"Hush now, little one. I will feed you in a minute." Words spoken with nothing but deep love and patience for the pup who calls on to be fed. He screams his tiny lungs out if his demands are not met within a few seconds.
Quickly thrusting my skirt up my thighs to clutch around my waist I rush to Kal who is wailing as if his world was ending. Picking him up from the feather mattress I carry him to the nursing chair I had brought in for me.
It was highly uncomfortable for my back to feed him on my bed so I instructed Elriam to find me a proper chair which she quickly did so in an hour. Kal nuzzles into my breast knowing it is the source of food. He often does this as a sign of hunger.
Plopping down the chair popping open the front buttons of my shirt I free my right breast pushing my nip
Deimos sighs in defeat. He seems to know what my answers would be to his requests yet he tries without hesitation that perhaps one day I might offer him a different answer."Have you not been sleeping, my female?" A soft concerned voice seeps from him as his fingertips reach toward my face to smoothen the prominent dark circles beneath my eyes.My eyes widening I flinch from his touch swiftly pushing my face away before he could feel my flesh. A flash of fang towards him a low rumble from my chest. "Don't touch me."He immediately extracts his hand away fisting it on top of the table. It possesses a tremble as he regards me again. "Why won't you let me help you? I yearn to aid you. Kal is much of a son to me as he is to you." He declares his truth.
"Elria-" Before her name could be fully screamed from my lips, my elbow is clutched by a large warm hand and pulled from behind. I am swiftly turned around to face a heavy breathing fuming Deimos. His chest heaves with the pressure of his angered breaths."You think I am not hurt enough for you to strike me with your words and actions?" A rumbling question booms from his chest."I do not wish for you to merely hurt. I wish for you tobleed." I snarl my fangs bared to his face. My claws surge out, my wolf peeking at us from beneath her lashes pushing herself deeper into her cage unwilling to take control that I desperately wish for her to. I don't want to have this conversation, one I have been running from yet she provides me no support. This had to be all me.He takes de
The scorching sun burns my flesh sweat dripping down my neck to my chest. My arms a blazing red, I am being kissed by its rays. Wiping my forehead with the back of my palm removing my sun hat fanning myself with it. I allow a small grumble of annoyance to surge past my lips. It isn't summer for the monsoon has merely ended yet why is the sun shining so bright as though spitting on my gloomy heart. A low whistle leaves my lips. A known command to my wolves. "Here Alpha." One of my females immediately passes the hammer into my open palm whilst I inspect my work. I am building a house. A house meant only for Kal and me. The castle suffocated me, every room every wall was imprinted in memories that can neither be forgotten nor torn apart. I decided I shall not remain within
"Do you need more materials? Or perhaps new instruments?" He questions eyeing the main door of the house. He strides forward holding onto Kal tightly with his left hand his right reaches towards the door frame. Pushing onto it, banging it making sure it is strong. He is checking if it meets his satisfaction of strength. He is checking if it can protect Kal and me.He gives a curt nod of approval and takes a step back. His eyes move back up to meet mine and I quickly look away again. Clearing my throat I reply, "No. I require nothing."He takes a shaky breath in as he peers down at the sleeping Kal. As soon as his eyes meet that of my male the sadness of his soul disappears and is met by an immense joy. One that cannot be put into words. I am his light and Kal is his sun.Turning around
She stands straighter her eyes plunging through me. She thinks I am a pup. That I am immature. That I taunt her for I am nothing but jealous. Her fear of me, her innocence is quickly gone as it came. She shows me her true self."He did not hide me. He merely protected me. There is a difference...Luna." She says the word Luna as though it possesses no true meaning to her.Taking a deep breath I ask her again. "Where did he hide you?" Gritting my teeth hoping that once she tells me I can send her straight back to that place and make sure she never returns."In a pack far from here. You are afraid." She says."What did you say?" I growl capturing the air in my lungs."Your eyes. They sh
My heart pounds within the barrier of my rib cage. I pace around the room rubbing my palms together to calm my beating heart. I pause for a second standing still peering out the window scanning the grass floor only to sigh and begin pacing again.Deep annoyance dwells within me. Why must I feel this way? Why must he have such an effect on me despite me doing everything I can to set sail further away from him?The introduction ceremony takes place today. I couldn't prolong it any further for it has already become too late and the pack wishes to greet my male. I did not wish to anger the elders further than I had with the death of the female of sin so I agreed to finish the formality today.I glance back at the clock, Deimos should be here any minute now and that meeting scares me. Diffe
An arrow strikes my heart to his open show of emotions. He wishes he was there when Kal smiled for the very first time. He wishes he could have recorded it and celebrated the joyful event with me. I did record it I will show it to him later.Shutting the main door I walk beside him my eyes stuck to the path never wavering. Kal continues to speak and make bubbly noises his eyes on his father eager to have attention from him.Deimos swallows taking a short step closer to me. It might have not been visible to any ordinary wolf but I am his mate and that step was taken in light. Gritting my teeth I move to my right putting space between us. He closes his eyes shut not in defeat but disappointment. Disappointment in himself.Silence consumes us on our walk until he strikes through it.
