"The females will be so happy about this. We must celebrate our way, Alpha." Elriam utters.
"I wish to but Deimos said we cannot leave yet. Giovanni's training is yet to complete." I give her a soft smile.
"We must inform them at least." Elriam whispers.
"There is no rush. We can take our time." I reply to her. I just heard the news today, I don't want it to become the centre of all talks between wolves. I wish to give it some time.
My male enters swiftly after his quick call, holding a wide smile upon his face that lights up the entire room. He cannot hide his joy he wishes to show his pride to every wolf.
"I would like to take you somewhere, Lumina." He says. His sudden remark has
The further we walked inside more beauty laid about ready to be appreciated. I drank it all in with every breath I took engraving it within my mind."A lake?" I ask him as we stop by the calm waters. Did we walk all this way to see a lake?"Remove your clothes, Lumina." He instructs hand reaching behind removing the shirt in one pull off his body. He pulls down the zipper to his baby blue jeans as I watch him dumbfounded.No explanation again but I pay heed to his words removing my clothes keeping my undergarments on. My breath hitches as he pulls down his boxers standing completely bare in front of me.As his eyes meet mine he says, "Bare yourself completely, Lumina." With a curt nod, my fingers unhook my bra allowing the straps to f
My hair held back in place, whilst his other hand pats my back gently to ease the tension. Fingers slide softly up and down my spine relaxing the clenched muscles. My nails dig into the porcelain of the toilet bowl as I heave the contents of my stomach. My throat is raw and sore with the number of times I have vomited.My legs are weak pushing me to fall upon the ground heavy continuous gags surge, but Deimos holds me to him before the ground breaks my fall. A small tired whine leaves my lips as he calms me with soothing words. "I've got you. It is okay." He whispers over and over.I don't know how he does it, the sight is disgusting and I bet the smell should be revolting to him. Yet it doesn't phase him, his eyes often worried focusing only on comforting me, to make the process a little easier for me to undergo.
"Shit." He curses softly. I guess he doesn't remember where I set it even though I reminded him over and over again in terms of its place."In the third drawer opposite the closet," I shout down the hall my voice booming through the hollow passage."Thank you, my female." His voice echoes back from the room as I walk downstairs slowly. I keep my eyes on every step. Deimos reprimanded me that I had a problem of not paying attention to it and slipped frequently before so I began to focus on counting the steps in my head.Every time I near the stairs it feels as if it is a test of resilience for me, taunting me if I can make it till the end. By the time I do reach the end using up every last drop of my energy I am a panting sweating mess. Climbing up is even harder, my male often carries
"I told you, there was no gas. We had to run." Deimos replies with a look of annoyance. Ragon keeps his space from me knowing the change in his Alpha."Have you two wolves finished complaining?" I question calmly my eyes focused on putting the extra snacks in bowls for the pack to munch on from the public table."I wasn't complaining, he was. I will do whatever you wish without a second thought, my female." Deimos whispers snuggling up to me nose nuzzling into my neck."Good. Now go take a shower, you stink." I utter."I have been good. Don't I get a treat?" He whispers fingertips grazing my elbow his hips pushed into mine. Short puffs of air on my ear lobe he knows what he's doing. He doesn't feel embarrassed to show others how
"If it was a male, the males would dance and the females' would step back. That is the way of celebration." Deimos bends down to inform keeping his eyes on the dance."Join us." Mia comes forward to me her palm held out for me to take. Surprised, I look up at Deimos. He nods eagerly with excitement in his eyes, he wishes for me to experience this. With a soft smile, I place my hand in Mia's as she guides me to the circle.The females' cheer and immediately bring me into it. They slow down their steps so I could follow, as I struggle with blushing cheeks my eyes find my male. He stares at me with so much pride as his heart expands filling my entire being within him. I indulge in his soul, he cannot even describe how he feels for me. A blessing he didn't deserve is what he often says.Ra
