ROSEMy pulse patterned to an uneven beat. At first all I wanted to do was listen to exactly what she had asked me to do and speak to him , was it my pregnancy hormones again the fact that I felt the need to be with this man despite everything that he had done..I picked up my phone to call but at the end of everything I had been quick to put it off again. I was mad with rage, filled with a feeling of anger at the fact that I couldn't get rid of my sick feelings. I’d come to the conclusion that even if I were to be with this man, it would be my death as he could give my heart leave my heart ruined with fissures and cracks—Still if I had thought to take one more risk, it would definitely be my heart doing that, it would definitely be my heart taking a risk that my brain wouldn't take, it would definitely be it taking chances, and the end of what that could be is my greatest fear. Thankfully, I’d always been real with myself and at the moment, it seemed more or less like I had to do
..If anything had been more confusing to myself at that moment, at that split seconds between my soul and my heart, it was the fact that I was about to make the most definite decision at that moment.At first, I didn't know what to make out of it and how to go through the entire situation, it was all about calling the shot and the good part of it of If I must say was the fact that it was all in my favour at that moment.Still there was one norm and that had to do with the fact that if I pull through with this, I might get trapped in whatever this was with Daniel.Anna who has not really said anything looked at me feeling confused, she didn't know what to make about the entire situation and was stunned.“Are you sure?" It was the first word's she had said and it sank deep into my soul.I could feel myself feeling rather unsettled at the moment, I was worried still I had to go through with this.“I don't know but I just feel I shouldn't cut him off he should have this experience with
DANIELWas this fate?Is this written in the stars?Or are all these mere circumstances, as I drove home after that meeting, all of these thoughts filled my heart and it left nothing else beneath it.She was like my shadow, one Flickering all around me, and it seemed no matter where or how I ran through this over and over again, one thing was certain, she was like a stain that wouldn't leave. the last thing I had expected was her speaking to me again but as it was she was doing exactly that and that was the main reason I had a smile on my face all through this whole whole that I had been right here still thinking about the entirety of everything that was happening.Still, things were rather oblivious, and that was the fact that all this was going on rather too quickly and there wasn't much that I could do about it .In a way it was occuring to me that despite all what was going on there is a part of her that still wanted to reach out to me, I didn't know what part that came from but
DANIELThere was always one rule when it came down to Life and love and that was the fact that both belong to the same alignment, one mistake and you are gone, you are buried underneath the waves uncertainty that it usually came with —I shouldn't have felt this way but I did now, as it was. If I should tell myself anything it would most definitely be that I was most definitely my own foe and it didn't take me too long to know this, as it was it was starting to seem more like I was aware of my own game as it was, I was still thinking about how to deal with the scumbags in my life and while at that, my first thought had gone to Estella.“Come in." Estella had answered after what seemed to be a knock that echoed through the entire room, it was a very impatient one cause she had to open by herself cussing.She looked quite astonished seeing me there still dressed in the days suitTo be sincere it only took a split decision for me to be there as at that moment, I would have walked away if
Daniel In a way there was that feeling that this love life that I shared with Rose would be without twists, so when I had walked into the room that had what I would term as the most crazy woman in the city it was like taking a huge risk, what could be the price to pay ?The thought had filled my heart and inasmuch that it no wasn't what I just wanted to be right there it was very provocative on my end.Like i had said earlier, walking into the room with her was like seeking to be in a way devoured by whatever antics, I had known her for most of my life and could tell how manipulative she was, still all I could feel was that urge in my soul.“I need your help, I need access to some information."Perhaps, she was acting this way because she felt that coming here made me vulnerable. I was quick to point that across by flinching when she tried to touch me.I closed my eyes. “Stop " I muttered as I could feel the tingling bit of he fingers Would've fallen In the past and she wouldn't e
ROSEThe room- was all quiet as we went through every thing again, I was still on telling Anna about what my recent outing with Daniel had prompted and she was still being skeptical.Now while she was not a very negative person, I had reasons to believe that there was something that she wasnt telling me.Anna sat on the other side, when my phone had buzzed.I turned the screen to see who it was and it wasn't the least surprising. “speak of the devil.”She only made an effort to look away as though to tell me, I warned you .I leaned back in the chair, I had a low cut dress that day as I felt my bump needed a bit of —whatever I felt that moment -He sounded a bit hesitant. “I need your help." I saw he was finding it hard to speak meaning that where ever he was had to be one of those places you can't pick calls“What do you need ?" I asked a bit concerned." I am at Estella, and you know how it is with her…Will tell you about it later but I need you right now to come help me .”
