called losers." Mary spat, and my soft heart burped.This is something I can't say no from. I know I haven't fully heard their stories, but I know how they've been marginalized for so long."Special delivery for August coming right up!" Gustav showed up and placed a box of cake on our table."A cake? Who sent this?" I asked out of curiosity. This day keeps on getting weirder and weirder for me."It's from Jessie," Gustav answered while fixing his tray of an assorted meal."Oh," I turned my head around and looked for Jessie. He was already smiling at me when I saw him with his circle of friends. I'm not running for Mr. Congeniality, but I smiled back at him."Thank you for being my superman!" I heard Mary speak. She was reading the sticky note on the box of cake. "XOXO, Jessie.""Don't read that!" I said while attempting to cover up what was written on the sticky note."I already did." Mary teased."Looks like Jessie has a crush on you," Gustav trailed."Looks like everyone has a crush on you." Rock followed up, and they started giggling.It's just our lunch break, and a lot of things have happened already. I don't want to conceal the fact that I'm enjoying this attention, but then I suddenly thought of Ambrose. I haven't seen him yet, which is super weird. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but I'm trying to shake the feeling of fear away.We enjoyed our lunch until Rock and Gustav decided to fight over who was getting the extra slice of cake. They used rock, paper, scissors to determine who shall take the last piece, and Gustav won.I suddenly felt the need to pee. I stood up and started walking towards the comfort room when Ambrose popped right in front of me out of nowhere.AUGUSTSomeone should just run me over with a truck or shoot me in the head with a pistol or even make me disappear in thin air. I didn’t wish for anything of this, but I knew and I expected this to happen. I just didn’t want it to happen now with a lot of eyes gazing over us. I know Jessie was the one who took that clip, and I’m not sure if posting it was his way of thanking my courageous actions or he was just trying to humiliate Ambrose. Either way, the clip clearly made Ambrose look impotent. I’m not trying to be the big person in the picture, but I also thought it made me look like his kryptonite.Ambrose is definitely pissed at me.Does this confrontation have to happen now? As in right now? Right in front of everybody.There are a lot of people watching, and this isn’t going to end up very well for me. I look behind and everyone’s looking at us
AUGUST“August!” Rachel suddenly showed up at the door. She appeared to be concerned about my current state. I can’t think of any possible reason as to why she’s acting this way. Although it’s nice to have some stranger show a bit of unwarranted concern to me, still it’s bizarre for that person to be Rachel Curtis out of all people. Everyone adores this girl. She’s every guy’s dream to date and every girl wants to be.“Hey,” I smiled at her as she inched her way closer to me.“Thank goodness you’re okay!” She let out and hugged me tight as if we’ve known each other for so long. It isn’t the case but it puzzles me to think that she’s into me or something. She smelled like vanilla and daffodil though.“Woah, Woah!” I spat as a surprising reaction. Mary and I exchanged some looks.I’m to going to g
AMBROSE HAYLOCKA three-day suspension. A fu**cking three-day suspension on the first week of the school semester. That’s the only consequence that I’ve earned from beating the shit out of that newcomer. If I only knew I would just be suspended, then I would have bashed his head like a watermelon just like that guitar that I used yesterday. He made me look like shit even though he ain’t the real shit. I know he wasn’t the one who uploaded that clip on Mary Heights Files but he was the reason why I entered school this morning and some people are laughing at me. Phil even said he might just steal my high spot for being the most feared person in all of Mary Heights High. I don’t give a single fuck about being the most feared person here but I just want to keep that spot if I want to survive this hell. Being feared provides me with a lot of benefits that I needed. Money. Food. Protection. And the fact that no one wants to
AMBROSEI’m pretty much aware of the blatant disrespect that I’ve done to my brother’s grave but wherever he is right now, I don’t think he’s aware of the hell that he has been bringing to my life. I never truly met him in the flesh. All I know is he died when I was still a baby, at least that’s what my mother had told me. I blessed his grave with one last spit before eventually trudging away.I fished the house key from my pocket and entered at the backdoor instead of wasting what’s left of my energy by walking around the house. I turned the lights on and the hollowness of the house welcomed me with open arms. I immediately walked towards the fridge still hoping to see anything to snack on but there’s basically nothing left. There are five eggs, a few stalks of celery, three carrots, fruit juices and the rest are just sauces and condiments. I just poured myself a glass of cold water before dec