The strong burn of my back pushes me into restlessness whilst the soft cushions do nothing to ease the discomfort. I struggle trying to move into a suitable position that would make me feel better but nothing seems to work my body trying to endure carrying the weight.My male walks in with fast steps carrying a small bottle in his hands, shutting the door behind him he heads towards me. His office in our villa is often very quiet and no one dares to disturb in person or through the phone so I come here to relax. Most nights, he works behind the table and I indulge in the presence of my mate.Kneeling at my feet he removes my socks. "It is a bit swollen, my female." He whispers peering up to meet my tired eyes. I didn't get any sleep last night turning and twisting the pain of my body consuming me. He didn't know what to do but hold and
As soon as we reached Gio's grounds my heart pounded in my chest overflowing with hidden pain. Goodbyes are the worst, something I detest with all my soul. The pack waits outside for me, unlike the first time we met. The sight was not that of lifted lips or low snarls but heavy tears and soft sobs.I have made another home here with the pack and with the females. As soon as they sense me they rush towards me pulling me into their circle some kneeling on the floor holding onto my leg sobbing. Deimos takes a step back allowing us this privacy. I cannot control my emotions but sob with them my lips quivering my body swaying.A shrill scream of a pup leaves us unsettled and I immediately know its source. Gianna struggles to get out of her brother's grasp as he tries to clutch onto her. Her arms failing nails scratching her brother's flesh,
I close my eyes drowning in the feeling, waiting patiently as he finishes. I thread my fingers through my hair to find it smooth and untangled. Turning around, I am faced with a sudden kiss from my male. His fingers holding my chin raising my head to meet his as he bends to take my lips in his."Food?" He asks leaning back peering down at me."Food." I nod eagerly wanting to fill my belly.The rest of the journey home runs smoothly. I ate to my heart's content and sat next to Deimos watching a movie with him my head placed on his shoulder. It had a sad ending that made me sob as my male laughed whilst wiping my tears with a tissue.The landing wasn't that bad. Yes, it was scary and made my entire body shiver with anxiety and fear now
It was not an effortless decision for it would come with a price. And that price delayed my path of action. I knew the pack would go against me and I knew I would have to execute numerous of my warriors and that fact chained me once more.It felt as though I was spitting on father's grave, I was destroying everything he trained me growing up. I wondered if he saw me as shameful, I wondered if he deemed me as his male no more for if he were alive my father would have reprimanded my choices.That permanent state of hell I was in, that confusion I abhorred it. I was stuck I could not move, annihilating your wolves as an Alpha meant the moon would sentence me for it, she would have to take something from me and I sweated it would be Lumina or Kal.But observing my female living in discomfort each day because of my discretions, I could not follow it anymore. I could not withstand it so I stood on that stage and I declared the end of the tradition hoping it would pave
Whilst the females moved an unconscious Lumina to the other room, Elriam was generous to place the pup in my trembling awaiting hands. It was a male, yet there was no happiness from my side mere neutralness for I had lost someone dear to me. It was a day of birth and death, birth of my male the death of me.The reason I had feared to love her had come to stand haughtily in my reality, Lumina wanted to leave me. She spewed heartless words to my face of how I disgusted her, of how she rebuked our bond that we were no more as one.She said she could live without me with such ease as I tensed my jaw and took her strikes for I earned it. I deserved each blow of her whip as it peeled the skin off my bones.Then she changed. She became a female I could not recognize, our relationship had blazed to ashes there was nothing left between us. She left a trail behind with torn pieces of herself that I often secretly bent to pick up and lay in my treasure box.