ROSETHINKING it through again, I turned to walk through the patio that lead to the door, all what was running through my mind was hiw si much I was going to hate all of this all id this didn't turn out to what I had all planned, it was causing a drift through me that i was trying to settle.It was slowly getting to the back of my mind that it would have been harder than what I was thinking at the moment, standing there made me realize that all of this was alot more harder than all I could be thinking about at the moment -It only stood standing there at the door to know that it was very difficult trying to change ones past, there looked to be nothing that could be done at this point and it left a feeling that was drowning my soul away.Right there at the door I could hear a bit of animosity flowing through the room, while still standing there at the door, I could something rough and low, crept into my subconscious.I knocked at the door and could Sense that bit of Unease right there
ROSEShe thought all this was going on too fast, she was expecting her hands to hit her right there on her face.“Don't you dare." He warned.She took a look down and could see the look in the woman's eyes that was standing right there in front of her.Estella stood there stunned with her hand's still hanging in the air.“Touch her one more time and you'd have to pay." He dropped her hands and turned to the woman that was still standing , they turned away from the woman that was still right there still stunned.While running through the entire situation at the back of her mind, Estella who was more shocked out of the three watched as they left.The door slammed at that moment shattering, shredding that bit of anxiety that she had there and then that had frozen her to one one spot.“What just happened?" She questioned again.Till that moment she was still rattled by everything, while still trying to get her mind through all the question that looked to be in her mind at the back of her
170.ROSEWatching him with his son painted the most beautiful picture for any woman, and he looked so perfect regardless of whatever I had thought. Being with him meant I had to deal with a lot, now the man was not one perfect… You know, no one ever is, but still the past they say is the past.So when he had popped the question right there with the nurses watching, when he had asked that I be his wife again… My answer has been Yes. I didn't just go all the way to make the decision for nothing, as I had said it came with a lot of benefits, what I didn't say was that I had to deal with a lot of his mess, that was what loving someone is all about anyways … Dealing with the lapses and all.He looked to be quite aware of his attitude and didn't look to make a big fuss about it , perhaps he could sense that I was putting a lot into dealing with him as well and was doing what could be done to make it more accommodating for me.Regardless, I was living in this strange new world at the ba
ROSELooking past this man a long trail of air trickled in through the open door, drifting through the room for a minute or two before settling with that restless haste, at that moment my mind was drifting through different things at that moment with most having to do with a way to get over the situation that was pending at the moment, the more I tried to understand all that was going on that moment, the more my soul was filled with that feeling of uncertainty.At first, it was starting to look like he could be right, it had been three days since I walked Anna out of my house and at the moment, I was standing in her living room, with sounds of moans filling the air amidst the heavy scent of sex .It was obvious what was going on and I didn't have the need to be informed what it was all about, it was easy to tell because I had just watched her go in with Marcus of all people twenty minutes ago… I thought to myself if that was what he wanted to tell me all along. I blinked my eyes, m
ROSEThere were many things I couldn't get myself to do at that moment and the most definite one was finding answers to all that was going through the situation at that moment. I was still angry about the entire situation as it seemed blank at the back of my mind. Much as I tried not to think about it, it still felt crazy that I couldn't do anything or scream out in frustration.Still deep down in my soul, I could feel that regrettable feeling. In a way I didn't know where all the feelings from me were sprouting from but if there was anything I wanted it was to leave as fast as I could.Well all that happened yesterday, the wind blew throughout the room as it left me rather confused -Thought if him crept through my mind again, still beneath all of this was that question that remained yet unansweredMy mind went back tinted by the entire event yet again, I had lain in bed for a long minute, what was happening through all of this. In a way I found myself asking over and over again