Reigning myself into calmness trying to show that I am not fleeing and this is not a sign of surrender or defeat I am struck by surprise as a large hand strikes forward grabbing the female by her jaw. His claws poke into the flesh of her cheek making her bleed. Adding little pressure he crushes her jaw bone with ease. She is old and her bones are weak making it easier for Deimos to break it."Disrespect my female again. I dare you." Deimos spits words of fire as the old female screams her eyes rolling back she sways unable to handle the pain given to her. Her punishment. He takes another step towards her as she crawls upon the ground."Alpha please don't. She is my mother." Another female barges through the crowd kneeling onto the grass floor along with her bleeding mother. It will take longer for her to heal for she has merely a few mo
It was not an effortless decision for it would come with a price. And that price delayed my path of action. I knew the pack would go against me and I knew I would have to execute numerous of my warriors and that fact chained me once more.It felt as though I was spitting on father's grave, I was destroying everything he trained me growing up. I wondered if he saw me as shameful, I wondered if he deemed me as his male no more for if he were alive my father would have reprimanded my choices.That permanent state of hell I was in, that confusion I abhorred it. I was stuck I could not move, annihilating your wolves as an Alpha meant the moon would sentence me for it, she would have to take something from me and I sweated it would be Lumina or Kal.But observing my female living in discomfort each day because of my discretions, I could not follow it anymore. I could not withstand it so I stood on that stage and I declared the end of the tradition hoping it would pave
Whilst the females moved an unconscious Lumina to the other room, Elriam was generous to place the pup in my trembling awaiting hands. It was a male, yet there was no happiness from my side mere neutralness for I had lost someone dear to me. It was a day of birth and death, birth of my male the death of me.The reason I had feared to love her had come to stand haughtily in my reality, Lumina wanted to leave me. She spewed heartless words to my face of how I disgusted her, of how she rebuked our bond that we were no more as one.She said she could live without me with such ease as I tensed my jaw and took her strikes for I earned it. I deserved each blow of her whip as it peeled the skin off my bones.Then she changed. She became a female I could not recognize, our relationship had blazed to ashes there was nothing left between us. She left a trail behind with torn pieces of herself that I often secretly bent to pick up and lay in my treasure box.