But that was no choice to me, it seemed as though I was once more standing on that bridge. Life or death. I wanted to choose death, I would have rather fallen than betray either of them.The tradition of the chosen did not seem to hinder me even after I met Lumina for I had thought I would never fall in love with her. Yet I did I was in love with her unconditionally, she stood first in line among my every other duty. She was my priority in many ways.How could I touch another female other than Lumina? The image of it had me gag as it left a foul taste on my tongue. I was not that kind of a male, I promised to be loyal to her until the moon called for me.I was lost for I did not know much of the laws of the tradition so I requested Ragon to aid me to attain loopholes or ways I can tiptoe around it without harming any wolf. It was a tradition that had run smoothly in our pack for generations with no Alpha ever going against it and I did not want to be th
I could not think, I could not feel. A sudden sense of coldness lured me into its cave. I knew if I stayed I would hurt her with the vengeance of my words so I chose to abandon her in that aloof house until the turmoil of my heart and mind rested.Yet when I had returned I was greeted with something I did not wait for, she leapt into my arms caressing flesh pecking me all over my face showing her profound affection for me as she begged for me to forgive her. And I could not fight her, how could I have when she glanced at me that way?So I asked her to do something for me that I found arduous to do. To bare her soul to me and she had accepted with no reluctance. She taught me that I must soar above my walls and unveil myself to her eyes as well and I guaranteed her that I would with time.After a while, Lumina got sick fatally sick and I fretted the pill had done something to her. I often conversed with Giovanni's healer every night after I put my female to sleep
The goddess took her time with me as she kept me caged up for a while and on her chosen day she surprisingly tossed me back to my physical being as though she found no use to bother with me anymore.I do not remember distinctly the events that unfolded after I had awoken, it was all a haze of sounds, scents and movements. But what I do recall was the way the eyes of my female lightened as she examined me. She looked as though I had breathed life back into her and I was perplexed. I was the one who had been in a coma yet why did my moon blessed resemble a corpse as well?Was she not eating, was she not sleeping? Judgment took its time to settle within me. Lumina was not living, she was merely existing and that too not for her sake but mine hoping that I would wake up and embrace her one day. With everything Ragon had revealed to me of her lifeless days, my heart burned with tribulation.My fault, I was once more to blame for giving her that experience. Testifying
She wanted to hasten everything and we stood on thin ice once more, snapping our teeth at each other with a wave of outrage. She was always expecting me to understand her but she never once returned that from her side. What about what I wanted? I was not ready to be a father for I was only learning how to be a moral mate to her.But the way she looked at me it was as though it had been what she had yearned for all her life. To have a family of her own, who was I to deny that? Was it not my duty to her, to give her that life?I did not think I would be a good father, I did not want to raise my pup as my father bred me. I was worried I would end being the same as him. I wanted time before I could speak with her on the topic of having pups but she thought I was unconditionally against the idea.It was not true, I too wanted to see my female's belly swollen with my pup snoring within. I too did not have a family growing up and I despairingly needed laughter and joy
I knew the moon would condemn me for the way I treated her gift. I did not know whom to blame, Lumina or myself? Did I need to be more patient with her? Did I need to be more understanding?That day as I showered with a dejected heart, I had given up a little on us. I felt we were lying in a hopeless pit we were both equal predators always at war with the other. I did not consider we could ever be happy with each other and I was prepared to move to the other wing of the castle and isolate myself from Lumina for a while.I thought it would be for the best, I would not be able to hurt her and she would not be able to wound me either. I wanted to end our sprouting relationship for her sake mostly, she would be happier without me. Without the cruelness of our bond, we could have lived in the pack together but we would have not been in a loving relationship.As I departed the bathroom's heat, she sat on that bed whilst she waited patiently for me. I was astounded for
I entered Cronus's lands with a calmness which I owned a lot of yet with her fit of aggression towards me she stripped it all apart, she tested me with every breath she took. Master of control? No, when it came to her I was a master of nothing.Then I assumed her truth, she did not wish to return for she was in love with Cronus. It had to be the only reason, my canines ached to mark her then and there and drag her outside by her neck exhibiting to every wolf she was mine. I wanted to do it the hard away be the pitiless vicious beast I was.Then Lumina wailed and my being shook, her tears I was powerless to behold anymore. I did not wish to hurt her further than I already had. When she stuttered the truth of her feelings to me of how it had always been me and shall remain so forevermore I strived to hide my surging smile. She chose me and that was all that mattered.And for the first time in a very long time, I sincerely apologized and freed my soul a li
The second my lips brushed softly against hers, I knew it. She would be the death of me and what astonished me was I deemed I would willingly die for her if that was what she wanted. She drove me wild and frantic streaming behind her like a panting male in a rut.Yet that very same night as Cronus pressed her against that wall and vocalised of the feelings he possessed for my female the beast in me mounted, he destroyed the barriers and clawed his way up to make his claim and I failed to stop him.I detested the vile sight of Cronu's fingers on her flesh, the closeness of their lips. She was mine and mine alone, every part of her belonged to me. If she had run away from my heat I would have hunted her, arrested her and barred her in my room for weeks fucking her with a savagery until she squealed the truth of whom her male was.But from that event stemmed insecurity, I grew to become anxious that she would leave me. My confidence in myself diminished with each r