AUGUSTThe first Friday of the school semester came quicker than I thought. I woke up this morning and I feel ten million times better than how I felt during the first and second day. It is wild to ponder about how things have escalated so quickly in such a short period of time. I had to make some snappy adjustments to myself. I was just a simple nobody a few days earlier and now everyone at school knows who I am and what I did. Some are even calling me ‘The Usurper’ just because I made Ambrose’s suspension possible. I don’t think I’ve done so much to be called the usurper, to be perfectly frank, I just poked the bear.I was riding my way to school when suddenly, Rachel’s invitation flashed at the back of my head. I remember saying yes to her but deep down, I’m still skeptical about actually hanging out with them. First of all, I know Rachel is the only person that Ambrose cares for, an
AUGUSTNothing much happened during lunch except for the reality that my name was still hot and fresh on everybody’s lips. I’m pretty much aware of the underlying fact that this kind of attention will eventually cool down anytime soon. That’s definitely another reason why I need to hang out with the popular kids. Mary and the gang are obviously okay with me making some connections with the popular kids that they loathed and envied at the same time. I sat right beside Mary, and as usual, her mouth kept spitting sentence after sentence. She kept on making some allusions about our secret plan, however, I was consistent at shrugging it off of my shoulder. I pretended as if I don't have a single idea about what she was saying. I guess she’s just thrilled that I’m going to hang out with her crush. I secretly wanted to have a simple conversation about her having a crush on Rachel but the existence of Rock and Gustav prevented
AUGUSTRachel’s private karaoke bar is located at the top of this apartment building at the center of town and we have to take an elevator towards the twelfth floor. The place isn’t as big as I expected it to be, it is just as big as our living room and kitchen area, however, everything else met my expectations perfectly. The walls are painted with the usual cream hue while the frames are painted with black. I let my eyes roam around the place, taking a quick look at every angle as if I was this young boy lost in the jungle. The couch and most of the furniture are all made of lamé and they are glistening. Mary is really telling the truth when she said everything looks expensive, the paintings, the mini sculptures that are displayed throughout the place, and even the rugs and curtains. There’s an empty minibar beside a mini kitchen but most of the space is taken up by the karaoke area.“Welcome to
AUGUST“So did you kiss her or not?!” Mary sounded agitated over the phone and there’s only one reason why she’s acting like that. It was only eight-thirty in the morning when she called me just to gather some updates about what happened last night.I feel like I need more sleep but Mary can’t seem to wait until the afternoon to reach out to me. My head is banging and I’m pretty sure this is caused by the vodka that we had last night. We only had one bottle of vodka and that was enough to make us tipsy and frenzy. That’s the only second time that I’ve had alcohol but it’s the first time that I really felt the numbing sensation that people loved about it. I tried moving a little and I already feel like I’m going to die out of dehydration.“Hold on, Mary. Cut me some slack and let me get something to drink first.” I spat over the phone.“O
AUGUSTI was already growing impatiently excited for Monday to come so I’d have to see Ambrose again and it really came faster than I would’ve even realized. Ambrose and I just shared sweet and thoughtful messages to each other throughout the rest of the weekend and it was giving me everything that I wanted. I can’t stop thinking about him and just everything that happened right between us. I’m pretty much confident that Ambrose can’t stop thinking about me too. He was telling me everything that’s happening inside their house throughout the weekend and I’m not even asking for it. He told me that he had a deep heart to heart conversation with his father about a lot of things and that his dad finally began growing closer to him. I was so happy for him that he’s finally getting what he truly deserves in this timeline and I know he deserves a lot of good things and a classic redemption. I
AUGUST“I didn’t know you brought a friend of yours home?!” The older man wearing this fancy royal blue suit mouthed when I brought myself into the picture basically referring to my sudden appearance. He seemed quite startled to see me emerge from the stairs. Just as the man was startled, I was stunned as well the moment that I heard him speak. The tone of his voice sounded professional and commanding at the very same time and it reminded me of the school’s headmistress.“Oh, yeah.” Ambrose trailed and it was pretty obvious in his tone of voice that he was faltering as he turned his head to look at me. “His name’s August. He’s one of my teammates.” He introduced me and while he said my correct name, I was confused when he said I was one of his teammates.I know he used to play basketball and used to be the captain of the team but this exchange m
AUGUSTThe bright sunlight just pierced right through my eyes when I opened them the next morning. I was facing the window and Ambrose was hugging me from behind and just being the bigger spoon. It took some time for my eyes to adjust from the brightness of daylight but after I got the hang of it, I instantly moved my head and I accidentally hit my head on Ambrose’s chin. The collision was quite hard enough that it woke him up as well.“Hmmmm.” Ambrose groaned from the pain and had to pull one of his hand to adjust from it.“Sorry about that.” I spat out and the words came out pretty hoarsely.“Good morning,” He greeted me with his guttural morning voice as he rubbed both of his eyes to adjust from the brightness of the daylight.“How was your night, Ambrose?” I asked as I stared at his messy just woke up face. He still looked pretty hot