But that was no choice to me, it seemed as though I was once more standing on that bridge. Life or death. I wanted to choose death, I would have rather fallen than betray either of them.The tradition of the chosen did not seem to hinder me even after I met Lumina for I had thought I would never fall in love with her. Yet I did I was in love with her unconditionally, she stood first in line among my every other duty. She was my priority in many ways.How could I touch another female other than Lumina? The image of it had me gag as it left a foul taste on my tongue. I was not that kind of a male, I promised to be loyal to her until the moon called for me.I was lost for I did not know much of the laws of the tradition so I requested Ragon to aid me to attain loopholes or ways I can tiptoe around it without harming any wolf. It was a tradition that had run smoothly in our pack for generations with no Alpha ever going against it and I did not want to be th
I could not think, I could not feel. A sudden sense of coldness lured me into its cave. I knew if I stayed I would hurt her with the vengeance of my words so I chose to abandon her in that aloof house until the turmoil of my heart and mind rested.Yet when I had returned I was greeted with something I did not wait for, she leapt into my arms caressing flesh pecking me all over my face showing her profound affection for me as she begged for me to forgive her. And I could not fight her, how could I have when she glanced at me that way?So I asked her to do something for me that I found arduous to do. To bare her soul to me and she had accepted with no reluctance. She taught me that I must soar above my walls and unveil myself to her eyes as well and I guaranteed her that I would with time.After a while, Lumina got sick fatally sick and I fretted the pill had done something to her. I often conversed with Giovanni's healer every night after I put my female to sleep
The goddess took her time with me as she kept me caged up for a while and on her chosen day she surprisingly tossed me back to my physical being as though she found no use to bother with me anymore.I do not remember distinctly the events that unfolded after I had awoken, it was all a haze of sounds, scents and movements. But what I do recall was the way the eyes of my female lightened as she examined me. She looked as though I had breathed life back into her and I was perplexed. I was the one who had been in a coma yet why did my moon blessed resemble a corpse as well?Was she not eating, was she not sleeping? Judgment took its time to settle within me. Lumina was not living, she was merely existing and that too not for her sake but mine hoping that I would wake up and embrace her one day. With everything Ragon had revealed to me of her lifeless days, my heart burned with tribulation.My fault, I was once more to blame for giving her that experience. Testifying
She wanted to hasten everything and we stood on thin ice once more, snapping our teeth at each other with a wave of outrage. She was always expecting me to understand her but she never once returned that from her side. What about what I wanted? I was not ready to be a father for I was only learning how to be a moral mate to her.But the way she looked at me it was as though it had been what she had yearned for all her life. To have a family of her own, who was I to deny that? Was it not my duty to her, to give her that life?I did not think I would be a good father, I did not want to raise my pup as my father bred me. I was worried I would end being the same as him. I wanted time before I could speak with her on the topic of having pups but she thought I was unconditionally against the idea.It was not true, I too wanted to see my female's belly swollen with my pup snoring within. I too did not have a family growing up and I despairingly needed laughter and joy
I knew the moon would condemn me for the way I treated her gift. I did not know whom to blame, Lumina or myself? Did I need to be more patient with her? Did I need to be more understanding?That day as I showered with a dejected heart, I had given up a little on us. I felt we were lying in a hopeless pit we were both equal predators always at war with the other. I did not consider we could ever be happy with each other and I was prepared to move to the other wing of the castle and isolate myself from Lumina for a while.I thought it would be for the best, I would not be able to hurt her and she would not be able to wound me either. I wanted to end our sprouting relationship for her sake mostly, she would be happier without me. Without the cruelness of our bond, we could have lived in the pack together but we would have not been in a loving relationship.As I departed the bathroom's heat, she sat on that bed whilst she waited patiently for me. I was astounded for
I entered Cronus's lands with a calmness which I owned a lot of yet with her fit of aggression towards me she stripped it all apart, she tested me with every breath she took. Master of control? No, when it came to her I was a master of nothing.Then I assumed her truth, she did not wish to return for she was in love with Cronus. It had to be the only reason, my canines ached to mark her then and there and drag her outside by her neck exhibiting to every wolf she was mine. I wanted to do it the hard away be the pitiless vicious beast I was.Then Lumina wailed and my being shook, her tears I was powerless to behold anymore. I did not wish to hurt her further than I already had. When she stuttered the truth of her feelings to me of how it had always been me and shall remain so forevermore I strived to hide my surging smile. She chose me and that was all that mattered.And for the first time in a very long time, I sincerely apologized and freed my soul a li
The second my lips brushed softly against hers, I knew it. She would be the death of me and what astonished me was I deemed I would willingly die for her if that was what she wanted. She drove me wild and frantic streaming behind her like a panting male in a rut.Yet that very same night as Cronus pressed her against that wall and vocalised of the feelings he possessed for my female the beast in me mounted, he destroyed the barriers and clawed his way up to make his claim and I failed to stop him.I detested the vile sight of Cronu's fingers on her flesh, the closeness of their lips. She was mine and mine alone, every part of her belonged to me. If she had run away from my heat I would have hunted her, arrested her and barred her in my room for weeks fucking her with a savagery until she squealed the truth of whom her male was.But from that event stemmed insecurity, I grew to become anxious that she would leave me. My confidence in myself diminished with each r