CHAPTER 167ROSE“What are you doing? “That had been the first question that I had on my lips-He merely looked at me with his gaze saying a thousand things at that moment, I couldn't say what was happening but still with his heart racing wildly it was easy to say that he was definitely up to something." I looked at him blankly again.” My attention was drawn to where he had touched me earlier and I could swear that it still burned.Everything about the moment did, while expecting that he did speak , he didn't instead he merely looked at me while still locking his gaze in."I just need to tell you that there is a need for you to be careful.” He muttered. “Be careful about your friend Anna. “I was so confused about everything that was going on that I couldn't decipher all that was going on at that moment.What could this be about?Why did he want me to be careful about her? Much as all this was going through my mind enough that all I did was roll my eyes.“Fine I had listened to you
Rose All that was happening made it hard for me to comprehend at that moment, still all this while It was still hard to comprehend why I am still not able to get him to understand that it would be hard to forget all that had happened.The past left a bitter feeling at the back of my mind, while still trying to comprehend all that was going my phone buzzed and I Picked it up immediately.“Where are you at?" I asked immediately.Anna seemed to be hiding something as she seemed usually quiet -“Is there something you want to tell me?" Anna muttered and I found myself thinking of why she had asked.For me it most definitely had to be for a subtle reason, one that left me in a daze still pondering about the situation.“No, I am just here … why did you ask?”While still running through all the entirety of what to say at that moment, I tried again to play through the entire situation at the back of my mind."What are you doing throughout the rest of tomorrow.”I was still trying to get thro
DANIELLife pulls some strings and you are just left at times behind trying to figure out what to do, such is that that I had found myself, I was left in the past leaving Right there amidst the damages I had brought upon myself.Perhaps this same reason was why she would never trust me again, when they say good things they say come in little packages at the moment that was the case of something I had taken for granted.I wasn't shocked seeing him walk into the pub,matter of fact my spilling my drink had nothing to do with Marcus at that moment, i was shocked about the woman he was with -It was funny in a way how I chose to perceive how intellectual she had to be all this whole while for being the last person we'd suspect all this while, for the first time that evening I wouldn't deny having that smile on my face.Only this time it wasn't because I was happy, rather I was damn shocked! The smile was there when the bartender had walked to where I was , while still thinking of what t
DANIELAn Intruder of my heart, that was the best way of phrase to qualify this woman that looked so radiating at that my moment, I couldn't tell what she was talking about at that moment.One moment we were having the best moment of our life and in the next she was all angry over a reason I didn't even know -“Are you fine." I asked again when she had Stepped out .She looked at me like she didn’t expect that I would ask her that question, she seemed most definately shocked at that moment, while still trying to get the thought of everything out of my mind.The atmosphere had completely changed since that past moment, here I was still trying all I could to play through the incident again, wondering how I could play through the incident again at the back of my mind -“I am fine, I just want some time to myself." She muttered through the entire incident at that moment.In a way, her scent had filled my nostrils and they got me fascinated about her. Her scent troubled my heart enough tha
ROSEIn the heat of the moment , I could feel my heart bleeding, here I was with a bleeding hand yet nothing was at the back of my mind, rather than how it felt to have him so close to me,was I getting Crazier!I stopped and pulled myself away. At that moment it made no sense doing this to anyone as I felt unreasonably cheap, or wasn't I.He stares at me trying to read the situation but then I was from it, while all I seeked was sanity it didn't help that all of this were happening -All of a sudden I could feel everything coming back to the my head, it was that moment that I had to pick between being cheap or just-“Step away from me." I pushed back at him, forcing out a grunt as I didI couldn't even look into his eyes to say those Words, I could feel the pain though … That bot of pain from my hands but there and then.When I did look up at him he appeared rather flushed at my actions with a smirk coming to his face as he blinked his eyes looking at me. " I can't understand what is
ROSEWill these good things last forever, it was definitely the last thought that had filled my mind as I tossed and turned on the bed, somehow my mind was still left heavy after all that had happened the previous day and I was still seeking a way out of it at that moment.While I couldn't make out how the night had gone especially after those few last moment after dinner, one thing was obvious and that was the fact that we were together, in other words I was at his apartment -I could feel it from how the room felt so warm and the fact that his scent filled the room, to make this more certain, I had turned and right there he was. That morning all I got while looking at him was this continuous round of disturbing taps at the back of my mind, it was surprising.in a way that after all this while, he still made my heart race, at the same time the feeling was welcome.At first after those first few minutes after I had woken up with a vision was still blurry, it was hard to make out the