AUGUSTMy heart just melted like a butter dropped on a hot steaming pan. Hearing Ambrose spill some of the truth that has been bottled up inside of him was completely heart wrenching in the most pitiful way. I know that his mother hated him because he already told me that a few weeks ago, but the things that came out after that was really a twist that I wasn’t expecting at all. I’m still trying to let the things that I’ve heard from Ambrose sink inside of my head. It was hard to hear him spit the words out and I didn’t think it was this hard to let it settle down too.I have never met anyone from Ambrose’s family before. I only saw the few members on the painting but that painting was a decade old. Still, I was actually looking forward to seeing them in person. I have yet to meet his famous father who have donated a lot of things at this town. I have yet to meet his mother who hate
AMBROSEDid I hear August enunciate the words right? I asked myself. I’m pretty sure I heard him say the words perfectly clear. I’m not going to hide anything. I was truly astonished by this secret even though it’s really nothing to be astonished about. We are both dudes who likes each other and has kissed more times than I could even remember. How gay could that possibly be?I was dead ass correct when I felt like August was about to drop some sort of a bomb. He really did drop the secret bomb and suddenly this telling of secrets while turned against each other’s back felt beneficial for both of us. I have never realized that he was actually gay until now that he has spilled the truth. All this time I thought he was really this straight guy that willing to explore all of the possibilities of things and I was just the gay one who’s afraid to admit the reality of things.It w
AMBROSEAugust doesn’t seem to be quite impressed by my mediocre dancing skills and to be quite honest with myself, if I was watching that shit go down too, I’d be disappointed. With that being said, I felt alright and I’m pretty much certain that he was entertained. And I’m entertained too. The smile on his face was just something that I’m gunning to see and I made him smile. I’m sure he’s feeling some type of way after just breaking up with his girlfriend a while ago.“What are you doing?” I deliberately asked the moment I noticed he was watching something on his phone. I leaned my head a bit towards him to get a sneak peek of what he was watching and it was just a video of some recognizable people from school at a random house party. “Where is that?” I followed up and casually snaked my arms around his shoulder. I’m becoming more and mor
AMBROSEThe night was pretty much moving slowly but it was everything that I wanted. I checked the clock hanging on the wall and it’s just nine pm. For a normal night, nine pm seemed like the right time to head to bed but for a Friday night, nine pm was agreeably too early.I was a bit shocked that the night’s still very much young. I’m not rushing or anything but then I realized maybe fate was making this moment just for me and August. Maybe fate wanted us to have more time to hang out and be with each other to compensate for the time that we had lost. Part of that was because I chose to ignore August for the entire week and if I had chosen to reply or even answer his calls then things would’ve been different. We haven’t seen each other this whole week and I don’t even want to admit it but I really do miss him in so many levels. I missed his smile that seemed to bring tranqu
AMBROSEI was instantly engulfed with the feeling of guilt and regret. I didn’t mean to shove August like that. I swear to whoever’s watching over us above the clouds. I might be the most violent person in this building but I’m pretty much honest that I didn’t want that to happen. I didn’t even think I put force into that. I completely thought I was just trying to keep him at bay from his attempt at preventing me from drinking the full glass of whiskey. It was never in my intention to hurt him. I had already reached the point where I was about to punch the wall brought about by the anger that I have for myself. And then it turns out that August was just playing with me. He was laughing hysterically that I was just confused at first. He was in pain, writhing like I’ve wrestled him hard on the ground. I saw it in his face that he was really feeling the agony from the supposed impact.
AMBROSEI have never imagined the day that I would hang out like this with August ever again. The last time August was here felt so much like a century ago. At least that’s all because I’m too distracted this past week that thinking about him was totally lost in the equation. I was on the verge of believing that I’ll never survive this hell of a week but here I am pouring whiskey on my glass with August sitting at the far corner of the couch.Things just went fast in a matter of hours that I’m still thinking about what happened back at the river. I had an extremely rough week that I just went to find solace at my favorite spot at the river not knowing that someone’s going to show up uninvited. I had never ever expected that August would show up at the river right at the moment where I didn’t know I needed his presence. I may have acted violent a few hours ago and that’s